NP- starting at ~7:30pm and continuing through present.
BM-+
Food prior to pain- two vegetarian corn dogs and shrimp pasta with garlic butter sauce

God these last few weeks have been horrible. However, really it has been less then a week. This time last week I was pretending to love Dean. That hurt but so does this. He hates me, then he loves me, then he hates me again. He’s really friendly, and then he writes nasty little notes to me and leaves them places where I will see them and then blasts angry breakup music throughout the apartment. I finally gave up on trying to sleep at the apartment. He woke me up at 7:00am several days in a row to either cry or yell. He has never acted so psychotic before! So I am sleeping at Averil’s, the guy I supposedly “left” Dean for. Of course we are not dating either. I can’t say that’s a bad thing.

I really didn’t want this to end this way. He was trying very hard to make our relationship better. I guess it was just a little too much a lot too late. I regret a lot of things. But I’ll be moving soon and then I can start over freely. Friday evening the movers arrive to tote my stuff 400 yards.

I need sleep so badly.

CMIT 2:13PM

I haven’t needed to write recently. Averil has been my release in that sense. And now he is my only friend because I am leaving Dean. We decided it last night. I got up this morning and transferred my lease to a one bed room apartment on the other side of the complex. I move in a week from Saturday. I left because I am no longer, or maybe never was, in love with him. It has been so hard these past view weeks pretending to love him and ultimately fruitless because he figured it all out in the end. Last night he demanded that I break my friendship with Averil because he was coming between us. I couldn’t justify ending a relationship with someone to save a relationship which is going to end sometime between Decembers and may anyway. So I said no, and he told me to leave as soon as I can. Of course, it was not that simple. Dean really was nice about it. At the time he offered to help move me out though I think he will have second thoughts about that later. I suppose I can call a company to help me move my minuscule amount of furniture a block (two chairs, a futon, a dresser, a night stand, a book shelf and a desk). I can’t do it alone though and Averil is not longer welcome in “Dean’s” apartment so either Dean helps or I hire someone. I feel really icky right now. Dean came in a few minutes ago to check out a movie…ugh, I have started crying so I will have to stop writing in public now.

I have Averil now so writing is unnecessary. I can talk to him. I can not believe the insane situation I have gotten myself into. but it will all be OK, eventually.

…yawn…
I just have too many classes this semester. On Mondays I go from 12:00pm till 10:00pm, Tuesdays from 11:00am till 5:00pm, Wednesdays from 12:00pm till 9:30pm, and Thursdays from 11:00am till 9:30pm. At least I have Fridays off. I’m taking Philosophy, Human Ecology, Zooarchaeology, Human Sexuality, Health Psychology, and Film Aesthetics. For once it seems that I like all my classes. All the professors are engaging and funny which is really what makes the difference because Health Psychology and Human Ecology are only slightly interesting to me. I’m working too, about 10 hours a week and mostly on Mondays (3:00pm -10:00pm).

Thats the menial element of my life…

Amid Darkness and Debris, Hints of Normalcy

By Bill Bair
The Ledger
billbair1@aol.com

LAKE WALES -- Traffic signals still dangle uselessly over intersections, many streets remain at least partially blocked by fallen trees and debris, and each afternoon shower brings more damage to ceilings beneath roofs that were shredded by Hurricane Charley.( Read more... )

Charley leaves massive damage in Lake Wales
By Lindsay Jones

Palm Beach Post Staff Writer

Saturday, August 14, 2004

LAKE WALES — Lake Wales, a small town about 30 miles southeast of Lakeland, received some of the most severe inland damage from Charley, as it was directly in the hurricane's path when it hit around 7 p.m. Friday. The storm leveled mobile homes at random around the city, and caused the roof and walls of the Wausau Homes, Inc. warehouse to cave in, destroying a row of mobile homes still underconstruction inside.( Read more... )

My mom called me in the afternoon and said that it was going to be bad but I really didn't believe her because of how far inland we are. Now I feel guilty that I wasn't more worried. My mom took the dog and the bird and went to stay with my grandmother. It was a smart move because our home is not in good shape. My grandmothers home weathered the storm well. Most of the trees are gone but they didn't land on the house though there were quite a few windows broken. the roof is damaged. they don'y have power water or phones and it is unlikely they will have power for a week.

it took my mom 2 hours to drive the normaly 15 min drive from my grandmothers house to house only to find that she coulden't get inside. all our trees were down on the house and were blocking the doors. she thinks a tree might have taken out her bed room but she coulden't get into the back yard to see because of all the trees. the fense was gone as well as the pool deck and probably the pourch. there is a lot of roof damage.

My uncle was in his living room when he saw the pourch and its roof get torn off the house. he spent the rest of the storm in a clost with the dog. he spent the day with a chain saw trying to get his car out of his garage in then out of the drive way

the thing that is really upsetting me is that we can't get in touch with ML or the barn so we have no idea if ML and Mere were able to find shelter(they live in a mobile home) and if our horses are okay. they don't have a tv so they might not have know how bad it was going to be. My mom tried to drive out there but the roads were impassable.

As Polk Awakes, Charley's Damage Becomes Clear

By Billy Townsend
The Ledger
billy.townsend@theledger.com

First light Saturday confirmed in jaw-dropping detail what Polk County residents and rescue crews already suspected: Hurricane Charley left a 15-mile wide swath of often severe damage, stretching roughly from Bartow to Frostproof and north through Haines City and the Four Corners area.

Lake Wales appeared to endure the worst of the storm, which buffeted parts of the county with 100 mph winds and killed at least two people, according to police and public safety officials.( Read more... )

Lake Wales feels force of hurricane, but residents remain safe
By Paul Lomartire

Palm Beach Post Staff Writer

Saturday, August 14, 2004

LAKE WALES — With about three hours notice, Lake Wales straddling State Road 60 braced for Hurricane Charley.

The damage included overturned 18-wheelers, missing roofs, downed oaks and pines on nearly every block and pieces of metal wrapped like scarves around poles and trees, clinging to chainlink and barbed wire fences like wet tissue, said Tony Otte, Lake Wales city manager, early Saturday.( Read more... )

This morning I purchased Understanding Human Sexuality, the text book for a class I am taking in the fall in an attempt to get a head start on the semester. The first chapter was interesting enough-I mean, its sex, it should be at least slightly interesting. However it was the first sentence of the second chapter that opened my mind to possibly the most frightening sexual situation imaginable:

“Imagine, for a moment, that you or a heterosexual couple is making love. Imagine, too, that sitting with you in the room, thinking your same thoughts, are Freud, E.O Wilson, Albert Bandura, and John Gagnon.”

Oh my god! Is that not the scariest sex you could ever possible have? Talk about performance anxiety! Not to mention I really don’t want those men in my head in any situation. Actually the scariest part of the whole thing is when I read the name E.O. Wilson, David Wilson who is one of my Anthropology professors, immediately got involved in the party because of his apparent obsession with E.O. Wilson. I have had more unprompted office discussions with him about E.O. Wilson then I can count. I just keep thinking how much of a kick he would get out of the above passage!

You're ''I can't cry this soul out of me''
You are a confused person, with a lot of regrets!!
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