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I used live journal a long time ago and i didnt really like it too much back then. But i decided to give it a second chance cuz like everyone i know uses it. But today drew the line nice and clear for me when every attempt i made to get something done on this site was botched. Hence my faith is gone in this institution :) Good luck folks.

To continue reading my loser journal you may find me at
www.markxpx.modblog.com

[	I am	|	happy	]
[	Rockin	|	my coke fizzing	]

"So today...." (i did as i was told haha) me and ashley and shanon caught a show in malden. one of her friends bands was playing that she hasnt seen in a long time so we went to a gigantic scary church to see the show.
Before hand we went to two coinstars carrying around jars of change like morons.... no wait...i had a stupid jar...ashley had a beer stein haha. But we did that stuff and grabbed some nasty bk. on to the show.
the band she knew was...was....fast pop punk style (i heard the cd before we left)....but they pulled a switcheroonie and the band that came on stage , although they had the same faces, played screamy-ish music. another decent band lost to a trend. whos suprised?
There was also a three piece band their and the singer guitarist had the coolest voice but the rest of his band was iffy. That kid should join the band that used to be pop punk and lend them some of his influence. theyd be rad probably.
Also....the same band we played with at the show in middleton (the band whos fans threw cds at us) was there doing their thing. we saw the little kid that yelled at us and i kind of wanted to white wash him. who cares if hes 12.
Anyway, after the show we dropped shanon off and drank our drinks in a parking lot and talked about how people suck and how ashleys car would be rad for drive ins...which it is. Then we had wild sex and i went home. haha im just kidding.... i didnt go home. ok fine we didnt have wild sex. Theres always tomorrow :)~ anywho...im off to play yahoo pool like a nerd. nite fuckerrrrrrrs

[	I am	|	artistic	]
[	Rockin	|	Pokemon	]

Yea im gonna post my new songs here while i work on them cuz my printer is broken. So youre special cuz you get sneek peeks at new B0 lyrics :::crowd awes::: No one cares anyway :)
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:Safety In Numbers: (A#)

The rooftops are getting in my way
As i try to see your house from mine
I cant see
Lights, cars, and photos i might take
Under street signs we pass by and
You might smile for

Me, youre the only one who will
Find something beautiful in this world after all
I will stand behind you, Ill never deny you
The chance to be who you are
Always

Theres nothing like being wide awake
At 4 am you call me just to say youre
tired and you need
To hear about my dreams
And what they all might mean someday
Help me find a way

There
(chorus)

(rockabilly-ish rythm)
Goodnight, im yours, tonight im sure (repeat till the end)
Its okay to be scared no one knows their own fate
Ill always be here and youll never be lonely
Sometimes trust is only just kept to ourselves
Theres safety in twos and theres hope in my heart
Im yours
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:Drive:

Sun rises outside my room
And im still thinking of you
Best friends can let you down
Some friends wont be around
(Fill)
My eyes never seemed so clear
Erase the days ive spent
Counting minutes ive been here
Ill never get them back
(Fill x2 + muted end)

Call it faith call it looking for a life
Thats all i ever wanted
Wasted days with somebody there sometimes
Its all ive ever wanted

You took everything from me
Ill never let that go
Call me when youre alone
When no one cares at all
(Fill)
Leave us flailing in your wake
You swore youd make them pay
For all the hopes youve lost
Ambition leads you on

My mistakes, youre deceptions fall in line
Lost all i ever wanted
Take me back when answers werent so hard to find
Thats all i ever wanted

(Not done)
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[	I am	|	awake	]
[	Rockin	|	simpsons	]

I dunno if this copy and paste code shit works but ill try it.......cuz im stupid




If it doesnt work...and im too lazy to delete it..fuck off :)

[	I am	|	bitchy	]
[	Rockin	|	chuck norris movie on tv	]

Ill throw an update in here because im bored....

So anyone who knows me knows that i have horrible luck in life. especially with automobiles. And everyone knows that bad things come in 3's. A couple nights ago ashley was over my house and when she went to leave her car wouldnt start. dead starter. so theres one.
Now before i start this one ill let it be known that my car insurance is over 4000 dollars a year, i have reached my limit in speeding tickets, and my car that i just got last year is slowly and surely falling apart. i can deal with that....thats my life. So that being said....The other night i was driving ashley home and we reach an intersection where a man in a pick-up jumps the gun a little bit and hauls ass out into the middle of the street. in doing so....he almost hts the car coming towards me so they both stop leaving his ass out in my lane....too bad i couldnt stop and my car ended up underneath his. cooooooool. Good thing the guy offers to pay for the damage because it is to say the least extensive, and will be quite pricy. actually that wouldve worked out good if this guy actually had money wich i found out today...he does not. But regardless, the guy at the autobody shop is his friend and he will get the money out of him "one way or another" whatever that means i dont really care as long as i dont have to drive an 87 Golf for longer than the next two weeks. Even though i shouldnt complain because im lucky i can even use it. my grandparents always have to bail me out of stuff cuz im a loser and i cant do anything on my own. i rule at life :::fartnoise:::
So here i am three days later without a car (1), my girlfriend is without a car (2), and im wondering when #3 will knock on the door.

On a side note: ashley and i are getting married in las vegas by the elvis clones and upon completion we shall head to hawaii where we will be warm and drive a nice car so people think we're cool. :)

this is the most ive typed at one time in a loooong time so im tired. peace folks.

[	I am	|	content	]
[	Rockin	|	me coughing	]

Ashley Jewell is a sexy bitch and i <3 her. So there

[	I am	|	bored	]
[	Rockin	|	afi - sing the sorrow	]

So yea i havent posted in this journal for about 2 years now because
A) maybe i forgot i had it
B) maybe i had a girlfriend at one point so i didnt need to bitch about life
C) maybe because its really crappy and theres way better journal sites

Anyway, im a lot older and angrier now, and my life isnt as amusing as it was then. To anyone i havent talked to in two years....My new blog site is http://markxpx.modblog.com
My new bands site is www.brilliantzero.com
My new screenname is xmarkxpx

See you around folks.

[	I am	|	crappy	]
[	Rockin	|	Larger Than Life	]

Its funny that in two months i havent had anything interesting to write in here. I kind of forgot i had this thing for a while actually. Lets see if i have any news..... hmmm... i have a small penis and im stupid. So im gonna go watch Pokemon! Poopaaaaaaaaa

[	I am	|	curious	]
[	Rockin	|	Me First and the Gimme Gimmes - Somewhere over the rainbow	]

Ok this dream i had last night was probably one of the weirdest ever, i dunno if i got killed... or wht the hell happened to me.. here it is...

I woke up to check my email and i saw there was one witha video attachment. So i opened it up and it was this guy sitting at his computer smoking a cigarette. He was holding what looked like a small computer speaker on a wire in his mouth. That made his voice all distorted when he talked. It took me a minute to realize that it was this guy Joe i used to hang out with in high school. So all of a sudden he picks up a power chords and says "This is what it would look like if i plugged you into my computer" and he jams the chord into the video camera. It goes black.
Then a second window popped up with the kind of Blair witch look to it.... it was like he was running through his house only it was moving super super fast i couldnt make out much.
I remember the final shot of it was the camera looking at his computer monitor. There was a bunch of shit flashing on the screen, like pieces of paper i know one of them said "Life". Then i saw his reflection in the screen and he looked totally scared like he was gonna die. Then the computer screen kind of ate up whatever i was seeing....almost like Joe got sucked into his computer.
NOW heres the weird part.
The next thing i saw was that Blair witch type thing again, the real fast motion, only i was the one behind the camera. But i was in Joes house, just like i saw on the pop up in the email. The camera started to slow and it got into a dark room, it was Joes room i know that. Then it sped up again and went over to the bed....and i was looking at myself sleeping in the bed. It started shaking and i saw my self wake up with the same look that joe had on his face before his computer ate him... or whatever happened.

If anyone reads this thats into dream analysis.... id like to know if im real fucked up. Byebye

[	I am	|	blank	]
[	Rockin	|	Lanemeyer - If theres a will theres still nothing	]

Is it just me or were we meant to be
Somewhere far away from everything
In my car arm in arm under the sky
We kissed that night and your deep green eyes
Looked like the ocean
Where the water meets the sky
Seemed like slow motion
Ill make the stars shine just for you tonight
Im hanging on every word you say
And loving ever single breath you take
And ill wait for you for every night youre gone
And pray you come home fine
Just like the movies well walk off out of sight
Smell the spring breeze
The air is sweet stars shine for us tonight
And ill hear you say
Dont leave me i need you, i want you to stay
Now come home with me all the way

[	I am	|	amused	]
[	Rockin	|	The New Amsterdams - Procceed with Caution	]

Ok im gonna be putting a lot of songs i write here. No one has to read them. Theyre basically just here so i wont forget i wrote em when it comes time for band practice.

Sometimes i feel so down, when youre not around me
Alright there comes a time when regrets are astounding
Whos that guy you were with as you walked on by
Im falling apart but your words dont hurt as much
Goodbye, Youd say that anyways
Its too late to change the past i was wrong so wrong and i know that
A lifetime of opportunity passing by unnoticed
I live in the letters we write
Immagining life night by night
Standing outside of your house
Waiting for you to turn on the light
Sometimes i feel so down when youre not around me
Youd say that anyway

Its always good to find out that people you havent seen in a while turn out to be the total opposite of what you remember. Id like to thank all my friends for making me realize how weak you guys really are. No offense really.... i think its made me a better person and taught me what NOT to do with my life. i dunno why i never saw it before. I hate hate HATE when im totally wrong about people. Especially people that ive trusted throughout the years. I swear i shouldnt even bother having friends cuz they wont stay the way they are... theyll change just like everyone does. There are some people who stayed true, kept it real. Congrats guys :)Nice to know there are some kids out there who arent afraid to be who they are. Peace out people.

"And we become what we hate" ~ ScreechingWeasel

[	I am	|	good	]
[	Rockin	|	Mxpx - Drum machine joy	]

I love you guys haha. You all rock.

[	I am	|	irritated	]
[	Rockin	|	Blink182 - Wrecked Him	]

Chew before swallowing hot things.... todays Ramen incedent almost resluted in death. Fuck