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Steve left my life... He is angry because I like Andy... But, he didn't wanna be together the way I wanted (bf/gf)... It had already been 9 months since our break up yet he never wanted to get back together...at least not now He's still bummed about his dad...I wanted to be there as his gf you know? I mean I'll still support him (as far as his situation)... I got frustrated... All of a sudden he hears about Andy and explodes... says I "replaced" him too fast... I don't think so. Our relationship was extremely special... but after so long I'm sick of sticking around and waiting.... I still dwell a little...but I'm on a higher dosage of meds...for that and other things.. I'm gettin there (feeling better) Getting over Steve is in the process. I'll try to stop talking about him... I've realized that I did some not-so-good things and might have taken him for granted at times...I would do things differently now.. I hope he realizes that he wasn't perfect himself...
During the last 9-10 months, I rejected every guy that wanted to go out with me. I didn't think that I'd ever be able to trust a boy again (and of course get over Steve). Then,I met Andy =) He's smart, sweet, and cute! His eyes are pretty =) I know I say that about most guys but he is seriously super nice and very understanding. He supports and tries to help me in whichever way possible. I can tell he cares about me a lot. We share things in common, among them: cars (Mustangs), music, and videogames. We're gonna work on our cars together which should be a lot of fun. He looks great all greasy hehe. We also plan to see SOAD whenever they come out here again. His friend Chris says that I'm everyones dream girl (cause I like "boy stuff"). I don't know about that though...I'm ok I guess...hehe. We're all part of this Mustang message board online...I met Andy through his friend Chris. Andy and I went to Disneyland last weekend for the last night of the Nightmare Before Christmas at the Haunted Mansion. It was neato. He bought me the coolest Nightmare shirt. I had to get a youth Large...but it fit me :) Woohoo. Ok well, I've gotta go do some stuff before I go. I'm gonna go see "Orange County" =)
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