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Monday, September 17th, 2001
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1:31 pm - "The End"
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| Thursday, August 30th, 2001
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4:05 am - link
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| Monday, August 27th, 2001
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4:59 am - SNOG FUCKING RULES!!
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Saw SNOG tonight...THEY ROCKED THA HOUUUUSE!
oh by the way...anyone who cares...I've got another jounal page...digitalcoma...
Anyhow...so yeah, Snog rules the world, and I'm tired.
night night
current mood:  tired
current music: schtuff, schtuff, schtuff
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(12 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Friday, August 24th, 2001
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12:44 am
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THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH TO CJ AND T* for being so wonderful to me in letting me stay and taking me to all tha *rainy* hot spots ;)
And to me partnaah...A very special thank you, for everything you are. You! You are just too amazing for words. I had the greatest time this past week. My abnormal lil heart shines with the light of a thousand suns thanks to you and all that you are :D
THANK YOU!! AGAIN, AND AGAIN!!
I must get some sleep now, I am so exhausted. I couldn't fall asleep on the stupid plane, so I need some rest before work tomorrow :/
night night all...
LOT'S OF LOVE
-C*-
current mood:  happy
current music: Placebo *Special K*
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(1 spanking | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Saturday, August 18th, 2001
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1:44 am - NINE HOURS AND COUNTING......8........7.......6......
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YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.........whew................
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY !!!!!!!!!
Ahem...
Yes....I'm a dork :P
me out...carry on
current mood:  anxious
current music: STG *No Longer Human* VIVE LE STG!!!
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(1 spanking | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Sunday, August 12th, 2001
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3:42 pm - Football Season! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
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WOOOOOOO WOOOOOO!
I go watch the first pre-season Chiefs game today :D
5:30 go to sports bar to knock a couple back...eat yum yum...and watch my boys in red DESTROY!!!!!!
in other news today...
my legs are killing me from dancing all night lass night :)...at least i got my voice back ;)
anyway, Tuesday! DM...AGAIN this time in L.A...my fav place to see them play OMG! And supposedly their planning something *special* for that show :D:D:D:D Wonder what its gonna be :O
Then, next Sat...:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D yayayayayayayayayyayayayayayay...I be flyin' over lovely northern Cali. and beautifully scenic Oregon, on my way to...*drum roll*...
WONDER TWIN POWERS, ACTIVATE!! I can't wait :]
Well, I go get something to keep my stomach happy for the time being till I go to the bar :P
Lataaz--
current mood: anxious
current music: Martin Gore *Smile In The Crowd*
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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2:33 am - DM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!!OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!!
DEPECHE MODE LEFT ME SPEACHLESS!! :x
and that ladies and gentlemen, is why they are, and always will be my ALL TIME FAVORITE BAND :D
OMG!! the show was far too hot too rad too OMG!
i singing...dancing...singing dancing...too much fun :D:D:D:D:D
Martin's voice...INCREDIBLE!!
Dave's voice...AMAZING!!
the sound...PERFECTION!!
the stage presence...AWWWWESOME!!!!
All in all the best show I have EVER been to...the most fun I've ever had at any show too
WOW!
k, i go WOW! myself right into dreamland :)
nite nite.....
....*quietly whispers...* omg!! ;)
current mood:  hyper
current music: the whole set DM played tonight, replaying in my head :)
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Saturday, August 11th, 2001
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1:01 am - DMDMDMDMDMDM
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yayayay April's down from No. Cal :):)
Tomorrow we go to DM!!!!!!!
WOOOOOO WOOOOO WOOO WOOOOOOOOO :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
OMG! I'm soooo excited you don't even know. I can't wait...AAAAACKCAAAKCKK!!
The next two weeks are gonna be so awesome OMG!
DM tomorrow night (San Deigo)...
DM again on tuesday night (in L.A. awwe yeah) ;)
Then one week from today...*drum roll*...
I go hang wit me partnaah :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!
I cannot wait!
uhg, I'm soooo happy its rediculous :P
Seriously...this kind of happy should be illegal :D whoooop whooooop
k I go go go cause I know I'm actin' a bit phreaky :/....i'm exhausted :(....but I wait for a bit for my partnaah...
Wonder twin powers...Activate??? :/ Where are you??? uhg :(
love love,
-C*-
current mood: excited
current music: DM *Somebody*
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Thursday, August 9th, 2001
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8:18 pm - "HERE"
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The days go by slowly
Hour by hour
With thoughts of you
Here, by my side
Rooms full of faces
Haunting my head
How I wish you were
Right next to me
When the days go by
Hour by hour
I drift away
In dreams of you
When the days go by
Dreaming of you
When the days go by
Dreaming of you
Oh! I wish you were
I wish you were
Here comes the moon
His face with a smile
Holding back
His tears of loneliness
In the dark of night
These smiles they haunt me
And I dream you here
So close to me
And the days go by
Dreaming of you
And the days go by
Dreaming of you
Oh! I wish you were
I wish you were
In the dark of night
These smiles they haunt me
I wish you were
Here with me
And the days go by
Dreaming of you
And the days go by
Dreaming of you
Oh! I wish you were
I wish you were...
...here
music in my dorky head...yes...I am...a dork
current mood:  cold
current music: my lil heart beating......(a bit quickly)
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Wednesday, August 8th, 2001
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11:40 pm
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I want to hear your voice :(
Everyplace I go, I picture you there. Laughing...smiling...right there with me...
uhg :(
current mood:  lonely
current music: Patsy Cline *Sweet Dreams (Of You)*
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(3 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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11:08 pm - WEIRD :P
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Crazy night last night at Mannequin...had a few drinks...heard some HOT HOT 80's tunes :)...got myself a stalker for the evening :/ ...but all in all an okay evening.
Today was utterly boring...well...tonight Casey and I went to dinner for Mel's B'Day :) We ate some pretty good italian grub...couple glasses of wine...and got to hang with Liss :) yayay
k well, I'm freakin' tired...but I sit about and wait and see if my partnaah comes on ;)
current mood:  drunk
current music: Patsy Cline *I Fall To Pieces*
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Sunday, August 5th, 2001
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7:41 pm - "KARMIC OCEAN"
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They say I couldn't have danced with you
No matter how much I may have wanted to
But they couldn't face the sea
They couldn't have known it was really me
Who slept out on the ocean
Lulled to sleep by every wave
They just wouldn't open their eyes
To look upon my face...
But they were right about one thing,
What could you have seen in me...
I don't fear the salty breeze,
Or the deep ocean blue
They were right about one thing...
I don't deserve "someone" like you
But the stars tell a story all their own
The stars that change our minds
Sing their song to this goddess tonight
From the shores of an island of love
And the gaze about your face,
I look upon with pride
Convinces me that I
I don't know a thing
But I've been across this earth
I've tasted all the wines
And then so many times
Fell drunk upon your sands
And all the while you,
You showed me what this life is for...
Dropped me in this karmic ocean,
Let me hold your hand so close,
And let my heart breathe the air once more
....words by *your's truly*....
I can't really say too much about this one...
Its sort of self-explanatory...I suppose :p
In any event...I pose this question before I go...
Do you ever get the feeling, when you talk to someone close to you, someone you hold close to your heart, that you're taken away someplace...someplace beautiful where for those few moments its just the two of you?? maybe its just me :/
Anyway...I go go go...once again I bid you all...adiou
Much love-
Okay....as an added bonus....I felt that this one needed repeating...(with dedication)
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Your words come through, and I'm hypnotized
I'm struck down to the core
And though I can't, be right there with you,
There's one thing that I'm sure...
I've walked a mile,
In such a short time....
And I'll walk another still,
One foot, in front of the other
Two hearts, too big to fill.
We feel so much, you and I
Its frightening to some
But WE'RE the one's, who get to touch heaven,
When all is said and done...
Though I can't be by your side to hold your hand...
While we walk through the valley's and the hills...
Under our feet, across the sun-soaked sand...
I remain here still...
The trees provide me shelter,
When the rain comes through the clouds
Like an ocean, pouring down from heaven,
And the Gods, they all cry out.
For this feeling, that burns inside me...
A feeling I thought once gone...
Has been awakened, once again here,
And its shining like the sun...
It keeps me, warm and happy,
When the days are cold and long...
And although we're not together here...
This feeling carries me on...
Though I can't be by your side to hold your hand...
While we walk through the valley's and the hills...
Under our feet, across the sun-soaked sand...
I remain here still...
I remain here still
...."I Remain Here Still"....words by c.monKey...*with dedication, to someone who is just too wonderful for words*
k i really go this time
Lataaz-
love, and I'm out *zoom*
current mood:  touched
current music: the thoughts in me head :P
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Thursday, August 2nd, 2001
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6:23 pm - :UNTITLED: ..........words by ME :P
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The winter moon
Surrender to
The sun of spring
When flowers bloom
And to the left
There is no right
Just the muffled sound
Of a tired night
Snowflakes falling
On perfect skin
And make my heart
Sing again
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The following words were a random thought I had just now as I was typing the above :p
"A DREAM FOR YOU"
Sometimes I dream,
So many different colored lives
Streaming white lines divide
Warmth within,
And cold outside
Keeping you safe in my arms
Holding you tight
With a wall around you
Sometimes I dream
So many other smiles
Brilliant stars cross a dark blue sky
Singing you,
And you my guide
Standing at the edge of the sea
Holding you tight
With the waves around us
Sometimes I dream
So many different colored dreams
Dreams of orange,
Dreams of blue,
And a thousand other colors I never knew
Sometimes I dream....
A dream for you
Just had to add that one before I forgot it ;)
Anyway....I have got to get to the store to pick up some essential items to heal my sick head :/
Lot's of love, and a very special Thank You to one who makes my lil heart smile and my dreams go gooey....a true inspiration :)
THANK YOU!!
Me out *zoom*
current mood: Inspired :)
current music: SARA NOXX :Exxstasy:
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(4 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Tuesday, July 31st, 2001
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7:17 pm - "SUPERNOVA"..........baaaad monkey >:)
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Gripping tight, I begin to move
Slowly,
Up and down, using each finger to my every advantage
I feel my pulse in the palm of my hand
It beats...
Increasingly harder
Faster and faster
I begin to sweat
My muscles tightening in my thighs,
And my stomach
I hold tighter still
Squeezing till my head feels like its going to burst
Faster and faster I slide
Just a drip at first...
Like the calm before the storm
Harder still,
I close my eyes
My muscles burning like a thousand candles
OH!...
YEAH!...
I twitch with pleasure
My jaw clinched tight
And all at once,
Like a star exploding hot white cum...
I am free
Still twitching, with every motion of my hand
My muscles slowly relaxing with satisfaction...
But not to get too comfortable...
...Round two is just a touch away ;)
That's diiiirty :p *evil laughter*
I'm off....gotta go get ready...for tonight....I BE CLUBBIN' everybody likes when da monkee shakes suuh'in
LATAAZ
current mood:  satisfied
current music: SOFT CELL :Seedy films:
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(2 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Sunday, July 29th, 2001
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6:18 pm - FUN FUN DAY!!!......I'm tired
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Went to bed this morning at about 5....got up at 8 to go with my grandfather to L.A. There's this TOTALLY AWESOME automotive museum in Santa Monica that we went to. Its sooo RAD!
k, so we got up to LA around 10, parked at the museum, paid our admission, then we walked a few blocks up the street to a little cafe/bakery to have breakfast. I had french toast, cause french toast is tha shiznit ;) The toast was this thick, fluffy, hot tastyness that I pretty much inhaled, it was so good :p After we ate we walked back to the museum and began our journey through 2 full floors of cars, cars, and more cars. OH! and some motorcycles too ;) There were custom cars from the 50's, 60's, the early 1900's....they had EVERYTHING....HOT RODS...OMG!!! Some of the HoTtest cars I've ever seen :o I should have worn a bib.
The museum shows the automotive history of Los Angeles....from the beginning of the city itself, to present day...and there are cars from all era's. On the second floor they had all the HOT RODS...the cars actually belong to rock stars like Eddie Van Halen....Brian Setzer, The Monkees ;)...Kathy Valentine from the Go-Go's....just lots and lots of cars of famous musicians. It was sooo awesome I could have spent all day there, going through over and over and over again. I couldn't get enough....custom paint....white walls....chopped tops....rakes....convertable tops....and OMG!! MY DREAM CAR :o The 1959 Cadillac El Dorado Convertable, cherry red with red on white interior, white wall tires, power windows, power seats, power door locks, motorized top, power glide steering, a 500 cubic inch motor, HOLY #@%^^%#!@#!$...I needed to change my shorts when I saw that beauty :o ah ah ah OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!
Ahem....I'm okay now....i think. Whew! Well anyway, needless to say, today was totally amazing. I can't wait to go back there. Hopefully soon...we shall see :)
Well, my body is soo tired after all that walking, reading, drooling, and :o...BLOWING MY LOAD! hahahahahahaha
k, I go go go before I really start scarin' people. Nap time!!
c.monKey out with a rev of tha motor, and a burnout :)
current mood:  drained
current music: TRANSMUTATOR :Take Over:
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(2 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Saturday, July 28th, 2001
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3:35 pm - On my way......
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My day just got MUCH MUCH BETTER! :):):):):):)
Got to talk to my Partnaah in crime.....(didn't think i was going to today :/....but....)
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
k, i go go....gotta clean up for partay thingy :p
LOTS OF LOVE!!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: DM :I Feel You:
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(gimme some sugar baby)
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| Friday, July 27th, 2001
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5:47 pm - "DOLLS".......Taken from my ALL TIME favorite album ever......
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On the darkest of streets, at around eleven
The lights shine brightest, on avenue seven
From 'Noho' to 'Soho' they congregate
Gladrags and handbags we anticipate
BOOM! BOOM! CHA-CHA! and cock becomes, vagina
No guys here-DOLLS! No guys here- just DOLLS!
Mother fisting friends, say romance is cheap
So it's time for eve to put adam to sleep
Lovely, Lovely, Love me
With dreams with drugs, with lipstick and la rouge
No guys here-DOLLS! No guys here-just DOLLS!
With feather boa, like lotte lenya,
High heels, and a vicious tongue,
Jesus, 'fantasia' tu est tres fantastique
So kinky gerlinky, so much fun
No guys here-DOLLS! No guys here-just DOLLS!
Cock incognito! Vag incognita!
Knock, knock, who's there?
OH! Here they come, the beligerent scum,
As your immorality would say "All men are queer"
How civilized that you're despised
Knock, knock, who's there?
Dorothy that's who, she'll make a man of you!
A man of you! A MAN OF YOU!
Ich bin eine puppe, eine puppe mit scheide!
Ich bin ein mann, ein mann mit schwanz
Gehweg! Gehweg! Lass mich allein! Lass mich allein!
Das kleine JA! JA! Das grosse NEIN! NEIN! Das kleine JA! JA!
Sie macht einen mann aus dir
Eine puppe mit schwanz!, ein mann mit mose!
....all words by Friday/Seezer....taken from the album "SHAG TOBACCO"
Gavin is GOD!!
the *DJ* be out
Lataaz
current mood:  impressed
current music: kids playing outside :p
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(2 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Wednesday, July 25th, 2001
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11:41 pm - "CLOSER STILL" .............all words by Wolfsheim :)
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The watery light that mirrors in you desirable eyes
The way you move your lips
While talking to somebody else
I move a little closer just to hear what you say
You speak of loneliness but here's a soul
Adoring you
It's a wounded heart
It breaks in two
And in its pain
It sings for you
It's a wounded heart
That feels afraid
Moves closer still
Fulfills its fate
Your freedom's poverty that you don't recognize
The way you stalk the night
While talking to somebody else
I move a little closer just to know who you are
A slightly glowing ember
I'm the breeze ingiting you
words by Wolfsheim...taken from the album "Dreaming Apes"
I absolutely love this song.....nuff said :)
i'm outta here....talkin' to me partnaah, and not to be interrupted!!! >:/
c.monKey bye bye
current mood:  mellow
current music: DM.....in preparation for the upcoming concert ;)
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(1 spanking | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Sunday, July 22nd, 2001
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4:37 pm - Yin 'n' Yang.....2 writings that, I believe, achieve balance...
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"BARELY BLUE"
The last time I looked out at the ocean,
It was barely blue.
Standing there, staring out from the safety of the rocks and the sand,
I remembered how the waves used to sound so gentle, and full of life.
But the last time I looked out at those waves,
They crashed with a thunderous sadness, and carelessness...
Like the hard, grey ocean, flexing its muscles and pounding its fists against the shore.
The last time I looked out at the ocean...
It was barely blue
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"ELECTRIC"
Today I saw the sea...
Electric
The salty, white-capped waves running up onto the sand and kissing the feet of little children
The misty air, filling up my eyes and my nose,
And all the while,
I wished you were there
Holding my hand,
Or pressed closely to my chest,
Listening to the sound of my heart gentley beating, like the waves, just for you.
Today I saw the sea...
Electric
.....words by c.monKey.....
"Barely Blue" was written quite a while back and describes the last time I did look out over the ocean...driving down the coast, and the feelings I had at that time.....
"Electric" was actually written today...it reflects my state of mind NOW, and hints at my feeling toward a specific beauty.....
I never intended these two to tie together so well, in fact I had forgotten that I'd even written Barely Blue until I got home this afternoon and found it in an old pile of papers :p
Anywayz...I've got to finish a couple things I couldn't get to yesterday soooOOOOOooo, I go go go
MUCH LOVE TO ALL
Peeeeeeeeez, I'm out
current mood: loved
current music: INXS :Need You Tonight:
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(5 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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| Friday, July 20th, 2001
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9:36 pm - "THE CHOKE" yet another O.G. by the DJ himself :p
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Touch my warm skin
One hand, gripping my already hard shaft, pulsing with lust...
And with the other,
Run your fingers over my thigh
Up, and up
Over my chest, and onto my neck
Wrap your fingers around my throat and squeeze...
Gentley at first
Then, harder and harder until my pulse beats through the back of your hand
All the while, teasing my cock with your fingertips...
My head falls back with the pleasure of you,
Stroking...
Choking...
My muscles begin to twitch, and my mouth flies open, screaming...
YESSS!!!!
A shower of hot cum shoots onto your hand and runs down your arm...
My vision goes blurry for a moment, while you...
Licking your hand...
Look at me with proud eyes, smile and say...
"MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM"....
i don't think anything more needs to be said...
My work here is done
hang the DJ....pieces out
current mood: NAAASTY
current music: RECOIL :Control Freak:
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(6 spankings | gimme some sugar baby)
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