Stacie (![[info]](http://library.vu.edu.pk/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/000100A/http/web.archive.org/web/20040207163051im_/http:/=2fstat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} eyesee) wrote,@ 2002-04-30 01:39:00 |
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the mommy who cried wolf...
I'm sitting here in my sister's office at her house. Just got back from the hospital for the 2nd time today. My sister is in labor, she's doing natural childbirth... and we have had more thana few false alarms in the last week. I've never been through this, I know it's painful and uncomfortable and she just wants it over with... but inside my heart, my instinct has told me all along that this baby is not ready to come. He's just practicing for the big day. Finally she got mad- because they sent her home again, and now she doesn't want to go back. She's in a tub of hot water now, hope it helps. My heart has told me that this baby is coming closer to may 1st, less than 23 hours from now but he may surprise me and come on the 30th. I hope for her sake he does. My birthday is Saturday so i sort of feel like i"m in tune with this baby.. like I KNOW he's going to make her wait and take his time... it's probably warm and cozy in there. At least we know he's not claustrophobic.
I hope when I am pregnant, someday... that my body gives me a clear sign that it's time because 5 trips to the hospital in 1 week is just harsh for a person who is so uncomfortable. i wish i could help her, hold her, hug her but I guess I'm not soothing to her, it's her husband's job to be there for her, I'm just her sister. The next 24 hours could be rough... I hope it goes smoothly from here on out but i can't control, help, assist - I can only carry many bags, fetch items that were forgotten in the car and be told to be quiet - no matter what it is that I say. Sometimes I wonder if it's normal to try to control everything around you, all the things people say. I guess the mother to be is #1 though and what she says goes. This is how I will want it tobe when it's my turn, but I don't anticipate wanting to control every aspet of the experience down to the T - sometimes I'm even afraid to breathe heavy if i have asthma. It's strange, I know she's just protecting herself, her baby, her husband, her experience, but i think when you have major expectations, in the end you will only get pissed, or feel let down or be mad that it didn't go as planned. I guess i feel like a lot of this pre baby stuff is too cerebral and not physical. Her head tells her that the contraction is 2 minutes and 5 mins apart.. but isn't there a time when a woman's body just tells her " THIS IS IT-- IT'S TIME --LET'S GO "
God, I hope that the message is that clear for me because my beautiful sister is being tortured by all the hings she's read and been told not to mention the contractions which have been on and off since the weekend before last. She's convinced that talking to my mother stopped them and that he would have come 10 days ago. inside i know this isn't true, even if my mom did stop the contractions - HE WAS NOT READY THEN. He's coming 4/30 or 5/1. I've known this, why didn't she know? Is it that she was so uncomfortable that she has been willing him to come earlier thus starting early contractions that never lead to that final result? Bodies are weird, babies are weird, and birth is scary but wonderful. I wish i could help her.. I feel powerless. I feel like the easy excuse for why things don't always work out, even if I don't know what I did or how i did it or why I was chosen. BABY you can come now, I'll be ok if you don't come on 5/1 honest... I have my revenge.
My whole life, I've had to deal with " birthday week " HELLISH is all I have to say about that. My stepdad was born on a wed, sister 4 days later, mom 2 days later. Birthday week sucks. I knew this baby would come within a few days of my birthday even though she wanted an aries and NOT a taurus. I KNEW he would give me MY very own birthday week with which to torture my family. Well, J - ou've fulfilled your familial duty as a taurus... Now they will have to deal with OUR birthday week and it will be a lot more FUN than the hellish late august family week that i had to endure.
COME NOW BABY.. please? we need this to be over for her, not just for her but for the rest of us too...heh I knew you would take your sweet ass time.. and show your mommy that she's just gonna have to wait until you're good and ready. Well, you've shown her.. now get out here and start your life. YOu have sisters and aunties and uncles and great parents waiting, not to mention grammy! cmon now... let's go. j- come fall asleep on your sister's favorite bed.. me.
xox
Awtee Day ( auntie stacie )
I'm sitting here in my sister's office at her house. Just got back from the hospital for the 2nd time today. My sister is in labor, she's doing natural childbirth... and we have had more thana few false alarms in the last week. I've never been through this, I know it's painful and uncomfortable and she just wants it over with... but inside my heart, my instinct has told me all along that this baby is not ready to come. He's just practicing for the big day. Finally she got mad- because they sent her home again, and now she doesn't want to go back. She's in a tub of hot water now, hope it helps. My heart has told me that this baby is coming closer to may 1st, less than 23 hours from now but he may surprise me and come on the 30th. I hope for her sake he does. My birthday is Saturday so i sort of feel like i"m in tune with this baby.. like I KNOW he's going to make her wait and take his time... it's probably warm and cozy in there. At least we know he's not claustrophobic.
I hope when I am pregnant, someday... that my body gives me a clear sign that it's time because 5 trips to the hospital in 1 week is just harsh for a person who is so uncomfortable. i wish i could help her, hold her, hug her but I guess I'm not soothing to her, it's her husband's job to be there for her, I'm just her sister. The next 24 hours could be rough... I hope it goes smoothly from here on out but i can't control, help, assist - I can only carry many bags, fetch items that were forgotten in the car and be told to be quiet - no matter what it is that I say. Sometimes I wonder if it's normal to try to control everything around you, all the things people say. I guess the mother to be is #1 though and what she says goes. This is how I will want it tobe when it's my turn, but I don't anticipate wanting to control every aspet of the experience down to the T - sometimes I'm even afraid to breathe heavy if i have asthma. It's strange, I know she's just protecting herself, her baby, her husband, her experience, but i think when you have major expectations, in the end you will only get pissed, or feel let down or be mad that it didn't go as planned. I guess i feel like a lot of this pre baby stuff is too cerebral and not physical. Her head tells her that the contraction is 2 minutes and 5 mins apart.. but isn't there a time when a woman's body just tells her " THIS IS IT-- IT'S TIME --LET'S GO "
God, I hope that the message is that clear for me because my beautiful sister is being tortured by all the hings she's read and been told not to mention the contractions which have been on and off since the weekend before last. She's convinced that talking to my mother stopped them and that he would have come 10 days ago. inside i know this isn't true, even if my mom did stop the contractions - HE WAS NOT READY THEN. He's coming 4/30 or 5/1. I've known this, why didn't she know? Is it that she was so uncomfortable that she has been willing him to come earlier thus starting early contractions that never lead to that final result? Bodies are weird, babies are weird, and birth is scary but wonderful. I wish i could help her.. I feel powerless. I feel like the easy excuse for why things don't always work out, even if I don't know what I did or how i did it or why I was chosen. BABY you can come now, I'll be ok if you don't come on 5/1 honest... I have my revenge.
My whole life, I've had to deal with " birthday week " HELLISH is all I have to say about that. My stepdad was born on a wed, sister 4 days later, mom 2 days later. Birthday week sucks. I knew this baby would come within a few days of my birthday even though she wanted an aries and NOT a taurus. I KNEW he would give me MY very own birthday week with which to torture my family. Well, J - ou've fulfilled your familial duty as a taurus... Now they will have to deal with OUR birthday week and it will be a lot more FUN than the hellish late august family week that i had to endure.
COME NOW BABY.. please? we need this to be over for her, not just for her but for the rest of us too...heh I knew you would take your sweet ass time.. and show your mommy that she's just gonna have to wait until you're good and ready. Well, you've shown her.. now get out here and start your life. YOu have sisters and aunties and uncles and great parents waiting, not to mention grammy! cmon now... let's go. j- come fall asleep on your sister's favorite bed.. me.
xox
Awtee Day ( auntie stacie )
