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[30 Aug 2004|01:42am] |
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I spent just over 12 hours studying today. From 10:30 am until 1:30 am. My only breaks were an hour for transportation (to and from coffee shop, etc), an hour for lunch and an hour for dinner. I'm going crazy. Post test on tuesday I'll update on the rest of my life happenings :)
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[21 Aug 2004|04:06pm] |
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Our first test is Monday. I feel like I know a significant amount of information. However, there is also a significant amount that I still need to cram in my head. I constantly have headaches these days from all the reading and memorizing--although its the worst when I'm in anatomy lab--embalming fluids are nasty. Very much looking forward to going out drinking on Monday post test :) Wish me luck.
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[16 Aug 2004|10:51pm] |
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I've now had six full days of classes and it's still overwhelming. I never had to study this much in undergrad. And no matter how much I study I don't feel like I'm really getting anywhere. There's always more you can learn. Our first test is a week from today and that's a scary thought. Something like 40% of the class failed the first exam last year. And they've raised the passing grade this year (last year you needed a 60% to pass and this year it's a 70%). Just thinking about it gives me a headache.
All last week I tried to use boys as my alternate distraction. It's been well over a year and a half since I've had a crush on someone. And the bizarre thing is that it's on someone that I've met twice before in Seattle. Although I can't say that the situation is progressing very well. His roommate (and God knows why he would tell me this--personally I think he's a prick) told me that the guy went home early on friday from the bars to hook up with some girl that he'd be interested in in our class. I don't know if it's true or why his roommate told me, but it definitely complicates things.
If only I had multiple crush (although I don't have time to manage those right now). Back to studying now. What to study is the main question.
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[09 Aug 2004|11:36pm] |
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This past month has been out of control busy. Had fantastically successful going away party at apartment, got everything moved out and flew to NY. Got settled into apartment, had panic attack, and then finally met my roommates. Love roommates, spent last week partying... ran into dude (who goes here) I met at a party 2 years ago and again a year later at work--remember meeting him both times, but didn't realize it was the same dude both times. and the funny thing is that I was attracted to him both times. And of course am finding self attracted again. But all news spreads like wildfire in this class, so I need to be careful. I'm not holding my breath by any means, but it's a fun distraction. Open bar last monday at the thirsty turtle, dinner cruise with open bar on wednesday in manhattan, yankee game then fantastic party at our apartment on friday, and finally sushi and drinks above timesquare on saturday. Today was the first day of class and let me just say 'WHOA!' Anatomy is overwhelming, but hopefully I can figure it all out :) hopefully I'll be able to update relatively frequently.
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[15 Jul 2004|11:55am] |
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I leave in 15 days, craziness. Just got back from hawaii--although sadly I'm not nearly tan enough. Went out for some Earl's last night. It's been a crazy long time since I've done the midweek earl's outing--since "that summer". Good thing we have the kennedy brothers tomorrow with blended POG drinks (if I can find POG).
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[02 Jul 2004|10:06am] |
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I just had a very large coffee drink, hoping I don't have a sugar/caffeine crash here soon. Life has been crazy lately. My ankle is still causing me a lot of grief, but such is life. Definitely been trying to enjoy my remaining time with my friends. Amy and I did some bonding two weeks ago at a bbq drinking 40's of Mickey's Ice. We were "accused" of going to Central because only Central girls could throw their forty back like us. Last weekend was the camping trip. While it wasn't as nice as the lake (partially for the cabin ammenities, but more for the tradition of being at the Lake). We had 23 people up there which made for some loud campsites--we kept getting in trouble with the park rangers, but we managed not to get kicked out. I pretty much spent the weekend intoxicated--as I should while camping. It was nice to return home to a shower though. This week I went to an M's game on wednesday and a group of us drank dollar pints of PBR last night. Bart ended up crashing at our place. We stayed up until almost 3 talking--he leaves on Wednesday for Europe for at least a year. Combination of reminiscing about the good ol' days, talking about both of our departures and 5 and a half pints of PBR got me all teary eyed. But I recovered and we had a grand ol' time. Tonight is the Kennedy Brothers. Hard to believe that including tonight I only have 3 times left!!!
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[14 Jun 2004|11:20pm] |
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Last week was super busy. Birthday went pretty well. Had breakfast with Alissa in the AM, went to work for a few hours. Met up with a bunch of friends for pizza and carafe of wine (shared with Amy my true drinking buddy) and then it was off to Chandlers for sushi and martini's. Ended the night rather late at someone else's apartment, which made for a very groggy Thursday. Couldn't get too much done at work, pretty much my day was just going to lunch with my coworkers (two of my coworkers finally saw the GWB and they both commented that they liked his hair--which was really messy ;) ). After a long nap Thursday afternoon, I met up with Amy and Adam at the Duchess. It's not only been ages since I've been to the duchess, it's been ages since I hung out with Amy and Adam without tons of other people. It was a much needed change. Friday night was crazy as always with the Kennedy Brothers. Naturally had a blast--got my traditional Black Cock Penis Cake from Marlana, KBros sang me happy birthday (and wished me luck in NY), had lots of liquor, danced on stage, the usual. The only thing unusual was spraining my ankle while jumping out of Watson's Dad's car back at our apartment. Thankfully Watson was kind enough to carry me upstairs and he and Marlana took care of me. Three Oxycodones later and I was feeling much better--despite the large tangerine size bump on my ankle. Marlana left at like 3 and Watson and I stayed up until like 5a. Felt miserable all day Saturday and finally went to the ER. Thankfully nothing was broken and I can happily say the ankle feels much better. I'm hoping for a slightly less eventful week :)
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[08 Jun 2004|02:08pm] |
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Well, I accepted at NYMC as well. Which means I probably should let Chicago know I won't be attending there in the fall. I'm sure there are people out there that would love my spot. On another note, I turn 24 tomorrow. Seems like ever since I turned 18 or so I know longer look forward to my birthday. In elementary school, I miss the simplicity of bringing cupcakes to class and having bday pizza parties--where the only real concern was whether or not I'd get my nintendo or some doll. In high school, I had to deal with the "embarrassment" of carrying around balloons or flowers for my birthday. And ever since it's do I even have time to celebrate--do other people have time to celebrate. I'll be the first to admit it's probably most difficult for me because I'm an only child. When I was younger my birthday was definitely MY special day. Now it's just like any other day. Getting old sucks.
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[02 Jun 2004|01:16pm] |
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Found out this AM that I also got into NYMC. It's a really awesome feeling knowing now that I have a choice of where I'll be spending the next four year. But it's a huge decision. One that I don't really know how to make. I guess I have to approach it systematically--make some lists, decide what's important in choosing a school. And ultimately it'll probably come down to a flip of a coin.
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[26 May 2004|11:16pm] |
I think that I lost my roommate. I haven't seen her since about 7pm yesterday when I left for coffee with shane. She was supposed to hang out with shane after he and I had coffee, but wasn't home when we got back (although her lights were still on in her room). I then went to happy hour with joey and didn't get home until about midnight--her room was still in the same state as when I left. I know that at sometime between when I went to sleep at about 1 and got up at 830 she had come home. Although I got home at 5pm tonight and haven't seen her. But whatever, I'm not her mother. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I didn't see her until she gets back from cali on tuesday. I'm busy tomorrow evening and she leaves friday afternoon while I'll be at work.
Anyway, looking forward to the weekend. Hoping to head up to moses lake on saturday night--looks like the weather is supposed to be a lot nicer than here (woohoo). Also hoping to just do some vegging around and maybe hang out with Randy. We'll see...
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[26 May 2004|12:45pm] |
I ordered a laptop the other night. I'm impatiently waiting for it to be shipped. I keep refreshing the window to see if it's progressed past the 'boxing' stage. Alas, I truly have to question how long it takes to box a laptop :)
Yesterday Ryan and I got lunch at some chinese food place on the ave that he frequents a lot. The lady, however, had incorrectly remembered his name and kept calling him Michael. And insisting that I was 'Michael's' girlfriend. Or if I wasn't now, that I soon would be. Ryan and I got a good laugh about it. We figured that instead she was predicting that I would indeed be dating a michael soon, and since ryan really wasn't a michael, there were no worries. Although I can't say I'm happy about the name Michael. Technically I'm cut off from that name; I've exceeded my lifetime allotment.
Oh well....just trying to get through the week.
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[19 May 2004|11:11pm] |
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I bought this book the other day for a birthday present. It's a choose your own adventure dating book called, A Night of A Thousand Boyfriends. I don't think I've read that style of book since about the 5th grade, but I was highly amused by this one. Well, Shane was jealous that there probably didn't exist a similar book for a thousand girlfriends. So, I started writing him a choose your own adventure for him and I'm really enjoying it. I've always thought a good back up career would be to write romance novels. This will be good practice. Although it would help to have some romance in my life to base it on. I guess I'll just have to wait until I'm in Chicago for that. :)
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[18 May 2004|12:39pm] |
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I got both my gameboy and digital camera back yesterday, what a relief. It's not a good feeling having your stuff taken, but I guess I was lucky. I think that I'm coming down with some sort of cold, feel light headed and stuffed up (maybe it's just allergies). Hopefully I can go home a little early today :)
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[15 May 2004|03:28pm] |
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I can't find either my gameboy or my digital camera. When Mike first started to try to take Jeremy and Suk home, Suk dropped my gameboy as he was walking out the door. I'm not really sure what to do at this point, but I'm so pissed...
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[15 May 2004|12:57pm] |
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Last night I started writing a journal entry. Jason was passed out on my bed, Mike was supposed to be taking Jeremy and Suk home. However after like 10 minutes he walked back in and started reading my entry. So I tried to close it, but of course he read the whole thing anyway and then we both fell asleep on my bed--with Jason next to us. This morning when he left he said that he'd call, but I'm not holding my breath. I do have his phone number now because he called quinn. So we'll see what I decide to do tonight....
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[11 May 2004|01:28pm] |
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Today I recieved two of the most shocking e-mails (from the same person) I think that have ever entered my inbox. Never have I been so awestruck by an e-mail. While I can't help but laugh, at the same time apparently he's being serious and I have to figure out a response. Whoa!
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[08 May 2004|02:33am] |
This has been a bit of a rollercoaster week of emotions. I've been up and down about the whole med school thing. While I'm so excited that I got in and I will probably be starting on the goal that I've had for as long as I remember, it's very bittersweet. I love it in seattle. I love my friends, I love where I live and I love what I do. At times (well most of the time) I feel like I'm in a bit of a rut, I don't really mind the rut. I've definitely found a comfort level here that's hard to imagine ever finding again.
Also there's been some residual drama with last friday night's boy. After sending him that first email we've sent a number of correspondances. However they're more like e-mails sent between friends rather than one night hook ups. My guess would be that he's just being nice and since I don't have the ability to stop communication this could go on indefinitely.
For now, I just wish I could get out of this emotional up and down, I don't like feeling I could tear up at any minute thinking about moving. I know it may sound ridiculous, but it's a scary thought. I've never done anything like this alone before and there is no better time than now when I have no permanent ties to the area, but I'm allowed my apprehension. I think my first step needs to be sitting down to seriously think about med school and what I really want to do about it. But for now I'm just gonna go to bed. Tonight was a fantastic relaxing evening with my girls, Nicole and Amy--and was naturally supplemented with excessive food, girlie tv, music and games... and also a nice drunk dial from Watson :)
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[04 May 2004|12:28pm] |
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So, I found out this am that I got into med school in Chicago. I'm still in a bit of denial about it. Earlier today I called to see if they had reviewed my application yet and the phone call resulted in the guy congratulating me on getting accepted. So I'm definitely excited, although I'm also a little apprehensive about having to move in about three months. But I think that it is probably time.
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[04 May 2004|10:23am] |
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Supposedly boy from friday night is avoiding coming anywhere near the hallway where my lab is. And I can't say I've jumped at the chance to go into his area of the building, but this is ridiculous. We're both mature adults. I wrote him an e-mail last night letting him know that I was cool with everything and it even gave me the opportunity to quote Bob Seger's Night Moves, "I used her, she used me. Neither one cared, we were getting our share." I'm not even sure if he'll be courteous enough to write back, but at least I've washed my hands clean :)
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[02 May 2004|01:57pm] |
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Friday night was a weird night... filled with drunken debauchery and scandalous hook ups. My hook up was the most calculated. When I found out on Thursday that said guy had broken up with his girlfriend two weeks ago, I knew my mission for Friday night. And the amazing thing was the I succeeded without too much effort :) Another hook up resulted because my friend who was supposed to crash here was waiting outside my apartment trying to get in.... and well to occupy the time started making out with the girl who drove him. And since neither Quinn nor I came home that night he had to go home with her. And that leads to hook up number three....Quinn not coming home. All I have to say is that when Quinn and I exchanged high fives in Joey's kitchen over our accomplishments for the night, I've never wanted to laugh so hard. And hook up number four has not been confirmed, however we spoke with him Friday night after he left and all I remember him saying on the phone was, "well, I'm sitting here with her naked right now." Anyway, activities of Friday night have offered us enough fodder for some interesting talks all weekend. Although I guess I have to go into work now.... let's just hope that my boy didn't decide to work today as well.... I need a bit of time before I randomly run into him at work. :)
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