Some people are so shitty..but they get everything they DON'T deserve.

Made good money New Yrs Eve...partied w. some of the regulars at the bar until noon the next day...some powder involved there..somewhere. Made 'Nise stay out way WAY past her bed time at Jim's...kept taking shots of Makers Mark..for every goal made on the air hockey games..needless to say..found myself making out w/ C....well..no kissy..just hugging..fun girlie stuff...anyways..pissed jim off..but honesly I didnt mean too..I was so fucking drunk..I dont remember most of the night..only when people mention something..I DO however remember getting spanked by at least 7 guys..I had belt buckle imprint on my ass..and huge knots and bruises everywhere...
So I had "piece of ass"..finally..it was ok ...took about as long as it takes to cook a frozen pizza..so my new nickname for him is 'PizzaBoy'..or Davis came up with 'Dominos'...another weird weekend no long remembered.

next week..apologized to Jim for my escapades..he accepted...promised Pizza that we would hook up again..but got sick the next day from food poisoning..
and here is a funny story:
Some chick that I had seen before..(at Jims) came up to me and asked me my name..and then apologized for kicking me..
uhh?
Yeah..apparently, the night I slept over at Pauls she came in and pulled the sheet over my head, kicked me and called me a bitch..funny..uhh..paul..is like brother ..and NOTHING ELSE..I had all of my clothes on..what a fucking psycho.. and I dont remember any of it..cause when I sleep..I zonk out ..the world could end and I wouldn't even know it...IT's weird to find out that people are doing things to you and you have no recollection...
so..I made out with Mr.TV Reporter..but he is tangled up in this stupid complicated 'dating' thing w/ some chick..so we stopped it there..i can offer sex but not intimacy...guess Im just fucked like that. Got sick w/ a head cold the day I helped N with his computer..wasn't too bad..had 45 spywares/cookies on it)..just had to do the same w/ my rent's puter
my mom is a bitch..immature..emotionally abusive hooker...
just had to say that..
she is mad at me..so if my friends call and she answers the ONE fucking phone in the house..she doesn't tell me when they call...fucking little twit..I used to do that shit to my little sister back when I was 14 maybe..this woman is fucking 44 yrs old..uggh the INSANITY...i looked for apts tonight..there is on off of Hawthorne..I have always wanted to live on H because it is the most beautiful street in Montrose...but it's windowunits..but the house is old dollhouse victorian with wooden flooring...
HMMM>>>

well..im going to go down some nyquill..btw..i overdosed on that shit on new yrs day...yeah..slept for 2 days straight..then could NOT go to sleep for 3 days..so now im using that little plastic cup shit for dosages..
but im never going to watch Pretty woman on repeat after taking nyquill..that shit fucks you up!

saw deb for xmas..only briefly..tis ok..i have tickets to go see her whenever I want

can't stop thinking about Grady..sometimes its 30 times a day..sometimes..none.but still..he is there..the more i interact with the male sex..the more I think of grady..damnit I wish I could be lesbian.

1.
Fuck these stupid ass weak chocolate martini recipes...here is the REAL thing:

1oz vanilla vodka
dash of white godiva chocolate liquer
dash of DARK godiva ""
dash of half and half
dash of white creme de cacao
dash of DARK ""
dash of frangelico
dash of kamora (kahlua)..coffee flavored shit.
dash of baileys


mix.. and you know the rest..


2.
Fuck Eric...
but better yet..want to fuck Ross...he is such a cute piece of ass..
that is my nickname for him..'Piece of Tail'...
last weekend..Sat night..crazy at notsuoH's..ended up driving Patrick back and crashed at his place..he had NO fucking heat!!!..sooooo cold..
my nick name for him is 'Verizon Wireless Guy'...he has the glasses and everything.
so Sunday...i believe strongly that a little of the hair of the dog would cure me...went to Chuys..had some queso..then to catbirds..for some beers and to wait for Jeremy to get off work...There were chuy's people already there..esp Sara..Crazy Sarah...luckily I didnt have to be her ride home THAT night!..so Jerms and I had a few..then he went home..

I kidnapped him the other day..and made him my 'cuddle buddy'...cause it was cold..hmm..bad...he IS married..after all..and his wife did GET me a JOB ..and all..tsk tsk..
im the adulteress...Thou SHalt NOT covet thy neighbwhores wife.
but lately its not fun hanging out with him..all he does is bitch about Serena..gets tiring..i liked it better before all this drama shit happened.

anyways...
moving on..some nasty Italian guy shoved his tongue into my mouth at work Sat night..I was like ..WTF!..they were visiting from Italy..so I talked to them for a bit about my trip over there..and so they came into the bar a few times..and last time.. i did the whole..kiss both cheeks..shit..well THIS time..apparently they were leaving on Monday..for Italy..so he asked for a kiss..i said..umm..sure..just one..thinking a peck..ok no..he didnt even use his lips..he just stuck his tongue out and started probing..uggh..so fucking disgusting..

I spent the night at Paul's after another Sat of notsuoH's...today i went to pick up my car..and i saw that same fucking bum hangin out front..so I ran in and told pedro to call the cops..this is bullshit..

this bum stands outside and stares vacantly into the bar..right at you..its so fucked up..and it freaks me out when I have to work alone on Mondays..

shit..it's 4am..speaking of work..I should get to bed..im not exactly sure if i said that i was going to work at the office tomarrow or night..but oh well..I know I will at least come in on Tues..so screw it..all I have left to do is build 3 software libraries..hmm..an hr work MAX!!ok then
ciao bellas..

ps. my dog hates me..she sleeps w/ the parents now..at least until she wakes up and realizes that I AM in fact HOME.

ok..
woke up early today..6am..went to bed last night at 8pm..now im fucked..cause i have to go into work today at 8pm..till 4 or 5 am..
RHT wants me to work again..for the runoff elections..more fun..sitting in my car from 6am till 8pm..fixing e-booths..so boring..but worth the 200$..
possibly a third job..for a whole month..

im listening to george carlin online..damnit he is hilarious...
new music:
the unicorns, the wrens, the groceries..
speaking of which..
E emailed me back..he is soo cute..i just dont think I am his type..hmm..oh well..nothing like the unrequited love ..
i had this weird dream about Grady..he was way up at the top of this tree..
and if i could just make to him..then everything would be ok..but the higher up I got..the windier it got..i was really scared....and i couldnt do it..right before I woke up...i grabbed his head..or around his neck..and whispered into his ear my undying poetic love for him..
weird..

i should get over him..its not like we even dated..but ...how easily can you fall in love with a person?...is it always the movie's/TLC - a Wedding Story " I just knew..the minute i saw him"..usually it's women who say this..never the men..

damnit..its getting hard to write..im laughing so much..at this George Carlin..
k..so new music...I discovered from 91.7 ktru..i guess it's emo music..unfortunately

i always thought that emo music was that crappy punk you hear on the Buzz..but I guess not..just whiney males singing above some guitar riffs...
but i have always liked the male singers..
ok..im laughing/crying now at this george carlin stuff..
check it out
http://shoutcast.com/sbin/shoutcast-playlist.pls?rn=279547&file;=filename.pls

i hope that is right..

anyways..in an ok mood..except for this very painful toe thing..im going to the podiatrist at 3 today..

yesterday i had the epi-light process..for hair removal done..it was ok.but i guess it doesnt remove the hair right away..but i paid for 2 more treatments..

I had some coffee this morning..w/ a little creme de cacao..in it..too early for alcohol?..NEVER!!!

should do some pilates later..but i had 'egg suprise' this morning ..so i have to wait a few hrs..you aren't supposed to do any yoga w/ a full stomach..

btw..easy recipe..:
EGG Suprise:
take a piece of bread..cut out a circle in the middle of the bread..and then place in a heated skillet w/ 1 tblspoon of melted butter..
crack an egg into the hole..and let cook 1/2 way..
flip carefully w/ a spatula w/o letting raw egg spill
cook egg on other side until desired..
easy..runny..fully cooked..whatever



its good..


tata for now
ciao bellas

ok..which one is the cutest?



Emo music..what is it exactly

is a good day to die.

dead
death
love
feelings


gone
blah