Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in marie's LiveJournal:

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Thursday, October 4th, 2001
5:08 pm	i'm so bored and for sum reason i can't get into hayley's journal to read it so i can see whats up i'm so bored though i hate livin here i wish i could just turn 18 and move Current Mood: bitchy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2001
4:43 pm	ok its sunday and i'm bored out of my mind i want to sit here and type and type and type i think u get the idea anyways i talked to hayley and james yesterday i always feel better after i talk to him for sum reason even though i know he is and idiot i just know he cares i think thats a good thing any ways i think i had a good day and next weekend i get to go to soup town i dunno to many peeps to see but i will deffinetly try to see everyone i wish i knew where everyone hung out so i could see them all i miss everyone soo much and i want to see everyone as much as they want to see me but i donno what if everyone changed on me in fact i know everyone changed on me i hate change i guess talkin on the internet wit everyone helps to cope although i try to write the ones i can't talk to on the net oh well they love me i hope i really need to see jenn though i'm so worried bout her she has been in alot of trouble these days so i've heard and i want to see whats up wit everyone in that group intrestin i know someone in every group that is soo kool ne ways i have to write hayley Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 18th, 2001
6:41 pm	ok i'm in school and i can do this kool ha ha there hayley i wrote sumthin happy ne ways havin fun bitin james lol aight i have to go before i get caght though he he bad me Current Mood: dirty Current Music: the modem of the computer (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 9th, 2001
12:25 am	damn its been a long time since i've written in this thing but thats ok i'll live i started school and i freaked out on the first day cuz i didn't know anyone and it really sucked so basically i got stage fright but i was ok after i vented to sara then i was happy again i went to a dance and football game and chilled out for awhile and at the dance we met these guys they were really nice and i liked one of them he was really cute to but candi told me she liked him so i'll just let her have him and there was his friend who just gave me the creeps cuz he looked just like james but i ended up dancin wit this black guy who tried stickin his tounge down my throat and all i did was bite down lol but hey i told him not to but he did it anyways so what do u expect and i just got my hair cut i have bangs yea and i got like it framin my face and everythin so its cool i'll live but i'll have to grow it out again anyways i'm really bored and i have nothin else to do but write in this stupid thing i think i'll go now though and talk to whoever is online c ya Current Mood: bitchy (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 19th, 2001
4:43 pm	today i went to the flea market wit my dad and lil bro and we got stuff for the place he works which is a place kids go if they r homeless and run aways well we got there to drop off the stuff and i saw all these kids there and i was like u know i guess i don't have it that bad u know and shit like that i felt bad for sume of those peeps that life there u know but i am so tired from the heat and walkin round i want to go to bed yeah zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz . . . . Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 17th, 2001
10:11 pm	my god i'm so bored and lonely i don't know what to do wit myself i'm so used to talkin and hangin out wit my friends but i don't have them now and i hate it i hate my mom she took every thing away from me when i needed it the most and when they needed me the most i go places wit my dad and i see all these people and they r havin a great time and all my dad says is oh those r dirt bags and shit like that he just pisses me off so bad he has no clue what its like to feel all alone and have no one to talk to i hate them all for not understandin what i need my god they were teens once to u would think they would learn u know but of course they act as if they have no clue whats so ever but maybe they don't . . . . . Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 15th, 2001
5:17 pm	hey what up i'm so worried about my friends they are all havin troubles and i want to be there for them so bad but i'm like thousands of miles away and there is nothin i can do and i hate this feelin like i can but i won't but i can't do anythin no matter how hard i try i want to be there so to all of u that i can't do anythin i'm so sorry i can't be there to help i really mean it ok love u guys ok talk to u later Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: water runnin (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 13th, 2001
9:30 pm	man i feel bad bill sent that survey back and he told me all this shit and now i just feel bad. hayley needs to cheer up man is every ones life goin to hell i know mine is cuz i was at my nanas and then i just was thinkin how it used to be and then i almost started cryin so i went up stairs and jumped on my nanas bed and just balled god i haven't done that in a long time man and now i'm all depressed this is just one of my bad day i geuss nothin looks or feels right i vented to billy in an e-mail so i kinda feel better but yea i have to go my hands r gettin tired Current Mood: depressed Current Music: linkin park-in the end (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 11th, 2001
11:30 pm	ok i'm still at my dads and my mind is about to expload i went and chilled at my grandmas for like two days and then the next night we went to dinner and i was talkin to my nana (thats her nick name) and i was tellin her i was plannin on movin out of my mas and goin to my other grandmas and stuff shes like well u can always come live down here and stuff and i was like and stay where shes like well ur dad said he would clean out the computer room and that could be ur room and i was like he would not he wouldn't even adopt me when my ma and him were married so y the hell would he take me in now god my ma is a psyco bitch and has no clue how to raise her own child i can't do anythin and every time she meets some new guy she follows him like a damn dog and so far we ended up in mankato and it sux there is nothin to do there so whats the whole point of movin he said it was for a job but they had a new hospital where we were so he could have stayed there no reason to move except he wanted to be by his friends and shit like that i can't stand him he wants and my ma gives it pisses me off so bad they r supposed to get married and i refuse to support that i will never ever support them gettin married its their choice and this is mine i want out so i'm movin out and to my grandparents its that simple i feel like writtin someone but the only address i have is james's for some reason its stuck in my head ugh why can't i get him out of my head that drives me nutts i feel bad that we broke up and all but thats the way things worked out actully i'm glad we broke up it just felt creepy bein wit him i couldn't do nothin wit him he just creeped me out totally it was weird ok i need to stop talkin about him i'll have night mares lol my god but i better go work out and go to bed i'll write more tomorw Current Mood: depressed Current Music: linkin park-crawling (Comment on this)
Monday, August 6th, 2001
7:54 pm	i went swimmin to day yeah and i went on arins and i got an email from bill how special he passed out on some dudes lawnlast night cuz he was drunk off his ass lol but any way i really don't have anythin else to talk bout so yeah see ya Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 5th, 2001
9:28 pm	wassup and i'm bored ok its 9:30 and i'm really bored we're gettin ready to watch some movies. oh yea i told my lil bro some heavy shit and u know what he went and told my dad u wanna know how i know bucause he talkes to loud thats y what a dip shit anyways bill is so sweet hes goin to call me even though i'm all the way in florida how sweet of him. i'm goin to try and cancel my trip to arizona and go to superior i miss it there so much. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: city high (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 3rd, 2001
2:56 pm	bored in florida hey hayley ur the only one who these so i'll just rite it to u. i'm sittin in florida doin nottin cuz its rainin and my bro is playin wit the dog as usual my dad and step mom r at work and we just be chillin i finlly got aletter from billy that one guy i met up there when i came for a visit he is so sweet and i can't believe he wrote back to me but anyways he lives there and i live in mankato so it will never work i can be wish full though can't i. um i talked to sara before i left and she said she was goin to paris the next day so we r both goin to be gone for three weeks so i have no onr to talk to on the net besidesu and james but it doesn't matter cuz james dont check his mail any how so oh well its just u i think i can live wit that but it sounds like hes doin sumthin so i better go ok talk to u later ok bye Current Mood: blah Current Music: none (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 1st, 2001
12:24 am	ok I'm really bored and really confused. I'm just tired of it all. I should just forget every thing and then I wouldn't have to worry about it all. everything would just be peachy I'd start next year forget every one and make a new life but I can't and it sux. I miss every one so much and I really think everyones just like forget her she moved so screw the bitch. I really love my bf but when I called him today he seemed distant from me like he really didn't want to talk to me at all. but he says hes goin to send me somthin real stupid. I don't know what it is and I want to know so bad. If its really bad I don't want it. but he'll send it anyways I know better. but its late I gotta go. hayley loves jeremy's butt. he he (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 14th, 2001
9:30 pm	ok hayley be happy ok and no I will put hayley's butt smells like shit how about that be happy thats all u goin ta get anyways I'm also happy cuz I'm wit james I'm tryin to convince haayley that I'm pregent but she doesn't believe me I want her to call james for me and ask him and also tell him goodbye for me but she won't stubborn bitch.well g2g love u bye Current Mood: bitchy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2001
6:49 pm	Haven't been on for a long time omg there is so much to tell I'm goin out wit james. and he is not a fag like hayley says. she likes to lick travis's nipple on the blink 182 poster. I think she is really horny right now she needs her bf. Tomorrow I will go tanning and hope to visit james. jeese I haven't written in a long time I have gotten alot better since I last wrote hayley is a wierd freak man she is so perverted. anyways hayley says she likes the heads of peni. james is such a sweet heart but he doesn't get it hayley told him the first part of my secret but now I'm debating on wether I should tell him the rest I really don't trust him though its not his fault but it just the way I feel I don't know how I could but hopefully some how he can prove me wrong I wondered why he thought I was thinking about this promise ring he told me about you would think that would be really sweet but I don't know I think he was just sayin it to get me to kiss him cus I wanted him to understand that I don't want to be dumped in a couple weeks or anything and I don't know what he wants from me the only thing he asks me for is to make out with him so I deni him that so he'll think about what he does and not the next time he's gonna hook up wit me u know guess what hayley just farted and then we laughed about it he he I like flavored condoms but bye for now cus hayley wants me to read her journal ok write more later Current Mood: dirty Current Music: coldplay, yellow (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 7th, 2001
6:53 pm	i wish.... I wish i could fix things between everyone supposly sara and james are in a fight but I don't believe her and I don't know why I thought I was supposed to be able to trust my friends but most of them I can't even trust them with a secret it's depessing it's like should I trust them that they are telling the truth people tell me that they say things behind my back and I'm noot sure if I should beileve them or not hayley i need to talk to u gurl I'm goin to try and go on at 8:00 try and be on I'll probably e-mail u to be on to just so I can make sure I'll be onok I'm just so cunfused write now . Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Monday, February 26th, 2001
6:28 pm	yo sup i'm bored as usual all i did today wus go to an appoint ment then went out to eat yeah real exciting um hayley if u read this try and be on at about 7:30 ok and i'll meet u onok love me there is nottin more to talk bout Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Friday, February 23rd, 2001
7:36 pm	ok this is just bullshit what the hell is he lien or is she lien I want to know I have reason to believe he is but she could be to I just want to know its all stupid why the hell would anyone want to lie about that omg guys are wierd and they think they can't under stand us Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 16th, 2001
4:09 pm	Please!!!!! I want to go to my friends b-day party but i can't cus of course I'm grounded it sux! But there is nothin i can do about it.lifes a bitch so get used to it! i seariously need a bf to occupy my time i could sit here for hours complainin but i really don't feel like doin that.i feel like goin to a movie right now but i can't !this is so borin.i think i'll go now so bye love me Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: crash and burn:savage garden (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 15th, 2001
8:40 pm	I feel like crap! this sux i'm grounded and i know its my falt but oh well i'm sick my mom thinks i'm anerexic life just sux!i seriously need a bf and i have one in mind but we both have to make it difficult and it sux i miss him as a friend and as a bf (hes my ex)its so stupid but no one understands me anymore i'm gettin blamed for different things i didn't do and nothin i do is good enough no one trusts me anymore it sux but i better go before i get in trouble love me Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)