Sunday, April 21st, 2002
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1:23 pm - ahhhh
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2day iz 1 month...i happy..n scared..y scared?..it was in my other entry go reed it...dun feel like typin it again..AHHH *prayz* dun let dis go bad..ima die...ok im done..
current mood:  accomplished
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Saturday, April 20th, 2002
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9:17 pm - heh..shit...
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yeh..i dunno..dis day sucked ass...dunno...i woke up at 11..i was fuckin tired as hell..i guess cuz of yesterday...n my arms were hurttin..dunno y...n like kerry n every1 else went out..i coodnt..damn azn parents so fuckin strict...so like yeh..i went ta chruch n like zoned out...i think..like i was sittin n like fell asleep i guess..den was thinkin wut if i was in chruch..*mind u i was in chruch*...n den i woke up n i was like huh..den fell asleep again..den i spazed out cuz i almost fell lol..dunno...den like karina imed me n told me sumtin n i was like eh...n i dunno..=\..den like b4 dis like sumtin was botherin me..n i was talkin ta jane online...i told her wut was botherin me...it was kinda ok..since i talked bout it..n like i guess like fer reel..no fingers pointin...that from sumtin its been makin me feel all paranoid n scared cuz of me doing sumtin rong..n i reeeeeeeeeely..i cant stress it n e more lol to long..that i dun want n e tin ta go bad...n like morrow is 1 month...n like from sumtin dat happend ta me..im all like omg...wuts gunna happen..i b actually happy n like its gunna turn like shit..cuz me n life dun go gud...=\..ahhh all my teeth in da back hurt like a mofo!!!...so yeh..i sooooo scared....=\ ahhhhhh is dis rong ta even feel like dis?..scared? ahhh dammit *sighs* i gatta stop feelin like dis is bad..rite?..so foosed out..not gud eeder..ahh damn the negative feeling..i shup now
current mood:  exhausted
current music: andrew w k~~~party hard
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12:29 pm - *yawns* soo fuckin sleepy!!
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omfg...im mad tired but dun feel like sleepin cuz i dunno..yesterday was funnie as hell...yet i dunno kinda scary lol...yeh..i dunno wut we did *makes fun of kerry* OMG DERS SUMTIN IN DA SKY!! DERS LIKE 4 O DEM!!!LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...lol...n den we poked renios tung...n stuff n my teeth hurts!! *kries* i wanna go out 2day...lol kerry got in trouble...like her mom came n sed grounded..my fav. word lol
current mood:  sleepy
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Thursday, April 18th, 2002
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7:59 pm - *sighs* my toof!!!
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grr..i didnt go ta skool 2day cuz i had ta go ta da dentist n shit fer my tooth...i sorta slept..needed it...cuz of like 100 hrs of lost sleep..so n e wayz...i woke up cuz my toof was hurtin took 2 motrins..n woke up ta da sound of my parents fiteing...so n e wayz..wasnt new o n e tin..i took a shower...so yeh den like we went ta da place n my dent. sed that i had ta pull em out cuz der was no space left in my mouth..i sed noooooo cuz i reeeely dun like needles n stuff...so like she sed wen all of dem r der shes gunna recommend me ta a sergent thin..n dey gunna put me ta sleep heh...so i like arite..cuz i dunno all da drugs i b on 0=0)..she perscribed me tylenol 3 *yay* n motrin 800 lol...so im like ok gud..cuz non of that orajel shit wurks..listerine does better den dat shit...so like mhm...yeh den we went ta burger king..cheap ass place..no ketchup..minds me off skool..pisses me off wen der isnt n e lol..dunno y tho...so den kerry came over n we were talkin n we made plans wit renio n stuff...n i hurt n i hungry n fat n sticky i dunno...
current mood:  hungry
current music: goo goo dolls~~~~here is gone
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Wednesday, April 17th, 2002
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5:48 pm - SOO HOT!! AGAIN..
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ahh yeh..i slept durin 1st cuz i didnt get n e sleep at all..cuz of my fuckin tooth..mayb my wisdom teeth r commin?...i dunno..so yeh basically i was all hot n shit..n sweaty..so after skool me kerry n jane went downtown ta eet fud...we went ta da hot dog place n stuff..n i was playin wit wutr...kerry led us ta dis sucky ass park wit a pond of fishes...mind u its a house wit a pond tin lol...ahhh my teeth!!!..so yeh den i walked all da way home in da hot ass sun..n my tooth hurts like a bitch n yeh..
current mood:  sad
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Sunday, April 14th, 2002
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11:30 am - soooooo hot n sticky!!! heh...no not dat
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AHHHH....yesterday i woke up at like 11..cuz i was suppose ta go out wit irenio n kerry ta get liter fluid..n hang out wit dez n pplz...so like yeh...i walked to irenios house...n i was all calm n stuff..it was hot like hell...so like yeh..once i reached like 30th street....i was all thinkin bout yesterday n stuff...n i reelized dat my pipe was in my pants pocket in the living room..n i was freekin out...so like i walked my ass reely fast ta irenios house..n i was like omg i need to use yer fone...so he was like ok...so i did n like my bro picked up n i was like give it ta nin..so he did n i gave her instructions like ta get my pants n put da pipe sumwere so my mom woodnt see it..so she did n i was like ahh thnk u!!!...den we left n walked downtown...so we went ta i think 23 o 25 ta buy liter fluid...n i cooda "bought" sumtin but i was like ahh to hot n i coodnt...so den we walked ta kerrys on 19...n stayed on da steps on a buildin cuz she was commin up da block...n dez was commin to...so like we all met...but kerry went back ta her house cuz we needed a bag cuz we didnt wanna carry our shit...so like...we dropped by a store ta get a drink..cuz i coodnt walk n e more cuz i was tired n hot n thirsty...so like we were walkin n dez doesnt like it wen ppl outta nowere stare at her n smile cuz she thinks sum1 is gunna do sumtin ta her....so like from there ta janes i stared n smiled...n chased her wit matches..she dun like fire lol...so like wen we got ta janes...her bro had friends over n dey were playin grand theft 3..n stuff..n kerry was like ohhh do dis bla bla bla..n dis 7grader was like i been playin dis ever since bla bla bla...n we were like oooo kerry he told u lol...n he was all bein bitchy ta every1 dunno...pms?...so like yeh we left cuz we wanted ta get fud...jane stayed n stuff.den like i saw neeta n megan n stuff cuz dey were like gunna hang out i dunno sumtin like dat....so like me kerry dez n irenio went ta mcydz...n like we were eetin der n i coodnt finish it but i did buy like forcing myself...so like yeh..den we were like playin wit spitballs n stuff...so like we left n me n dez were carryin out sodas n straws..spittin at kerry irenio n us...den kerry stole our straws so like i went in a deli n got sum more lol...den like me n dez were runnin up n down da blocks spittin...lol like we were shootin n like i won cuz her spit balls got stuck lol..so den her straw fell n we took a gulp of juice n spit all over lol...den we were like lets get kerry n renio...but dey new wut we were gunna do..so dey all ran n stuff...den once we got ta janes house..jane came out wit sumtin behind her back...n me n dez ran fer our lives lol...den i was like ahh no more i tired....so i left she didnt have n tin in her hands!! damn u...so like yeh..we all went inside...n i went ta her b room..but kerry was in der...so wen she was done she thought i was gunna do sumtin but i didnt..i was all sticky n sweaty...so i shoved her in da b room...n locked da door n played wit da faucet n splashed wutr on her..den dez came in..n we were havin a wutr fite...but like me n kerry had da faucet..n dez had spalshed us wit sumtin..n i was like were she gettin wutr from...so me n kerry stopped n i was like eeeeew!!!! she was splashin us wit toilet wutr lol....den like we left n jane kiked us outta da couch cuz we were wet of toilet wutr n soda n spit...so like yeh..den jane tackled kerry n dez stole her shoes n threw em off da balckony....den dez was like wen shes here get a cup of wutr n splash is on her so i was like ok....so i did but it went on me n jane...so we chased kerry up da stars on da balckony...n dez got more wutr n wet kerry 0=0) lol...den like we were all wet....n kerry was pushin me to stay on da balckony n jane was like pushin me into da house....den like we all went inside...n kerry was like can i borrow clothes...n she was like yeh..unless u strip...n im like jane can i borrow clothes to...she was like yeh till she strips so like me jane n kerry went upstairs...n we all striped wit our understuff on...so shup lol...so like den we were all sorta cleen...so like den we chilled up der..till dez n renio came...n i me kerry n jane were on her bed...jane did sumtin ta me!!! *kries*....so i ran from her...n hid in her closet...lol....den we all went downstairs n stuff...n like renio had ta leef cuz we told him to..cuz he had ta go sumwere lol....so he was leefin at like 7...n like we were watchin sister act 2 lol...n jane was messin wit my hed cuz she kept on stickin her tung out *kries*...den like after da movie cecil came over..n we were chillin...den like dey made me dress in kerrys clothes like a grl *kries*...n made me go outside to 711 n da deli n stuff....n i was pissed as hell lol...cuz i reeeeeely didnt wanna do it...n dey took pix of it to >=\...so like yeh..i got over it lol dey all b staring!! STOP!!!...so like yeh once i got ta janes i dressed in my clothin n stuff..n den we were dancin lol..cuz dez wanted ta learn...we kinda new how...so den jane invited sean over n we were all hyper as hell...like jane was humpin every1..so was dez lol...i got a lapdance from dez n jane...kerry got one from a epileptic stripper *dez* lol...n jane gave one ta kerry lol...we were all gringin sorta lol...den like dez was showin me yoga lol dog style cat style lol...den jane went behind her lol...every1 was all fuckin sweaty as hell lol...den dez went crazy lol she was all jumpin n actin like a monkey lol i dunno lol...so like den we had ta go cuz i was gunna get in trouble n dave got smacked by his dad 0=0(...so like yeh den we all sed our byes n stuff...so me cecil n jane walked up n sean dez n kerry went down...so on our way ta da dance cuz cecil needed ta pick up his sis...he found a peace ribbon thin...lol we tried ta put it on him...like its a big version in card bored lol...so like we quit cuz it didnt wurk...so like we were gunna cross da street but cecil confused da hell outta us...n we were in da middle n da cop was like get outta da street...n we were yellin at cecil lol....so like yeh cuz his moms car was like rite der..so jane left me cuz she walked dis kid home...n i was runnin walkin my ass ta my house...n den john was der n we were talkin...n him amreeta n dina were makin fun o me sayin i was a penguin cuz of mario cart game tin lol....so yeh i left n i got yelled at n i coodnt go on da damn trip ta philly 0=0(...n rite now i hot as hell n bored!!!
current mood:  bored
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Saturday, April 13th, 2002
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11:36 am - OW
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11:18 am - soooooooo tired!!!!
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ahh...i dunno...umm....yesterday i was suppose ta get my stuff...so like im all syked out ta get it..n like during chem...serena was like bla got jumped n i was like huh...she was like she was gunna get it fer u 2day but like dees chiks took yer money...n i was like nooooo....n i was all sad *kries*....so like now i broke n have nuffinz...*sighs*...n e wayz...wut else happend....oh yeh..me n serena cut gym n karina was like making fun of dez lol...i sorries?...ahh my chest hurts like a mofo!!!....n e wayz...kerry was like out cuz she had ta go ta a trip n stuff *kries*...n e wayz...uh...*tires ta think*....i dunno wut happend but like lol...after skool...it was raining n all...n like i met up wit kerry n sue n stessa n jane...sue handed out trip forms ta go ta filedelphia....n i was like ok ill go....so den like after skool we all split...stessa n kerry went home me n jane stayed at her place....n stuff...but we decided ta go ta mcyd'z cuz jane was hungry....n we saw k n stuf...den went back ta janes house...n i fell asleep on her chair..cuz i was mad tired n didnt feel like doin n e tin...so den kerry came over n we were talkin ta mel n stuff...fer like 4 hrs o sumtin...den we all chilled in janes room on her bed...BAD MOVE....jane took out all her disney friends...n raped me n kerry wit it wile we were on da fone wit mel....like she shoved it in our cooches n jane did sumtin ta me....*squints*...DAMN BITCH!!!....lol...so den like yeh...she practically raped us lol..was fun...den like me n jane switched pants lol...i dunno...den i poked kerry lol....jane broke her!!! *kries*...she like smashed her neck on da ground...n kerry was like hittin her hed all over da place...like on da floor n on da fan lol...poor lil wite grl...so like yeh..den irenio came over n we were playin music...he was playin video games wile me n jane were dancing lol...*yawns*....n e wayz...we were bout ta leef cuz janes mom was gunna come home..i didnt wanna leef cuz i was in dis reely comferbale place...but nooo jane made me...so den we went downstairs n waited fer ever1 ta come...den jane locked herself in da b room wit kerry...god nos wut happend lol....den like her mom came home wile she was stil in da b room n she didnt no dat her mom was der...so i was like er jane yer mom is home....den her mom walked up da stairs sayin mhmz....n i was like bitch lol..sorry jane but i dun like her lol.....den we left n went ta da carnaval at st. vinnies...sucked big tits!!!!...we lit my bottle on fire wit a straw...den like dis grls i new like takled me n yellin guess dey were high o sum shit like dat i dunno..alison was like were fallon n askin bout fallon....shes like u dun hang out wit her no more..n i was like no den i left cuz yeh...den like on da way back...me n irenio were burnin a slug lol so nasty....den wen we were gunna go ta my place..da same grlz were der n kristina was like come here i wanna lick yer eer n fuck u o sum shit like dat i was like er...ok...lol..but ud never wanna even like do shit wit her just cuz lol...den we left n we went ta my place n sat der talkin n i got my lite stuff...so den like i dunno we got into talkin bout relationships n askin renny sumtin lol...i dunno it got weird...oh n like yesterday john n justin found out...i dunno its weird...*sighs*....i dun wanna loose another friend...i dunno i paranoid...<--bad....n e wayz yeh kerry was like sleepin n i dunno i was tired as hell...den dey left n i ate ice cream n slept...lol...n 2day i was suppose ta hang out wit kerry n renny but kerrys i tink sleepin i dunno..cuz we gunna hang out wit dez to but i dunno lol ppl r lazy as hell!!! lol i tired
current mood: drained
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Thursday, April 11th, 2002
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10:19 pm - WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....er...i sooo tired lol
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my hed hurts again...*kries*...n e wayz...hmm...i cut 4th i tink..i dunno das wen i have gym...rite?...n e wazy... i like hurt my back cuz i slid of the bleeches n stuff cuz jane n stessa was like come...so im like ok...n i left serena n michele i sorries!!! i lub ooo...n e wayz...we went ta cafe n stuff...n jane mixed all dis shit in a cup like mayo ketchup n strawberry milk frutopia...n i dunno...so like yeh...i drank it up...lol it was mad gud 0=0)...stessa n dez were like teering up..i sorries...n hanoy n others like moved to another table *shrugs*...DAMN GRLZ!!!...so like yeh...every1 was like lookin at me dunno i dun care lol..stessa drank outta my eer!! das like wut 3 o 4 pplz?....so like yeh...den i dunno wut happend...lol...kerry cut wit me ta go ta my cafe n i was like all hyper cuz of the shit i drank i dunno...guess das my natural highness?...so like n e wayz..like yeh after skool...cecil n pplz were outside..n i gave my money ta serena ta yeh...n like i have ta get it morrow!!!dammit serena better not steel it!!...n e wayz..i kinda left cecil wit jane..*kries* im meen n stuff..0=0(..i sorries...*sighs* sumtins rong wit me...so like yeh...den me serena n kerry were walkin n stuff...n dey b beetin me wit da plastic bottle...n like we met up wit irenio...n we were talkin bout "stuff"...so we beeped barron...no1 was der n like serena went home...n we were just der chillin at dis place...irenio popped up sumtin n like we think it had sumtin in it..but didnt?...i dunno...so like we went back ta his place to use da tin we bought in ny...n like kerry like nearly died...irenio almost passed out lol...n i was like der a lil den i choked lol....so like yeh...den we went ta my place...n like we were der on my porch....soooo fuckin bored like it was a nice ass day out..but like nuffin ta do...so like we were burning stuff....like everytin we saw...like i got out my fire crackers n stuff...da ones u pull n dey pop?....so like yeh..we burnt plants clothes...n stuff...i kinda put kerry on fire again lol..she was playin tetris n stuff..n i set her hood string on fire..n she didnt no n like i didnt no it was on fire sorta n i was like omg..ahhh n i put it out...i saved yer life!!!....so like yeh..i got out marshmellows...n we were havin dis ghetto ass camp tin..lol..so like yeh..den we put ta fire crackers in da marshmellow but it didnt pop 0=0(...so like den we put 2 in a paper roll tin n dey poped mad loud...n den like i was tryin ta open dis liter but it woodnt so i got my knife n was poundin on it..n it xploded n i was like SHIT!!...lol...it like blew up in my face n parts landed on kerry lol n like almost stabbed her...so den like after burnin shit...i kept on callin jane ta see were she was n cecil cuz like no1 was home..n stuff...so like after callin jane..kerry was like is dat her..n i was like were..she was ridin her bike ta my house...so like yeh..we were all der doin nuffinz...n jane was i dunno sad o sumtin..tell me!!!...n like yeh...so pplz were mooving next door ta us n der ppl commin in n out...so i dunno n like...den i was reedin janes book n she was all sayin hello ta pplz she didnt even no...god...lol...n irenio was chekin d out lol...heh..so like yeh...den we went ta joes ta eet n we were bein stupid..me n jane sorta had sex lol..but not reely?....den like i had ta go home in a way cuz like i thought i saw my dads van but like i was outside da place lookin at dem thru da window...n like me n jane were like makin out wit da pizza crust...lol...n den wit i dunno i think sumtin else...so den me n kerry were rittin messages thru da window by like fogin it up n stuff...den dey were outside n angel went by...he got kiked outta skool n boot camp lol..awwwz...den like yeh...stuff....mel called but i wasnt here *kries* dammit!!! so i called her back but she wasnt home..da fone was busy so i dunno...den i have sp hw ta do but i didnt feel like doin..it ill do it l8tr...ahh fri!!!!!....i dunno 0=0\
current mood: sleepy
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Wednesday, April 10th, 2002
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5:04 pm - damn talkin....
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ok ready?...wishes....cup of slushy...4 letter...no talkin fer 30 minz...upset azn grl...foosed wite grl....more wishes..thinkin...empty hed...heh..lol...dat was all yesterday...so like yeh...wut happend today..er...i stole shit from amy MINE!!...da tools not her...=\...N E WAYZ....stole tape..from gym...umm...got a beeper num *jumps* umm just scared n e way...uh...john like molested my hed....umz...i hate ppl....er...so many fragmented sentences words bla...now i bored cuz i came home early cuz my was bitchin bout me...SHE CALLED ME A WHORE!!..she was all talkin loud like enuf fer me ta hear her...she was talkin ta my sis wile i was in da b room...n she was like if she was in da philipines...n came home dat late wit bois o pplz..shes considedred a whore o hooker 0=0(..i luv u mom...heh...yeh i bored now...KERRY!!!!!....i almost lost my fingers...like kerry found string n stuff...n like she took da haf o da end..n i took da other...n she was walkin n i wasnt...n i was like rollin dem up wit my finger...n like i coodnt move em..n it was kold...but dey ok...n i was my friend gab...she kool bla...
current mood:  awake
current music: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Monday, April 8th, 2002
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9:18 pm - stuff u force ppl to no..den dey regret it....bla...
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ahhh...damn this day....i dunno...i went ta da lib today..cuz i had ta finish my lab wit michele...kerry jane stessa came also...i was like dying in skool..my beans o sum shit hurts like hell...n e wayz...i fergot my visor...i felt naked...n like yeh...eh i guess it was arite..actually no its not...i dunno *shrugs* i dread dis day...was funnie dough...marti was at da lib...n i didnt no it was her...so i was messin wit jane sayin jane its marti...n jane was like imagine it was marti n she turned around....so like 3 mins later jane was like it is marti...i was like oops? lol....n e wayz...kerry was reedin da bible...=\...she sed sumtin n i was like ahhh nooo..n den it wasnt funnie n e more lol....i dunno....jane was like harassin marti..n we were sittin on da couches...n dominique was der...so jane was like lookin at both of dem lol...n like i dunno i went wit kerry into da storage place..n i kinda lost her..so i went out n stessa gave me janes jacket cuz she was stalkin marti lol...i was like i dun want it...so den jane came back..n we were all sittin on da steps..i was makin my hannibal face...i was ugly lol *kries*...n e wayz...janes meen as hell she was tellin kerry ta say sumtin o i dunno...n dey wanted me ta kry cuz michele never saw a azn chick kry...so i was like lemme try...i coodnt lol..so den we were leefin..n jane was like ahh n i was like nooo not in public...i dunno...so like me n jane went ta bw videos ta return micheles tapes n stuff...n like we went back ta my house just talkin n stuff...n like i decided ta get a slushy...jane was staring at d..n stalkin her to lol...so n e wayz...i saw amy n stuff..n i was like AMY!!..cuz i dunno lol...so we liked hung out wit her cuz she was gunna mail a letter n stuff..n she was lookin fer a stamp..but yeh...so den we walked her home cuz we had nuffin better ta do..n jane bought chips just cuz d was der lol....so like yeh...den we went back ta my place n jane tried ta call her house..but her bros were on i dunno..she coodnt dial lol...she called da fire place...so like i had ta call fer her....den we called kerry n hung up on her like 4 times by accident...den like yeh...den wen jane left..i called her back n asked kerry if she trusted me...n it led ta sumtin n reeeeeeeeeeeely didnt wanna no bout...but it was to late..n like eh...i told her sumtin n ahhh...*kries* I SORRIES!!!....n e wayz..i woodnt do n e tin...i promise...
current mood: accomplished
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Sunday, April 7th, 2002
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10:38 pm - soooooooooooo phuckin bored.....
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AHHHH....sooo much hw....but lil time ta do it...i was gunna do my hw..but i was like ill do it 2morrow wen der actually was a 2morrow....but like 2day i was like ill do it at 7...7 never came cuz i fell asleep...i called kerry like 5 times cuz i got nuffin better ta do ....jane went out...i was bored outta my hed....my hed was hurtin again...0=0(....i tink im dying...n e wayz...yeh...den like erm....after i slept...i went ta home depot wit my parents...cuz i had nuffin better ta do n stuff...n time will pass so like yeh i went...n i bought glowstix over der eh..i dunnoz....n like now i have hw but dun feel like doin it...ill prolly do it 2morrow o in 1st period.....oh yeh..lastnite...jane called me at like 11 w/o daylite savings....12 wit....jane was like shelly pick up da fone its important...so i did n i was like yeh?....n she was like call kerry...cuz she cant call u cuz shes like drunk n cant leef a message on yer machine...n i was like i dun wanna cuz like i dun wanna talk ta her wile shes drunk cuz ders no convo goin on ya no?...so like yeh i called her n stuff...n shes all like yeh?...n i was fallin asleep on da chair tin i was on...n she was havin a convo byherself n stuff....n she was laffin every like 5 sec...*shrugs*...i was like kerry im gunna sleep n i tink u need sleep to...she all like ahh i dunno lol...den taday me n jane made fun o her lol..she had like no recalection of wut happend 0=0)...she needed ta go ta a aa meetin n stuff...like mrs.oliver sed..if u drink byyerself n stuff....yer an alcholic...n like in da 12 step program...u have ta admit u got a prob...*hugz kerry* i lub ooo but yer a semi drunk...jk 0=0)....
current mood: tired
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Saturday, April 6th, 2002
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8:17 pm - im goin ta die....
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ahhh..ever since dis mornin my heds been hurtin...n thru dis whole week..n last..eh..i mite get a catscan..*kries*...not another one....ah ne wayz....yeh dis mornin i was all sick cuz of my hed...i did sum of my hw...kinda sorta cleaned....er..my house is fucked up cuz like the fuse in my room n my parents r like broken lol....so like yeh...all i did basically is do hw...talked online fer like 30..every like 2 hrs..cuz i was bored i played video games...kerryz all like gone...bla...ummz...im bored!! 1 more day left o vac..n like we gatta take 1 hr off cuz of sum spring fall time thing...eh...
current mood: hurting
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Friday, April 5th, 2002
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10:58 pm - ahhh dammit pplz!!!
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yeh...ok so like uhuh....i koodnt sleep cuz like i lost my liter yesterday n it was drivin me krazy as hell....so like i woke up at like 6...n tired ta find it n i did *yay*...so n e wayz..den i went back ta sleep after findin it n eetin fud n stuff..den i woke up at like 9...n wanted ta go back ta sleep but like i fergot sum1 was suppose ta call me..so i went downstairs n like kerry called me so i called her back...n she sed ta get ready n shower n stuff...i didnt feel like it cuz i just woke up n like i was tired n lazy as hell...but i was like grrr fine fuck it..so i did shower n bla....so yeh...den like 1 hr l8tr o so...renny called me n sed ta go ta his house cuz kerrys gettin change fer da trip...n i was like arite...so yeh wen i got der i showed him my liter which wasnt wurkin cuz i dunno it was all fucked up o sumtin....den kerry showed up n we chilled at his place fer like 10 minz...den we left....so like we were on da literail...n i got 2 tickes fer me n kerry like she paid hers but in full..eh wutever...n like i told her not ta stamp it yet cuz like so we didnt have ta pay l8tr on...but she stamped it n i was like ahhh dammit...but den irenio didnt so im like dun stamp it yet so i dun gatta do mine...n we can just say dey ran out lol....so like yeh we didnt get caught n stuff...0=0)....den ta go on da path i didnt wanna pay but like der was ppl...so i payed...den we kinda got lost in da village lol...like dey new sorta were ta go but not reely....n i told dem ta just follow da rainbow o da flag lol...ya no?....er yeh..so den after walkin fer 30 minz...we finally found da place like 9th street lol....n we all went ta eech place dat looked like dey sold rings n stuff....n i bought dis tin n renny n kerry bought it also...but i bought another one..it was funnie...like i went ta dis place n dis dude was like do u need a pipe? n i was like na i needed sumtin else...n he was like oh ok lol...n i got his number lol..was krazy.....n 9th street lab closed 0=0(...i tink lol i not sure....so yeh i bought rings n stuff i spent $76...n owe renny $20...ahh i need a job....gay street sucked lol..its all lonley n stuff lol....so like yeh i got my liter ta wurk in a way...den i tried ta refill it n now its all broken lol....i tried ta set kerry n renny on fire but it didnt wurk..jk i just flicked a match on dem....ahh so yeh...den i saw my friends olga n omara...pplz i graduated wit...*hugz* yeh lol...so n e wayz...we called every1 we new dat yeh...but noooooo dey all ran out...dammit!!!!!....so den we went ta rennys bros house ta babysit wit him...was fun just tooo damn long lol...but yeh..den cecil jane n stessa showed up n was fun..dey b talkin in tagalog lol i b speekin in eng. lol..ahh dammit so like yeh..den i borrowed da movie stir of echos n me n jane faught over spot da dog...cuz it was made kute 0=0)...wile dey all watched monsters inc lol...i didnt watch all of it eh...yeh so like den we finally left at like 7....n like me renny n kerry went ta james house ta yeh...but nooooo 0=0(...so den we went ta rennys house n stuff den l8tr on jane n pplz came...we watched da movie but PPLZ WERE SOO FUCKIN NOISY...jk lol...i was to oh wellz....so like yeh...we ordered pizza n it didnt come but it did we just didnt hear it cuz da tv was mad loud....lol...so like yeh we ate n after da movie every1 was tired sorta...da wite one was lol...we all danced n stuff cept kerry n cecil..renny kinda did but not reely lol....so like yeh...den i went home n got yelled at n stuff...n i tink cecils mom was mad *shrugs* i sorries?....now i got like a lot of hw ta do!!!!...ahhh grrrrr....my eers r 0!!
current mood: sleepy
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Thursday, April 4th, 2002
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11:12 pm - i sorries!!!
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*kries* i killed kerryz rist....n e wayz..2day i er..i did hw sorta lol...kinda cuz like no1 was on well no every1 was on..but yeh...like..i was online...i was talkin ta jane n stuff..n she told me wut kerry wished fer..n i was like ahhh n i took it a bad way n stuff..but like yeh..i did n i coodnt hewp it...i am a pessimistic person kinda tin lol...oops?..well yeh i didnt wanna talk bout it wit kerry o n e 1 cuz i dunno i didnt feel like it..so like i was all sad n shitz...n i didnt sleep last nite cuz i wanted ta no...but like i got over it cuz o jane lol...n like den kerry n jane went bike riding...n i went but no bike fer me just cuz i didnt wanna n stuff..not cuz of "that"..but cuz i didnt feel like it....n like yeh so kerry n jane got here like 500 hrs later...n like we handcuffed kerry n stuff n tied her shoelaces together..so like den me n jane had a contest who cood tie her laces das fastest but like we were tied n stuff..so no1 reely won...so den we left sorta n jane put her bike n kerrys in my backyard cuz we were goin ta irenios n stuff..n kerry took da keyz fer da handcuffz n stole em n i had ta run accross da street fer dem n like i kinda tripped her n her rist like got spraint i sorries!!!!...n i thought she was kryin so i felt reely bad...0=0(...so like den i got ice n everytin was sorta ok lol...so we went ta renny'z bros house n played wit his neice eb..she kute lol shes my sister...eh..n e wayz yeh we played wit her toys n wutnot lol 0=0)...me kerry chilled in da tent n eb to n jane...den we left n went ta pieros n stuff den jane left cuz she was gunna get in trouble if she didnt go home early...so den me kerry n renny went ta my house n chilled der fer a wile..n called stessa n told renny dat yeh..lol...n stars n we talked ta stessa lol...den we all went down ta block n stuff...n did sumtin n kerry like nearly died lol...she was all tearin up....n we goin ta ny morrow fer like yeh....lol ahh i full!!!!
current mood: awake
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12:00 pm - wheres my shoulder wen u need to lean on......
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omg...ahhh u wood swear after knowing stuff b4 hand like you wood no fuck this..im sooooo confused.....like i wanna kry soooo much..but cant cuz i dunno das how confused i am!!...i shooda not have gone online 2day....i dunno...im a pussy....i cant contain my feelings n deal wit it....i feel like shit rite now....like wut ever u ppl told me (specified to both those ppl).....i sorries?...i shood stop sayin i sorries huh?...ahhh u sed not to change but now i dunno...fine..ill follow..i wont ask n e 1 for help n e more...? ok ready?...IM A FUCKIN PUSSY!!!!!!RITE? AHH I DUNNO U CANT HOLD DIS AGAINST ME CUZ I AM ALOWED TA VENT RITE?...dammit...u all dunno how i feel..n u dun care...but oh well....wutever u say jane i doin...cuz rite now i wont b "me"..ill b me..just remove all the pussyness n jokin bout "it" n all dat shit k?...ill encolse haf of my emotions in a way...
current mood: and confused
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Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002
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10:52 pm - wth..i lost
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ahh i dunno...i woke up at like 12 n every1 was online..U PPLZ HAVE NO LIVES!!!..jk 0=0)...ne wayz..yeh er...kerry jane n stuff planned ta chill today so im like ok cuz i got nuffin better ta do....so i all waited for dem n like i dunno..we chilled jane went home 2 hrs late lol..n kerry stayed n stuff..i FOOSED.....KERRY!!TELL ME!!!!!I SORRIES!!!!!I DUN GET IT!!!!...ahhhhh now u got me all thinkin!!! *sighs* dammit i was like mad close..till my phuckin puter froze!!!!*kries*
current mood:  confused
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Monday, April 1st, 2002
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9:54 pm - damn kids....
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ahh hmm...yeh...i was bored as hell 2day..so i decided ta go get up n eet n go back ta bed...as i went ta bed i was chekin my eer n like i noticed i lost a washer fer it..i was like fuck....so den i didnt look fer it cuz i new it was gone...so den i went back ta bed n played my cd..n i coodnt sleep so i just stayed der fer a wile ta pass time..so den i got out of bed n went online...it was like 120pm..n im like dis pplz have no lives cuz kerry was on fer n 1hr n jane was on..lol..i dunno i thought ppl had stuff ta do...so n e wayz..i was on fer like ever...dl music n shit...den kerry imed me sayin if i wanted ta go ta da mall wit her..so i sed lemme ask mom...so i did n she sed yeh i cood go..n she sed janes goin o sumtin..den she sed shes not n rays not goin..cuz once she sed dat i was goin he was like eh..i dun feel gud o sumtin..*sighs*..n e wayz...yeh..so den it was like 2..n i took a shower n shit...n like i didnt no wut was goin on cuz i was still in my pjs n kerrys all dressed n shit..n she got dez ta go...so like den i was runnin back n forth thruout my house lookin fer money n clothes...n she sed dat dez isnt goin cuz she was takin to long...so im like ahhh..so im like fine..so den she came ta pick me up like 2 hrs l8tr lol..den we went ta da lite rail n dis omish lookin pplz..were askin wich train goes ta manhattan..im like i dunno..n hes like were r u goin..we sed newport..n he sed oh yeh we r goin der to..so i looked at kerry n sed ok...der jewish n stuff not omish..so im like arite..den we went on da train tin..n i was all lookin at dem n sed ta kerry dat ders no way in hell der from bayonne..cuz u cood just tell der not...so like kerry was reedin da paper sum1 left on da train..she cooda got anthrax but wutever lol....i was eyeing dis lil boi cuz he was kute 0=0)...hes like 4 lol...so n e wayz..kerry threw dis paper ball tin at me n a newspaper..so like i rolled up ball like its a size of a basketball o sumin lol..n threw it at her 0=0)...den like yeh..we finally got der at newport...n like i saw k..n we just automatically pointed fingers at eech other i dunno n like we went our separate ways n went ta sears cuz kerry needed glasses...n like we were all lookin at glasses...n she found one..but like she coodnt get n e cuz her eyes were like fucked up...so den im like ahh we went her fer nufinz lol...n da lady is missin a finger i dunno lol...so like den we went ta radio shack n ebx lookin fer ps2 mem card fer my bro..but dey all ran out..so den i decided ta go ta verizon to chek out da fones...i found like 1 dat actually wurks..so i called kerrys house twice lol..but she didnt belif me till her mom picked up lol n she hung up...den i called janes house n sum1 i didnt no picked up n i hung up...den i called mel but it woodnt pick up cuz shes all da way over der...so like den we left n like went on da lite rail...dis 2 lil black kids..r fuckin annoyin as hell..like fer reel..dey were all makin fun of me n my clothes n shit n makin fun o kerry..i was pissed off as hell duh..but i didnt wann provoke n e tin like dey were cuz im just not like dat..n no..i wasnt scared...den like i saw erick n his pplz on da train n dey were makin fun of him to..dey were curisn der heds off n shit..but wutever dey dunno better der moms a fuckin hoe fer not teechin dem rite...ahhhh wutever...so den we left n like me n kerry got pizza ta eet n chilled at my house lookin at stars...but like she saw da lil dipper i didnt..i tink its her eyez lol...so den like we were talkin n i psycoanalized her lol...im gud..i all got it rite..sed she..so jane shup i no her well..i dunno da obvious but i no da hidden 0=0P..so n e wayz..yeh kerryz got issues *hugz* i still lub oo dough lol...den like yeh she left n im here now lol...
current mood: tired
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9:54 pm - damn kids....
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ahh hmm...yeh...i was bored as hell 2day..so i decided ta go get up n eet n go back ta bed...as i went ta bed i was chekin my eer n like i noticed i lost a washer fer it..i was like fuck....so den i didnt look fer it cuz i new it was gone...so den i went back ta bed n played my cd..n i coodnt sleep so i just stayed der fer a wile ta pass time..so den i got out of bed n went online...it was like 120pm..n im like dis pplz have no lives cuz kerry was on fer n 1hr n jane was on..lol..i dunno i thought ppl had stuff ta do...so n e wayz..i was on fer like ever...dl music n shit...den kerry imed me sayin if i wanted ta go ta da mall wit her..so i sed lemme ask mom...so i did n she sed yeh i cood go..n she sed janes goin o sumtin..den she sed shes not n rays not goin..cuz once she sed dat i was goin he was like eh..i dun feel gud o sumtin..*sighs*..n e wayz...yeh..so den it was like 2..n i took a shower n shit...n like i didnt no wut was goin on cuz i was still in my pjs n kerrys all dressed n shit..n she got dez ta go...so like den i was runnin back n forth thruout my house lookin fer money n clothes...n she sed dat dez isnt goin cuz she was takin to long...so im like ahhh..so im like fine..so den she came ta pick me up like 2 hrs l8tr lol..den we went ta da lite rail n dis omish lookin pplz..were askin wich train goes ta manhattan..im like i dunno..n hes like were r u goin..we sed newport..n he sed oh yeh we r goin der to..so i looked at kerry n sed ok...der jewish n stuff not omish..so im like arite..den we went on da train tin..n i was all lookin at dem n sed ta kerry dat ders no way in hell der from bayonne..cuz u cood just tell der not...so like kerry was reedin da paper sum1 left on da train..she cooda got anthrax but wutever lol....i was eyeing dis lil boi cuz he was kute 0=0)...hes like 4 lol...so n e wayz..kerry threw dis paper ball tin at me n a newspaper..so like i rolled up ball like its a size of a basketball o sumin lol..n threw it at her 0=0)...den like yeh..we finally got der at newport...n like i saw k..n we just automatically pointed fingers at eech other i dunno n like we went our separate ways n went ta sears cuz kerry needed glasses...n like we were all lookin at glasses...n she found one..but like she coodnt get n e cuz her eyes were like fucked up...so den im like ahh we went her fer nufinz lol...n da lady is missin a finger i dunno lol...so like den we went ta radio shack n ebx lookin fer ps2 mem card fer my bro..but dey all ran out..so den i decided ta go ta verizon to chek out da fones...i found like 1 dat actually wurks..so i called kerrys house twice lol..but she didnt belif me till her mom picked up lol n she hung up...den i called janes house n sum1 i didnt no picked up n i hung up...den i called mel but it woodnt pick up cuz shes all da way over der...so like den we left n like went on da lite rail...dis 2 lil black kids..r fuckin annoyin as hell..like fer reel..dey were all makin fun of me n my clothes n shit n makin fun o kerry..i was pissed off as hell duh..but i didnt wann provoke n e tin like dey were cuz im just not like dat..n no..i wasnt scared...den like i saw erick n his pplz on da train n dey were makin fun of him to..dey were curisn der heds off n shit..but wutever dey dunno better der moms a fuckin hoe fer not teechin dem rite...ahhhh wutever...so den we left n like me n kerry got pizza ta eet n chilled at my house lookin at stars...but like she saw da lil dipper i didnt..i tink its her eyez lol...so den like we were talkin n i psycoanalized her lol...im gud..i all got it rite..sed she..so jane shup i no her well..i dunno da obvious but i no da hidden 0=0P..so n e wayz..yeh kerryz got issues *hugz* i still lub oo dough lol...den like yeh she left n im here now lol...
current mood: tired
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Sunday, March 31st, 2002
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10:09 pm - *sighs*....
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how many more feelings must i hurt now?...i already hurt 2..mayb 3...i dunno wut ta do...i told ray bout "things" all i have to do now is hide it between 2 ppl...by tellin..god nos wuts gunna happen...y me?..im finally happy..but now its goin away slowly...by hurtin pplz i care bout...0=0(...*sighs*...like i dun regret wut i did...but i dunno...i feel bad...do i care to much?..am i suppose ta feel like dis?...wut i did rite?..is n e tin i do rite n e more...y does everytin i do that i actually get...have to back fire at me?....wtf did i do rong?...*sighs*...I SORRIES!!!!!!!!!......i didnt meen to...dammit...everytin seriously..has a concequence ta it...everytin dat makes me happy turn ta shit...y?...eh...i bitch to much huh?...i dunno....i feel like shit now...grr dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Y!!!!!!ahhhh I DIDNT CHOOSE TA DO IT..I DUN MEEN TA DO IT...ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood: depressed
current music: cold~~~bleed
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