| Pooh | May. 20th, 2004 @ 07:58 pm |
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Things can be so sad at times. Friends not happy, family members poorly, the state of the world...i got so upset yesterday hearing about the Israelis going in and destroying all these Palestinian houses. Radio 4 had the Israeli ambassador to London on and he was just so bigoted. Why cant people just live in peace for goodness sake? And i get sad when friends are unhappy. Sometimes things happen and people have to make decisions which end up hurting people and its all ikky. I feel so sorry for people in that situation cos its not like anyone is right or wrong...sometimes peoples feelings change and there isnt a lot anyone can do about that. But it doesnt stop it being so damn sad.
On a happier note *and here Emma swings from sad to jovial in one giant leap* i have managed to defeat Brother Obscura and get the painting. Yay go me. And i bought two PS1 Tomb Raider games for less than a tenner today...and...AND we bought a dance mat. Yes. Sad. I know. It was the Angelic Ones idea. But hey, it beats sweating at a gym and paying £50 a month when you can have a laugh and a sing along to Atomic Kitten. OK perhaps not.
I bought pink things too.
Oh and i booked my holiday to Prague today...
Oh and i like this icon cos it makes me laugh cos Spig says it looks like Dave Gahan is having a fit :)Feeling:  thoughtful |
| Pigeon poo | May. 18th, 2004 @ 06:58 pm |
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My day turned into one big heap of problems. All to do with either work or my car. Which is actually a company car so that makes all my problems to do with work. Hey ho!
I am attempting to remedy all of this cakkiness with booking holidays to Prague and somewhere else which im not too sure of yet....Feeling:  cheerful |
| Smiley | May. 18th, 2004 @ 08:02 am |
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The sun is shining, i have new jewellery, got loads of work done yesterday, im feeling happy :)Feeling:  good |
| Procrastination | May. 16th, 2004 @ 12:12 pm |
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I cant quite believe i have slept this late.....i had a disturbing dream...one of those inappropriate ones involving sex with someone you know and dont fancy at all. Eeek.
I have lots to do today and dont want to do most of it. I have a pile of work-stuff to do, must tidy my bedroom, go to the tip, do the ironing, get Sammys keys over to Sarah, and go to House of Gayness later for a BBQ. So why am i sitting here writing on LJ? Procrastination as usual....
Goddammit it, its too nice to be doing work!Feeling:  busy Choonz: Sarah-Bird on MSN |
| | May. 16th, 2004 @ 12:20 am |
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| | May. 15th, 2004 @ 12:20 am |
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Friday nights are just so fab for monging out! Had yummy chinese for tea, watched some ultra brill programme on the history of London (i *love* programmes like that...), then DB, then JR....am currently trying to suss further problems out in Tomb Raider. I have decided its sad when you start to wish you looked like a character from a game...
I am just trawling through the Net of Inters as me n Vix have decided to go to Prague later this year. Yay! Go us! Anyone been? Know any good places to go? Greta did tell me some places but was a tad drunk when i was talking to her and cant remember now....somewhere with human bones...
I now just have to organise my summer holidays....have decided i cant afford New York this year so need to think of somewhere else....although i have to say that somewhere really quiet in this country would be lovely!Feeling:  full |
| | May. 14th, 2004 @ 07:48 pm |
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Did mucho work last night and was able to do my Special Investigation interview today with all the necvessary work at my fingertips....still stressful though...mind you i guess the people i interview are far more stressed! The one i did today was just with the main suspects line manager to find out why he wasnt monitoring the situation, next week i have to interview the suspect and am not looking forward to it. Its all to do with regulatory products and compliance which i have no idea...not looking forward to that one....feeling very under pressure at work at the moment...got mucho work to do this weekend too but at least if i put the hours in this weekend and over the next couple of weeks i can see a ray of light at the end of the tunnel...
Went to Bullring on way home - needed de-stressing so bought some shoes and the cutest skirt from New Look. I shall wear it for the family parrrtaaayy tomorrow night.
Spoke to Justin - he's having a Eurovision party tomorrow night (bless) but *unfortunatly* i wont be able to go. Although it would have been a laugh cos Billy is going too. Billy is like the filthiest 80 year old bloke i have ever met. In fact he is one of the filthiest people i have ever met! We make mischief when we get together heheheh! Anyway, am going to honour the House of Gayness with my presence on Sunday - allegedly its gonna be warm so a BBQ sounds like the order of the day...
Right. Tomb Raider. Oooh yes go me! I managed to finish The Hall of Seasons off last night!
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| | May. 13th, 2004 @ 06:46 pm |
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Had crap night last night ....my endeavours to go out more hit a barrier on the first night...the only people i really wanted to see didnt turn up till late, saw few people i liked and more people that i couldnt care less about (not in a naasty way, although with maybe one exception). So i decided to come home and play Tomb Raider...
Have had good day at work, but oh so busy. Got parking ticket too. Bastards. And im really, really stressed cos i have so much work to do, its all piling up and i dont seem to have any time to do it except over the next few nights and at the weekend. Am currently at that stage when you just want to cry and tear your hair out. From experience this means that i need to write a list. Oh yes indeed. And cross things off. This will make me feel better.
I am mega-ly irritated by someone at the moment too...MEN LIE. This is a fact. Sometimes they dont even realise what twats they are being/have been. And then they realise a little too late. AAAGHH!!! GRRRR!!!!! Not that i care about this particular person but when i trust a bloke (this is rather an unusual feat for me..) and he tells me something then i expect it to be the truth. I mean, if im honest with people they should be honest back right? Bollocks. Thats all i can say. Well more fool you mister cos you are the one thats come out of this worst.
Right. Tomb Raider. Cup of tea. Work. Work. Work.Feeling:  crushed |
| Oh yeah.. | May. 12th, 2004 @ 06:50 pm |
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...i got offered an interview for the job abroad. Am pretty sure i would have got it to. Anyway i turned the interview down. No point wasting anyones time - just couldnt face being away from home for so long. |
| *grumble* | May. 12th, 2004 @ 06:42 pm |
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Does anyone ever plan anything by any other method than sodding LJ anymore?? Some of us dont read it every day and then find out stuff has been n gone...and why do people not bother to answer text messages? (points at YOU Spiggy!!).
Anyway grumble over. Ive had an ultra fab day. No particular reason other than being at Perry Barr branch with loads of lovely, lovely people - i was expecting the place to be a godforsaken hell-hole but its cool! Plus i met a member of staff who is in an 80s cover band and another who is going to Gay Pride at the end of the month...amazing the kind of people who work for LloydsTSB :)
Am feeling remarkably cheerful YAY!
Oh and Mesh are playing Manchester in October...i feel a skint month next month already - Mission tickets and Mesh...
Oh and seeing as none of you fucking apathetic arseholes could be bothered to answer my trivia question of the day a few days ago then you will never, EVER know who were the last band to play live on The Word. So i officially am Queen of Trivia :opFeeling: cheerful Choonz: Some God Awful Shite that Angel is playing |
| Trivia question of the day... | May. 10th, 2004 @ 07:54 am |
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Prompted by ![[info]](http://library.vu.edu.pk/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/000100A/http/web.archive.org/web/20040520193103im_/http:/=2fstat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sheepthief's recent post i have remembered a further fact about the occassionally inspired, often vomit-worthy programme that was The Word. Can anyone remember who the very last band was to play live on The Word? And what song they were playing? They were playing as the final credits rolled.....
Sitting here lookingout of the window i have noticed how dull and grey the sky is today, plus Boris Cat from next door is about to fall off our fence...
Right onwards and upwards...time for work....feeling quite positive today for some strange reason...Feeling: chipper |
| So the weekend... | May. 9th, 2004 @ 10:12 pm |
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Being positive there were many good things
1) Realising that my friends do actually care about me
2) Realising i need to stop stressing about the above and make an effort
3) Seeing Jules n Jody
4) New hair
5) Spirited Away is a fantastic film. Much as i hate to admit this due to it being a cartoon n all...
6) Found a yummy chinese in Acocks Green
7) Spoke to my Aunty Brenda - my nan is coming out of hospital. Yay!
8) I love my family. Its taken me a long time to realise it but its true.
Of course there were bad things....
1) I cant go out without having a mental spazzy crying fit
2) It dont matter how scrubbed up i am i still aint gonna be attractive
3) Mybedroom looks like a bomb has hit it and i cant be arsed to do anything about it
4) After a month of not drinking i remebered this morning how bad a hangover can be...
5) Cant go to Paul n Sarah next weekend cos having family get-together to celebrate my nan coming out of hospital and Mikes (Auntie's b/f) 50th.
But i shall try not to dwell on the bad stuff cos, hey, for once the good list is longer than the bad!!Feeling:  okay |
| Hehe! | May. 8th, 2004 @ 10:37 am |
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| | May. 7th, 2004 @ 11:59 am |
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Well my back is feeling remarkably better today, just left with a bit of a stiff back and shoulders, which will be dulled with the use of alcohol and tablets...however, i noticed this morning that my arm is getting worse...i fell over 3 weeks ago and its been hurting all that time but now im starting with shooting pains in my arm and i could hardly drive to the doctors earlier(so much for power steering). Anyway, apparently i need to take loads of anti-inflammatory tablets and go back in 2 weeks if its no better. Have also got copious supplies of happy pills which, together with some other stuff im sorting out, should make me a very happy Emma again. We shall see.
Managed to miss a call from the Louster yesterday...booo. Must give her a call over the weekend.
Am trying to decide whether to go to Midnight Mass tonight....part of me wants to go but another part of me says no. Should i stay or should i go? De ne ne ne ne ne ne ne (that was an attempt at The Stranglers before anyone asks). I feel weird going out on the goth scene these days. I mean, i like being with people i like but i seem to have an increased intolerance for twats that piss me off. Oh i dont know - i might just save myself for Dark Trix next week - hopefully my new hair extensions will have arived by then....Feeling: blah |
| Next Weekend... | May. 7th, 2004 @ 12:27 am |
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...i have the pleasure of visiting the lovely deeply_spurious and sarahloo. Yay! At last! My organisational skills have not been up to much this year so am pleased to finally be going down. We are gonna go to Dark Trix in Basingstoke. On pondering this just now i remembered that Jason aka Mr Big aka Marathon Man (snigger) has been known to frequent Basingstoke on occasions...i may see if he is out and about that night although i doubt it.
How far is Leatherhead from Reading anyway? (Dont have my trusty road atlas up here)...Maybe i could pay him an impromptu visit on the way home on Sunday....I shall speak to the Gorgeous One himself tomorrow and see what he has to say about the matter. Bless him. I do feel that right now i need a dose of his ever lovely company to cheer me up :o) I miss him muchly.
(Although im sure i shall be well chilled and happy after seeing Paul n Sarah!) |
| Pow! Zap! Kazzam! | May. 7th, 2004 @ 12:04 am |
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The Caped Crusader turned up this afternoon bearing gifts. Funny, the Batmobile seems to have turned into a navy Rover 45..hmmm....so i now have my laptop at home which means i should really try n do some work tomorrow in preparation for investigation interviews next week.
I have filled my time off work with very useful activities such as watching series one of Manchild on dvd, reading and finishing two books (including one about the god that is Mr Wayne of Husseydom) and playing with Angelina Jolie, erm i mean Lara Croft...yes, i have found another game to play...couldnt cope with Splinter Cell, Resident Evil or Metroid Prime so if anyone wants these (all PS2 except Metroid Prime on Gamecube) give me a call and you can have 'em cheap.
I am feeling remarkably awake. I dont want to go to bed and ponder on things for hours. I have tried watching dirty videos (well an old LA Guns video ...Phil Lewis looks sooooo fuckable...) and that has failed. Am scared to go play on my PS2 cos i know i will be tempted by tea and toast and i dont want to eat (have lost half a stone in just over 2 weeks...go me...am not sure if the scales are wrong though cos i dont feel like i have...).
You know i might just fire up ICQ and see if any of the old gang are on there...Feeling:  awake Choonz: LA Guns - Sex Action |
| | May. 6th, 2004 @ 08:00 am |
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Am currently holed up at home, walking around like some kind of Frankenstein freak...have hurt me back....this constitutes a problem as my laptop is residing in a drawer in Wolverhampton branch and i need to do some work. Aaaghhhh! Am hoping the Caped Crusader will come and help me out of this pickle this afternoon. Am not happy as had to miss the genius that is Derren Brown last night....plus he is mighty sexy too...i do so love men in cords and Converse trainers (no, im not being sarcastic, i really do!).
A good thing about not being in work is that i can watch the first series of Babylon 5 on dvd which i have liberated from mr_pete. I used to love it but didnt see all the episodes. I think the passing of time has not helped though as i cant really get into it. In fact i fell asleep during episode 2 yesterday. As there are 5 series to watch, which means many, many hours i am not too sure i can commit to this. My commitment issues are now reaching an all-time zenith if i cant even commit to watching a tv programme.....
I want to thank my fairy godmother, mr_pete, for services above and beyond the call of duty this weekend....see, you pretend to be this scary man type creature when in fact you have a heart of gold. Bless you. And miss mini_goth, love ya bab xx You rooooool at poached eggs ;)
Am also currently on a mission to end the self-imposed exile i have endured for the past few months. This is not as easy as just coming out to play, oh no, as i have this paranoid fear at the moment that everyone hates me. Well everyone might do but a few mind-altering drugs and i wont care very much will i? So yay, go me.Feeling:  sleepy Choonz: Radio 4 |
| So sad. So disappointed. What can i say? | May. 4th, 2004 @ 11:22 pm |
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Zilch. Nada.Feeling: depressed |
| | May. 4th, 2004 @ 10:37 pm |
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Went to Derby to visit my nan tonight. Trip from Wolverhampton to Derby in rush hour is not one i would recommend. Anyway she is looking so much better, it really set my mind at rest. Its silly cos she is 94 - i mean surely i should be able to accept the fact that one day she will pass away but i really dont know what id do without her. She is always there for me. She makes me feel special and loved. Today i was reading a magazine to her and there was a picture of Angelina Jolie and i showed her and told her i wished i could look like her as she is so beautiful. She looked at the picture and said "But you are so much more beautiful than her". Now i know that in reality that aint true. Obviously (duh!). But i know that my nan truly believes it cos to her i am beautiful. I was looking at her hands, all wrinkledd and old and to me they looked like the most beautiful hands in the world...
My aunt and her boyfriend were there too. Had lovely time with them. On the drive home all i could think about is how precious your family are. I am going to remember this and make tremendous strides with my mother.... |
| Go Go Power Rangers... | Apr. 29th, 2004 @ 09:24 pm |
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Edinburgh was cool. I really like the place, the architecture is fab. Am gonna go up there for a longer visit soon methinks.
After organising social activities i was let down by all but three other intrepid explorers. All of those that backed out were indeed men. Then had to face Garys driving - 110 down the motorway, a foot from the car in front, texting away like mad. He is, of course, a man. I am feeling very anti-men. This has much to do with men letting me down in various guises and not appreciating what i have done (take social activities for example). Also after my last friends only post about what happened after Edwards last Saturday my feelings towards men are kinda piss poor.
I am, therefore, keeping away from man-company as at present they should all have an 'irritant' label attached to their foreheads. However, my anti-men stance was wavered slightly today by the wonderful company of Justin, although being of the gay variety he doesnt count as a man per se. And i have Pauls 30th biffday to look forward to tomorrow night which will involve the company of copious amounts of gay men and lesbians. Huzzah! Am looking forward to it muchly :)
At present i have not made any plans for this weekend except tentative arrangements with both boo_11 and angelkitty101 to meet for coffee/cocktails/alcohol on Saturday...and i may have a brief foray up to Bradgate Park on Sunday as i didnt have chance last weekend....oh they joys of a Bank Holiday Weekend :)
Not so joyful - i do believe there will be a repeat occurrence of the ant infestation from last year having found three ants having a chinwag on the side of the bath earlier. Also, the light-bulb in this bedroom is flickering really bad...like something from a horror movie... pah...Feeling:  cynical |
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