This is my info for my base so use it if ya want to:
909-214-5580 is my cell
Amanda Osten
psc box 3569
204 3rd street
blding 304
altus afb, ok 73523
I leave for school tommorow
my cell changed b'cuz nextel don't work out there
for the new number, call my old one
ummmm.....
thats funny, mom had my journal under her favorites!
This is now going to be a friends only, so ask and you may read!
My car is home.
Amy and I got hair cuts today. Amy cut off 2 inches and she layered it. I cut off between 6-8 inches. Um....
Check out my new do at http://uluvmandie.tripod.com
its on the home page.
It looks slightly different in person.
Estela, beth, glo, and dad like it. Officer Blanco said "what'd you do to your melon" then commented that he liked it. His wife liked it and the other explorers were shocked. I saw alot of peeps I am friends with today!
I go to Hawii tommorrow
How much do we actually know about our friends? This is a questionnaire to get
to know your friends better.
1. What time is it? 1721
2. Name: Amanda
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Amanda Nichole O.....
(hehe though on every other document its Nicole cuz Dad didn't know how to spell it and mom was often on duty!)
4. Nickname: Manda
5 . Number of candles on your last birthday cake: 17 (i didn't get a b-day cake on my 18th!)
6. Birthday: September 7, 1985
7. Pets: a dog: Max (Lord Maxwell)
8. Hair color: Ummm.... depends when you ask!
9. Piercing: 1 in each ear
10. Eye color: Green
12. Hometown: Near L.A.
13. Town you live in: Near L.A.
15. Ever been to Africa? No, but I bet I will get the chance!
16. Been toilet papering? Yep
17. Love someone so much it made you cry? YES
18. Been in a car accident? One time but I wasn't the driver! (sarah was!)
19. Croutons or bacon bits? Croutons
20. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
21. Favorite Restaurant? Burger King! LOL (yes i consider this a RESTAURANT, I mean, afterall it does have sitdown)
22. Favorite flower? Forget me not
23. Favorite sport to watch? Baseball
24. Favorite Drink? vanilla coke
25. Favorite ice cream flavor? vanilla (it goes with everything!)
26. Disney or Warner Bros.? Disney
27. Favorite fast food restaurant? Hmmmm.... BURGER KING
29. How many times did you fail your driver's test? ZERO
30. Before this one, whom did you get your last e-mail from? Livejournal
31. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Do I have to pick just one??????
32. What do you do most often when you are bored? Read
33. Most annoying things people ask me? I don't know. Tooo many things annoy me easily!
34. Bedtime? 2300-0300
35. Who will respond to this entry the quickest? beats me
36. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to reply? um.....
37. Favorite TV shows? Smallville, Gilmore girls, 7th heaven, lone tree hill, everwood.......
38. Last person you went out to dinner with? The guys in my class at Fairchild AFB
39. Ford or Chevy? BMW!!! LOL (for real, probably FORD!)
40. Time you finished this entry? 1730
ok, my baby is coming home today.
It sucks cuz all that damage was caused by one little 300 $ piece that stopped woring! GRRRRR....
But at least Helga is coming home.
Also, it now means that my dad can take her to a dealership and see what her trade in value is. Then maybe I can get a new baby!
we'll see. My dad really wants that to happen, my mom is the one that still is iffy on getting a new car!
Amanda
ok, so now i feel like typing more (i showered and feel light-years better!)
So on sunday I sat in my room bored. So I called shawn since i hadn't talked to him since i left work last sunday!
Well first he said that he hadn't called cuz he'd been campng all week and it all sounded like such a lie. So i called him on it and then he went into denial and it seemed to make his lies slip even more!
so we talked about cars, which led to a disscussion on rich people. That led to marriage. He said he planned on marry someone rich for the money (okay, no biggie, i have been known to say the same!). He then basically in simple words said he'd be okay with cheating on her! He said he often cheats on girlfriends and its no biggie for him.
well, #1 thats not acceptable to me.
#2 i deserve WAY better
#3 thats scummy
#4 this is obviously being sent as a message to me that he has no intentions of getting anywhere close to serious with me or anyone else!
#5 it makes me think he could have a gf now and i'd never he know cuz he don't care what happens.
Grrr.... Theres more, but thats the majority of my problem. he's also not exactly the brightest crayon in the box. He was talking to my mom about his job, and he thought he was a flyer (diff. kind than me, but still as prima-donna!). Turns out he is just another BDU wearing normal job guy!
What an idiot. He signed up for a job and that whole time thought it was something other than what it was!
got 2 jam,
Pray that I pick a better fish in the sea next time will ya?????
Manda
I'm home and thankfully I still have a home!
Washington was freakin' cold but it was a great experience. Once I got there, I felt that old feeling. I felt like I belonged. I missed that feeling so much this last month. Its been killing me inside in ways I didn't see. Thankfully I have 1 month left till I get that back on a more permenent basis. I can't wait to leave. Home is out there just waiting for me.
I felt like I had a family in those people. People that I knew for 2 days and yet they were kind, friendly and extremly helpful to one another. I can't explain whats its like to not know someone and be instantly part of their family and be instantly treated with love and care. I crave that feeling 24/7 and can't get it anywhere else.
I know where I belong. I made a mistake by not going active duty, I belong there. This is the real and finally happy Amanda. Yea, i missed home and family and friends and was extremly stressed out esp. with the fire and the dog. But being home isn't where I am supposed to be and I'm so ready to spread my wings!
I might write more about what I did later, who knows. I just really needed to write the way I felt right now!
Amanda
P.s. I got a gov't credit card this week in the mail. I can spend up to 5,000 $. When I get done at school, they'll expand that to 10,000 $
Hehe, guess the gov't isn't thinking about the fact that i'm an 18 year old with a credit card! j/k its for when i fly!
Hawii is DEFINITLY on for Saturday. How fun is that???????
Oh, maybe i'll write about shawn later. GRRRRR..... (yes that means its bad)
okay, so we've been kicked outta our home! perfect timing (NOT!!!!!!) Now most everything that matters is in our 3 cars and we are at my dads office.
Um... Its a good thing my car is gone cuz we have 4 cars and 3 drivers, but now we had 3 and 3 which made it easier!
Um... I go to washington in the morning and I'm really stressed because I have to leave when all this is going on plus I've never gone anywhere on my own. I've always had a group or my family! Even in Basic I traveled with a group!
Um... we brought our dog to the office with us, but he escaped and we can't find him and we are in a bad area of town!
(well, its a great area in the day, but rather scary at night!)
Thats pretty much all I got for ya!
Write ya in a few days!
Manda
(oh, a great aunt I didn't really know died. So my mom says "people die in groups of three!" Thanks mom, a fire evac. and a flight to another state, but don't worry I'm not stressed, esp. now that you have said our family dies in groups of three, and its always proved true!)
GRRRRRRRRRR.....
Can ya'll see i'm under a wee bit of stress!
Plus I'm sick again and the stupid cell phone co. dumped my voicemail system so when i picked up my last message it says "welcome to your new voicemail system this is the tuturtorial (howev you spell it!)" Grrrr... All my messages and my programed stuff is gone!!!!!!
Yeah, for real, goodnight!
Ok so we went CAR SHOPPING!
I might get a brand new car by the time i get back from Washington!
We checked numerous places and we all (dad, aimm, and I) really liked the Honda CRV!
Thats a shocker since I am usually REALLY against hondas!
The salesman was a Hottie young guy too! OHHHHHHHH!
Anywho, We got told we were on voluntary evacuation from the fire so we packed everything! We have been home since 230pm and are just waiting for them to call mandatory evacuation!
It sucks cuz I had to pack everything quick and then unpack half of it to pack for my trip! Grrrr.............
Anywho, I really think i am getting the crv so i'm enthusiastic. Its a bargain price, good gas milage, classy looking suv, it suits my needs for the AF and it will be good for my family to use while I'm gone!
Well, the price of the car keeps going up!
7000!
My dad says we are gonna sell it and go car shopping on Saturday and that I can pick a car (thats reasonable) and they will buy it for me. Then I will pay them monthly as though I would a car dealership, only the car will be completly paid off so no matter if I can't make a payment because I'm gone, then my car will not get repossessed or whatever!
I'm looking at a Mazda Mieta (cute little convertable!), Jeep Wrangler!, or maybe the Hyundai Santa Fe (a SUV thats small)
manda
Lets see. I had military duty yesterday! the gov't spent 1000+ $ on my third set of uniforms (each set is a different type of clothing) then they got me a flight helmet and mask, chem gear.....
This sunday I go to Washington!
Next week, I'm flying with my squadron to Hawii for an overnighter to see what my job is like!
How cool is that?????? I'm so excited.
I'll write more latz,
manda
Hey, great news. I only killed my car!
Cracked head, needs new gasget, hose, and some other thingy that i can't remember. Its like a 5 thousandish $ bill
grrrrrrr... at least my folks are handling the bill.
They are gonna fix all that and then my baby will be good as new they said. she'll still be in excellant condition! hehe
ok gotta run
They haven't even looked at my car yet! GRRRRRRR...........
What are they doing? I have to go to the base on thursday and I can't drive emily because she is a commercial vehicle and my parents don't want me to drive their cars and I can't borrow or rent a car becuase it has to have a special sticker on it! GRRRRR.....
We'll see what happens
Well I changed my comment thingy.
Now it says
Refuel via the KC135R
(thats the refueling plane that i do my job on!)
Then when a comment is left it says:
1 Refueled F-16
pr
2 Refueled F-16s
cute huh?
very air force!
I just recently got off the phone with Beth.
You know, right now I feel extremly depressed and stressed.
I don't know why I feel that way. Maybe it's because of the air force, or explorers, or maybe Shawn.
I am starting to regret so much.
I regret that I once dreamt of being a world champion in Tae Kwon Do, but then I let myself quit.
I regret not trying college.
I regret not trying or wanting to date in high school.
I regret not paying closer attention to the three girls that now have babies (jessica, lindsay, and joy)
I sometimes feel like I let others down, but then I realize that I let myself down first. I am so proud of myself for what I have done, but yet I am so sad and regretful and I feel like I wasted away.
I always knew that I had to be more successful then everyone. I thought that in 5 yrs i would be at the high school reunion laughing about how they all thought they'd be successful, but I would be the real success. I don't feel that way anymore.
I think it was my driving motivation to do what needed to be done. But it doesn't motivate me anymore. I don't really know who I am or what I am doing. I feel like I just float through each day. Or sometimes I feel like I am watching my life rather than living it.
It seems rather stupid now that it has been placed into these words, but yet I still feel the same!
I think I just need a new environment. Tech school will do me a world of good.
Maybe it is time I grew up and moved on from all this. Maybe my life juse needs a change in it. Maybe I just need to be a different person with a brand new start altogether.
Good night ya'll I hope you sleep well!
I am disallowing comments on this entry because I know you all will write junk about it being okay and you love me and yada-yada. I don't need to hear that right now, I just need to be able to sulk, so please no one comment EVER about this entry!
Amanda
So yesterday was ok.
Now today:
Um.. I went to the dealership where I was ignored!!! Then this man kindly asked me if I needed help and I told him my baby was broke and wanting service. He helped me out and I think he might have pissed all over himself when he saw her. Yea, the dealership needs to learn that just cuz I look young doesn't mean I can't own a freaking bmw!!! GRRRR....
So they have her in the shop and they are giving us an estimate sometime today. Then I left and I went to Dad's office. Then dad and i drove REALLY REALLY far out and looked at a job. Before that we went to farmer boys to eat. I ended up getting sick. (i can't seem to eat ANYTHING with out getting sick.) After the job we went to montclair then turned around and went to covina. The lady didn't look like she wanted to give me the check that we were there to pick up since i was there alone and dad was out in the car.
Oh, earlier I bought 10$ in lotto numbers. The guy asks my age. I say 18 and then he wants I.D. GRRRRR.....
so dad owes me 5$ for that ticket. we both picked the 5 rows we wanted! hehe!
if either of us wins we will spilt it. I mean, its only 92 million, i suppose i could afford to spilt it.
In a while I am going to go get Aimm from school.
I have been driving Emily all day. (Emm is mom's 2001 VW bug) Good thing we have an extra car huh?
P.s.- shawn wanted to call me when he landed in arizona, but i told him no. So he hasn't called at all.
We are also driving to the ball together. Hanging together. But when the dinner starts we are eating with our own people. When the dinner ends we will get back together for the party portion.
Its kinda jacked up since we are both in the service and work for diff. groups!
Manda
O man, do I have a story! Shawn and I spent all day together than went to Beth's Dorms. That was cool. We all went to hollywood and it was lots of fun! I kinda was pissed with him, but whatever!
Well, We drove back to beth's dorms and were running late. Shawn and I got to riverside and broke down! YES< WE BROKE DOWN!
The car overheated and smoked and shawn and i sat there at midnight and waited for my dad to come.
He is good under the hood of a car and immediatly knew what was wrong. It was my hose!
It wasn't fixable. And my car got towed to BMW.
Yea, so i used dad's car to drop off shawn and he took pictures of dad's car and i guess he wants pics of mine next time! what a nerd.
Well him and I had alot of quality time and I realized I had no reason to be pissed at him. He is just different thats all and he isn't big city!
While we waited for dad a random tow guy pulled over and talked to us. After 30 min. with him and I he suddenly said "I should just marry you right here!"
As if!
Shawn and I severly disagreed.
Shawn wants a girl to move to arizona and I want to have a guy that lives in Cali. We both have duty. We are extrememly diff. in our views about marriage and mives roles!!!!!.....
Well, anywho dad met him said he liked him but wanted to learn more bout him.
Pretty bad night!
Got home 3am and woke up at 445am.
Got to go shower now!
Manda
P.S. All I did was give Shawn a hug and tell him thanks for knowing what to do and for making me feel safe cuz if it had just been me, i'd have been scared beyond scared. But with him, I never felt scared.
I don't even think he expected that hug, so see, totally trustworthy and clean!
P.S.2- He has a tatoo that I don't nessecarily like, but i'll learn to cope. its on his right arm!
So i called shawn and left a message on his phone because i didn't want him to forget some stuff he has to have. Well he called back and said he had remembered. He asked if I was going to get him tommorow to drive to work. I said of course. Then he said what time. I said 645. He's all What about breakfast.
So now I get up at 4. Leave by 445. Get there round 6 and then we have to look for someplace to eat that is open!
I don't even eat breakfast (EVER).
oh well. My own dang fault for saying yes!
So yeah, thats my latest.
Hehe, I update often enough to make up for all of you who rarely update. Not that I'm hinting to ya'll or anything.
with hope and faith,
manda
Ok....
I got my checks in the mail today. They are so cute!
Um....
Yea, so Beth was hurt by me because I wasn't allowing her to protect me and worry about me the way I do her. It was a lack of communication on my part.
You see, I always approve of my friends dates and B.F.s
Well I wasn't giving her the choice on this. She was really hurt and upset and felt like I had a double standard. Heck, maybe it is although I don't think so.
#1 Shawn lives in Arizona
#2 Nov 20 I go to tech school until April
#3 Dec 4 he goes to tech school until late Jan.
#4 they are in completly diff. states and we won't get to do much more than phone a few times and snail mail and maybe later on email.
#5 I have a year of activation when I get back
#6 When thats done I plan on traveling as much as physically possible.
#7 Shawn is also a flier and will be activated constantly to travel
#8 we fly to way diff places and on totally different types of planes since I do his job as well as mine (i'm training for two jobs)
#9 I doubt we will stay in touch all that time, and if we do, then when I'm ready to settle down more and really start REAL relationships, I will fully allow my friends to pass judgement.
You see, the most important thing to me is that my family and friends approve of everything in my life. I like to know they are proud/pleased. Plus I want the person I get even somewhat serious with to be on extra good terms with my friends. Esp. My three Bestest!
I do want their approval of my friendship to him and it would be great that they approve of my going to the ball with him. But as the fact is that him and I can't really get serious (no matter how much I like him), I don't need them to approve approve of him. ya know??????
I hope that better explains me.
I know that I want to date him, but I also know I don't know him that well and that he and I probably won't make it that far. But its nice to flirt and have fun while I can right?????
even to go on "dates" with him is cool. Because we won't be BF/GF. Esp. without my friends and families approvals.
with hope and faith,
Manda
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