i love cheesy poofs
you are lame
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dear god,
give me that patience to know that today indeed is the last day that i will have to attend this INS class.
also please give me the forethought to not rip moshe a new one.
<3<3<3, ness
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quesadilla pesadilla
while writing papers in spanish, i seem to reach the 1050 word point and decide that i have written more in another language in that paper than most americans will do in their entire life, and that that should be enough for my professor.

too bad if i turn in what i've got now i will get a big fat F.

edit: i just finished. and i think my printer really has a vendetta against me.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: OAR - Crazy Game Of Poker

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so this is going to sound worse than it actually is, but hear me out...
this is the best weekend i have ever had back at sanibel, and the reason is because i didn't see a single person from high school. now, the reason this is true is because when i come home i basically have 2 nights and 1 day to do things. i usually leave one of those nights for some great feat of planning of having all of my high school friends come out and hang out together. well, now i realize we've all moved on, and we're not all friends anymore, and it's not going to be like it used to. i'm finally getting it through my head that we can't all get together and just shoot the shit like we used to.
well, that's fine. during christmas i'll see you all seperately, and the same with spring break. i'm going to stop wasting my time trying to get things to be like they were in high school.

on a different note, i go back to miami today. hopefully i can spend some qt with mike just being lazy asses. that'd be nice.
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if i had those golden dreams of my yesterdays, i would wrap you in the heavens
- i think my brain is melting and seeping out of my nose.
- mike met the parents yesterday, and there were no tragic pickax accidents. dare i say... they liked him?
- today all i want to go do is eat and drink my weight in food and wine. and perhaps sleep.

Current Mood: v. good
Current Music: bad company

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i went plantain shopping today.
only one more art history class and one more spanish class until sweet freedom is mine.
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girls who get really dressed up to go sit in a dark theatre for 2 hours make me laugh.

Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: dynamite hack - damn it feels good to be a gangsta

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ever know that what you fear is what you find?
a little concerned: my monthly headache has turned into a daily headache. the pain is almost exclusively in the sinuses in the left side of my face and upwards through both of my eyes. and, oddly enough, aleve hasn't been helping. anyone with chronic headaches have any thoughts (other than resorting to prescription pain killers...)

saw kill bill 2 tonight at cosford. cinematically it was one of the best movies i have ever seen... but i honestly thought it was long, drawn out, and simply boring. pai mei is my hero, however.
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drink life as it comes: straight, no chaser.
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even though art history and i have not been getting along lately, i would like to bring the following sculpture to your attention:



now, look at a few things...
check out that amazing curve that starts at the discus and goes through to his right foot. that position, i venture to say, is impossible... yet seems so natural.
also check out those shoulders and those pecs! impossible i say!

anyway, now that i'm done with my dorkiness, i think i'll get ready for bed and continue reading my art history book to try to finish the chapter on the greeks.
goodnight, and i hope everyone enjoyed a lazy sunday, even if you were working (like i was). and, i hope everyone has a good upcoming week. (i bet you can tell my week-long bad mood is over!)
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and i knew the distance to the sun
the weather today is perfect for all i had to do.
there's not much better than putting on your boyfriend's sweater and crawling into bed with a (fairly) good book while it's dark and rainy outside. even if that book is in spanish.
happy sunday!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: rain and ambulances

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though dreams can be deceiving
like faces are to hearts,
they serve for sweet relieving
when fantasy and reality lie too far appart.


boop. time to stare at the ceiling. night everyone.
here's to hoping tomorrow i'm not a thorn in your side. :)

Current Mood: sigh
Current Music: smashing pumpkins

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what makes me act the way i do? why am i asking you?
it's been one of those weeks.
when my alarm clock went off i wanted to smash it into little pieces. and i'm not (normally) violent.
honors association meeting tonight at 8, with tim hopefully.
on the bright side of things, i get to register in half an hour and be done with this stressing about my schedule (for 4 or 5 months). if my biology class is full then i guess it's as 12-credit semester for nessa. i can't think of anything else i want to take that doesn't require having me up a good 4-5 hours before my other classes. rar!
i'm going to spend the next 15 minutes trying to wake up. ahhhh meep. lol.

Current Mood: dead
Current Music: 311 - sometimes jacks rule the realm

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i have complained waaaaay too much today.
i need to shut the hell up because everything i'm whining about is really trivial.
like gabriel garcia marquez (who can still kiss my ass).
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http://www.houstonvoice.com/2004/11-5/news/national/ponder.cfm

Bush wins quarter of gay vote
Meanwhile, the nationwide exit poll conducted for a consortium of news media outlets showed that four percent of the electorate identified itself as gay male, lesbian, or bisexual.

Of that total, Kerry won 77 percent of the gay vote compared to 23 percent for Bush, the exit poll showed. Independent presidential contender Ralph Nader received less than one percent, the poll showed.

Although the poll shows that Kerry won handily among gays, many gay activists said they were baffled over why 23 percent of the gay electorate — which translates into more than one million gays — would vote for a president who pushed for a constitutional amendment to ban same-sex marriage.

An exit poll conducted four years ago showed that Bush received a nearly identical percentage of the gay vote when he ran against Vice President Al Gore.

Patrick Guerriero, executive director of Log Cabin Republicans, the national gay group that chose not to endorse Bush, said he was not surprised over the size of the gay vote for Bush.

“I predicted that Bush could get as much as 30 percent of the gay vote in the middle of a war on terrorism,” Guerriero said.

Gay Republican activist Carl Schmid of D.C. said he, too, wasn’t surprised over the gay GOP vote.

“Obviously, gay people vote on issues other than gay issues,” said Schmid. “Everyone knows who is better on gay issues. But there are other issues that people think are important.”


interesting. but, it only slightly surprised me. when you vote, you make a decided effort to vote for the candidate that best meets your needs based on how you prioritize them. (for instance, bush and i don't agree on a whole lot of things, but those things tend to be lower on my priority list than the things i disagree with john kerry on.) i guess 23% of gays don't care that much about gay marriage. just like me.

no comments because i don't think there's anything worth saying in reply to this. lol

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election thoughts...
1) IT'S OVER, THANK YOU.
2) I resent being called an idiot for voting for President Bush. I resent it fully. People have opinions, and just because they are different than yours does not make one an idiot.
3) "Separation of church and state" is not a phrase found in the Constitution.
4) Kiss my ass, a-hole in my SOC class. KISS IT.
5) I only want to gloat (i won't) mainly because of the cocky assholes that make every goddamn thing a personal attack. YOU DON'T KNOW ME AS A PERSON, THEREFORE YOU CANNOT JUSTIFY YOUR PERSONAL ATTACK ON ME BASED ON MY SUPPORT OF A CERTAIN CANDIDATE.
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my only two wishes are these:
1) that whoever loses will lose gracefully and not sue needlessly.
2) that next election my choice will not be so stressful.
good night.
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i was going to write a long diatribe on why and how john kerry and that guy in my soc class can kiss my ass.
but then i decided there's more important things to do.... like plan my election night drinking game (so either way, whoever wins, i'm consoled).
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preemptive "sorry" to liz and "thank you" to alex.

last night was interesting... i drank a 32 of mickey's in a tennis player costume, headed over to the phi delt house, proceeded to drink more beer (and have a guy on the couch continue to fill up my beer so i'm not sure how much i had but i think it was 2 or 3). there's something about phi delt (i'll blame it on the fact that there are many of them that have met me sober and not sober various times who fail to remember me... and the disrespect) that made me want to leave... so i called mike and he picked up me and proceeded to take care of me.

i said it last night and i stand by it today - the person who holds your keys when you have to pee because you're too drunk to do it for yourself is more than a boyfriend. the person who boosts you up into their loft 3 or 4 times because you're too drunk to do it for yourself is more than your boyfriend. the person who listens to you babble all night because you're too drunk is more than your boyfriend. the person who gets you water and a sweater because you're too drunk to do it for yourself is more than your boyfriend. so... in fewer words, thanks.
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happy halloween!
i'm a prepped out tennis player...
wait... is this a costume?


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you moved like honey in my dreams last night
this past weekend myself and 8 others went to halloween horror nights and disney. i had an enjoyable time, and pictures will be forthcoming.
my bank account says hi from 6 feet under.
(so does my brain)
i have figured out that this coming month and a half is going to be hell. i don't think i will have much of a break... because every time i try to get something done early i mess up and do something else.. like drink a bottle of champagne or go to sleep for 2 hours.

but life has been treating me so well that sometimes i wonder if i deserve it. does that ever happen to you? probably not, i'm a little messed up.
anyway, there's no reason for me to not be pefectly content with life (which is exactly what i am).

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: fiona apple

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i need you like ben affleck needs acting school
well here's a basic update for the week.
- my ARH history teacher is a douche bag and needs to explain to me why i got a B on my test when i answered every part of every question he asked (except getting 2 dates wrong).
- my ENG teacher is a task master, but i am almost done with her damn first draft of our 7-9 peage research paper.
- i think i totally rocked my INS midterm. and i mean rocked. but i guess i'll find out tomorrow. (i hope!)
- my jeans have a hole in the knee now. i'm slightly pissed yet slightly not because i think it looks cool.
- liz, rebecca, and i totally drank cheap champagne and red wine last night to "celebrate tuesday".
- fall break is this weekend and i'm excited now that my INS test is over.

and last but not least...

IT'S SCOTT'S BIRTHDAY! YAY!

Current Music: aerosmith-pink

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liz left me a note that has a little picture of me kicking the word "econ" with a butt and it says "kick econ's butt!"

honestly i thought i'd wake up becky i was laughing so hard.

and now hopefully i am off to kick its butt. then spit on it while it's down. and make fun of it when it's dead.
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you're wrong if you think that i'll be just like you
sometimes i feel like i can try so freaking hard in school and i'll never live up to my (and by "my" i mean "my parents'") standards.

my plan to jump out my spanish class's window won't work because even though we're in room 204, we're still on the ground. damn hills. anyway class is about to start...

Current Mood: shocked
Current Music: none

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i'm at the age when i realize... nothing, actually. just do what i'm supposed to do. $2.17.
i slipped up, i tried to cover my ass, but i've got this feeling i failed miserably. oh well... it was bound to happen eventually. it's kinda funny.

i'm up at 3am because i am slightly stupid. i did so much work for that stupid english class today. i'm going to be incredibly pissed if i don't get a good grade on it. once i'm done with my INS final i will be a happy little chickadee.

i lost everything on my computer when i reinstalled windows. my poor computer hates me... i'm in the process of redownloading 7 years worth of mp3's.

i painted my nails and did my spanish homework.

i'm sitting in what is the most comfortable position. i have one foot up on the chair, with my other leg curled under me, and my head resting on that first knee.

becky just turned the air colder, which means that it is most certainly sleep time. good plan, i say.

Current Mood: retarded
Current Music: sublime - mary/big salty tears

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speak to me in a language i can hear, humor me before i have to go
tomorrow's just an excuse away.

hormonal musings )

i had this great conversation with scott tonight. it made me realize alot about the way i am feeling. you've always been a great person to talk to, when we actually do talk about serious stuff. (also when we don't!)

i wish i'd stop having these late melancholy nights. i'm, in reality, so happy with my life, and then i hit a certain time in the middle of the night and i get down. i need to break the cycle. i think i need a break from schoolwork.

tomorrow i'm going to be fairly busy. my international economics class is cancelled, so i don't have to be awake until 10:00. after class i'm going to get lunch and see mike before he goes to FIU. afterwards i need to go to book horizons and sell back some books that i bought by accident and see if i can get some spending money for the weekend. after that i need to go to the library to research for my english paper, and then come back and finish doing my annotated bibliography (i think this is the stupidest thing i've ever had to do. i don't need you to hold my hand while i do this paper.) becky and i want to check out the monet display at the lowe art museum (yay art geeks!) and then hopefully get something to eat with heather. hopefully. oh, there's a game tomorrow at 7:30, too. right now i don't care but maybe tomorrow i will.

good night and may your dreams be sweet.

edit @ 3:16 - upon reading entries of a year ago, i think it's damn obvious how i have changed and how i haven't. white i still miss home, i feel that i have found a group of people here that are solid and can support me when i am weak.

and i'm alot less emo. (minus this entry of course)

Current Music: smashing pumpkins - thirty three

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do you see what i see?
can you hear what i hear?
do you feel like i feel?
can you dream like i dream?

i am in this intense "blah" mood. becky just turned the air colder, a sign that she is going to bed. knowing me, i'll stay up for a while... for no reason.

anyway, i found this thing on music snobbery and thought it was damn funny so here goes...
(specific people that i think might find this really funny include [info]hazmatt84, [info]scott_102084, [info]thatwasnofun, and [info]timk622 - although i might be wrong and you guys will get mad at me cause i made you read something ridiculously long. lol)

LJ cut a go go )

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: nonpoint

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dirty mop
my eyes sting. yes, i cried over this stupid car thing. i don't think my parents really understand how much i want this car, or how much i was willing to do for it, or how much it really was going to mean to me that i worked to have something so tangible. sure, i worked really hard to get all the scholarships to be able to pay for school and whatnot... but i wanted something that i could put my hands on... and what better quintescential teenage purchase than a sportscar? either way, i'm sick of getting my hopes up with my dad's overestimations and having my hopes crushed with my mother's tales of impending doom.

oh right, and my dad told me to raise my grades. wow.

on other notes, i have so much to do and such little motivation. isn't that how it always happens? all i want to do is go to friday's and drink killians until i can't walk anymore. and i want someone else to pay for it. and i want a ride home and i want a pill that automatically makes me undrunk and completely focused and motivated on all my school work.

the weather lately has been perfect. low to mid 80's during the day and mid 70's at night. now if only it didn't drizzle every day.

i'm just going to end this entry here and post it while i can because my internet keeps crapping out.
thanks liz and becky for girls night.
and thanks you two plus mike for listening to me bitch and enduring my whining.

Current Mood: dead
Current Music: sounds of a sleeping roommate

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you know you're burnt out when...
you pre-party with diet coke and caffiene pills instead of shots like usual.
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keep on pushin mama, you know we're runnin late
so last i night i encountered an ABC article on the drudge report that schools in lee county are under therrorist threat watches because some floor plans of elementary and high schools were found on disks in the hideouts of iraqi insurgents. i'm a little scared, only because my mom is at a different lee county school every day.

well, i'm all done up, and my collar is popped.. so i guess i'll head off to my english conference.
here's to hoping tonight is a good one!

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: santana

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oh, it's evil babe, the way you let your grace enrapture me.
i've got a few weeks of hell coming up, as far as school is concerned. all i'm interested in doing is sitting on my ass all day and sleeping. i wanted to go to the beach tomorrow but i just realized that as long as i'm on this medication i can't. dammit!

well i guess i was intending on writing some stuff in here but now i don't really know what.
friday allegedly we're going to monty's with parts of phi delt, then oktoberfest, then someone's house?
saturday i have to go to my grandmothers, where i will wash my car, eat her home cooked meals, and have her buy me groceries.
then there's the sig ep party.
then there's sunday, which will be spent sleeping and writing my spanish paper.

until then, i need to take a shower tonight because i'm going to see the 3rd harry potter at cosford tonight.

random pictures from a week ago )

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: fiona apple

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and then i find you here, through your eyes everything's clear
i've been staring at my spanish assignment for over two hours now and i cannot figure out the meaning. she wants us to compare a painting with a story we've been reading... the painting is of a girl sitting on the floor, hiking up her long skirt to show us her dirty legs. i don't understand... i can't see the connection.

i'm my few hours of thinking i have decided that if there was a party somewhere between the currently republican party and what the libertarian party allegedly stands for, then i would be part of that party. but since no libertarian will ever win then i will be a republican for now. you know... until cuba gets blown up by a republican or something.

i'm not tired. i like it when you smile. (yes, you.)
i'm glad we cheered you up liz. i love you. my credit card, on the other hand, hates you and me both.

i have to go to the doctor tomorrow. i don't want to wake up.. i want to sleep and dream forever tonight. i love my life.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: staind - warm safe place

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i'm waiting to get in the shower so becky, aileen, and i can head over to richard's baseball game.

this week has been awesome, despite classes feeling like they were days long at a time.
hilights include:
1) monday
2) meeting ralph nader
3) being on msnbc
4) being in a protest
5) dinner last night and the subsequent evening.

i'm off to richard's rugby game and then hopefully sawgrass mills. have a good day everyone.
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i was THISCLOSE to nader. seriously. he's OLD!
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can't sleep... got in bed and got on the phone to talk to keely for her birthday, but i think that made me more hyper.

suddenly the best idea in the world came to me: i know what i want to be when i grow up. a proffesional rich person.
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lol, not specifically anti kerry but just funny:

BILL O'REILLY: What do you think Kerry wants to get out of coming on your show?
JON STEWART: He wants to get what any politician does: access to a new constituency. He wants to get...
BILL O'REILLY: The stoned slackers.
JON STEWART: ... that's exactly right, because the stoned slackers, this election is going to rely on the undecided. Who is more undecided than...
BILL O'REILLY: Than the stoned slacker, right.
JON STEWART: ... the people who are high. Right now, they're thinking to themselves, ice cream or pretzels, ice cream or pretzels.
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TOTALLY A JOKE, DON'T BE OFFENDED.
Wearing Your Collar Down is for Poor People
By I.M. Adick, III

        When my ancestors came over to this great country 400 years ago, they had a vision for a utopia, free from minorities, liberals, poor people, homosexuals, and immigrants.  There are few today who share such lofty ideals, but we're easy to find: Pastel polo shirts, loafers without socks, tucked-in shirts, but most importantly, collars up. 
        Call me a douchebag.  Call me an arrogant little cocksucking dickhead.  Beat the shit out of me if I'm not with fifteen of my B-frat friends (unlikely).  But just know this: I interned at Smith Barney this summer.  Where did you work?  A Blockbuster?  That's right you insignificant sack of dogshit; I'm going to be your boss.  So take your t-shirt wearing, financial aid, blue-collar ass over to Blockbuster and get me a copy of Old School.  Do you even own a tuxedo?
        Look at my girlfriend.  You think she'd go for someone who didn't have his collar up?  I don't think so.  I remember the night I met her.  I bought her so many $9 drinks she couldn't even walk.  So I drove her home in my BMW 328ci, but not before I took a few "liberties" with her.  The next morning I took her to brunch and went to the mall, where I bought her some blouses.  You assholes don't know the first thing about being a gentleman.  You probably don't even know how to sail. 
        When I get out of business school, I'm going to be making $120,000 a year.  Add that to my trust fund, and I can buy a country club membership, a ski house, and still have enough money to go barhopping around the city in my designer clothes and shit-eating grin.  Maybe I'll offer you a hundred bucks to flip my collar up for me.  I earned it you middle-class fuck up.  I bet you went to public school.
      You're so predictable.  I bet I can guess your political party just by looking at you.  My cronies and I range from elitist northern liberals to heartless conservative bastards.  I've wasted enough time with you.  Get some rich parents, an internship, and a pink polo with the collar up, and then maybe I'll let you hang out with me.

ps - thank you tim lol
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it feels like friday, therefore (bad) logic dictates that i party like it's a friday.

b double e double r u n.
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i'll stop the world and melt with you
so my days have been kind of boring. as you could probably tell, i experienced passing another kidney stone the past few days. since friday night i have had a general pain in my mid/lower back and mid/lower abdomen. i decided that it was just from sitting too long in becky's car or something, and didn't think much of it. finally, monday afternoon i called my mom and told her what was going on - thinking it might be an ulcer or something similar. she goes online, finds my exact symptoms, and she realizes - whoa, i have a stone! awesome.

so that night i took 2 halves of percocets to stop the pain, and it kind of worked, but not too much.
but last night i decided that the halves weren't doing it, so i went with the full percocet at once. man, was i going crazy. my leg was spmasming, i was teetering around when i walked, i couldn't be tickled, and all i wanted to do was lay down in my bed because i felt like my legs were strapped down to it anyway hah. and, the best part? i couldn't feel any of the nagging kidney pain. (even though i still had to watch man on fire... ew)

when i woke up today, i had no pain! it was incredible. unfortunately my awesome mood was ruined by the torrential downpour in which the bottom of my pants got soaked and i slipped. again. lol. [info]timk622 and i met up and went to see the dalai lama. uhhh... let's just say that i liked alot of what he said, but i totally disagreed with alot of what he said too. either way, it was pretty cool to have seen him and hear him speak. he is a funny man.

i got back to the room around 5 and rebecca, liz, and i went to taco bell and met up with heather. my new love is the spicy chicken burrito - with hot sauce, of course. we are going to get married and have spicy little mexican kids. rar!

we came back to the dorm and liz and i were amazingly hyper. i do believe i scared the crap out of mike, his roommate, and his entire floor, for that matter. eventually i calmed down and studied socialism...er sociology. honestly this class is going to make me snap some day. technically, according to this class, since my parents immigrated to a big city from a latin american country, and since i am a girl, i probably should be living in some slum selling crack on the corner or something.

and on that note, everyone have a good night and love to all. pray it doesn't rain tomorrow and pray for bill and russ, my poor afflicted kidneys.

Current Mood: hyper
Current Music: the cure

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i surround myself with the most wonderful people, namely:
mike - for keeping me company and holding my hand when i thought my kidney would explode, and
becky - for making me easy mac at 1 in the morning. you really are the best roommate evar.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: incubus - stellar

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i am, apparently, the kidney stone master.

[edit: if i whine too much about how much this sucks, just kill me.]
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so i am back home for the weekend. hurricane charley hit over a month ago, but from the looks of things around here... it looks like it hit just a few days ago.

the first thing you notice is the smell. if you've been to sanibel, or just live on the gulf, you know that the normal smell in the evening is pretty salty and clean. now, that has been replaced with the smell of rotting vegetation and/or rotting dead animals. when you drive, you have to be careful that you dont scrape the side of your car on one of the numerous piles of branches that line the sides of the streets. the three hotels right by my house have signs that say "HOTEL CLOSED - KEEP OUT PLEASE!" right next to the beach access that i normally frequent, there is a pile of curtains, furniture, artwork, and other hotel furnishings that were inevitibly damaged by the water and wind.

my yard is still full of dead leaves and branches. there are still things just sitting on the piano bench and stuck inside closets to avoid water damage. if you open the freezer there are at least 6 plastic gallon jugs of water frozen, and my mom's to do list on the fridge says "1) Get gas. 2) Get and freeze water."

i've had this sitting here for almost an hour and haven't thought of anything to say. so, since i haven't been cryptic in a while, i'm going to give a long list of things no one will understand hahaha.

- i'm glad i'm finally standing up to your BS and i'm glad you're not taking it as badly as i imagined
- i'm glad that we stopped fighting and that we're back to normal
- even though i tend to have stupid doubts, i know that this is what i want
- you're so alike that it's unnerving
- some day, when i get the courage, i'm just going to do it

and, for a final non-cryptic note: i would sell my (good) kidney for a cigarette.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: silence

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this time i know it's for real
and the saga of my inability to sleep normally continues. last night i slept maybe... 4 hours at the most. today i had a nap of about an hour and a half though, so i'm hoping i can sleep tonight.

i played tennis for about an hour and half today with zack and becky. today i was much more into my groove, actually bending my knees and using correct footwork. i just need to stop trying to clobber the hell out of the ball and then i'll get a little better. it feels really good to get out there, though. i really missed playing tennis. my shoulder is killing me though, so i might end up icing it later on tonight. or.. i'll find someone with bengay/icy-hot. bahaha.

i'm really looking forward to going home tomorrow, but will obviously miss everyone back here. :) good bye and good night!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: queen - i want to break free

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goals and other deep things
recently i've been considering my long term goals in life.

so, of course, everyone wants to be successful. i want a stable and interesting job with the ability to be promoted to higher positions. i want this job to involve traveling, but not so much that it takes away from my family. another goal is, as previously mentioned, my family. i want a husband who is, of course, crazy about me, and that has a stable life and similar goals as me. i want the obligatory 2 kids - 1 boy older than 1 girl. i want inteersting and real friends, and therefore an interesting and real social life. i want an interesting life - but i know that can be a curse. so how about a happy and interesting life?

ooh when did i become so deep? (and by deep, i mean boring)

anyway, in other news, i strongly discourage girls from playing tennis with cramps.

Current Mood: full
Current Music: Alannis Morrisette - Perfect

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let's start over
when i woke up this morning, i had pretty significant pain in my right tonsil. i just about started crying (thank you, hormones!!) because the thought of being sick during my weekend home was pretty daunting. i popped a few aleve along with my vitamin, and went to class. i can thankfully say that now it doesn't hurt at all... but then again, i took those aleve at 9:30, and it's only been less than 5 hours since then. i'm hoping for the best.

i think the people in my english group don't like me because i constantly offer to write or do things for the group. (this would be an interesting change from last year, where all the work got dumped on me.) i try to take the initiative because everyone else kind of sits around and looks at eachother as if the pen were going to jump on the paper and start writing on its own.

i'm also being more outgoing about my spanish and talking in class. i feel alot more comfortable this semester, mainly because i'm trying to work on not being such a perfectionist. those of you who know me well know that this is going to be a quasi-impossible project.

dooobeeedooo. i'm just kinda hanging around the room for now. tomorrow i don't have econ (thank you rosh hashonna), so i can sleep in until at least 10:00AM. thanks to my good lunch at charties today, i am incredibly tired, and am considering crawling in bed for a little bit. i think i'll be ok because i napped for 3 hours yesterday yet still managed to sleep excellently.

hrmrmm speaking of naps... (i can't forget that becky wants to play tennis today!)
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cause i'm due for a miracle
do you ever wonder if the people you walk around on campus are summing you up by simply seeing what you wear, how you walk, and what they overheard you say on your cell phone or to your friends?

do you ever make the same judgements without even realizing it?

i do both, and upon further contemplation, i really shouldn't care if those assumptions are being made, and i should stop making those assumptions. (although i won't give up my assumptions on pikes.)

sorry if i'm a little down - i'm incredibly homesick.
despite that bump in the road, i don't think i could be any happier right now, though. (knock on wood)

(PS - i think i have found a solution to my crazy hair shedding.. more protein+starting to take vitamins again. anyone else ever had this problem? i'm shedding like crazy!)
(PPS - new icon, bound to piss off a few people, but i love it anyway lol)

Current Mood: homesick
Current Music: seether - fine again

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man it's going to be hard to have a good day at this rate!

my fish died, i slept through my alarm clock... or never set it... or something, so i couldn't take a shower. my throat hurts again, and the guy who said he'd post the stuff for our english project has missed the deadline. i don't like group projects because no one is as anal as me. (this is a good thing, one of me is enough)

anyway, things to look forward to hopefully include coming back and taking a shower, and an incredibly long nap. and hopefully a good grade on my english paper, despite the group project deal.

have a good day everyone!
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death to herbie.
my fish, herbert, passed away today.




(this picture is so poetic... he was riding off into the sunset)

Current Mood: good
Current Music: nada

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this is the life.

i have pizza, two good friends, a heineken, and family guy on the tv.

it's almost 9:00 on a sunday, and i haven't started my homework.
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i didn't go to the game-so sue me. i did watch it though, and screamed quite a bit (my throat is sore).

yeah, yeah. sorry for the half-assed entry, but i'm incredibly tired.

tomorrow becky and i (and maybe some others) are going to richard's rugby game at FIU. after that, mike and i are going out, and then after that i expect that there will be some drunk passed out people in my room. if that is the case, i will drink whatevers left and party by my lonesome. lol.

anyway, to all you FSU fans, sorry if i haven't called you personally to gloat... i gave keely a break this year because i got to call her twice last season. night guys! :)
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