Current Mood: relaxed

Made a friends cut tonight. If I removed you, and you would rather stay... please comment and I'll fix.

Sorry.

Current Mood: cynical

Well, after work tonight I'll be heading north. Have a great party tomorrow Petey, kinda sad about missing it. Have a good weekend, everyone else. I'll be back after work on Monday. Until then, I'll be at Eileen's. Later kids.

Donnie: Don't drink too much 151 firewater without me. heh

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Packing packing packing

I am not upset, mad, pissed off, angry, hurt by, looking down upon, bad feelings towards, or any other negative feeling towards anyone right now except for feeling quite useless and ... ineffectual towards my own self.
That is all.

( It can't rain all the time )

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Ringfinger - Nine Inch Nails

I ran until my lungs hurt and my veins pumped battery acid...

And then I ran some more.

Jack - Fight Club, Chuck Palahnuik

Current Mood: depressed

Yet another night at the Queen. I would say I need to find something more productive to take up my time here. But, Chrissy and I are the only two present as I start this. I was writing, and she playing a game on her cell phone. I guess we do fine. heh


My day went pretty successful. lol It started off poorly though. I was supposed to call Eileen at 8 am and make sure that she got up for class on time. Unfortunately, I have an uncanny skill for turning off my alarm clock, 5 feet from my bed, without even waking up. It's amazing. Also, completely frustrating. At least she still made it to class on perfect time. The rest of the day went uneventful enough. Spent the entire day sleeping, playing online, paying bills, and watching The Deer Hunter with Donnie. It was good, but definitely the kind of good where I could only watch it once, ever. Shame considering I own it. *shrugs* Oh well, I own American Pie as well, and I never watch that piece of shit. Still, a completely unstressed day, and I end it at the Queen drowning in battery acid powerful coffee.

I also got the pleasure of finishing a story that I had been working on for a couple days. The first one I have ever tried writing. I really am not too sure what to think of it. I guess I will just wait and see what the reaction is like. and No, it is not something that will be posted here. *smirks*

I have been taking up an amazing amount of bandwidth and friends-page-space as of recently, and I don't feel much like ranting tonight. So, things will end here tonight. Sleep well all, and you know how to reach me. Goodnight.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Hellsing main theme

God I suck at writing. I am trying to get this detailed in depth thing down on text... but I suck at writing organized thought. My mind is just too non-linear. Oh well, I guess I will keep trying and see how it goes. Need some help with it, but not too sure who to talk to. *shrugs* Later folks.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Wish - Nine Inch Nails

Ok, I had enough trouble with this damn pic.

Geocities won't let me remote host.
Krimzonstarr ran out of space.
So, I had to resort to an old forgotten SN... put it up there. Hopefully, it will work this time...

Boredom with Photoshop... Right-click and save, it's big.

Current Mood: mischievous

So, I realized something is drawing me more and more towards Zepplin again. I woke up to my computer playing Stairway, Eileen wore the coda shirt I bought her today, her friend gave her "The Song Remains the Same" today, and when I was leaving work the radio was playing an interview with the band. Interesting. I never mind though, it is of course one of my currently favorite bands.

Ralphie is talking about Adam & Diane, I make no comments. heh Oh yeah, I'm at the Queen with Ralphie, Chrissy, Kristi, Jesse, and Doobie. Odd seeing everyone around, but I don't mind. I have something to occupy my attention, my laptop.

I am such a dork sometimes all the time.

Interesting patient today. Older man, no ID and no information from the scene on who the fuck he is... just that he stabbed himself twice in the chest with a kitchen knife. Of course we took him directly into the OR, "Fuck conscent, he's dying I'm cutting and we will worry about it later," and one of the best docs went to work. Ended up having to close up a small hole in his heart. The messy ones are always the best.

Listening to the kids... sometimes I am glad I have been "out of the loop" for so damn long.

My past is so hard to remember. I often think of it and thoughts of elementry school and further back come into my consciousness. Trying to think of my times in junior high and senior high school, I draw a black void. Occasionally, I get struck by bolts of these strong memories, some that I wish I did not have to experience again, but they are never linear. These memories jump from grade-to-grade and from one period of my life to the next within the same... waking dream. It's hard to stay in the conversation when you keep getting pulled into your own inner visions. Such is my life at times.

Tuesday is my day off, and that is a good thing. My plans consist of staying up writing and watching movies until close to dawn. Sleep for a short few hours and then call the DMV. It seems that when I got my new auto insurance, the state failed to recieve this information, hence they think I am driving uninsured and plan on revoking my registration and suspend my liscence. Kind of funny though, my new insurance policy is written via the state DMV themselves. I could write them a better tracking system. *shakes his head in frustration*
After I finish up with the evil red-tape, such as it is, I need to go back to bed. Wake up again later to go get my haircut. Hopefully, I can get Chrissy or Kristi to come supervise me so I don't fuck up my hair again. If I wait and go with Kristi, I might get my hair dyed as well. Not sure on black or dark red again. I am tempted for the dark red, I used to be so enamoured with that color.

Sometimes when I am at work, and things are terminally slow, as they were after 8 pm tonight, I daze off into myself. Thinking of the future, thinking of the past, I end up sitting there for the rest of my shift. It's not usually a bad thing, but it results in me ranting here about nothing. heh =)

I need to call up the Gloucester program soon. I do things backwards to a bad extent. I already have been accepted to one of the fastest and hardest nursing programs for LPN that exist, but I still don't have my GED. I have tons of credits at the college, but that does nothing for the state, it needs my diploma. I never got one of those things. So, I need to go waste 8 hours and take the test, wait a month for my GED in the mail, and then go give CCTEC my paperwork. I have until August, so it will work out just fine. Then I need to ponder how I can work 40 hours of work and 40 hours of school into each and every week. No more Queen or sleeping I guess. heh Nothing new for me.

Looking at my friend's page, and my own posts, I realize who I have become. I only post occasionally, in large spurts, but when I am in a writing phase I post as much and about things on par for importance with Jason. Useless and long posts. Thankfully, I don't post consistently. Oh well, whenever it strikes me.

I guess I will end this now, I'm getting bored. I can't plug in, and the battery is starting to fail me. Goodnight all.

Current Mood: amused