Television is a girls best friend??   
02:19pm 03/09/2004
 
mood: unmotivated
music: volup. horror of karen black - a natural healthcare
man oh man. at long last, i finally got my grubby little mits on karen black's 1st album! what makes it so ridiculous is that i am most thrilled that the search is actually over and i am filled with the satisfaction of having found it, even though i dont really even like them anymore. i put it in for a listen and was relieved to find that it sucked just as bad, if not worse, than the other two albums. i would have been totally disapointed had i played it and it would have actually been GOOD MUSIC. why is it that i have such bad taste. its not like i Like bad things and THINK theyre good....I know thaeyre really fucking BAD, and like them anyway. weird.

anyway,
my mom called yesterday with the idea to beat all ideas. The sollution to beat my Back-to-school Blues. She and I had been talking earlier this summer about how much it would cost to get cable tv here, and i decided it was way too much if julia didnt wanna pitch in half. so we tossed the idea..... but yesterday, after racking her brain and worrying about me being sad here, my mom calls and asks 'do i think that having cable will make it easier to cope?'. fuck! man, i love her and her hearts in the right place, but just hearing that said outloud made me feel like the biggest douche in the world. i guess she thinks maybe i wouldnt be so lonesome if i could spend my time with jon stewart and the tanner family and the planets funniest animals? jesus h. pathetic! ...now, a year a ago, i might have comeup with this little scheeme myself, "MOM im so sad, i think i need you to pay for me to have cable and then perhaps ill be happy once again", but now, now that i am actually having some kind of a problem, i dont want to cheapen it by scamming her into paying a tv bill. i dont want it badly enough to act like yes, yes, mom, basic cable is the answer. i told her i didnt think it was a good idea.

anyway,
well, i had better stop being a total dick and do some work. i'll tell you what would change my shit up and help make me really fucking happy, ...not tv, but a dog. if i could have a pet here. that isnt a fish or a hermit crab, but a little dog, i think thing'd be a lot better.
damn mcad and there stupid rules.		  
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"ahhhhh-drin-kin-beeeeeeerrrrr" - (that ones for you, KP)   
06:15pm 01/09/2004
 
mood: exhausted
music: "about her" - malcolm mclaren? (kill bill 2 sndtrk)
man, what a stinking hot day. tims and maxs NOT-having-air-conditioning apartment sure was a refreshing blast. but its ok cause we kind of had the first PRODUCTIVE homework party ever in the history of comicbooks and beer. Twas a little dissapointing when i reallized my dreams of watching Jason Takes Manhattan weren't ever going to be actuallized. i felt like id been taken for a real ride. oh well, my ship will come in...(and it'll be full of new york bound teenagers just beggin' me to watch em get their heads punched off!)

anyway, today was better, as in, i didnt just feel totally hopeless for no reason and burst in to tears the second anyone tried to engage me in conversation. --yesterday, was so fucking bad- i hate crying so much, especially around anyone who isnt my mom. or my cat. it was no good. but today i felt better, i am almost caught up and i have the rest of the week to work.

blah blah blah

shit i have to sleep.... no no, eat a pickle.

THEN sleep		  
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I hate being awake and conscious. I hate feeling like this, but most of all, I hate Denny's.   
05:37pm 29/08/2004
 
mood: apathetic
music: britney spears - "toxic"...and im not ashamed at all.
God. I have so much stupid work to do. I feel like such a tremendous dick because all of the work is pretty much fun and cool stuff that i should WANT to do. but i don't. I keep trying to make the best of things, trying to tell myself that i'll get used to being back here, trying to put on a super cool happy face to fool myself into thinking i'm glad to be back, but really, I am not at all. not that i have another option. quitting school would just make me a giant loser who wasted a ton of money and still has no idea what the fuck she wants out of life. aaaarg! i wish there was some way to express all this shit and not sound like such a pussy faced emo crybaby. i wont even go on, it'll just get way worse.
i just feel exhausted
and like a need to punch things
but am to exhausted to even think about punching things.

this is so...GAY.		  
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making a statement...   
07:51pm 27/08/2004
 

i know this image about to blow all of your minds. its my political statment about patriotism and the effects of rum of rum on college-age girls. its really quite artsy, i know.

now, normally i'd never post such a naked picture of myself in such a public forum, but, being that i lost a little weight over the summer i feel its my duty to begin expoiting my body via the internet.

Here is the post i promised Sam and Sarah of the rest of our pics from our totally rad "getting back to nature" weekend at my dad's cottage. enjoy ladies.

( Babes in the Woods )		  
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05:27pm 27/08/2004
  if anybodys doing anything tonight thay shought consider giving me a call. i am totally sick of being a lonely faggot. my rooms cool, but not THAT cool.  
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john travolta + john ritter = a fuad ramses who's eyebrows aren't nearly as wet as they should be.   
03:02pm 25/08/2004
 
mood: apathetic
music: the eltonjohn song that made julia say "thats gross hes gay"
schools dumb. my rooms cold. god, i feel like complaining and i am too exhausted and stupid to think of anything good to be a bitch about. that sucks. or its good. i dont remember. i'm not used to this "early to bed, early to rise" crap yet. i need to get back into the swing of things. like yesterday after ruth (who looks exactly like jerry garcia) voights's class i came home and went to take a nap, the nap was too long and i knew id be up forever. went over and hung out at scotts at like 10 or something, and by the time i looked to see what time it was it was like 5. so, there was really no reason to sleep if i was just gonna have to get up at 8, thatd just make me feel worse. it was ok tho, cause i ate wax bottles and fruit by the foots and a french bread pizza. what WASN"T okay was being forced to watch Blood Feast 2 again, IN ITS ENTIRTY. jusus mother fuck. being tortured with your own movie collection is serious business. today i had Body in Art and Comics2. Man, do i love that Vincent Stall. If i were a middle aged man, i think id be happy to be vincent, although that in itself would ruin everything, being "happy" that is. he'd totally lose his schtick. oh god what am i talking about. oh i guess im talking about him letting us outta class four hours early. hat was rad to the max and then some. eeech. go to bed!		  
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"crazy about scott bibus"   
01:57am 22/08/2004
 
mood: snot in my nose
music: megaman music
I'm back, ...in Minneapolis, at MCAD, and on the freaking internet! (rock)
Summer is over, which sucks and is sad. This was totally the best summer ive had in a long time, and probably the LAST summer I will have in my life to spend jerkng off and being an irrisponsible jerk who spends money, but doesnt work. Yes, from here on out i think i am going to have to accept reality and act like a big kid or an adult or whatever it is i am supposed to be nowadays. but it was fun while it lasted.
anywway, i'm at scott the bibus's house right now. with brett and audry and drew. i really need to remember to regester myself tomarrow or im screwed to the max. i slept all day today and by the time i got up and around registration was closed. my feet are killing me, moving shit and getting myroom together took its toll, i was all kindsa exhausted. i cant imagine what id feel like if julias mom hadnt got movers to do all of the storage crap. I would have just given up, abandoned all of my stuff andwent and lived in the woods by myself....nakid...with no possesions.

good thing thats not the case.

well. this is laame. so im gonna go.		  
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Ok…so I think I may the dumbest idiot on the planet.   
06:21pm 27/06/2004
 
mood: embarrassed
music: alice cooper - im 18
I was at the halfprice books in greenwood and when I walked out I noticed there was a petstore next to it, so I decided to go in to see if they had puppies and kittens I could look at (cause im a big dumb girly girl all of the sudden)…as soon as I waled in, who was behind the counter?? (well, at least I am pretty positive it was her)….Kyle’s ex girlfriend , Nikki, this girl who who like super hates me for no reason. DUH. Im such a moron. I knew she WORKED at an uncle bills. And I knew she LIVED in greenwood. I guess it just didn’t occur to me for some reason as I walked into this GREENWOOD UNCLE BILLS PET STORE that she would potentially be there. Well, I guess theres a chance it wasn’t her, but, I don’t know. (if she has short black and blond hair and a pierce-y face, then this was her for sure) yak I was so embarrassed. I have no idea if she knows what I look like, so I don’t know if she knew it was me. I hope not. She’s gonna totally think I was stalking her. God I am such a nerd. Anyway, after I looked at the animals and chatted with some chick in the back of the store about weiner dogs for a while I decided to buy roxy a toy so that if nikki DID know it was me, it wouldn’t look like I just came in to check her out…so I grabbed a toy and took it up to the register, but when she rung it up it was like 11 fucking dollars and I didn’t have that much cash so I had to use my credit card which, (of course) had my name on it. My god, I am so uncool its amazes me at times…. Well, who knows if she knew or not, I guess its not all that important, I just felt stupid is all. All I know is, as an employee of uncle bills, she’s either rude to everyone, or she did know and wasn’t happy about it. Well, that’s it. I also went thrifting and bought an excellent lamp. Its so gay. See you fags latahhhhh.		  
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when a stranger calls.   
01:44am 21/06/2004
 
mood: headache
music: misfits in hawaii
so does anyone know why i got an extremley long and enthusiastic message on my cellphone today from that "Henning"-guy from mcad? im sort of freaked out by it since i have never met him, dont know him and as far as i know he shouldnt know me... or my phone number.?? i really dont ever know what he looks like? the whole thing was fucked up. but whatever, i guess people are allowed to be nice?? i dont know why friendliness makes me suspicious...but it does. it totally does.		  
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My Ultra-Glorious Weekend.   
10:53pm 07/06/2004
 
mood: bored
music: yeah yeah yeahs - date with night
Friday.
Things got pretty hot and heavy between me and Malfoys new hair. I almost had to turn the hose on my self… But to be honest I had some major probs with the new Harry Potter movie. And since I have discussed these problems at (ridiculous length and detail) with at least 3 parties (some willing and intersted,, others less so) I guess I don’t need to do the Super-Nerd H.P. Analysis here. Just know, I am not as happy as I wanted to be. Oh yeah and Malfoy looks EXACTLY like Stephanie Tanner.

Saturday.
As many times as I have watched “People Under The Stairs”, I now know that its never so entertaining as when you watch it with someone who is critically analyzing it for plot and cinematic depth. That Kyle, what a total dorkus. :0) After the movie I think I just acted like an asshole for a while…and wore some really bad-ass shorts.

Sunday.
Sarah brought over the hooch and so goes the 2nd Annual Midday-Pallooza’vaganza. (well, Annual’s not the right word, but, it sure sounds more official). It basically turned out to be Sarah puking and me talking nonstop and forcing people to watch my Jem dvd’s…forcing them to UNDERSTAND the plot…and forcing them to ENJOY it! Matt came and picked us up and took us to steak and shake where Sarah force fed me a chili 5-way. I swear that may have been the most food I’ve eaten in a month. But it was so good. Morgan met us there and we came back to my house where I broke out the Jem once more, and the girls all swooned over Rio’s lovely locks. I tried to tell him he aint shit compared to Riot, but…no one wanted to hear it.

…That’s it
Today I just slept a lot, to make up for the lack of sleep I got this weekend.
See you dudes later.		  
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cold as ice.   
11:03pm 01/06/2004
 
mood: full
well, not much is going on. im at kyles right now. cuz i can't get online at home. thats so frustrating. i guess i am going to have to get a job like this week or next, my mom finally brought it up.

lets see.. what else...
i just watched Monster and it was pretty okay,. I've got a super hot date with my boy Draco Malfoy and his new hair cut this Friday. So I am all kindsa jazzed about that. There were huge storms and tornados the other day and my car (that i just got back from the shop) ended up (mysteriously) flooded with water. Apperantly they didnt bother to seal the new door or anything. So I guess I'll have to take it back. grr.

On the bright side i have lost 19 lbs since summer, so i am happy about that. i sure am feeling like the skinniest fat person who ever ate food.

thats about it i guess.
i am missing people. julia, tim, megan, brett, the works.

hope everyones happy and good/		  
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stupid msn internet   
07:21pm 30/05/2004
  Well it sure has been about 600 years since my last update. My dad should be fixing my porn-sick computer and my mom’s computer sucks a big fat one so I am never online. I also don’t have aim until I get my computer back because my mom has some wild theory that its evil and wont let me download it. Oh well, maybe I’ll do it anyway. I mean if the devil exists, I doubt it lives in an instant messaging service.

Anyway.. whats new. Whats new. Hmm… my first night back in the ‘von I I got in a car accident, but that was like 3 weeks ago and I get my car back all shiny and new the day before yesterday.

Finally saw Mean Girls and it rocked my world. I officially do not hate Lindsay lohman and think perhaps she should give me a private naked dance party. Is there anything more arousing than when they all slapped theire thighs during the jinglebell rock scene? No, no I think not.

I don’t have a job. Cause I am a lazy slob, but I sure have been doing a butt load of thrifting, sculpting, crocheting, sewing, and tv-watching, so if anyone wants to pay me for all of that, I’d make a great employee.



Yikes, last night I had bad dreams that Kyle was really mean to me and it sucked. The weird thing is, in my dreams, his mom was Nicks mom. –strange.

Well, that’s about alls I know. I hope everyone is having an excellent summer.		  
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what the mother fuck!   
05:49am 18/04/2004
 
mood: super panick
music: sweat and heavy breathing
fellow MCADians, "i need your hardcore help". Did the school delete our student servers?? what the jesus assholeing christ is going on??!!!!!!		  
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01:10am 18/04/2004
  Julia IS A FART!!!!!!  
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unlawful entry   
09:32pm 04/04/2004
 
mood: tired
music: the news
well, i certainly had a strange wake-up call. at 6:30 this morning i awoke to find a strange guy (whom ive never seen before) standing over my bed). he had long brown hair and leather pants so of course my first logical thought was, "How did Kyle Painter get in my room and why is he wearing leather pants?", but as my eyes and brain focused i came to see that it was NOT kyle. It was some fucking druggie weirdo. I asked him who he was and he said he didnt know, and i asked him why the fuck he was in my room and he said "I am trying to figure that out". I told him to get the fuck out.
crazy.
anyway, i am tired now and i want to go to bed. where the heck was megan all weekend?		  
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springbreak - i laughed i cried... i watched tv.   
12:11am 28/03/2004
 
mood: exhausted
music: OMC - "How Bizzare"
well, spring break was weird. the day after i got home my cat 's two back legs suddenly became paralized for no reason. the vet gave him medication that made him really hungry and thirsty but also made him unable (or unwilling) to shit. so a gigantic gassy shit bubble formed within him and we thought he was going to explode crap allover the household. so half of my vacation was spent giving him enemas, wiping his asshole, dealling with his mortality, sice we decided we were going to put him down on monday, but all the sudden on saturday he just got better, her was able to walk again and take dumps on his own and didnt sleep under the bed. it was wonderful. i love that cat more that you guys understand. although i am talking rather flippantly about his near-death experience, its only because he's okay now, if he had died, it would have been a serious tragedy indeed.
anyway
since i didnt have to worry about Budd anymore, i just maxed and relaxed the rest of the time. all my friends were back at school cause their breaks were the week before (and i had been too busy nursing Budd then to party hardy)...so me and my mom just hung out a lot. we watched a ton of movies: "Lost In Translation", "Virgin Suicides", "They" (why did they make this movie?), "School of Rock", "21 Grams", "Paradise Lost" (again, cause my mom hadnt seen it), "Radio", and...i thought there were more but now i can't remember.

On Thursday I went out to Shelbyville to see Grace and we went driving around looking for the library, we couldnt find it so we went to the Salivation Army but the promptly kicked us out, and then we high-tailed it out over to the Cinema-six and saw "Dawn of the Dead" which i was quite impressed with and reccomend to all. even tho its much different from the origional its still well done. and i am the type that hates modern horror movies. so go see it. ... if you like that kinda stuff.

well, thats about all i know, except for that driving long distances by yourself is boring, and your ass hurts less if there is a friend there to talk to.

oh yeah and p.s.
the guy from My Big Fat Obnoxious Dude Face had a commercial, I cant remember what its for but her's in a towl in a locker room and he flies over some lockers, thats all you need to know. STEVE, you are a bronze god.		  
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another boring post.   
01:10am 15/03/2004
 
mood: blah
music: gothic archies - "city of the damned"
Well, its been a few days...
I dyed my hair, it was supposed to be black with blue bangs, but the bleach didnt work, so its like, black with algae bangs. and my scalp's turquise, so that rocks.

i dropped my painting class, which makes me an incredible idiot. but dammit, i dont need to explain myself to anyone. (except my mom i guess) and she took it fine enough.

i did my entire animation in one sitting. seventeen hours! from 5 pm to 12 noon the next day. minus a few cigarette breaks and a trip to the gas station. that was some serious working hard. i am the man, and i dont have to worry about animation for 2 weeks.

julia was gone this weekend. being a fag in baltimore, where i wish i was right now. i would hand feed white grapes to john waters while he lie naked on a bed of feathers and brightly colored scarves.

friday me and megan and tim and jacky watched "my so-called life" and made buttons, then went to Perkins. On Saturday me and Tim went to Perkins and watched "Jeepers Creepers 2" which was so bad that... it was BAD. Tim is really scared of the Jeepers Creeper, he peed on him self at the sight of those big swooping wings.

Today was dumb, i slept in really late, watched the "Witches" for Roald dahl class and wrote an essay on the film adaptation vs. the book.

Holy crap was the Practice awesome today! JAMES SPADER got fired from the firm, i think i'll die. but my cousin, Autumn, (who is a bitch) told my mom that she heard that James is getting his own spin-off show. Man That'd be so hot. I just can't get enough of him as a witty smart-assed defense attourney!		  
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testing out my html bolding skills.   
12:59am 15/03/2004
 
mood: fat and enormous
music: bangles - "if she knew what she wants"
BOLD is true...

I have never been drunk
I have never smoked pot
I have never kissed a member of the opposite sex
I have never kissed a member of the same sex
I have never crashed a friend's car
I have never been to Japan
I have never ridden in a taxi
I have never had anal sex
I have never been in love
I have never had sex
I have never had sex in public
I have never been dumped
I have never shoplifted
I have never been fired
I have never been in a fist fight
I have never had a threesome
I have never snuck out of my parents' house
I have never been tied up (sexually)
I have never been caught masturbating
I have never pissed on myself
I have never had sex with a member of the same sex
I have never had sex with a member of the opposite sex
I have never been arrested
I have never made out with a stranger
I have never stole something from my job
I have never celebrated New Year's in Times Square (or national equivalent)
I have never gone on a blind date
I have never lied to a friend
I have never had a crush on a teacher
I have never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
I have never been to Europe
I have never skipped school
I have never slept with a co-worker
I have never been fisted and/or have never fisted anyone
I have never thrown up in a bar
I have never visited a site held holy by a major religion
I have never cheated on a final exam
I have never had a relationship with someone of the same sex		  
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"well you can take your homely brother, jack him off, and shove him up your singing asshole"   
04:55pm 10/03/2004
 
mood: happy
music: "catatonic" - babes in toyland
just got back from shopping with megan and boy is my credit card tired. we went to savers and salation army and i bought a bunch of skirts and shirts and i pair of earrings. i must have spent a whole sixteen bucks. we also ate taco bell and i drank a coke slushee, although i think mrs. burgerking peed in it. that megan sure is a fly babe. i should be painting now, but i was thinking that i'd actually prefer to just watch tv and fall asleep! hmm, tune in next time to find out what i'll do.

oh and by the way. "North" can suck my anal canal. although its really really good when hes playing Fidler on the Roof.		  
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Totally Hot, Totally uncensored, Totally un-photo-shopped   
11:28pm 07/03/2004
  man who wouldnt give me 300 bucks for these beuties! SG here i come!
nekkid abbeys
abbey logo
i am so gay and bored.		  
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