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Thursday, May 22nd, 2003
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10:17 am
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this journal is now defunct. all of you who asked to be added will be. check for someone new who adds you as a friend. peace.
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| Wednesday, May 21st, 2003
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11:02 am
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so, i am switching to a different journal. if you would like to know the name, please leave a comment and i will add you to my other journal. peace.
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| Saturday, April 26th, 2003
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12:20 pm
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yay for roadtrips with LJ friends!
so on thursday night i met bea at kosta's place. she was every bit as wonderful and little as i thought she would be. we left boston at around midnight after eating some food i made (yum) and we drove and drove and drove and drove and we finally got to colchester vt (past burlington) at 4:30 am. what a ride. im glad the weather was good. the sky was really clear and we could so so many stars. we got to sleep on a nice little bed on the floor, which was so comfortable ("i'm sleeping with someone from the internet"). i think the best thing was at like 8am and we could hear someone getting ready, and bea looks over and whispers "theres a really cute boy in the kitchen..." and goes back to sleep. hahaa. i had an awesome time just kind of waking up and talking to new people. i dropped bea and (oh man i forgot that guys name) in burlington and drove home in the sunshine to NH. it was an awesome ride home, i drove slow and smoked a bowl... the view of the mountians leaving burlington was amazing.
last night josh and i went out to eat. yum. today i got my final paycheck in the mail from goodwill, and it is for 620$. thats almost two car payments, which is great!
the slip show was cancelled today. boohoo. its ok tho, cause that means we get to go to western MA and see ryan and the guy and a whole slew of young boys that i must must see tonight. that sounds really bad. it is.
current mood:  predatory
current music: van morrison- these dreams of you
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| Thursday, April 24th, 2003
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9:24 am
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mmmm.... its kinda nice not working! i have so much to do today! but not having to ever go back to goodwill is so great. actually, i am going there today to bring one of my co-workers some food- she said that she wanted to try some of my cooking before we never saw each other again, so i am bringing her a leftover polenta stuffed red pepper today. i made them for the first time last night and they were great.
we tried to go to the bar last night, but when we got inside there was a cover! fuck that, ill just go on a day where its free. like a monday afternoon.
today i am making vegan stuffed shells for bea, who i will be meeting in boston tonight, and also for kosta and tasoula, who i will be seeing tonight! yay for being laid off!
what i have to do today:
take a shower(been like 2 weeks ewww)
get an oil change
go buy organic basil
make stuffed shells
bring food to co-worker
possibly file for unemployment
drive to boston
wait joyfully at kosta and tasoula's for bea
drive to burlington vt!
hopefully take a nap?
drive back to NH
obvioulsy that leaks into my tomorrow list too.
yesterday i sold this mexican family two carts full of shoes for 14 cents.
RASTAFARI!! sorry i just felt like saying that.
wait, not sorry.
the slip this weekend!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: leslie helpert, of course
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| Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
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7:17 am
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its pretty bad when you smoke so much pot that you dont feel high anymore. its also pretty bad when you wake up with headaches from smoking too much.
i feel like shit, and there is no painkiller in this place. uuuugh.
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| Friday, April 18th, 2003
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8:31 am
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| Tuesday, April 15th, 2003
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9:01 am
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also, in my hurry to get ready yesterday, i accidently wore the glass that kosta gave me in the shower, and i ruined it.
lesson: if you dont pay attention, you will loose the things you love/cherish!
current mood:  high
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8:28 am
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there is the hugest pile of dishes in the sink. they are not mine, or i should say, most of them are not mine or josh's, we havent even made food since friday night.
went to see dead cat bounce and the motet on sunday. so damn good!
the highlights:
* geoff scott saw me talking to lara and gave me "the look" and then gave me a kiss!
* we saw lots of slip family!
* i got to be in the very front
* this drunk girl next to me in the front kept whipping her hair around and dancing so sexy for the band, which i found hilarious and gross at the same time.
* garret sayers smiled at me from stage (man hes so fucking hot)
* before the motet went on, said wasted hair chick told josh i had the most beautiful face she'd ever seen
* lara said to me "ive been waiting for you to call, when are you going to call me?"
* some drunk guy rob was telling us how he and geoff and someone else got really wasted before the show, and then rob proceeds to whisper in my ear several times saying things like "im usually much more attractive, i havent showered or shaved in a few days!"
the only thing that wasnt good was that after bill's band was done playing i didnt get to talk to him! josh told me that he came up to him and talked to him, but i was talking to lara so he didnt disturb me. :(
the slip this weekend!
current mood: rejuvenated
current music: miracle orchestra!
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| Sunday, April 13th, 2003
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6:20 pm
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lovely.
there are never any words for such wonderful things!
"they say girl you're like a mythological creature, you must come from a place with skins and tails, and i say 'now look' to all these people, 'look at this body in bed'... it looks to me just like a woman"
--serpantfly!
current mood:  loved
current music: leslie
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| Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
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9:13 am
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so i go back again today to goodwill. im pretty glad to have work again. i got up early, took a shower (!!) and made a protein shake- ice, this mango/fruit juice that has way more than you need for antioxidents and costs almost 4$ a bottle (32 oz!), protein powder, bananas, and spirulina. yum!!!!
the slip again in two days. yes!
i have a slight sadness in my heart, it feels pulled into two places and unfortunatly i cant get to one of those places. everything happens for a reason, and i know life will be wonderful as always. ive just never felt anything like it before.
i wish i could make all the beautiful people in this world my lover, not in the physical sex way, but in the intimate laying in bed while the breeze floats over you soul connection kind of way.
current mood:  okay
current music: ani "im going home, to please the one i so love pleasing, and i dont expect that he'll have much simpathy for my grieving"
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| Monday, March 31st, 2003
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11:28 am
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i got my job back at goodwill! i start again tomorrow... im pretty happy about it.
current mood: cheerful
current music: brad and sara
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| Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
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1:10 pm
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yes yes yes it worked the tech support guy helped me! i had to take off the side panel of my computer and fish around in there, but it worked!!!! hell yeah! thank you ryan m for your very good tech support!
current mood:  accomplished
current music: leslie 11.29.02
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12:02 pm
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right now i am getting online tech support for my computer. its strange, but nothing is helping either. i called the tech support on the phone, but because i didnt purchase an extended warrenty, i couldnt get help that way. lame lame lame.
i just want my disk drive to work so i can play sims... josh got the livin large expansion pack from his work and i want to play it so bad and i cant cause my computer decided not to work right. i have no money to go get it fixed!
current mood: nerdy
current music: none
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10:02 am
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| Saturday, March 22nd, 2003
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1:26 pm
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last night we saw Kabir play at the western front in cambridge. so so good... lots of fashionable girls with special shoes and lipstick... i'll never understand why people wear lipstick.
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| Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
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10:35 pm
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| Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
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7:55 pm
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i need some new icons for this damn thing, but no one has taken my picture since like, the summer time. next time i come across a pic of me with my dreads, im gonna make it my new icon.
im so glad about the free love! i can jump on the next hot guy i see... haha.
im going to eat vegan hot dogs with vegetarian baked beans. also, im gonna trip out tonight! we got some crazy (and expensive) L - 150 micrograms per hit!
wooohooooooooo!
current mood: naughty
current music: janis joplin- summer time
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| Sunday, March 9th, 2003
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3:15 pm
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its awesome how when you need something, the universe comes through and gives it to you, but in such a greater capacity than you could have ever imagined.
current mood: loved
current music: ani difranco- schoolnight
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1:44 pm - you are a miracle, but that is not all
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i am still feeling very beautiful. yesterday was a lazy day, drew and i ran errands and listened to the miracle orchestra. i applied to work in the deli with tammy... i dont want to cut meat for a living (ewwwwwwwwwwww) but its $ that has me enslaved to this life.
i'm sorry, but i feel like posting lyrics...
"but then what kind of scale
compares the weight of two beauties
the gravity of duties
or the ground speed of joy?
tell me what kind of gauge
can quantify elation?
what kind of equation
could i possibly employ?" - ani d.
"love wants to come for free
wants to arrive instantly
i can see your eyes are honeypots
you want to (and will)
skip down the road
untill the swell of wind
lifts up your clothes
you look at the moon
and she knows you're knowing
you say to your friend
If You Touched Me Now Surely
You'd See Sparks Glowing
Your flowers bloom
and bloom away
they adhere to no prescribed law of nature
Your love don't stop
it only knows how to open
open open open open
i believe our fear is over
i believe i have ceased fearing such things
while we're sought out by birds school of flight
for any secret techniques on how we reach such height
all directions cherished when expectations parish
so if you want to go up, we'll show you up
and if you want to go down, let's go
cuz there's no sad part about falling down
when you fall like we do and you know how to drown
to the sandy bottom for a look around
to see whats sunk and to think about it
why not be the one whose eyes say YES
when every eye is longing for it
you believe you'd be better off dead
than to be that one who has to come back
to say what's too late too late too late
to be said
Yes! you made the choice to get your
feet wet, your ankles your shins your knees
your thighs and now you're swimming
yes you made the choice to get wet
and for that you will always be bathed in my praise" - leslie helpert
"do you want to help me chop vegetables? and by chopping vegetables, i mean make out..." - ?
current mood: jubilant
current music: ani d
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| Wednesday, March 5th, 2003
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9:47 am
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its like i am a totally different person at night then during the day- if i am at home at night, this really sad, lonely person emerges from somewhere inside of me.
things are always better by the light of day. josh said hes going to stop drinking, and only had two drinks yesterday, which i guess is better than 6+ and throwing up. it still makes me feel sick when i see him get up and go into the fridge for another drink.
i think it would be good if the two of us had more time away from each other. but, i guess hes jealous of those who recently have been seeing me more (kosta and tasoula), and has decided to basically velcro himself to me in his hours away from work... we are going to see bill carbone play with dead cat bounce tonight, and josh HAS to come. its silly, but i cant tell him no, cause he will think that something really weird is going on, which i kind of think he already thinks. one second he tells me i can do whatever i want to (haha or whoever for that matter), then when i go and do things alone, he has to go. i'll never understand guys. never.
the slip is tomorrow, i am so excited. i am going with nick, tasoula, kosta... josh may or may not be coming, depending on if tammy and drew want to go... cause if they do, he will pick them up in NH and we will all meet at the show, but if not then he will meet us in boston and come in my car.
i cannot wait for the show tonight, i cant wait to see bill... he emails me a lot, i got like 4 yesterday. if you looked at my email's inbox, you would see like 40+ emails. yes i am a dork and save all the emails i get from him. haha. knowing someone that plays such good music is so awesome.
current mood: peaceful
current music: miracle orchestra- forks, bends, spoons
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