Sunday, December 23rd, 2001
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10:42 pm
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so its finally christmas eve....first christmas with a boyfriend dun dun dun. he said he doesnt have any money to buy me anything so hes making me something which i said i like better because it comes from the heart, and thats what i would rather have you know a simple note or just a flower you pick from outside. im an easy girl. joey did a horrible thing. my sister is sad and i hate it when shes sad i feel like i should be doing anything and everything in the world for her to make her better and still she doesnt get better, i wish she was happy. i miss my chloe.
current mood:  hungry
current music: blur
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(1 Lovin | Pet Me)
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Friday, December 21st, 2001
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3:03 am
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Thursday, December 20th, 2001
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11:11 pm - alright bordem takes over
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5 bands that move you:
1.bright eyes
2.jimi hendrix
3.ert josh magwood. oh no!
4.bright eyes
5. incubus (im so retarded)
5 things that no one or not many people know about you:
1. im really corny
2. im really terrified of failing in my life
3. im scared of dying alone
4. i feel terrible for dropping out of school and not doing anything about it
5.im afraid of getting some horrible disease.
5 things that you wish you'd said when you had the chance
1. how can i hate you and love you so much at the same time?
2.get the fuck away from my sister you worthless peice of shit(hm who could this be about?)
3.i hate you
4. dont ever speak to me again
5. i love you ginger you will always be with me.
5 things that people think about you that aren't true
1.im a bitch
2.im not as dumb as you think i am...
3.that im not capable of suceeding
4. that im getting bored with "him"
5. that i dont care
5 greatest things that happened to you this year:
1.aaron
2.got over josh
3.my photography is finally taking off
4. aaron again?
5.my sister and i got alot closer
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(Pet Me)
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Wednesday, December 19th, 2001
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10:30 am - burr burr burr
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burr burr it is mighty cold today and last night..... THANK GOD! its about fucking time jesus christ i mean it is only a WEEK AWAY FROM CHRISTMAS and people are going to the beach....ew! this is one of the many reasons why florida sucks....its just not supposed to be hot on christmas.....i mean listen to the christmas songs for godsake..."let it snow" "white christmas" list goes on i just really dont really know any of them. hah! in other news aaron is acting so strange....hes so fucking depressed and i dont know why, he wont tell me, but i think some of it is the fact that its christmas and he doesnt have a tree or christmas decorations or anything.....but i did just devise a plan. hahaha.
plan christmas!-
1. buy him one of those little cute trees
2. buy him a tree stand
3. buy him decorations
4. make him decorations
5. bring it all over and surprise him and make him smile again!
yay! im such a good girlfriend.
current mood:  chipper
current music: christmas songs in my head
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(Pet Me)
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Monday, December 17th, 2001
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11:41 pm
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oh my oh my so fucking tired, im exhustated for some odd reason, i saw chelsea and chvoyn last night i had so much fun with them yay. i get paid tomorrow double yay. i need money ineed to buy christmas presents. oh my did i mention i was tired i don think i can type much more i think ive already made a 1000 mistakes night.0
current mood:  exhausted
current music: no doubt
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(3 Lovins | Pet Me)
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Sunday, December 16th, 2001
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12:52 am - my little chloe
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so yes i had alot of fun with my sister last night at aarons show, i think aaron did extremely well we sold 40 dollars worth of cds and they were only 3 dollars, so we did good. but i had alot of fun with chloe im really glad i have her in my life, i dont know what i would do if i ever lost her or didnt have her as my sist.er i had alot of fun with hank last night also, yay!
oh yes got out of going to work at 7 am tomorrow ha ha ha
current mood: sleepy
current music: your mom
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(6 Lovins | Pet Me)
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Thursday, December 13th, 2001
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11:11 pm - we are one mean air band ashley.
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so i realized how my sisters journal is 10000 times better than mine she always has fun posts and then 10000000000,45747q3p3089409238490111111- comments. whats up with that? haha what was that show that always said that. ok im done.
current mood: sleepy
current music: cannibal the musical
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(19 Lovins | Pet Me)
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Tuesday, December 11th, 2001
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4:08 pm - friday
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alright show on friday the 14th
at the realm coffee house on central downtown st.pete
banned from society
action movie soundtrack.
its also banned from societys cd realse party and there might be a after party there.
so be there or be square.
current mood: content
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(Pet Me)
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4:01 pm - as joey laurence would say "whoah!"
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thats right everybody......"whoah!" i really have no idea why i said this but he did say it? anyway things are alot better than the last time i posted which was awhile ago. anyway christmas is almost here yay! i just wish it was cold and not 80-90 degrees everyday! i wish it would snow butttt we do have our tree and our lights up i think im going to buy aaron a christmas tree because he wants one but cant afford it only thing is ive spent so much money on him but ohwell i guess thats one of the things that comes with a boyfriend, i would spend all the money i had on him if i could. oh well. im done.
current mood:  bored
current music: the doors
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(1 Lovin | Pet Me)
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Saturday, December 8th, 2001
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2:14 pm
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I feel as if we are drifting. What did I do???
You used to always smile now all I see is misery. Is there someone else?
Or is it just me?
I promise if you tell me I will change, because you have mended this broken heart of mine and hid the scars, now it belongs to you.
So why am I feeling this hurt again?
Please dont do this to me. Please.
Did you not want my heart? did you give it back to me in my sleep?
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(1 Lovin | Pet Me)
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2:11 pm - when i thought nothing could go wrong it turned around and slapped me in the fucking face.
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Here lies next to me is a old peice of paper.
It moves and shakes with the wind of the fan.
The words of love you once wrote to me are getting harder and harder to read.
But I know these words by heart.
but who knows how long until those too fade?
current music: why bother
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(1 Lovin | Pet Me)
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Wednesday, December 5th, 2001
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7:15 pm - pictures of lauren
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Tuesday, December 4th, 2001
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10:12 pm - aw
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Monday, December 3rd, 2001
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2:34 pm
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Thursday, November 29th, 2001
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10:52 pm
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so yes this is incredible how unbelievably in love with this boy that i am, man and i thought i was in it deep with josh magwood, well josh is in no comparision aaron.i know aaron feels threatened by josh but why should he aaron has shown me everything love means and josh did nothing of the sort he just hurt me continously like it was some game, destroy emily as much as you can its fun, but now im so scared because it took me a year to get over josh i couldnt imagine how long it would be for me to get over aaron, i really dont want things to fall apart.i love him, and i really dont want to be hurt again. this is kind of a pointless post sorry.
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(1 Lovin | Pet Me)
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10:45 pm - sick sick sick
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ok so aaron got me sick, but i guess its my fault i insisted to be around him while he was feeling like that, and now im stuck throwing up and having a fever. and im so hungry i want to die but i know if i eat anything i will puke, and of course the only commercials on are all about food food food. yes chloe and lauren i know i sound like a fat person. "mmm tastey" anyways i dont think ill be able to make it to work tomorrow which sucks because i loose hours but i really need the rest if im going to make it threw the rest of the weekend, and i miss aaron so much, that sounds so pathetic i mean i didnt see him today and here i am sulking because i miss him so much. der im pathetic. anyways im done.
current mood: sick
current music: nothing
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(4 Lovins | Pet Me)
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12:55 am
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Wednesday, November 28th, 2001
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9:36 am
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so i did a new painting last night its been forever since i painted but i did it for aaron to make him feel better. i hope he appreciates it if not i want it for my wall. im doing major cleaning tomorrow my room and my car. i rented 200 cigarettes i love this movie. its so good. aaron rented dr strange love but that made me fall asleep but tomorrow i have off so hopefully we can go out somewhere like to dinner or a movie or something we hardly ever go and do anything, plus he needs to meet my dad before i hear anything else from my dad about not meeting him. AH sorry stupid post.
haha i love these crotch pockets in little boys underwear so great!
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: incubus
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(5 Lovins | Pet Me)
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Tuesday, November 27th, 2001
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4:56 am - my beau
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Saturday, November 24th, 2001
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11:29 am - when the people are away, the cats come out and play.
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