i've deicided i;m changing my name from the common usage of 'delilah' to the legal usage of 'delilah'.

signed,
delilah

everyone pray dana (czarina) shows up.

no one has heard from her since sunday morning, and she was suppose to be back at school by monday morning.

her cell phone is off, no one answer's at her apt in new jersey, and her rents are in moscow until new years.

the police said no one was there when they went to check up on her tonight.

everyone pray/hope/whatever you do.

thank you.

i bitch too much.

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My mother had a talk with me. Apprently, they want to get rid of my car in the next two months because they didn't realize i had so many miles on it. Originally, they were waiting until the 2006's came in because AUdi is redesigning the line but now there is no time to wait because I'm putting miles on it too quickly and they want to try to get atleast 10 grand for it.

This means the repairs on my car need to be done, like now, which mean i need to find 900 dollars out of thin air. Which means I prolly wont get my watch. My mom said if i put down like 200 for the car in good faith they will front me on the rest and put in for the watch, but this means id need to make ohh like 1200 rather soon to pay my rents back for the repairs and pay for the third of my watch they want me to contribute.

le sigh. i'm not trying to be bratty, i'm just terrible with money and i dont know how to save.

i would like all presents for my birthday, hannakuah, and christmas in the form of nordstrom gift cards. there is something i want really bad. and it's driving me nuts, because i'm not sure if i can get it.

i already told my rents its what i want of the december tracy spree but they think it's ridiculously expensive. I agree it's ridiculous. But my mother always says isn;t it better to have one really nice thing you love instead of a hundred small things you like? (<--- the only time i will ever quote my mother, promise!)

it's a watch. but not just any watch. it has a black square face with the sides covered in rubies, with ruby hands. it comes with a stainless steel band, a red lizard band with rubies on the clasp, and a black satin band. there were only 10 released to the united states for sale, and less than a 100 made worldwide.

i'm even willing to forgo my fur to get this. everything pales in comparison. mom told me it's ridiculous for someone my age to have a watch thats over a grand, i disagree, i see it an omen to my glorious future.

wa, wa, wa, i want, i want, i want.

i have completed stage three (shoes)of getting over a relationship...

pair of ankle boots that are slick leopard fur.
pair of cabernet suede pumps with mary jane strap.
pair of black ballet slippers with gunmetal stars.
pair of teal ballet slippers with silver stars.
pair of black and white tweed peep toes with black leather flower & rhinestones.
pair of red crocodile pumps with ankle strap.
pair of burnished gold peep toe pumps with ankle straps.
pair of black lizard skin skimmers with kitten heel.

i am now ready for the world.

Hey ~ I have to get a couple hundred of these filled out, by tomorrow, and I'm a short a couple. If you have some spare time can you answer the questions? ~ Thanks, Tracy

1. Do you identify yourself as:
a)White, non-Hispanic
b)Black, non-Hispanic
c)Hispanic/Latino
d)Asian/Pacific islander
e)other, please specify

2. Are you registered as a:
a)Republican
b)Democrat
c)Independent
d)Other

3. Please mention the state or country you come from.

4. In the past 10 years, have you traveled outside the United States? If yes, please mention the country/region.

5.Can you name at least one official from the Cuban government? If yes, please name them.

6. I'd like your opinion about some possible international concerns for the US. Do you think the Cuban President’s continued rule in Cuba is:
a) a major threat
b)a minor threat
c)not a threat to the well being of the United States?

7. Can you name an ethnic American lobbying group representing the interests of American ethnic minorities? If yes, please name them.

8. Do you know the name of a Cuban American lobbying group representing interests of Cuban Americans?

9. Do you think the US government should continue the trade embargo against Cuba?


10. Please mention which U.S. President, regardless or party identification, do you feel has been more effective in dealing with Cuba?

latley, i've been thinking about spirituality and religion. I know, it's so unlike me. I've come to the conclusion that I am a very spiritual person. I want to believe in something greater than myself, and I respect other people who do so.

No. my faithful readers, I have not found Jesus, nor do I think I ever will. I've just been thinking a lot about religion. Although I don't like orgnaized religion the idea of faith is a very important one. It isn't about having faith in a story or in the divinity of a man who died thousands of years ago. It's about having faith in yourself and the people around you, and seeing the beauty of creation. (Now, I don't mean creationist thought, but creation in the sense of molecules, and the wonders of life.)

I don't think any religion can fully capture this without the corruption of it by people. I think that faith and religion and the idea of God is within each of us and it is for each of us to flog, ignore, use, pray, worship for ourselves.

I've always thought of religion as a crutch used by the weak, and used as an excuse by the strong. The more I thought about it though the more I thought about the idea of self awareness and when people pray for something, or for some strength they are asking for some part of themselves that is already there, it just needs to be utilized. When they say, "dear God let me get through this," they are really saying "I really just need to get through this." In a sense God is your ideal self. He is what you want to be, a perfect image to be strived for.

I simply can't see anything wrong with this. In fact, I think it's quite useful. To have faith in God, is to have faith in oneself.

I am pretty sure this is blasphemy. But I actually don't know what is blasphemy... I suppose that's why orgnaized religion and I don't get along...

UPDATE: I have just been informed this is blasphemy, but couldn;t tell me why... Can anyone tell me why?

I am now a dark strawberry blonde with platnium highlights in a blunt cut bob.

I have now entered stage three of my break up with chris: I am now shopping for underwear and shoes to begin my new life as a sexy single.

 

 

Since Kerry condeeded there have been helicopters, low flying airplanes and constant sirens going off... has the world ended??... yes it has. =(

So...

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 8am to get some cavaties filled, where the fillings fell out. I tihnk I have three or four to be done.

Last time I went there I had to have 6 shots of novacaine and I was drooling everywhere. It felt so weird and I hated it, but at the same time I kidna like it...

I'm afraid I'll need a root canal or something... =(

they are fighting again...

http://bellaonline.org/misc/quiz/monsters/index.asp

YOU ARE A VAMPIRE

Somewhere in your murky past, you were seduced to the dark side. You developed a fondness for velvet and dark fabrics, for long capes and dark red lipstick. You enjoy the evening, the shadow of the night. You tend to be sensual, and whether it's a new conquest or an old flame, a nibble on the neck is quite enticing.

Keep an eye open for the unbelieving, for those who treasure an early sunrise and have a wooden stake or two in their pockets. You never know when those bat-haters will track you down and put an end to your nocturnal pleasures!

Vampires have been in legend since the days of the Romans, but they really took off in popularity with the story Dracula by Bram Stoker, and the movie Nosferatu came out. In the 80s and 90s, the gothic movement really took hold and books, movies and TV shows about vampires abounded. One of the more famous movies was Interview with a Vampire starring Tom Cruise.

Here are some quotes from Interview to get you started:

Armand: They had forgotten the first lesson: that we must be powerful, beautiful, and without regret.

Lestat: Evildoers are easier, and they taste better.

hi. my name is tracy. my body is very very very tired. my mind fights sleep constantly. it wants to stay up forever.

i dont know what to be for halloween now.

so i have a one hundred dollar credit at borders. i'm trying to think what to spend it on. im already getting 'who wants to marry a millionaire' in dvd so dana, michelle and i can watch it to get ideas, but its only 12$.

i wanted some schubert but all of it i have to special order... does no one listen to schubert anymore!?!?

now why would i be going to borders at a time like this?? because i was tired and i actually went to bed when i was tired (10pm) and then woke up fully refreshed at 430am. of course. figures. so now i am searching borders inventory...

feel free to steal my ideas as long as we arent going to the same parties!!

betty boop

cleopatra

marie antoninette

paris hilton

space woman (think sexy tight outfit with lotsa glitter and ray gun!!)

delilah

hedy lamarr (who coincidentiley played delilah)

may west

marilyn monroe

ava gardner

rita hayworth

wanda von dunajew ( more well known as mrs. von sacher masoch adn the real life wanda from "venus in furs"

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

cant sleep. i am so screwed up sleep schedule wise that i don't even know if i should be tired...

now thats screwed up.

i met a cute someone today.

we'd been talking online because we were doing a group project for overview of european union. he's late twenties, early thirties. did i mention he's sooo cute?? he looks about 25/26 but that age is always so decieving. He works at FannieMae and his major is finance. I need to find out his deal as to why he's a senior at however old he is. i worry he might be gay. so many guys at AU are...

he's way too clean cut to be gay(not to say gay men arent gay but he was straight wall street), but he's so nice and not like mr. macho like all the other boys muscling to see who can piss farther. so he's either gay or nice. isn't that weird the way that works?

but we sat next together in class and shared skittles. i saw him today for the first time. i wanted to ask him out after class but i'm too shy. i haven't done that since the 9th grade when ti terrible backfired.

i think i have to strong of a personality to ever ask someone out without totally freaking them out. here's to hoping he does the asking...

**crosses fingers**

**rubs lucky rabbit foot**

**wears pj's inside out**

hoping...

omg. i was on the EU website. and there was a press realease about qudhafi but it was only in french. i suck at languages but i took two years of french in middle school. so i said fuck it i'm bored. i'll stick it in babelfish. but then... i started to read it, and not only read it but UNDERSTAND it!!

I am amazed how much french i remember. of course there were some words i didn;t get, but i got enough to actually know that there was a celebrating to celebrate the anniversary of the revolution in Libya, and the president and qudhafi talked about panafricanism and talking with memebers of the EU to figure out how to set up an African Union in the image of the European Union.

God, I rock. I just needed to tell some but le sigh it is 4:30am and I am most certain I am the only person aware who isn't like sweeping a parking lot somewhere...

yesterday was my first day of school. it was ... interesting.

i'm a senior. not only that i'm in my last semester. i'm graduating in just a couple months. waaaaaa!!!

i have class again tonight. political speechwriting and presentation. not too excited about it. i'm curently doing the reading. after my classes last night i went with D and Mike to Strike and we bowled fur consecutive games. now my shoulders, arms and back are sore. woe is me.

had fun though. shaucked my booty to some wicked tones.

omg. so funny. not lol funny, but funny. i'm in the cyber cafe at school and i started to write in the subject line and i hadn;t typed anything yet and it dropped down with preciously typed options by whomever was on this pc before me. And it's funny that "you were a no show!" came up because MY PROFESSOR WAS A NO SHOW!!

and due to holidays we dont have the class for antoher two weeks. loooovley. so i rushed my cute ass all the way up to dc for a class where the professor didn't even show up and now i have to wait until 8:10 for my next class.... greeeeeat.

other than that. i'm not doing to much.

bought a pair of gucci glasses, some cute marc jacobs princessy shoes, sexy skin colored metallic shoes, and a new juicy set in red. go me. i'm bored.

wa wa wa wa.