02.07.2005 | 05:22pm music  |  local news on tv it's been almost a week. i suppose i should post something, eh? i didn't mean to go so long in between posts, but i just haven't had anything to say over the past few days. i'm not depressed or anything, rather i just...yeah, i just haven't had anything to say. *shrug* my parents and my brother are leaving at the end of this week for a month-long trip to visit friends in arizona. they're driving down there in the motorhome, which explains why they're planning to be gone for so long. i love my family, but it'll be nice to have the house to myself for the next few weeks. oh yes, so very nice. ... i've been on a dvd kick lately and rented de-lovely, before sunset, we don't live here anymore, and coffee and cigarettes. the first two were quite good, but the last two were so dreadful i didn't even bother to finish them. i had high hopes for we don't... because i had read about it shortly after it came out and it reportedly did very well at a number of film festivals. the same goes for coffee..., but while i adore jim jarmusch and many of the cast members, i was so disappointed and all i could think about was how glad i was that i hadn't taken a gamble and bought the movie before renting it. i almost purchased the dvd at best buy, then decided it would be wise to rent it beforehand because you just never know about some movies. i did buy ray before seeing it, though, because i haven't heard anything negative about that movie, and judging from the clips and trailers i've seen, i am certain i'll love it. i'm not going in for producer training tonight, so i think i'll settle in and watch ray. today at costco i bought broadcast news because it's so clever and funny...and it was only eight bucks. don't you love it when you find a movie you love in the bargain bin? that rarely happens. the other day i saw fatal attraction for six bucks at best buy and i was so happy and...hmm, why didn't i buy it? *pause* hmm, i can't remember - i must have been distracted by something shiny, that's the only explanation i can think of. i should go back this week and see if it's still in the bargain bin - yeah, that and vision quest. ha! matthew modine as a high school wrestler and linda fiorentino as the woman who turns his life upside down - oh, that movie is such a guilty pleasure. ... friday night i am going out with three other girls from work...to watch lots of buff men get nekkid and dance around!! while i love the menfolk, this show isn't something i'd normally go to, but one of the girls practically begged me to go, so i shrugged and thought, "aw, what the hell? i guess i can go and be a pig for one night." i'll be sure to hoop and holler and bring along some cash because, you know, those boys work hard for the money, so hard for it, honey. ha! ... on the work front, i helped out with friday morning's show and when i went to put my tape together last night during my break, i saw tuesday morning's tape was gone. dammit! granted, i had plenty of material to capture from the friday tape, but having my stories from both friday and tuesday would be so much better. oh well, nothing i can do about it now, and at least i have something to show potential employers. i was going to train tonight but i have a splitting headache, and i have to be awake tomorrow morning to run some errands, so instead i'm going to record a few of friday's stories on to tapes to send to two stations with entry-level producer positions open. i don't think i have a shot at either gig, as i am still very green at this producing thing, but it's not as if i have anything to lose. ... oh my god, my head hurts. *cries* 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

02.01.2005 | 04:06pm i went into work around 11:30 last night and trained with the weekday morning producer. he had me write eight stories, all of which were used in the show - a nice start to the tape that will become my producing portfolio. i may stay after my regular shift on thursday, too, but i haven't decided yet. that would mean working from 3 p.m. to 11:30, then staying on my own time until seven the following morning. that would be a very long day indeed, but it would look really good. hmm...we'll see. so yeah, i've been going in after hours to train with the weekday morning producer, and i have been going in six hours prior to my regular sunday shift to train with the weekend producer. all of this training has been on my own time and i've never asked about getting paid for it - not that i could anyway, since producers are part of the news department and i'm in production. if i were going in for extra training within my own department, i could get paid for that time, but producing? not the case. oh well, it's something i want to do very badly and so i hope all of this extra time i've been putting in will pay off eventually, if not here then another market. i'm not picky about where i end up - i'll go where the work is. in this business, very few have the power to choose where they want to work - the other 99.9% of us must go where we can find a job, regardless of how undesirable that market may be. it's just the nature of the beast. i just got back from my daily workout and am a little annoyed that i didn't work as hard as i did yesterday. i tried to jog but i just couldn't get myself moving today. i came home after the morning show ended and went straight to bed, sleeping until one, and for that my energy level is a little off this afternoon. i speed walked for an hour - not great, but better than nothing. i hope my body doesn't decide to crash later on, because i have plans to go out for some good ol' irish pub cheer with a friend from work. i need a snack. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.31.2005 | 01:37pm i just found out elvis costello will be playing in spokane on april 9th. dammit! i want to go so badly, but i don't know anybody around here who likes elvis. ack! :( 5 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.30.2005 | 03:12pm today is going to be a long day. instead of coming in at my regular three o'clock time, i came in at nine to train with the weekend producer. i've been doing that every sunday for the past few weeks, in hopes that it will matter someday. i've also made a point to keep a videotape of the stories i've written. it's a feeble portfolio at best, but a start to a portfolio nonetheless. tomorrow night i am going to come in and stay up all night with the weekday morning producer. i did that last week and quickly decided you couldn't pay me enough to produce a morning show. crikey, it really takes a certain person to produce a show like that. last sunday was a train wreck in that everything that could possibly go wrong did. hopefully today will be smooth and as free of error as possible. i probably just jinxed us all by typing that. or, is it only bad when you say it out loud? hmm...best i choose my words carefully for the rest of the afternoon just in case. heh it's nearly 3:30. i should get the set ready for the five. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

01.28.2005 | 05:18pm music  |  "step outside" - left hand smoke a job i applied for and wanted very badly has been filled. i've been thinking about it all day and i finally broke during my jog this afternoon. i could feel the tears welling up halfway through my first lap but i kept going anyway. if i had not completed at least two laps around the campus, i would have felt much worse. then my frustrations turned from job-related matters, to the fact that as i jogged, i could feel my tummy, hips and butt jiggling. fuck, i hate how that feels. ugh. something must give way soon. it must. i need it to. but enough about that. i'm going out tonight. drinks and fun are what i need right now. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.27.2005 | 10:06pm music  |  "downtown" - lloyd cole it's time to start anew. 4 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.24.2005 | 01:01am even in death, he will always be the king of late night and the others never had a shot. he was the institution, the standard, the instruction manual. simply put, johnny was it. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.22.2005 | 12:29am music  |  "an american in paris" - george gershwin today before work, i met my parents for lunch at a chinese restaurant, and the fortune inside my cookie read: try something new and different. you will like the results. i painted my toenails earlier today. i haven't done that in...hmm...four years? that might count as something new and different, right? maybe? i'm not sure if i like the results, though. my toenails are now dark metallic purple and they look weird. *snicker* yes, i do remember my post from the other day, and i did try that with this fortune. ha! try something new and different in bed. you will like the results in bed. maybe i'll trying sleeping while sitting up - with one leg behind my head, even. that's definitely something new and different, although i don't think i'd like those results either. for one thing, i'd be awfully cramped in the morning. i'd probably scare the cat, too. something new and different, eh? painting my toenails - yeah, that's just how exciting i am, kids. i'm a walking, talking party on wheels, hell yeah. now if you'll excuse me, i'm going to go slather my hands with lotion, put on a pair of moisturizing gloves, and watch a dvd... ...in bed! 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.20.2005 | 07:59pm music  |  "solitary man" - neil diamond things i am seriously digging at this very second: 01 striped socks. 02 my new lavender faux croc bag. 03 neutrogena's norwegian formula hand cream. 04 spicy chicken wings. 05 neil diamond. 06 flannel pajamas. pull up to the bumper

01.17.2005 | 09:50pm music  |  "the look of love" - sergio mendes & brasil '66 i just did my nails. it gives me so much satisfaction to do my nails, tweeze and shape my eyebrows, wash and moisturize my face, organize my desk. it means at least something in my life is immaculate and the way it should be. too bad everything else can't fall into place that easily. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

01.12.2005 | 07:43pm jesus, from the way the media have been acting, you'd think the world was coming to an end. yes, our dear brad and jen have broken up, but, really, is it worth covering four days in a row? crikey. next! 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.12.2005 | 12:03pm music  |  "take you on a cruise" - interpol you know, adding the words, "in bed," to the end of every sentence is still funny. last night i cracked open my fortune cookie to reveal this little morsel of wisdom: prepare today for the demands of tomorrow. add, "in bed," to that, and suddenly i go from mild-mannered production assistant to full-blown (no pun intended) lady of the night. hey, go me. i'm a regular renaissance woman. okay, that's all i have. as you were. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.11.2005 | 10:47pm i hate driving in the snow, this is a well-known fact. what i hate even more, however, are the other drivers on the road. jesus, people, there are snow and ice all over the roads - can't you see that? would it kill you to slow down and, you know, pay attention to what you're doing?? oh. my. god!!! fucking hell, my car got clipped tonight by some stupid bitch who decided to pass me, even though there was no room for her to do so. on a normal day, there would have been room, but because the snow plows have pushed the snow to the sides of the roads, there are fewer lanes than usual. i was as far over to the right as i could go, so dammit, did she not notice that there wasn't enough room for her to pass, or that i had come to a stop and that my turn signal was on? we both drove to a parking lot one block up to check for damage, and thankfully there wasn't any to either vehicle. because the roads are so caked with snow right now, i had been driving very slowly and fortunately she had been as well. she very nonchalantly asked if i was okay, and i was. a friend from work was in the car with me and it's a good thing, too, because i think if i had been alone, i would have lost my temper for sure. i mean, what the hell did she try to do back there? that fucking idiot!! i let my friend do the talking and she asked the woman if she was okay, and the woman said she was. then my friend, who knew i was pretty pissed, asked if i was okay, and i said that i was but that i needed to get back into the car because i was really fucking mad. i didn't say anything to the woman outright, but my tone and body language made it pretty clear that i really wanted to lay into her. we got back into our cars and my friend kept asking me if i was all right and told me to breathe. i was fine, but just really pissed off that someone could be so stupid. that woman was just one of many people who have nearly killed me during the last few days. come on, people, the roads are pretty nasty right now. just slow the fuck down and stop following so closely. it's just not worth getting into an accident. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.08.2005 | 01:18pm on this day in 1935, the future of modern music was born in a small house in tupelo, mississippi. that rock song you're listening to probably wouldn't exist if it hadn't been for this man. 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.07.2005 | 09:58am hmmm...i am thinking that going out tonight may not be such a good idea after all - at least, not for me. i am literally snowed in, as both my driveway and street are covered with about four inches of snow. if i were to attempt driving, my car would be stuck for sure. bummer. :( pull up to the bumper

01.06.2005 | 10:54pm i just heard on the news that the surviving members of inxs plan to search for a new lead singer in a cbs reality show tentatively titled, "rockstar." oh fucking hell, that's it. that's it! i am this close to throwing out my inxs albums. i am so disappointed in the band. okay, sure they haven't had anything going since michael hutchence scarfed himself to death, but a reality show? is this really the way to go? fan or not, i will not watch this show. crikey, a reality show. *shakes head, sighs, rolls eyes* i ask you. 3 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.06.2005 | 02:47pm music  |  "bubble pop electric" - gwen stefani crikey, i must be dreaming! i just bought two incredibly cute coats for next to nothing! i stopped at target to pick up a few odds and ends i was out of, and thought, "eh, i guess i'll look at the clothes. why not?" i perused around and ended up at a clearance rack, where this cute pink wool peacoat had caught my eye. original price? forty. clearance price? twenty. it was a perfect fit and so i wisely snatched it up, and went about my way through the store. i know my mom will love it, too, and will want to borrow it. that's fine with me, since i borrow her tan peacoat and red leather jacket all the time. this is very similar to the one i bought, except mine is bright pink and the detailing on the pockets is slightly different. i also decided to use the nordstrom gift card i got for christmas, but at nordstrom rack, since i could get more for my money there. i tried on a few tops which all fit but were not cut right, then i tried on the loveliest anne klein wool coat. it was a perfect fit and had been marked down to about $54, although i knew the original price had to have been much, much more. with my gift card being worth $50, however, that meant i would be getting the coat for next to nothing. the woman who rang me up said it was a beautiful coat, and the saleswoman at the next register looked over and said the same, and that she had placed one on the hold rack for her daughter. so my saleswoman asked the other if her coat had the original price on the tag, as mine did not. she said it did, walked over to the hold rack, glanced at the tag on her coat, and said the original price was $219. i stammered in thought, "t-t-t-t-t-two hu-hu-hu-hundred and nineteen d-d-d-dollars? holy shit!!!" when my saleswoman finished ringing up the coat, with my gift card and the sales tax, i ended up shelling out a whopping nine dollars for that beautiful $219 wool coat! score!! i tried to find the same coat online to show here, but only found this one. it's very similar, though my coat is white, dark brown, and lavender, and the lapels on mine aren't that large and it does not involve a belt. damn, i love a great deal! happy day! :) pull up to the bumper

01.06.2005 | 12:12am is it me or does patricia arquette have fangs? her teeth scare me. 7 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.05.2005 | 05:21pm we can't call them frangos anymore? at least they aren't discontinuing them and that it's just a name change, but it will be weird. i'm still trying to get used to saying and hearing the name bon-macy's instead of bon marche. pull up to the bumper

01.05.2005 | 05:11pm music  |  local news on tv the three major affiliates here in town all started off their five o'clock newscasts with "team coverage" of the cold weather. granted, there was a power outage in one part of town this afternoon, but nonetheless, cold weather is the top story? yes, it's very cold, but is this worthy of team coverage? it's january in spokane, you guys! it freezes up every year, you should know that! must be a slow news day. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

01.05.2005 | 04:20pm i, too, hope the livejournal-six apart rumor is just that - a rumor. i've tried out some of the competition, but in the end i always came back to livejournal. it's not perfect - nothing is - but it's damn near close. i've had an account since may 2000, and although there were already about 3,500 people using livejournal at that time, that's still such a miniscule amount compared to the nearly 6 million people worldwide who are members today. therefore, i sort of consider myself one of the old-school users, back when it was still unheard of, and most of the users lived in washington state, particularly in and around seattle; back when there was only one layout; back when the only search tool available was the one that told you who had livejournal in your city; and back when the main interface only had two colors, white and dark blue, and practically no graphics, if any. livejournal, you've come a long way, baby, but i still hope you won't up and marry that creep six apart. you're better than he is. he'll change you, he'll control you. oh sure, he says he won't, but that's what they all say until you sign on the dotted line. seriously, if that merger happened, i would be sad and i think many of you would be, too. 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.04.2005 | 10:26pm drinking licorice tea, sort of listening to the tv, bored. i was trying to decide what to put in my mp3 player for my workout tomorrow, and found myself caught up in a bit of a timewarp, circa 1990 through 93 (grades eight through 11, for the folks playing along at home). ah, the days of flannel shirts, ripped denim, unkept hair, grunge (what a stupid word), and the many hours i sat in my darkened room, writing really bad poetry that i later burned during a moment of better judgement (good idea!). my teen years were awful ones for me and what possessed me to put together not one, but two mix cds of songs reminding me of that part of my life, i'll never know, but here they are in all of their frizzy-haired, teenage poseur glory: ( dear diary, my teen angst wore flannel... ) bad memories aside, most of those songs, if not all, are still pretty damned good. i could probably make a mix of songs from those same years that really were awful, but i think i'll do us all a favor and refrain from mentioning any of them. if any of you got one of those bad songs stuck in your head, i'd feel horribly - one bad song is one too many. yep. see, i'm always lookin' out for ya. *nods* okay, back to my mp3 player... 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.03.2005 | 03:49pm i must be hormonal or something, because i am clearly having an "i hate people" day. instead of running errands, i should have just stayed home. ( today's rants have been brought to you by the letters f and u, and the number 9... ) i really am a nice person, i swear. today is just one of those days, you know? but enough about me - what's a problem for you today or even just lately? 10 tickets | pull up to the bumper

01.01.2005 | 11:58am to me, yesterday was just friday and today is just saturday. *shrug* they only had me work during the five and six o'clock newscasts last night, so after that i came home to watch napoleon dynamite and drink mudslides. perhaps next new year's eve i'll have someplace to go to and people to go with. being the still-somewhat-new-girl-in-town sucks. 8 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.31.2004 | 12:16am music  |  "somebody told me" - the killers today was payday! rock on! and with holiday pay and the nice hours i have been working over the last couple of weeks, this paycheck made me a very happy girl for sure! tomorrow, after i pay my bills, i am going to treat myself to something shiny with lots of buttons to press...like a dvd player. my parents have one and my brother has one, but i don't, unless you count the dvd-rom on my computer, which sort of counts and sort of doesn't. as i mentioned a few days ago, my parents bought a 42-inch hi-definition tv, and now our eight year-old 36-inch tv is in my bedroom. i decided that with a beast like that, i need a real dvd player. there is a nifty little model on sale at target for about 70 bucks, and according to amazon, 154 users commented on its performance and the dvd player received an average score of four and a half out of five stars. nice! hopefully one of the two targets here in town has that player. i may also swing over to best buy and pick up a couple of movies, or perhaps sports night - the complete series boxed set, or freaks and geeks - the complete series. maybe season five and the newly released season six, part two of sex and the city, since i have all of the other seasons on dvd. we'll see what they have in stock. hee! toys! i heart them very, very much. 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.31.2004 | 12:06am if you're like me and you are one of those people who notices typos and obvious grammatical mistakes on signs or billboards, in magazines or newspapers, and so on, you might enjoy this. a few minutes ago, i was looking at something on yahoo's main page and just happened to place my cursor over the featured entertainment photos. then i noticed this... ( spellcheck on aisle five! ) does this mean her friends are now called the funky bunch? 4 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.28.2004 | 10:29am campus club seeks right to exclude gays. when arizona state university refused to recognize the christian legal society, the group whined to its national headquarters, which then drafted a lawsuit claiming the university was violating its own non-discrimination policy. now that they have been given university recognition and funding, the christian legal society wants to exclude homosexuals and non-christians from joining. what the fuck? you'll cry, "discrimination," yet turn around and justify it toward somebody else? bullshit, total bullshit. i understand that the group believes homosexuality is wrong, and that they only wish to surround themselves with christians, but it is still a case of the pot calling the kettle black. if the christian legal society can't abide by university policy, then they should not be allowed to receive funding and recognition from that university. an exception should never be made for one group over another, and if it is, then what's next? aryan nation student groups? feminist organizations that exclude men? [note: this has nothing to do with my personal views toward religion.] 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

12.27.2004 | 08:39pm music  |  watching "sex and the city: the complete fourth season" my dad just brought home a sony 42-inch hi-definition tv. my folks got an incredibly nice deal on it, but still, holy crap! 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.24.2004 | 08:10pm our newscasts may not have poinsettias like the other stations, but dammit, we have a jumbo lawn santa that lights up, and i hear someone will be sporting a blinking rudolph nose and some antlers, perhaps our weatherman? yep, we do it up real nice and classy here, yes we do! hahaha i'm so friggin' tired, and as much as i love the holiday pay (double time, baby!), i'd much rather be home in my jammies, drinking something tasty like hot apple cider spiked with spiced rum and sprinkled with cinnamon and nutmeg. this is funny. track santa's journey around the globe with your favorite d-list celebrity! richard dean anderson (a.k.a. macgyver), cindy williams (a.k.a. shirley feeney), and many many more. oh, the fun is endless, absolutely endless! have i mentioned how tired i am? if you want, send me a text message and tell me something interesting. amaze me, entertain me, intrigue me. three and a half more hours to go... pull up to the bumper

12.24.2004 | 01:49pm music  |  "jingle bells" - brian setzer orchestra pull up to the bumper

12.24.2004 | 08:36am music  |  watching the "today" show a few items on this early morning: * dino rossi refuses to concede, christine gregoire claims she has not won the race but that it's finally over, and current governor gary locke held a press conference last night, basically declaring gregoire the new governor-elect. ah, yes, let the lawsuits begin! i voted for gregoire, but at this point i just don't care anymore. gregoire, rossi, elmo, fonzie - fucking hell, let's just get on with it already. * still fighting this bastard of a cold. i went to bed around midnight, woke up at 4:30 because i couldn't breathe, and tossed and turned until seven, when i decided trying to sleep was pointless. oh yeah, i am going to be all sorts of fun at work tonight. *cries* * do me a favor and smile at someone today, will ya? 7 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.23.2004 | 10:02am music  |  "i love the winter weather/i've got my love to keep me warm" - tony bennett i'm off today, and was yesterday, too, but didn't get much done once i finished my christmas shopping. by the time i got home, the headache i had from being all stuffed up had erupted into a full-on migraine. i took a couple of sudafed and layed low for the rest of the day. today, however, is another day. "to do" list: ** wrap christmas gifts (must get done, because i work tomorrow) ** clean off desk (cds, books and receipts piled up to the ceiling? be gone!) ** go to the bank to get roll of quarters (we don't have an employee parking lot. i use a meter) ** go for a jog (wanted to go yesterday, but didn't because i felt crappy) i haven't gone out to look at any christmas lights this year. usually my family and i will do that together but it's been difficult this year now that i'm working at night. perhaps we can do that tonight - or, if they can't go, i'll go by myself. we don't have any snow on the ground so it's not as if i'll have to worry about the roads. we watched our new neighbors' dog for a few days and to say thanks, they dropped off a huge - huge!! - plate of cookies. they all look so good and while we appreciate the gesture, we need those cookies like we need a hole in the head. i told my mom i would take the plate to work with me on saturday - those cookies will disappear in no time. i need some orange juice. *cough* *sniff* pull up to the bumper

12.21.2004 | 03:01pm dear tuesday evening, please go by quickly. thanks! xoxo, k p.s. - if you could take my cold and sore throat with you, i'll love you even more. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

12.20.2004 | 11:14pm music  |  "blue christmas" - elvis presley what's this i feel, a soreness in the back of my throat each time i swallow? ah, it appears that i am going to be going to be under the weather for the holidays. fabulous, i'm stoked. i mean, it's not as if i have anything going on anyway, except for work, but that still sucks. whatever this soreness is, hopefully it doesn't develop into anything more than a bad cold. i can live with a bad cold. i might complain a lot, but i can live with it. just as long as it wipes its feet before entering the house, puts down the toilet seat, and washes its own dishes, we'll be okay. pull up to the bumper

12.20.2004 | 07:08pm sometimes i really shouldn't be allowed to speak. fucking hell, that was so incredibly rude of me. i'm such an asshole.

12.20.2004 | 12:04am hey, cyberpup, sorry i didn't answer your instant message. i was logged in through my cell phone without even realizing it, and when i heard the message notification signal, i was driving and couldn't reply. but anyway, thanks, and happy holidays to you, too! :) 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.19.2004 | 08:01pm the evening is going by somewhat quickly. maybe. okay, not so much, but there is always hope. last night there seemed to be some action happening on the scanner, and a number of people called in to ask about the gonzaga game, but tonight? nada. and with archiving finished for the next few days, well, i need to look around this place and see if i can find myself a project. either that or spend another evening listening to the police scanner and fielding phonecalls. yay. hmmm...yeah, very exciting indeed. pull up to the bumper

12.16.2004 | 10:22pm music  |  "christmas day" - the beach boys for the handbag fans: ( two new acquisitions... ) i spent five hours running errands and doing christmas shopping with my mom, came home for two hours to eat dinner and wait for my dad to get cleaned up, then went back out to the mall for another two hours to help my dad pick something out for my mom. i made the mistake of wearing my high-heeled black leather boots today and i am paying for it now. i love those boots dearly and they looked so great with my outfit but my feet are fucking killing me. tomorrow i am going back to my comfy docs. my dad said he and my mom have no idea what to buy me, and asked if i could make a list. i hate making christmas lists. while they are indeed practical, they are incredibly awkward. i hate it when people give me stuff - it's that shyness thing, i suppose. the focus is all on me and that freaks me out. also, even though the list has been requested of me, it still seems terribly demanding. "yeah, here you go. if you want to buy me something, buy me this and this and this. thanks, bye." oh well. *shrug* if i have to make a list, fine. ( dear santy claus... ) as you can see, i am very big on gift cards because they're the perfect color, size and cut. they always fit. :) today was exhausting, both physically and mentally. my parents wear me out. pull up to the bumper

12.16.2004 | 09:03am music  |  "warm december" - julie london every year, i am the go-to girl when it comes to gift giving in my family. nobody ever sems to know what to buy for one another, so they ask me. apparently i seem to be the one who knows what everyone wants. *shrug* this morning my mom wants me to help her shop for my dad and my brother, and this evening i am supposed to help my dad pick out some things for my mom. ah, the holidays... pull up to the bumper

12.11.2004 | 08:34pm music  |  i wish i had some at the moment my contact lenses are so dry. i used to wear them all the time because i hated my old wire-rimmed glasses so much, but i love the black frames i got this past spring, and rarely mess with my contacts anymore. i only wore them today because i thought, "well, i have them, so i should wear them sometime." owning something and not using it makes me feel so guilty. in fact, i wear my glasses so much that when i put in my contacts earlier, it took me a few minutes to get used to the sight of my face without glasses. funny how after a while even you don't recognize yourself. at least four people here at work have asked me what happened to my glasses. "something's different today," they tell me. the nice thing about glasses is that they hide the circles and bags of the early morning - or late night - but then after a while they become a necessary comfort shield of sorts, like linus's blue blanket. i feel the same way about watches. i feel naked without one. *pauses* downtime sucks. i would kill for something to do right now. anything. i should go find someone to bother. i need a project. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

12.11.2004 | 02:49pm i am going back on my weight watchers points - strict, no buts, ands, of ifs. i haven't gained that much back, as my clothes still fit me well, but i cried on the drive home from my workout this morning and that isn't good. i'm always going to be big, that's a given, thanks to my genetic predisposition, but fat? big and fat are two different things - well, at least to me they are - and i don't want to be fat anymore. i'm sick of trying on everything in my closet because i hate the way i look in everything. it's insane and downright sad. i was going to go buy a new pair of pants today, but then decided that if i didn't find anything it would only make me depressed, and that would suck. i need to whittle off the excess first, then i can go buy something new. i'm wearing a long-sleeved pink t-shirt and a pair of khakis that i rarely wear anymore because i hate the way i look in them, but i am so sick of my jeans. i want to go bury myself in a hole but since i'm at work, i need to act as if everything is just happy, happy, happy! woohoo! whee! hurrah! eh. psssh. *eye roll* my parents want to come by to watch the 11 o'clock newscast, which i'm sure will be fine with the director. they're pretty cool with staff bringing guests in for a tour of the station and to sit in the studio while we're putting on a newscast, just as long as it's on a day when the world isn't coming to an end and everyone is running around like chickens whoseheads have been cut off. it'll be weird to have my parents here, but they'll enjoy it. the novelty has worn off for me, but it's something entirely foreign to them. it's three. time for me to clock in. 5 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.10.2004 | 09:46pm have you ever seen a monkey in a rodeo? i have, and it's pretty nuts. he wears a cowboy hat and rides a dog instead of a horse. we live in a crazy world, kids. 4 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.10.2004 | 12:40am i am so sick of having to constantly pull my jeans up because they are a little too big, and the belt i am wearing does not help at all. i hate the way i look in these jeans so much that i nearly cried while driving to work. yes, i nearly cried over a pair of jeans. i am that ridiculous. saturday, i am buying a pair of jeans in the next size down and if i have to starve to get into them, so be it!! pull up to the bumper

12.08.2004 | 07:29pm music  |  watching "entertainment tonight" eggnog and brandy. tried it. yep, i still hate brandy, and yet i bought a small bottle of it last year. why? i don't remember, but i still have quite a bit left and i have been trying to find ways to get rid of it. methinks i need to make a trip to the liquor store soon. i am all out of creme de menthe, irish cream, malibu rum, and spiced rum. winter time means cocktail time for this girl and alas, i am fresh out of my favorite winter cocktail spirits. i have makings for long island iced tea and seabreeze, but neither of those sound good to me this time of year. i want something hot, like hot apple cider mixed with spiced rum and sprinklings of cinnamon and nutmeg, or piping hot chocolate spiked with creme de menthe. tomorrow. yes, tomorrow i will go to the liquor store. it must be done. 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.07.2004 | 03:45pm they're home. they said the roof caved in and if it had not been for the headrest, my mom would have been seriously hurt - it was the only thing that kept the roof from crushing her. if they had not been wearing their seatbelts, they would have been thrown from the vehicle. the window on my mom's side broke and the side mirror came off, too. the large metal toolbox that had been bolted onto the back end was thrown off, though it did not open and the contents remained intact. my dad said the only part of the truck that is neither dented nor scratched is the tailgate. if they had been driving a compact car, who knows what would have happened? my dad is convinced that the sheer size of the truck helped save them. it was one of those big heavy duty ford trucks. thanks for the well wishes. now our concern is state farm - hopefully we won't have to pay that much, if at all. just this morning we were talking about how great it was that we finally got everything paid off, and then this happens. fucking hell...*sigh* 23 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.07.2004 | 02:57pm my parents were just in a bad accident. fuck. apparently my dad's truck hit some ice and rolled twice, and the passenger side, where my mom was sitting, is all crushed in. they both swear they're all right, though understandably shaken, and the truck was towed to a nearby body shop. my dad said it's likely the truck will be totaled, but thankfully he has a very good driving record and full coverage. i was all set to drive out there and pick them up but was told the spokane county sheriff will be bringing them home. my dad said the sheriff showed up rather quickly, so i'm guessing that either the sheriff saw it happen, or another driver called 911 when they saw the truck roll. either way, i'm thankful my parents didn't have to wait very long for help. i'm so glad they're okay. my brother's caregiver is here and i asked her not to say anything to him because i know he'll freak out. after all, it was a car accident that put him where he is today. i still can't believe this. it's unreal. 21 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.07.2004 | 01:27am actually, i'm sure there are people out there who hate the fact that i type without capital letters. "goddammit, what's wrong with her? is she too lazy to use the shift key?" haha yes, i am afraid i cannot be bothered with such a chore, as that would mean i'd have to think and shit. and as soon as i start thinking, suddenly it's as if i actually know something and when that happens, all hell breaks loose, children cry in the streets, puppies go hungry, the planets fall out of alignment, and...and...well, it just gets mean and nasty out there, kids. i don't know what happened, quite frankly. until livejournal, i always typed with caps - always - even in those obnoxious chat rooms so many years ago. what's really odd, though, is that livejournal and instant messages are the only places where i type without caps. even in the most casual of e-mails, i use capital letters as i am supposed to, but for some reason livejournal and instant messages are exempt. yeah, i don't get it either. *shrug* some blame it on the bossa nova, some blame it on rio, i blame it on livejournal. that bitch. i should smack that ho and take her lunch money. oh well. as i mentioned to someone earlier tonight, it's not as if my writing ability is poor - it's not perfect, either, but i think it's far from poor. i've seen much worse, as i am sure you all have, too. ariesgirlie: cap-free and not sure why since may 2000. yeah, that'll be the slogan for my livejournal. voila! i'm all set! excellent! and yes, nightfly, i knew you were just teasing. ;) 4 tickets | pull up to the bumper

12.06.2004 | 10:10pm i worked a half shift today, so i was around just for the five and six o'clock newscasts. at the moment, they're in the middle of the newscast they do for the fox affiliate. i feel like i should be at work. it was weird to leave at seven, when i usually have my dinner break, but not come back. it was snowing like hell when i left for work just before three and while it stuck here at my house, downtown streets remained clear. part of me was happy the streets were without snow, as it would make driving home easier, but then part of me was hoping to see a lot of white when i got out of work. i have had my camera in my bag for the last couple of days, and had planned to go out and take pictures, but anyone who has been to spokane knows it's an ugly place. snow hides a lot of the bleakness and gray that exists here - snow and christmas lights, combined with the soft glow of streetlamps. i work another half shift on thursday. perhaps i'll snap a few photos then. 1 ticket | pull up to the bumper

12.06.2004 | 01:30am "stoked" and "rad." yeah, i never quite got over them. they're still a part of my daily vocabulary because the socially inept dorkus maximus in me is just too oblivious to know any better. don't let that happen to you, kids, and mama, don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys. on an unrelated note (no, really), beck's "loser" is stuck in my head. i can't recall the last time i heard that song. sleep is a good idea. i should give it a whirl, especially since i accidentally posted this silly babble into a poor little unsuspecting community rather than my own journal. i realized my faux pas a few minutes later and deleted it, but still...yeah, sleep is what i need right now. 2 tickets | pull up to the bumper