Boo.

Well.. I think I've had hell month. But last nite was the most fun I had in months. It was a great time hanging out with all my friends at Shampoo and drinks were friendly too. I so needed it. And so why am I haveing a hell month? Well, my girlfriend won't pick up when I call or even call me. Wished I can find out what is up with that, and her. I werked 13 of the last 14 days, 21 of the last 23, mostly all 10 hour shifts, even a 15hr. Good money though. I am sad. Hurt. Torn up. Dying inside, for real. My car is about to taken away. I still cannot pay my billz. Had the 4th flat tire of the year, second in a month. Today I will be sitting in my room alone watching movies myself. For the first time in my life, I actually miss my family, I love them, but I never really miss them until now. One more month though, hopefully Caitlyn is still going.

... so what I really need is, some good friends to hang out with casue I have not done anything with anyone in ages, not counting going to the club last nite. I lost all my fone numbers, so I cannot call anyone, and my computer time is limited.. So please if anyone wants to hang out, email me or reply and something will come up I am sure..

Powerlevel: melancholy
Kurrent Noize: l'ame immortelle_stumme schreie

Haha.. I got an email from my Aunt. She's hooked up with the entertainment business and gets hella lot of dates, deals and speacial stuff.. but this one is odd..

I took Dakoda last month to see Haylie & Hilary Duff, got great pics of her with the girls, then we took Hilary's dad to the airport and to dinner, of course Dakoda wants me to marry him so Hilary can be her sister he is a nice man, lives in LA and Texas.

Is Hilary Duff gonna be my cousin-in-law?!?! Wouldn't that be interesting.

Tomorrow there is two partie things going on. I think I am going to both?. Not much else new, went to NY with Caitlyn yesterday, mostly slept but always worth it just to have her simply cuddle and hold me. Makes me feel very warm and happy. Halloween is near, I wanna do some pumpkin carvin.

..oh yah,!. I have heard the Aslan Faction "Tight Grip" song hundreds of times.. but hearing it super louder is like WOWAAAAAZZ!!!!> THat song is fricken amazing.

Powerlevel: very good
Kurrent Noize: aslan faction_sin drome of seperation

Wooot I am up in NYC again with my girl... but before that she came down Tuesday nite to visit me.. Why for? Mainly cause I am one age number higher. Yup. Stayed up late and watched some movies and wished me happy birthday after the midnite mark.. Woke up the morning as she cooked me some breakfast, yummy. Then gave me some some gifts which were awesome Alien and Predator action figures. They look so badass, eventually watching Aliens a little bit later. And then I got another gift in the mail!.. It was the Friday the 13th DVD boxset!.. Awesome. I have only seen the first 3 and last 2.. SO now I can see them all. We watched the first one and then got ready to go out to Shampoo as I made a yummy as hell steak dinner. It was a great time. Hanged out with Caitlyn and Matt most of the nite. Was surely fun huh man? Got some birthday wishings.. Came home, slept and then came up here. Just got done listening to her radio show she now does in the morning!.. Awesome shit hun.. I wished I could of had it louder.

Powerlevel: good and tired
Kurrent Noize: das television

If anyone wants to P A R T Y tomorrow [wendnesday] at Dave and Busters before Shampoo.. Lemme know. Or if anyone thinks of a better place!?

Powerlevel: fine

great.. even more stupid shit....... but i got the tire on.. a trash bag over the window.. i was starving.. but i lost all my appeitite...

Powerlevel: bout to kill someone
Kurrent Noize: fuck musik

And my bad luck continues.... Yes, a flat tire. Fricken A!. I got in my car to go to werk and bump bump bump it goes. So I had to call someone to werk and get me and I was over an hour late.. I hate giving up werk hours. But now what? I have no backup spear tire, no money for a new tire which cost $125 each!!... WEll, Pat was nice enough to give me $40 for spear tire, so I got one which I needed anyways. Now I got $100 from my grandma for my birthday which will go to the new tire.. What a waste. BUt I cannot cash it cause it is a personal check and I have no bank account.. My life's been sucking. I need a good luck charm. I want a damn 20 minute back massage, neck, arms and feet would be nice too. I need to win the lottery. One more day of werk which will be another hard nite, and I am off for 2 good days. I hope I can make much out of it. .. ANd these damn cats are like obsessed with me.

Powerlevel: pissy
Kurrent Noize: story of the year_page avenue

Gosh I am tired.. Been up like 27 hours now or something. I am going to bed shortly. I could of sworn just a couple days ago was last Sunday. THis week definately went by fast. NYC was fun despite leaving my sweetie on the sad side of something. I tried all I could to treat her nice.

...but EVERYONE MUST SEE THE INCREDIBLES!!!. Well when it comes out in a couple more weeks, me and Caitlyn got to see it in advance. It is definately the best Cartoon/Amination I'd ever seen. So funny, and so cute.

DREI MEHR TAGES!!

Kurrent Noize: agonoize_die for blood

Were back and running with the fone line werking.... Mostly my fault. At first the fone line was not werking and I was wondering why, so I had my fone plugged into the main unit where all the fone lines and wires connected, and dumb me, I stepped on my fone cord and ripped it completely out of the wall... But then I did find out it got shut off in the first place and the fone was not werking anyways cause the bill was not paid.. so clueless how to fix it, I asked Gary [my girl's mom's bf] if he could fix it or send someone to do so... But I just simply looked at it and tried to fix it on my own.. Keep in mind I totally ripped out the wire, but somehow still manage to werk when I taped it up.. That was one wire, the other wire was also ripped out but that was just completely useless, but if I rubbed it and held it together it would all werk, but I couldn't get it together... So basically, all that werk just need a couple fresh wires I bought at Home Depot [one of my favourite stores ever] and did some rewire and got it werking. So I RULE!!..

ANyways, I really had not had time to get online much anyways. I went up earler in the week to NYC to meet Duran Duran!!!!!!!.. One of guys said something cool I think when I had my Bon Jovi shirt on I was wearing haha.. ANd he liked my hairstyle and ask my name.. HOW COOL IS THAT!? I remember I first saw them in 1992!.. 12 years ago!. The new cd is actually decent, the first few tracks especially. ... and of course went up there to see my baby!. Had a good time walking around, almost got pierce, went to Bubba's Shrimp Factory.. GOOD DAMN FOOD. I took a walk myself cause I wanted to, I checked out the Home Depot in NYC, and went to Best Buy to buy myself a movie or two, but decided to be a sweetheart to my girl and got her Sealab tv show on DVD, as well as her favourite food place, Teriyaki Boy.

Today I am going back up to NYC for a screening of the Incredibles. Caitlyn got free passes to see it before it comes out. So that'll be awesome and we'll find something else to do I am sure... but I might be tired cause I have been up all day and will be all day. Werked on my car a little bit, was gonna do the oil change, but still pretty wet out. Gonna make food, and hopefully get at least an hour nap.

... ANYONE want to renew my paid account?!?

Powerlevel: Cannot wait to see my sweetie
Kurrent Noize: duran duran_rio

Oh yes. I have a nice kollection of 2 liter sodas in the refridge... Just 75 cents for a whole two liter and a $1.15 for small 20oz.. What a rip!. GO FOR THE LITERS!

Powerlevel: sehr gut
Kurrent Noize: pierrepoint_re-slaughtered

HOLY SHIT... That's what I said when 4 guys riding super bikes going 100MPH+ as they just exited the freeway with a cop car right behind not pullling them over...I am like WTF... ANd I too this morning coming home from weerk going about 75-80mph as a cop car cruises passes me.. I love them cops out here.

Not really doing anything today. Just hope to see my girl. I wanna cook a big meal for myself.. Steaks.. Fries. Salad. and Bacon. Bacon is handy. I could put with my steak or salad... or I could make a steak bacon sandwich salad.. YAH!

Powerlevel: good
Kurrent Noize: tumor_zombienation

As usual on a daily basis I get woken up by something.. Sometimes I cannot get back to sleep and other times I can.. Today I just woke up, cleaned, dusted, put my laundry away, put some posters up, vacuumed, listened to musik, and about to watch the yanks and twins... probably sleep soon again before werk. I was hungry, but not quite much anymore... That Orange cat simply just loves me, everyday I come home it runs to my beddroom before I even get in there... and as usual, it lays and sleeps by me... Watch out Caitlyn. !!! HEhe. Hope to see my baby tomorrow even if it is just for a second, that's all it takes.

Is anyone up for a Dave and Busters day/nite in two Wednesdays, the 20th? And then hit Shampoo afterwards?... I am not much for celebrating my birthday, but this time I am thinking about doing something..

Powerlevel: decent
Kurrent Noize: icon of coil_the other half of me

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Hilary Duff is now 17.. One more year!!..... hahaha. No, I would never give up my girl now for her or anyone ever.

...but back to her, she does have a new movie and new cd out.. woohoo!. I bought Cheaper by the Dozen not too long ago too, watched that this morning.

I wished I could go to the SITD release party club my girl is going to tonite. Poooh.

Powerlevel: I miss you Caitlyn! ALOT.
Kurrent Noize: nitzer ebb_murderous_remix

I cannot believe I will miss Funker Vogt this year when they come to the US for 2 simple shows!!!!. I never miss them, even if I had to drive 3500 miles to see em... but this time is a no no. I might be missing Grendel this weekend too.

Still.. cannot wait to go to ARizona for vacation wit Caitlyn... All ya Arizonans.. BEWARE. I am coming back.. As with LA too.

Hrmm.. debating on piercings.. Eyebrow. Nipples. Lip. Or the top of my ear?!

Woot.. I get a chance to go online.. Been an interesting week I think. I picked up Caitlyn from the Trenton Station and we went to her place. I think I slept a little bit before we went to see the new Resident Evil. Wow them zombies move faster!!!!.. I liked it, but liked the first better.. Stayed over and was suppose to take her back to the station for her to go back up.. but she overslept and I just enjoyed a nice chilling day with her.. Made some pancakes, slept some more and got a nice massage from when I nearly felt like I killed myself werking at werk....

so.. speaking of werk. I consumed 6 hot dogs with buns on my lunch and fries.. SIX HOT DOGS!.. no I am not doing that again. That was the other day, and yesterday during my break, we got a little ruff playing football and i got a black eye and some scrapes on my eyes.. it was bloody, and my glasses now completely broke...

...and yeah, I lost my keys AGAIN!!!!!!.. All my life I never had. And now twice!. Actually I did once but that was something strange. I dropped them in my sight and they seriously disappeared.. But anyways, I did however found these keys hidden on the couch at Caitlyn's place.. well she found them really. So this morning after werk, I took her back to the station and I will very sadly miss my baby.

Powerlevel: getting sleepy
Kurrent Noize: some radio song.

...where did I leave off. .. I don't know. But I'll say I had a decent good time hanging out with Caitlyn, her Aunt Mary and cuzin Nicole and a bunch of Bowie fans. I am not really a fan of him but it was a good time. Did a lot of walking and shopping as usual. Came back home being up most of the morning and all day and going straight to werk. Went in at 10pm so I could get off at 630am and go home and sleep.. but no.. that did not happen. had to werk til fucken 8:15am.. by the time i got home i was not even tired anymore... but i lay down and fell to sleep within a half hour and slept til 5pm..

i'll be werking alot of hours again.. hooray. will be going back up to NYC tuesday.

skinny puppy is coming back to NYC. Caitlyn is thrilled, so I am gonna go to that, and see KMFDM early next month as well.

Now it is time for some televison... but still trying to catch up after a 4 or 5 day off from computer.

Kurrent Noize: lights of euphoria_true life

YAY.. I get to see my girl today. SO HAPPY!... could not wait til Friday at all!.

.... I think I need some massaging.. I had to lift over 200 40lb boxes of water.. plus another 400 some odd other cases.. i am sore.

TOOOOT TOOT the train.

Powerlevel: excited
Kurrent Noize: god module_empath

I finally got new car keys.. YAY. Happy to drive my car again... Went to NYC on Friday.. Chilled with Caitlyn and then we went to see Shaun of the Dead. It was good to me, but I know she loved it. Saturday we walked up to Times Square.. Gotta go back up there again and check out more places when I have more time. The Toys R Us there is awesome. EVen has a ferris wheel inside.. Got to ride my first ever subway ride too. It was fast. We got some Outback Steakhouse food and took a little nap and I sadly, very sadly had to leave and go home to werk. I have to werk 6 days this week.. Gonna be a long week til Friday to go back to NYC unless she comes down to visit me... Oktober is almsot here though!!!.. My favourite month.. HOORAY.

I am doing much greater now... I was so so so very happy for my girl to come down see me Tuesday nite and Wednesday.. So needed her by my side.. Previously before that I had slept the entire day.. and pretty much the next day too, but it was much nicer to sleep with my girl in my arms...

Had a nice long day at werk, but went a little fast, a nice 10 hours. Needed the extra hours. Going to NY again Friday. YAY!. As much as it is a pain in the ass to get up, I actually do not mind one bit.

Still without my car, just driving Cait's.. Plan on getting new keys today or tomorrow. 8:30am traffik sucks too.

Grendel in a couple weeks!!!.. KMFDM again in November. .. So there is a decent amount of shows coming along..

I love Danny's cats.. too friendly, but sometimes they do get a little TOO friendly.

Powerlevel: good
Kurrent Noize: solitary experiments_paradox

I almost totally lost it today.. I got home this morning TUesday finally after supposing to be home Sunday. It just hit me that on all the bad luck I've had since moving here... There is only one thing that is keeping me here, and that is the love of my life. If I had never met Caitlyn, I could of been back in Arizona where life was easier to live. I made $2000-$2200 a month compared to $1000 now. Lived with mom and brother which was always good. But out here, I am out of money always, cannot pay my bills, my cars been jacked up several times, my friend crashed into a deer last nite with me in it, and now.. I LOST MY FRICKEN CAR KEYS!. I was visiting my girl, and about to leave home, and the next thing I know, my car keys are gone off my key chain..I rarely get pissed off or mad, but this time I just wanted to punch and break something. It was not the fact that I lost my keys, it wsa just the fact that all this stupid stuff keep happening... and now some annymonous post in my livejournal about some dumb rumour.. WTF!? I would never do such thing. So fuck you whoever who are. It is that last thing I need now..

...other than that, I went up to NYC to visit my sweetie and we went to Icon of Coil at downtime. Decent time.. The club musik afterwards was not that great. Next day we went shopping a bit for her. Relaxed some and I came home.. had a ruff two days trying to get my girls car and sleep at a friends house with no clean clothes and stuff.. Got a day off and I need to get a new key for my car, cause i have no back ups or anything, but thanks for my hunny for lending me the car.

Powerlevel: frustrated

I am alive. I am good.

Caitlyn had a birthday. Tried to have fun times.
Mine is next month.
Been together now for 6 months. A whole half year :D
Been up to NYC a few times.
Went to the Reniassance fair.
Have not gone to club in over a month.
Going to Icon of Coil on Sat in NYC.
Werk alot.
Life is just different without my baby around... but of course I try to see her all I can.

Kurrent Noize: hocico_hate never dies

My girl has left for college... Me very sad. I actually cried... ME? NEVER... I have never once got sadden of someone leaving, dying, or anything.. but she means so much to me that I am glad I did. Now I know what people go through when they miss someone, it was something I could never do before. Though it is only NYC, I will be going up at least every week I can.. Or her coming down.. but lately I had been seeing her nearly everyday, and I was so getting used to her company all the time.....
now it is time to lay down and hold my monkey she won me at the fair and dream of her next to me.

Powerlevel: missing my girl
Kurrent Noize: guns n roses_welcome to the jungle

Haven't had the desire to go on the computer much lately.. been busy for the most part. Saturday last week to Q's.. Sunday-Tuesday went to Dushore, PA to visit my girlfriends grandpa, Nicole and Kevin was there, and I nearly hospitalize myself falling off a bike.. still badly sore, and feels like a bone is sticking out of my neck.. Wednesday went to Six Flags with Caitlyn, Anne, and Ray.. It got shut down, the power went out or something. Still a fun time. Thursday was to go to the Grange Fair, but just chilled and watched Goonies and some of Trainspotting with Caitlyn and Anne. And Yesterday ended up going to the fair with Caitlyn and Anne. Fun times, she won me a stuffed Monkey that will forever be laying next to me hahaha.. Today, probably stick around home, but I'd love to see Caitlyn again. She'd be leavnig in nearly a week. Mike, I am the one that got you the peeps you devil ;p
... just really updating so i can look back and remember all the fun times i had.
... time for bed.

Powerlevel: missing my darlin
Kurrent Noize: guns n roses_i think about you

AVP was not totally what I was expecting... I still liked it. But it was not long enough, not enough fight scenes, and worst of all the black bitch lived. If it was Ripley, that would of been fine. But I hate black bitchy woman. Of course the ending always makes ya wonder if there is gonna be AVP 2...But still, the Predator was looking badass, and the Aliens were looking just as gruesome. Still hate the fact the Predator was nice to the black bitch and let her live.

Kurrent Noize: hocico_cursed land

Today is 5 months with girlie. Friday the 13th. And AVP at the theatres in which we are seeing tonite at midnite!. Should be an awesome nite.

Powerlevel: REALLY MISSING CAITLYN!
Kurrent Noize: dioxyde_primary structures