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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
10:26 p. [failedheroes]	It seems everyone in this community feigns an approach to suicide as a form of somber recognition; I'm convinced English is a second language for 60% of the members. For fuck’s sake, if you want people to read your shit put some fucking effort into it. I'll personally split open the veins of next author of "I cut myself so I can gain for my worthless, shithole life." In a few years you'll realize you are as meaningless as you realize you are now, but you'll come to terms with it; in the mean time, conjugate a fucking verb or put a bullet in your head as a personal favor. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: General Poor Taste In Music - Angry Youth
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Thursday, May 19th, 2005
01:22 a. [cap_boy]	Ending it now Im ending it now take ahold the knife let my vains bleed Take away my life when youve seen what ive saw and you give up on dreams life isnt worth living its not what it seems theres no perfect life theres no perfect place my only dream was held in faith i wish you could be me just a day to see how you hate living and wish to be set free.. I cannot turn back This was all pland i wish you could be me to even understand ive seen family die In the glimpse of my eye thinking it was a dream life isnt what it seems I lost two people ive cared for so much Ive gave up on life i wanna go up to feel gods touch im now up there where someone will care its not a dream its a new life... it all started with a cut of a knife.. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Sarah Mclaughin - In the Arms of an Angel
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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
08:22 a. [starangel_light]	Hands with bloody hands i type in vain to say what i need to say i read what has been writen my death design and whach it all go away i trully am at the end of it all and no one seems to care soon ill find theres nothing but time tell you come my way no one could tell what really goes against me i spend my time writing these lines with no no life ahead ill spend more time writing more lines so untill then fair well.
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Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
11:45 p. [failedheroes]	Behind my sarcasm desperate memories lie. Decisive Wager The deck was shuffled, Time and shit muffled The current game to be played, And the bets were now laid. “Blackjack my dear?” For his current fear Was his partner’s Insidious hand at poker. “The game tonight Will benefit my fight, For your clever hand Shall not strand.” He conceded, For she needed A better battleground To make her qualms hound. The cards were dealt, Prepared to welt The opposition With quick incision. Each stayed, The first bets weighed Far less than the pot. The game was for Lot. “I’ve a pair of you Being a bitch which grew Gracefully into an insane Cunt, established in your reign.” “I have a straight Of adulterer, irate And unfettered By his better.” His dignity was taken But he was left unshaken, As it was a small loss Of withered dross. Time passed a mirage, Over the great barrage Of misdirected emotion, Across the once clear notion. The final hand was dealt; At the end, it is felt, The preservation of clarity Is key to the loser’s austerity. The stakes were high, For one would die; The game was for Lot, Neither fought for not. “A Royal flush, For you crushed My early dreams With insidious schemes.” It is often said, Only a man and a head Found composure And closure. Current Mood: drained
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03:44 p. [pgurlm67]	new poem....... you can't look into my eyes and say that im ok you only watch the pain escape through my struggling tears i don't have the strength to go on through the days as each one brings fear into me that my last will await, to come behind my eyes lies a story yet to unfold of everything that i held deep inside nothing that you would ever understand the truth hidden among the lies i can't fight back the tears as the pain grows stronger i have no control of myself anymore but is there someone out there who will grab my hand and save me from this nightmare to tell me that everything will be over soon as i fall into my dreams to a fairytale of sweet lullabies lulls me to a deep sleep to an imaginary world as dandelions hold every wish to come true of sugarcoated love wrapped in artificial sweetness a place to take me away screams shout back at me,calling my name haunting me of every last heartbeat as their voices claw at me of bloodied whispers sends shivers under my skin and through my bones but i don't want to leave i won't let them take me away again back into this reality where my nightmares come alive again i feel so lost and empty inside the raindrops licked my tears away but not the pain that still lingers i am left here alone i am all alone there is no where left to hide there is no esacpe from here Current Mood: depressed
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Monday, May 16th, 2005
08:55 p. [ridewme]	May have already submitted this one Yesterday The aches of yesterday come back time to time Memories of the days gone past never seem to leave My conscious mind in peaceful silence I remember all you do, all the words you have said Never is there room to forget The pains of all your hate I remember… The days when you still said “I love you” But they are so far away It doesn’t matter anymore that I ever had that I once felt the warmth of your pride in me But coldness comes when I remember all I have lost All I will never have again I remember… Yes I remember… When the wind passed my calls To the springs in the distance The open arms waiting for me there, I can feel them Around my body, again But it’s all gone, the years have passed on Days have left me behind In the shadows of your soul The darkness engulfs my body there With no room to breathe, to think Of anything but this past, I loved so much But I hate I remember, yes I remember yesterday I remember yesterday Remember yesterday
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01:44 a. [rolandthunder]	Support us Please! We got our first demo song out there online! We are going to be on the radio this up coming Thursday. Go to our site register, and download our song :) It's funny! It's Starwars! http://www.parodeez.com Thanks Guys, Roland Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: ParoDeez Band - No Padawan
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Sunday, May 15th, 2005
08:06 p. [softlilcookie]	forgive me for promoting Join _fallen_starz_
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Saturday, May 14th, 2005
04:58 p. [strangekodomo]	My Everything He, is someone that means so much So very much to me, Even though he is very different, he kind of resembles me, He touches my heart without knowing, which slowly breaks my heart, Even though he thinks he’s nothing, he just means everything so much, He makes me smile in peace, and he slowly opens my heart, He doesn’t really know, that I want him all so much, I feel so plain selfish, I just slowly look at me, I say “What is wrong with me? Why do I feel so much pain?" I slowly walk by him, as I smile in peace, I will never tell him what I’m feeling, Because he will never feel that way, Because I’m only me. ummm. ^_^" I hope u liked it.... cheers -stragekodomo Current Mood: hopeful
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03:44 p. [brokendreams86]	New here Since I'm new here, I guess I'll give alittle info on myself. Name: Lindsay Age: 15 Location: SC I guess I'll post a poem as well. :D "Take It All Away" I cannot break from this sadness, Its driving to madness, Yanking my hair from root to end, When will this pain inside me go? And in truth, I'm afraid to show, How I feel to anyone, Hell burning inside me, Screaming to be free, Don't know what to do, Seems like I'm always the fool, Tell me why do I live like this? I'm tired of all this! Fire burning in my mind, A heart is something I can't quite find, Stop yelling in my ear, Cause your voice is something I don't hear, Tired of people telling me destined to hell, Cause in my mind, I'm already there, And screaming for someone to reach out and save me, The light at the tunnel, Looks to me more like a whirling funnel, Tell me why I live like this. One day, I'll be done with it all, And everyone will see me fall, And break to pieces, Cause I'm not what you all think, I'm not everyone's perfect shrink, My reward is helping the world, But when the world help me? I just want someone to save me, Hold me high and take it all away, I can't save the world, And I can't make everything ok, I can't say I don't try, Where will you be when I die? I'm sorry, but I'm far from perfection, But I will try for you, And for anyone who goes for my hand, And wants me to understand, I'm there when you need me, But what about when I need me? Where am I when I need someone? I'm helping everyone hold up themselves.. Now all I'm asking, Someone hold me high, and take this all away! Current Mood: determined Current Music: Evanescence - Solitude
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08:51 p. [unique_aqua]	capricious desires Here is a poem i posted on my site ages ago. I had a huge decision to make which i still have to live with today. This is one of the poems i wrote while having to make the momentous decision All is well now, but here it is... Capricious desires ..................... Poetry of my soul open and close to the depth of my desire i feel the illusion of fire dragon sits high on the hill unravels masked desire laughs out loud with mockery as he perceives caprice riddled through this being that's me Current Mood: reminiscent
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01:38 p. [unique_aqua]	Morbid Beauty Lasts The thorns have sprung their roses A beautific flower pose Such beauty has such innocence Such that can not grow old The thorns have such a menace Touch promise blood and tears Such thorns have such a beauty A prolific spiny spear These thorns feel oh so ancient As they watch the roses wither Such beauty that is morbid Will grow old through years of winter Current Music: Behind Blue eyes - Limp bizkit
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Friday, May 13th, 2005
09:21 a. [rolandthunder]	A new song ( Somewhere in this city ) Current Mood: sad Current Music: My Own
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