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[10 Jan 2005|08:21pm] |
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[09 Jan 2005|07:11pm] |
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i cant wait to get out of palmyra me and laur had a whole conversation last night about going away to college and getting outta palmyra. and she made a very good point, 'i think we have all out grown palmyra' its true. when you come back im sure it seems like nothing has changed either.
this weekened was ass.
we played mccorristin on friday night and lost by like 25 points. vanessa is out until next week and now maggies out for a week too:*( it sucks. i must say tho kidd played a really awesome game:) i played a reallllly shitty game and i fouled out. i dont know what was wrong with me. it was like i forgot how to play basketball...and we still have three games this week. i only want two things:
1-a win aganist florence
2-to make the playoffs
im tired i think i might go to bed soon.
i dont wanna go to school tomorrow, i was seriously thinking about taking off but then i realized that we have a game so im not going too.
you are a rock, upon which i stand
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| i cant wait to move out |
[04 Jan 2005|03:02pm] |
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i am 18 years old...god almost 19 and i am grounded.
i am never doing any of the shit my parents do to me.
i do take them for granted at times, however...getting grounded for having a boy in your room is no reason to get grounded. i swear GAY GAY GAY. i didnt wanna ask how long or anything. but i do kno i did need my dad to sign a permission slip for me, to go on a student council trip and he wouldnt sign it. i asked why and he said that maybe i shouldnt go bc it should be part of my punishment..and he would talk it over w/ my mom. STUPID ass...i wonder how long this bullshit will last.
do me a favor--
comment and tell me
a)are you allowed to have boys in your room?
b)have YOU EVER fucking gotten grounded for SOMETHING so stupid?
bc i think NOT!
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| for ted |
[02 Jan 2005|11:16am] |
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i usually dont have to be asked to update.
i haven't really been online lately.
but anywho...
NEW YEARS FUCKING EVE was so much fun. actually it was absoutely CRAZZZZY, i had so much fun. seriously, it was the best new year's i have ever had! i love when random things just fall into place! yeah so i had a lot of fun. i dont enjoy knowing that i might not own THREE bottles anymore...:*( but ted's house was def a banger. 6 more months and we graduate..holy shit. i hope everyone had as much fun as i did, i didnt hve a camera tho. thats def a 1st, im sad. the pictures woulda been AWESOME!!
so i finally talked to brady on wednesday, so we'll see what happens. i want this year to be drama-free. i put all my feelings on the table for him to react to. im so thankful for mr. miller, too. we talked the wholllle bus ride home, and it was comforting for me:) but we play florence on tuesday and ALL I WANT TO DO IS beat them. you have no IDEA. and i know we can, we just have to give it EVERYTHING we've got. and this is also were it sucks being the only senior, because games like this should be for the seniors....but oh well.
enough. i shouldnt be updating.
i am bc i love ted, i have to write my english paper now.
adioooossO
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| merry christmas kids! |
[25 Dec 2004|10:02am] |
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about 8 hours ago i was depressed and thought today wouldnt be fun, but its only 10 and its been a lot of fun. so im happy...my mom is working today. in a couple minutes mi padre is gonna take me out, we're going to see meet the fockers, ha. mi madre doesnt get home til about 3, so thats when we are going to open our presents. and then after that...NOTHING TO DO!
I FINALLY got to hang out w/ ian:)
and we also...talked. ha. it was a good talk, it took long enough to come out tho.and we exchanged gifts too...i got a REALLY pretty necklace (its a silver and pink necklace) its cute:) its very colleen. i got him boxes, a PS 2 game he wanted, and one of those realllllly cool pillows. so he seemed reallly happy. it was nice. before he came over i was chillin over neel's w/ the girls and then some. it was so much fun. i love neels rentals, they are so much fun. i stayed at neelys for a couple hours, i thought those pitchers would never end;) good think ian drove, ha.
so yeah pointless, but i havent updated in a erally long time. so i hope everyone has a realllly good xmas:)
much love
<3col
ps; i dont like playing basketball anymore. its not what it used to be. it used to be my favorite. but some of my fire died sophomore year. i guess thats what happens when you sit the beach 2 years in a row. i just dont understand why do i even start, seriously. i think its bc brady likes me so its a pitty; im the only senior crap. i want it because i fucking deserve it. because i cant be THAT good to him if i start the 1st and play 4 minutes. SIT the WHOLE 2nd quarter. start the 3rd and play 3 minutes and usually sit the 4, or im sorry play like 1 minute. its a shame, because i love the girls so much. and its def a lot mroe fun than last year. but i dunno. the season just started so im gonna keep my head up and keep trying. but its just disappointing knowning its my last year....
<3
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| go crazyyyyyy oh babby!! |
[19 Dec 2004|09:57pm] |
woo this weekend turned out to be super fun.
esp saturday night w/ LD and NEEL!
i would list things, but it would take forever, and all the good parts i wouldnt remember.
haha it was just fun. the night started at about 10:00 and ended at 6:45!
<3 12.18.04
ian comes home wednesday:)
woo cant wait... MISSS YOU LIKE CRAZY BABY!
<3
thats all:)
goodnight. need sleep.
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| I want YOU so BAD i can BARELY breath.... |
[14 Dec 2004|07:26pm] |
its only a scrimmage.
im worried, i want a starting position b/c i deserve it not bc im the only senior. but it kinda makes me wonder; i am a "starter" for varsity but you wouldnt know it would you? im gonna stay positive, im not really upset anymore. but i just dont want any repeats from last season. being the only senior was fine, until i have no one to relate to about playing time, because everyone else has that comfort to look forward to the next year.
i found out some good news today. ill share with you guys at a later date. remind me:)
i really wish i had some fucking money.
really i just spent almost $200 dollars at the mall saturday buying my family plus matt and ian xmas gifts:(
i still have
my bball pollyanna and mrs. sitlzer, and i have to get ian something else, too. and i told rene i would get him something, which only cost about 11 bucks, lol.
don't 4get to give me ONE DOLLAR for mrs. sitzler (obviously only if you are in STUDENT COUNCIL)
thats all.
you're in my heart and you'll be in my dreams no matter how many miles apart
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[13 Dec 2004|07:46pm] |
im scared/worried.
edit:not anymore..thank god!
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[11 Dec 2004|12:15am] |
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so the 1st thing and most important thing i need to say is how much i absoutely love (lovelovelove) my basketball girls. this season started off reallly well; and a complete 180 from last year, so far being the only senior isn't that bad. im excited about starting, our 1st game is on friday and we got our uniforms today...this is the begining to and end of me wearing 21..the last time i will ever wear a palmyra jersey after this seasons over :*( (godd.)
theres nothing better than having a girls night:)
ted.sexy ld.db mad love to you girls<333
-harvest
-the pub
-all our hidden talents
-ted signing...what a wonderful thing:)
-exchanging all the presents
-all the food..blah
-ld handing rob shorts
-THE PICTURES!
good friends make the bad times better and the good times UNFORGETABLE
tonight was like a reunion, we really haven't hung out, the four of us together in a while. it felt good:) i love you girls.
and i must say i recieved an awessssome HOT pink purse from ted,its super sweet.
my body is extremely tired, but im not.
im working 11-8 tomorrow..which is good,me=broke.
but i have THE WORST charlie-horse in my right calf, its KILLLLING me:*(
goodnight my loves, come and visit me at my place of employment tomorrow, dave and scott will be working too!
i leave you w/ this:
after we hung up the phone last night, i just sat there in the dark. all of the sudden tears started running down my face. i didn't understand how i could be crying when i'm so happy, but than i realized they were tears of joy. i thought about how lucky i am to have someone like you, someone so understanding, and so caring. the more i thought about how great you are, the more the tears ran down my cheeks.
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[09 Dec 2004|06:58am] |
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so laguna beach is def my favorite show (right laur?) and i cried when it was over. not just because of the show because in 7 months we graduate..and in 9 that's gonna be us leaving for school, well the people that are actually leaving. senior year you really do get 10x closer to your friends, and its scary/sad to think that some of people that i have gone to school with since kindergarden, i wont even talk to after i graduate.
and on another note,
school has been GOING BY SO FAST. its thursday!
holy shit. which means tonight i must by miss courtney her christmas present. i have a whole list of people to buy presents for. the only ones that i have taken care of our, the ppl at mannys, and the baby. but since aiden is my nephew i wanna spoil him, but hes never gonna remember his 1st christmas. hmm oh well. i have a pretty good idea what i wanna get ian, finally. ha. but now i dont kno if i should. things are kinda weird right now, he comes home in two weeks tho. so thats good. but when he gets home, we have to talk....so i just hope its a good thing, and i think its going to be. sometimes things just cant be said over the phone. enough said.
i was planning on making this morning a random thursday w/ neely but my dad just called me and told me that i cant leave yet because he needs my car. im not fucking walking to school, so i dont kno how this is gonna work out. ha.
we have a scrimmage aganist holy cross today.
i wonder how much theyll beat us by this year.
ha.
<3
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[07 Dec 2004|09:45pm] |
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Sometimes, you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without gurantees..except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love with change your life.
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[05 Dec 2004|01:06pm] |
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collycoll21.....add please!
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how the hell do you people put pictures in journal? i really would like too!!!!
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[04 Dec 2004|12:11am] |
tonight i watched ELF with matt and laura.
got some divi's and some boost which is always a plus.
took matt to KFC and then to beverly.
somewhere along the line i got into a 'rut' (as mr brady would say) i am PMSing so im really fucking emotional right now. i just outta the blue got really upset, like everything seemed to go downhill. i dont know whats wrong with me right now...actually i do.
something i will never understand is this and i want you to understand this but i have no desire to actually talk to you right now. seriously how is it possible to hurt some many guys at the same time. pick one, it either works out or it doesnt. its that fucking simple, then move on. stop trying to lead millions of guys on at once. YOU know what its like to hurt, so why are you hurting so many other people. its really quite annoying and i dont pitty you one bit. i just hope you enjoy your flavor of the week until you cut this one outta your life...what are you gonna say this time, 'its not you its me...' bc the 'i dont wanna talk to you' (id rather run away from my problems excuse...well its getting kinda lame)
thats all.
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[01 Dec 2004|09:12pm] |
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uh so i almost got hit by a car today.
it was the closest near death experience i have EVER had.
whew, scary stuff :\
thats all i wanna say.
and i miss ian (already..lol)you can't blame me. 3 months is a long time to not see someone you really care about, and then have them here for four days and then they have to leave again.
<3
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[30 Nov 2004|08:56pm] |
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i forgot how much i liked weezer...esp the green album:)
speaking of cds, doesnt anyone feel like burning me some cds, or giving me their old ones? im SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EVERY SINGAL cd IN MY CAR, and it sucks:*( i cant burn my own cds anymore.
schools been pretty easy, its been a lot of fun. i love school. i love being a senior, i wish every year could be this great. i talked to matt last night on the phone and i realized how good everything is for me now, especially when compared to last year!! this time two years ago...we were dancing at the homecoming dance, and it was me and mikes anniversary. ha.
im exhausted from basketball, let me tell you.
brady and miller cut 4 girls and the FINAL list will be up tomorrow.
so i dunno what that means..lol not that i would get cut.
pointless entry. i just came online to chat and see if i got any email from the boy (which i didnt...oh well) so sorry if you actually read this.
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im gonna make it last; nevermind the past
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| december 23rd...please come quickly |
[28 Nov 2004|02:42pm] |
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so ian leaves today, in exactly 15 minutes he will be on his way to CT, again until december. he said he comes home the 23rd. so its only a month. its way better than 3 months. but let me just say that i missed him so much. i knew i missed him A LOT...but its just insanse. i saw him every day he was home, thank god:) the dance was a lot of fun, i enjoy being all dressed up its fun. im almost postive he had a good time, i tried to make it fun for him. i know he def had fun at lauras tho (hah)me and those bathrooms, i really shoulda put that in my likes and/or most memorable moments in my bio. oh well. i havent really gotten much sleep. saturday night me and ian stayed up until about 5, and we woke up around 8...and last night ian told me he was gonna come over at 9, then that turned into 945, then to 1045..so at 11:30 he finally called and said he would be over in like 15 minutes. oh and i realized hes bad with time, he always runs late. he got to lauras at like 7..bitchass. so he finally got to my house at fucking 12. so ofcourse he didnt leave until like almost 5. haha but it was worth it;) (hahha)it was REALLY hard saying goodbye, he felt almost like he never left,i hate hate hate goodbyes. they really arent easy. but im just glad im such an optimistic person..yunno? the weather was soooosoooo bad so i was worried about 'trucker e' driving home. but yeah, it hasnt really hit me that hes actually gone. when he calls me tonight from trinity thats when it will. oh well. all i have to say is that it amazes me to this day that we are together. i am one of the luckiest girls....EVER. i just love being happy, and thats exactly how he makes me, and its very obvious im sure to everyone. haha.okay sorry for being boring</END RANT>
so yesterday before i hung out w/ ian i was with the girls and we crashed the poker party..and mike lamb was there.....UGH. scary. i was just like woah. it was thee closest contact ive had with him since october when we went to court. well i did see him when we took SATs tho tooo...so. oh well. i dont kno what to do with myself. i think i might clean my room,or something. college apps too.
CALL ME
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ps;arent you guys glad that when you read this, ill have a new countdown? :) hahah. JK!!!!
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