Hazi's Journal

3:11pm: long time ago
acutally i can't update my german journal, so i decided to write something in here.

well. much happend since i wrote here for the last time. my ex-b/f marc (_insane_) died because of his cancer in may 2002. it was (and still is) a quite difficult time. i miss him each and every single day.

since then i had a relationship with michael again. but he made a lot of mistakes and he dissapointed me in so many ways again.
he isn't worth this.

then. i started working as a graphic designer at an office near my home. i like the work there, even the son of my boss is getting on my nerves day by day.


don't know why i'm writing this here. i think nobody will read or be interested in it since i stopped writing in here so long time ago.

addicted to livejournal is perhaps the reason. since my german journal is at the cartman cluster :P

1:05am:
new campix!

7:25pm:
got many new campix (#22+23)

9:06pm:

6:42pm: just fixed the (hope so) last bug at my page.
the cam archive can be viewed now too.


aaaaand now i'm gonna go partyyyyy ;)

5:47pm:

aaaaand i finally have my

new
site design
for ma english page!

 

so go go go and check it out :)

10:33pm:

new campix!

3:41pm:


new campix

& my new domain is: realgettochild.com (hehe) - please change your linx

my german page got a new design some weeks ago and now i'm
working on a new layout for the english one too :)

8:59pm: first, i finally got my tongue pierced a week ago:



but i had to remove the labret piercing :(


second, my gettochild.com domain doesn't work anymore :(. well, it still works, but it doesn't belong to me anymore. the new url is gettochild.de.vu .... would be glad if you could change the linkurl'z to ma page to gettochild.de.vu. thanx for your help guys.

well
that's it for the moment.

oh yes. i forgot to mention that i have a new job.
since two weeks i work here.


:o)


and .... still happy and in love with him :))))

3:57pm: it's my 18th b-day today.
i'm a grown up now. austrian law you know.
well.
i'm grown up. yesyes.

9:28pm: spent last week with my b/f _insane_.

1:40am: friends log-in!

12:25am: samsemilia asked me, to ask YOU if anyone of you has the song "i believe from r. kelly (from the "the soul connection" album) (not! i believe i can fly!).
this song wasn't released here in germany/austria and so he would be glad if anyone of you could help him.
if so, drop him a mail: maurizio@sr50.de

THX GUYS!

7:35pm: look what samsemilia made when he was at the caribian islands:




just updated my english page.
i made a webcamportal now, so if you want to you can join now.

10:54pm: YAYYYYY!

Moonsis bought me 3 books (author: jostein gaarder!) and a simpsons video from my amazon-wishlist. :o))))))))))))

thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..... much!!! :)

7:02pm:
got new campix

friday i've been to salisbury. in the evening my computer didn't work anymore.
saturday i've been at hy's birthday party (got really really drunk...)
sunday i've been out for dinner with some friends
monday my puter got repaired
tuesday i've been out with my bigbrother chris (got really really drunk again).

yeah. that's it.

gonna make some changes with my english page in the next days.....

1:35am: just updated my page a bit.

yeah. the weather was great outside the last days. we were at the lake on sunday. it was great.
yay. i love summer! :)

love,
hazi

12:12am: yeah let me bore you with a silly survey:

Name: Hazi
Age: 17 (60 days left til my 18th b-day!)
Do you attend School currently? no
Fav. Hobby? dunno .... drinkin alcohol maybe ;)
Innocent or corrupt? innocent of course!
Nice or bitchy? bitchy
Depressed or Happy (with your life)? well, happy i think
Where do you want to be in Five years? dunno. live the moment!
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no

First person you were In love with? real love i think just with michael.
Last person you were In love with? michael.
Last person you were romantically involved with? martin
If broken up now..why? mh dunno.
Most important person in your life? bettina (hoerli)
Last person you talked to? my mom
CD in your car right now? i have no car.
Fav. alcoholic drink? red wine
Fav. movie? from dusk till dawn, deep blue sea, half baked ..... and many more...

Have you ever....

Been kissed? sure
Done drugs? yeah
Eaten an entire box of Oreos? don't know what oreos are ...
Been on stage? yes
Dumped someone else? yes
Gotten in a car accident? yes
Been in love? yes

In the last 24 hours, have you...

Cried? no
Helped someone? not really. no one there who needed help...
Bought something? no
Gotten sick? no
Gone to the movies? no
Gone out for dinner? no
Said "I love you"? no
Written a real letter? no
Talked to an ex? no
Missed an ex? not really
Written in a journal? yes, my german one, which is updated much more frequently than the english one ...
Talked to someone you have a crush on? no
Had a serious talk? yes
Missed someone? yes, i always miss someone
Hugged someone? no
Fought with your parents? no (what a wonder!)
Fought with a friend? no

Do you......

Wear eye shadow? i don't wear eye shadow right now but usually i do
Kiss on the first date? why not...
Have a crush on someone? maybe .... don't know
Eat with your mouth open? just at home ;)
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? not right now
Do you have a best friend? yeah
Are you tired? a little bit, but sleeping is boring ;)
Are you lonely? at the moment i am
Are you happy? i think so
Are you wearing pajamas? no... jeans and a tank top
Are you talking to someone online? no

Favorites...

Shampoo: pantene
Toothpaste: mentadent
Type of soup: don't like soup
Room in your house: my room

EITHER/OR...

Coffee or hot chocolate? coffee if i'm tired, otherwise hot chocolate
Big or little? depends hehe
Lace or satin? satin
New or old? depends too
Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt? none
Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? brad pitt
Vogue or Material Girl? material
Jeans or cords? Jeans
Sweater or sweatshirt? Sweater
T shirt or tank top? tank top
Skirt or dress? nothin', but if i had to, i'd prefer a skirt
Wool or cotton? cotton
The way it is or the way it was? the way it was
Oldies or pop? pop??..then oldies
Tongue piercing or lip piercing? i have a labret piercing .... but i want my tongue pierced too ...
If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would it be? i have a tribal on my right shoulder
What color is your floor/carpet in your room? anthracite
What was the last CD you bought? don't remember, yesterday someone gave me 5 cds as a present (linkin park, thomas d., offspring, die aerzte and samy deluxe)
How did you spend last summer? like every summer at the lake
What are you reading now? the book i read right now is alice in wonderland in english (for better english knowledge you know..)
What song are you listening to right now? samy deluxe - weck mich auf
I need: my friends
I find: nothin
I want: a lovely b/f
I have: a watch which glows in the dark (fun!)
I wish: to get a good job soon
I love: by best friend hoerli
I hate: a lot!!!!
I miss: many people
I fear: the future
I feel: bored
I hear: samy deluxe - international love
I smell: nothin
I search: things i've lost
I regret: a lot

When was the last time you ...

Smiled? dunno ... two hours ago?
Laughed? i have no idea, yesterday maybe, don't remember
Cried? wednesday
Bought something? monday
Danced? saturday
Were sarcastic? today i think
Kissed someone? saturday
Talked to an ex? mh yesterday
Watched your favorite movie? yesterday (half baked)
Had a nightmare? i have nightmares every single night
Last book you read: abenteuer seele (what means in english somethin like: adventure soul)
Last movie you saw: half baked!
Last song you heard: samy deluxe - international love
Last thing you had to drink: orange juice
Last time you showered: some hours ago
What nickname[s] do you have and why? hazi/hasi because of my surname, fuxi because a teacher always called me fuxgschwandtner (no translation) and shorty because i'm tiny
Do you sing in public no matter who can hear you? sure, i'm the best singer in the whole world haha
Should a door swing in or out? in of course
Watch the movie or read the book? both
List these 10 things in order of value to you: no
Sunrise or sunset? sunset
Whose voice would you most like to hear at this moment? dunno, maybe hoerlis or tom's, or chris'
What do you like most about your body? i won't tell you hehe
How many fillings do you have? 4
Do you think you're good looking? well, most of the time i like myself
Do other people? ask them...
What do you sound like? like whitney houston ;)

Fashion

Do you wear a watch? yes and it glows in the dark
How many coats and jackets do you own? 4 i think
Boots or shoes? shoes
Extrovert or introvert? both sometimes
Are you confident? yeah i think so
Do you like yourself? most of the time
Are you popular in your town? maybe ... dunno
Are you good academically? no
What do you have a really good knowledge of? music i think
Can you speak another language? my mother tongue is german (but i'm NOT from germany, i'm AUSTRIAN!!!!! - yes - we talk german here too!)
Are you moody? sometimes

Use five words to describe what you feel inside: no
Do people know how you feel? just my best friends (hoerli, sammy, chris, lisi, hy and tom)
What would you change about your personality? nothin
Are you perceived wrongly? often
Worst fault? i'm lazy

Your friends

Do your friends know you? just my closest friends
What do they tend to be like? antisocial *lol*
Are there traits in you that are universally liked? think so
Can you count on them? yeah
Can they count on you? sure

Sex

Are you good at it? no complaints til now hehe
Have you ever been criticized about your performance? no

Music/TV/Film/Books

Favorite bands ever? dunno maybe the offspring, marilyn manson, linkin park, and many others
Most listened to bands currently? linkin park
Can you play an instrument? guitar, e-guitar, percussion and piano a little bit
Type of music listened to? crossover, punk, industrial, hiphop, reggae, ragga, ska.....
Type never listened to? britney and friends.....
Books? too many to list them
TV Shows? the simpsons!



ok, wake up now!
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and now to do some sports with your fingers:

3:00am:

12:28am: hey!

today i've been in aurach with some friends (hy, lisi, thomas, nicky and roland) at my dad's. had dinner there. afterwards we played soccer in the garden *lol* ... yeah fun ... some pix of this afternoon are at my page (campix) ....

yeah. that's it. more to say but not able to translate it .... so .....

8:57pm: hey guys.

do you want to help me?
i'm sure you want, don't you? ;)

pleaaaae go here and klick at the "fuer diese kandidatin abstimmen"-button at the bottom of the page.
it's a german "misshomepage-contest" and i'd love to get some points of you.
i know you like voting. and i know you LOVE voting for me ;)

please help meeeee please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please *lol*

thanx, i love you!

2:24am: i love the offspring!
just found my old americana cd! yay!

2:46am: pleeeeeeeeaaaaase go here and vote at the bottom of the page "genial".

that's sooooo important!

thanx so much 4 everyone!

12:17am:
new campix.

btw: the word on my shirt (miststueck) means somethin like "bitch"

8:38pm: i just updated my german and my english page.
got a new flash intro. yay.

want to scan some picutres now, but my scanner doesn't work. grrr.
okok. I'll have to instal it again.

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