Tuesday, February 4th, 2003
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11:45 pm - Don't turn away
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There once was a girl lets call her ann who had a best guy friend he will be david. They spent alot of time together and shared their dreams with one another. david stayed quiet will his guy friend mark came around and started to get to know his best friend ann. They began to date and he began to hate. She hears he's*david* in love with her and nothing can be done, for shes taken and happy, Her heart is in distress all she wants is to keep her friend. Shes not sorry shes happy only sorry that her friend just cant understand. she misses him with all her heart and if he reads this her caring for him will never change.
~niki
current mood: scared current music: mix tape - brandnew
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Monday, January 27th, 2003
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10:03 pm - mirror mirror on the wall...
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I feel fat!
current mood: lonely current music: Little black cloud
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Tuesday, January 21st, 2003
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2:54 pm - You got me
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* sigh * I love him
~niki
current mood: loved current music: The Roots - you got me
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Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
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9:27 pm - When Irish Eyes are Smiling
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I attended Cassie's Memorial in St.Johns tonight. The place was packed. They had all of her friends sit on the stage, it felt weird to be in front of the crowd. Only 18 years old, she was only a bab, but knew so much for her age. She touched so many people in her lifetime, she was our true angel from heaven.
When Irish eyes are smiling Sure it's like a morning spring In the lilt of Irish laughter You can hear the angels sing When Irish hearts are happy All the world seems bright and gay And when Irish eyes are smiling Sure, they steal your heart away
~niki
current mood: stressed current music: Three Irish Tenors
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Sunday, January 12th, 2003
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10:22 pm - oh blah deee
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This weekend went by way too fast for my liking. The dance turned out pretty well. We spent about 3 hours decorating for it. All i really wanted was to dance and shake it with my friends. I'm having the most wondeful time of my life filling out college apps oh it sucks.
niki
current mood: blah current music: the innocent - mest, good char, gold finger
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Wednesday, January 8th, 2003
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10:19 pm - So hard to say goodbye
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I had onlyh been in school for less than 2 minutes when Ash told me the news. Cassie Brown had been murdered. No its not true, say its not true, shes ok right? No Nicole shes gone and Ben Cramer did it. Of all the people in the world not Cassie, she doesnt deserve that. Shes the sweetest person any one would ever meet. Everyone liked her and she liked everyone, thats just how it was. There was nothing bad you could say about Cassie she was loveable. BEN CRAMER ! why would he do that he was funny and nice, what made him snap. If only I coulda said Goodbye, now I'll never hear her voice and the how you doin nicole? I miss you Cassie, I'll always remember you and your big heart.
NIKI
current mood: sad current music: Dead silence
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Sunday, January 5th, 2003
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4:05 pm - last chance to lose your keys
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Kevin says he wants to kill people for a livin maybe or be a repo man. Hes depressing me with talk of school starting tomorrow, and the 24 year old swedish blonde that does his acupuncture. Anna speaks of her mom going outta town to Ashland and how i should come over cause shes scared. I'm sitting here wasting away my last day of break, how much do I suck? ohhh gonna go to annas w00t!
current mood: aggravated current music: mix tape - Brand New
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Friday, January 3rd, 2003
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9:30 pm - Will thou leave me so unsatisifed?
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Tonight: hung out with Sara my little love bunny hehe. Drove to the bank to cash my christmas check, thank you aunt liz! Went to coffee people ate part of a McTavish cookie some of the peanut butter shake and headed off to Clackamass Town Center. We went to Nordie's and saw cute coats that we did a little catwalk in, cool watches and went over to Vickie Secrets for the sale were we saw many a women and men scrambling though the white bins for a deal. we then decided to head over to Abercrombie and Fitch where i found a really cute red sweater and got it for $ 40 off w00t! then to Charlotte Russe and admired the cute scandalous clothing, Got a cute white hoodie and new ring. we strolled over to Fredricks of Hollywood and saw the cutest underwear ever hmm def. gotta go back there hehe. We ended the trip at Anchor blue which we hadn't been in FOREVER! Got a really cute thin belt with stars and a star necklace and studded watch!!! So excited I never really liked anchor but they had some cute stuff. Ahh, I'm so addicted to shopping it's BAAAAD! I really need a job so i can save money for school that would def be a plus. Brett came over tonight we hung out watched some t.v, played with the camera, he went through my makeup pretending to put it on me. * sigh * he's adorable, but its so bittersweet when i'm with him, i cant get enough of him. Gotta get up early and get ready so I can take Stat's tomorrow for wrestling in Tigard, ughhh gotta be at school at 6:45 no good. Later niki
current mood: disappointed current music: Fall - Something Corporate
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2:19 pm - This is no GOOD! :(
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I'm having the worst time trying to get back on track and fall asleep earlier. I seem to be going to bed later and later and waking up later and later. This is no good for I have to go to school soon and try to get up early. hmmm. Kevie kevie he wants lil miss but shes sending him mixed signals. I just hope you're truly happy Kevin, I hope shes what you really want. I really love when boys tell you they'll call you first thing and they don't, it makes me feel sooo good ha. I really want to go shopping I wanted to hit the Vickie Secrets sale, but that was a no go. hmmm what a day, i miss anna.
current mood: blah current music: Mest - Drawing Board
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Thursday, January 2nd, 2003
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2:09 am - All I needed was a simple hello.....
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I was trying to feel your heart, then I began to listen to it beat. I realized all I want is to be apart of your heart. I want you to carry me forever with you.
current mood: loved current music: I will - The Beatles
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Sunday, December 15th, 2002
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11:56 am - If you want me to wait I would wait for you..........
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I hate being sick and losing my voice, then it starts to sound like Tara Reids low raspy voice. I went to Seattle thursday with Zira, wow she def. has the coolest name. We stayed two blocks from the Space Needle. We went up for the day and went to the Good Charlotte concert, It really rocked my socks. I've decided I like seattle, but I really can't stand the people. I'm sorry to say that, but they're all really dumb and rude. With the exception of the few tall boys that saved zira's and my life, thank you very much kind sirs where ever you are. So we came back friday morning and I didn't make it to school, because i felt like crap and then I wasnt aloud to go to Lyle with errin for the christmas party, that really sank my boat. Every time I get invited to Lyle something always happens pooh. aww I miss everyone, I'm so bored!
current mood: sick current music: oasis - live forever
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Sunday, December 8th, 2002
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12:30 am - Here I go....
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Went to Snowball last night saw The Used, TRUSTCompany, Box Car Racer and !!!!! NEW FOUND GLORY!!!!! Took the SAT's the next day and had to get up at 6 got about 4 hours of sleep. Went to WestView for wrestling tournament, then to the Stat girl party. hmm I'm tired, I miss Brett.
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Tuesday, November 26th, 2002
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5:20 am - woot woot
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We got a new puter its sooo purrty! I looove it! I think I'm gonna marry the IMAC.
niki
current mood: anxious current music: sound of silence
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Wednesday, November 6th, 2002
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10:48 pm - * EWWWWWWW *
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So tomorrow my Exper.Bio class is going to OHSU and looking at a cadaver. YEAH DEAD PEOPLE! Oh scary we get to get really close to it and watch someone dissect it. OH MY, yes there will be throwing up. I bet ya anything I will, should we take a poll? I'm scared!
niki
current music: New found Glory
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Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
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7:24 pm - Love yas
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How can you feel so sad and happy all at the same time? I must admit times have been hard but thanks to such a sweetheart I've never been so happy.
current music: what about - J.J.
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Friday, November 1st, 2002
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12:02 pm
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Jam master Jay is gone ! How sad I am today! Its tricky to rock a rhyme to rock a rhyme on time its tricky.
:( niki
current mood: sad current music: run dmc
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Monday, October 28th, 2002
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10:18 pm - When I'm happy your mad
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Why do you make me cry Feel as though I'm not enough in your life Theres pain that draws from within It takes it hand and pushes death down in How could my life go on without you as a friend
*CRAP CRAP CRAP ITS ALL JUST CRAP*
current mood: crappy current music: dont it always seem to go you dont know what you got...
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Sunday, October 27th, 2002
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6:46 pm - You could hit m now and I wouldnt care
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You know what really hurts? when you know for a fact your parents dislike you and you try so hard to be perfect for them. Sometimes I wish I could disappear.
current mood: depressed current music: Perfect
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Friday, October 11th, 2002
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10:46 pm - never really knew what you could do....until now
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He'll seduce you with his talents Leave your heart feeling empty, Your head a little cloudy The hair on the back of your neck will rise, Your eyes will become wide.......
The frightening facts we've been facing our back to for so long now are begging for eyes to bare witness to lies and indifference now were saying aloud the things we've declared in our silence
current mood: worried current music: The sharp hint of new tears
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8:54 pm - The one and only...
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he's very opinionated, he's very moody...he can be extremely serious and strict one minute and crazy and hilarious the next...he's very radical...he's really arrogant, and has a huge ego
Tell me who this is ? Mr.Miller
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