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today was great.. well not really.. i didn't do much... lets see i woke up. i cleaned, i cleaned some more... i made dinner for me and jason. i called my dad to see what was up and then now here i am online. yea that was my day.
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[01 Oct 2001|09:21pm] |
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i'm watching angel??? |
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ok so today was kinda boring.. my momma woke my ass up at 8 and i took a shower and got ready and then we went job hunting.. the search was good! and then we went to wind tiki lunch buffet.. c'est si bon! when i got home jason let me borrow his car so oi could go get butts cuz i ran out and i picked up a movie to shut him up.. all in all decent day.. and my room is still somewhat clean which is cool too..
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[30 Sep 2001|02:20am] |
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i was reading richies journal and it said something about sparklers and i thought about you and i thought of that night and i wish i was there, with you, forever
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[29 Sep 2001|09:34pm] |
walking away. its not the same s running. is it to you now that you've run this in the ground. and you say take this.this medicine is just what you deserve. swallow choke and die. and this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth. one thats void of all discretion such an awful tearing sound. with its measure only equaled by the power of my stare glaring over you and over you this feeling of dispare is never wearing out. its wearing off and its leaving you with such a heavy heart and a head to match. the bottle is waiting the cap is twisted ready to be used and so are you. and this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth. one thats void of all discretion such an awful tearing sound. with its measure only equaled by the power of my stare wearing over you and over you this feeling of dispare is never wearing out...
i totally cleaned and redid my room today... it sucks having no one here... but all in all i'm very proud of myself
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| yes i am writing from spain! |
[06 Aug 2001|08:19pm] |
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hey all i am in madrid right now just chilling during my free time... i?m haveing a blast and andrea and i haven?t even gotten into a fight yet or anything... i miss you all so so so so so much and can?t wait to see ou tuesday or whenever i see you!!!! i love you all but i must go... byebye
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| like sand theough the hour glass so are the days of our lives |
[24 May 2001|04:33pm] |
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how can i be mad when i am so happy....
i can't there is no reason.. there never was a reason..
why you think i may be mad at you for anything is absurd. i love you. i am so incredibly happy for you.
i can't explain why we don't talk why we can't talk... but it hurts me, i think about you all the time..
to look at you and see you so happy with everything makes me so happy, because i was there with you through EVERYTHING and to not be able to be with you now when things are finally as they were supposed to be.... kinda sucks for a lack of better words...
sometimes i want to just give you a huge hug and tell you that i'm sorry but i have no clue how you will respond... if i try to say anything it just gets brushed off... to me it seems like you have better things to do than have to care at all about what i may have to say or that i am trying to reestablish some contact..
i remember everything and i miss everything..
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[12 May 2001|12:03am] |
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you always say goodnight,goodnight |
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i am so happy
i am happy with the person that i am.. even if i had the chance i probally would never change anything about me.. everything about me makes up the person that i am and i am happy with that person... there has never been a point in my life where i felt bad about myself for anything.. i make the decisions in my life and i have to live with the concinquences of those decisions... i have to live with me for a lot longer than any of you...
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[07 May 2001|09:52pm] |
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my hotel years.... i can play it woohoo |
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jasons thumbnail is sitting on the computer table... its still all bloody from when it got smashed off too.... gross
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[29 Apr 2001|11:37am] |
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i had a really awesome weekend.....
thank you.
i'm super tired.. damn being kept up all night... i'm going to bed to dream about last night.. just because it was that awesome
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[28 Apr 2001|12:58am] |
i'm still very happy.....
but don't care. why are you even reading this.. if you don't know me already this is a warning don't get to know me becuase i am just a stupid bitch that doesn't understand what she wants and if you come near me i will probally rewin your life like i have rewined everyone else's
have a good day
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[28 Apr 2001|12:47am] |
i am super happy....
happy
happy
happy
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[26 Apr 2001|08:27pm] |
spain was nice... i took ALOT of really good pictures.. so says my momma....
morocco was increadable.. i could go on for hours about that place..... that trip was definately the best 1500 i have ever spent in my life... not to mention the most rewarding..
today my momma and i wrote the letter to the school about being homeschooled.. it made me happy.. i really don't want to go to school anymore... i met lilah today too..shes forrest's sister shes my age. shes homeschooled too..
today at work owen came in and was like ahh your wearing the sweatshirt! (meaning my stryder one) and he was like you have to let me borrow it some time so i was like as long as you promise to take extra super care of it and he was like ok so i let him borow it (the joke on the trip was too see how many days in a row that sweatshirt could be worn.. it lasted the whole time)
well i guess that is it for me... i love you all and i miss you (the ones i still haven't seen yet) goodnight
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| goodbye farewell to this fucked up world that was my former self |
[12 Apr 2001|10:10pm] |
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my video john gave me... aww |
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watching my one line drawing/dashboard tape.. it is super....
so i'm leaving tomorrow..
super super super...
i'm going to miss you all so much when i'm gone... seriously.. i mean i;ll have andrea and tomas but there are so many of you that its going to be so hard to deal without for the next week and whatnot... as i said before i will miss you all and i love you!
...and i am leaving tomorrow...
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| "i'm leaving on a jet plane.. i don't kno when i'll be back again!" |
[11 Apr 2001|08:40pm] |
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"i'm leaving on a jet plane" |
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oh my spain is so close i can taste all the alkeehol... mmmmm..... only like 1 more real day left and then we'll be on our way.. i am so increadibly excited! yea so like...
i'm gunna miss you all so much when i leave.. i kno i'll have andrea and tom (even though tom talks shit about me) but i'm gunna miss the rest of you soooooo much!! i wish you all were comming with me.. all of you.. that would be super and then we could leave the group and travel to scotland... yea thatd be super... ok i'm done..
I'M LEAVING FRIDAY!!!
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[09 Apr 2001|09:18am] |
sunday morning i was woken up at 530 from a kiss on the cheek i look over and i saw my little brother and i was like hey hun whatcha doin and he was like what time are you getting out of bed? and i was just like not for another couple of hours and he was just like ok and he climed in my bed and we snuggled and feel asleep and talked until like 930
my weekend was so awesome... i actually had alot of fun..
this morning however.. i was woken up at 7 from my mother saying i slept too late and that i had already missed the bus by 10 minutes and rather than drive me out there she just said i had to stay home.. i was dandy.. so i went back to bed.. shw woke m up at 9 though and told me that i have to get up now that noone sleeps late on weekdays i was like i sleep all day at school.. just let me sleep a couple more hours at home.. but no dice..
4 DAYS UNTIL SPAIN!!! i can not wait... a guy came into work yesterday and mentioned something about going to spain and i said i was going and he was telling me how awesome it was... wooohooo
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[07 Apr 2001|08:01pm] |
i'm at my dads house now.. i had fun today.. my little brother is soo cute.. but he always has been...
so john jen adn rich are all in virginia bah to them.. ahh well.. i'm enjoying myself.. i really am though..
i'm tired.. that sucks...
i played my dads guitar alot today.. its way better than mine... hes so much better than me at it...
i miss everyone...
6 DAYS UNTIL SPAIN!!!!
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[05 Apr 2001|07:52pm] |
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today was normal...
i played basketball with the neighborhood kids and joe today though... that was crazy...
8 DAYS UNTIL SPAIN!!!
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[03 Apr 2001|03:03pm] |
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last night i had the coolest night....
i went to see the stryder with dos and ken the man and it was super great... we had fun... when we got there we were walking over to mark and john and a bird pooped right on dos it was the funniest thing ever and then he made me walk all the way to a subway to clean it off for him.. i laughed.. it was funny...
the stryder was insanely awesome like they always are.... the guitarist was like humoing my head when we was on stage and then later wrote down on my poster that he wanted to touch my pwanah or something spelled like that... i dunno.. but all in all it was a super great show... i had like 7270 orgasms.. it was that good.. i bought a sweatshirt but its gray cuz corey has the black one yea so that was the show
after we left we couidn't find the place were we parked.. it was the funniest thing dos and i were just walking aorund the streets of providence singing our made up songs with all the same beat... after we finally found the car we couldn't find our way home... but finally, because of my super sence of direction, i found us home.. it was great..
for any of you trying to send me mail dork.com is being lame and not working at the moment so don't be upset if i don't respond back for a little bit and if its an emergency than send it to my irunwitskizzors@excite one alright.. have a super funtastic awesome dandy day...
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[01 Apr 2001|10:35pm] |
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std... just found it today in the car woohoo |
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its funny.. well it probally only is too me.. that i'll go through the whole day and just want it to be night... i'll count the hours down until i can go outside and watch the sunset then i'll just sit there and be in complete awe.. i think that is probally the most beautiful thing in the world.. watching the sunset.....
i like when it gets really dark out too.. and the sky is so clear that you can see all the stars and you just lay on the ground and just stare for hours... you get scared that if you close your eyes that you'll miss something or that it will all just disappear..
i don't know maybe simple things like that don't mean that much to you but they mean the world to me
***i sat and stared at the sky i knew i'd find myself there again***
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[01 Apr 2001|07:51pm] |
today i worked all day.. it sucked
why does everything seem to suck so much lately... i really wanna kick its ass...
ed came over yesterday.. that didn't suck though.. we had fun..
12 days until spain.... andrea and i have our plan to stay there forever.. muhahahaha
that is all
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