| bleaarrggghhh | Nov. 23rd, 2004 @ 06:10 pm |
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i'm gonna be updating about this past weekend when i have more time, so this is just a quick update before i leave to go home for break.
this weekend was super awesome, and i saw something corporate, with stroke 9 opening for them in oswego. me, jon, and amanda peloke stayed at miles' house, and it was a super good time. more details will follow in a journal entry to come.
today, the jazz band recorded at linden oaks studio in rochester, new york. however, that was not the interesting part of the trip was last night, when we got to rochester at around 10:30ish. me, mary and keenan went to java's and got the comfy spot in the window!!!! and i had a drink called a shot in the dark, which was a shot of espresso in hot chocolate. oh man, it ruled more than anything ever. anywho, we left, then went back to the hotel and me and mary played war in the lobby and ate tostitos with salsa. yay. we went to bed then, but i couldn't sleep cos i had espresso, so i went outside of my room and played solitare for awhile. well, let's just say the boys went to hooters, and most of them got drunk. dan foster had a video camera and was taping me in the hallway playing cards. also, ryan hughes wanted to piss off brett, and he succeeded, and brett and dan almost got into a fight, and that was pretty messed up. then brett was gonna go tell dr. galloway, cos he's a PB...hahaha. then, some guy who was rooming next to us got up and started yelling at people, and charlie tried to apologize but he was really pissed because of the noise [it was just about 1:00am] and told security. we almost got kicked out of the hotel. it was an interesting night. then, the security guard said that since dan was supposedly in charge [and he was the drunkest of them all], that all the kids should go back to their rooms. lol...even though we are all over the age of 18 and dan is IN the jazz band. that was funny. so, i went to the lobby again and miles joined me in playing a game of spit, and he was drunk and he beat me. damn i suck at that game.
anywho...mandy's coming to pick me up now!
so it's off to home i go til sunday...see yous later.
have a happy thanksgiving.
yay for money.
the end.
( just like it was before... )Current Mood:  okay Current Music: brand new. seventy times seven. |
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awww, lauraraibeck!!!!
<333333333333333333333!!!!!!!!1111!!!!!!!!!!1!
i'm gwen stefani, bitches.
today was a good day.
i love mary and thrift stores.
and you too, of COURSE.
maybe i'll update more tomorrow....
THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA RULE.
-hockey game
-oswego
-spending time with miles and jon
-SOMETHING CORPORATE SATURDAY NIGHT. BE JEALOUS.
-possibly drinking?
anywho, i'm done with my history project. so...GOODNIGHT...
<3 love to mandy and sonia...cos they both need it right now. <3Current Mood: okay Current Music: dr.stephen's in! |
| i am alone. | Nov. 17th, 2004 @ 11:53 pm |
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you told me that you want to die.
i said i've been there myself more than a few times.
and i go back every once in a while.
you called me lucky, you...
you called me lucky.
you said tonight is a wonderful night to die.
i asked you how you could tell,
you told me to look at the sky. look at all those stars,
look at how goddamn ugly the stars are.
it's one or another.
between a rope and a bottle.
i can tell you're having trouble breathing,
cause you'll never be o.k.,
you'll never be o.k. (you'll always be in pain).
you'll always feel this way.
cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way, the lonely way).
you'll always be in pain.
you told me that the daylight burned you
and that the sunrise was enough to kill you.
i said maybe you're a vampire.
you said it's quite possible,
i feel truly dead inside.
it's one or another.
between a rope and a bottle.
i can tell you're having trouble breathing,
cause you'll never be o.k.,
you'll never be o.k. (you'll always be in pain).
you'll always feel this way.
cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way, the lonely way).
you'll always be in pain.
don't forget to let your life rot you inside out.
don't forget to let your life rot you inside out.
don't forget to let your life rot you inside out.Current Mood:  lonely Current Music: alkaline trio. trouble breathing. |
| god dammit. | Nov. 16th, 2004 @ 11:26 pm |
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i just wrote a whole fucking entry...and it got deleted.
FUCK YOU LIVE JOURNAL.
well, the important thing of the day was that the day sucked and was boring for the most part.
i found out what i want for xmas.
and i found out what i want to get tattooed on my left upper arm.
( here and here )
i have meetings with my professors tomorrow.
i'm nervous.
so..i think i'm gonna go sleep.
goodnight world.
feel better sonia.
dammit i'm pissed off at you LIVEJOURNAL. GODDDDD.Current Mood:  crappy Current Music: vh1 stuff |
| i wonder if she knows which way is down... | Nov. 14th, 2004 @ 09:44 pm |
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this journal entry is dedicated to mary:
i love you more than words can say...i know i can't do anything to prevent the assholes from being assholes, but i'll try as best as i can...because you mean the world to me and i can't stand to see you hurting because of some asshole boys...they aren't worth it. NEVER. i want to be there to pick up the pieces when your heart breaks, cos that's what best friends are supposed to do. and i know it may be hard sometimes, but please know i am here for you no matter what time of the day or night...i've always got your back. and i love you.
::you're the magic that holds the sky up from the ground::
yes, i love you too!
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| » a letter from michael moore...[even though i KNOW some of you hate him] |
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Dear Friends,
Ok, it sucks. Really sucks. But before you go and cash it all in, let's, in the words of Monty Python, 'always look on the bright side of life!' There IS some good news from Tuesday's election. Here are 17 reasons not to slit your wrists:
1. It is against the law for George W. Bush to run for president again.
2. Bush's victory was the NARROWEST win for a sitting president since Woodrow Wilson in 1916.
3. The only age group in which the majority voted for Kerry was young adults (Kerry: 54%, Bush: 44%), proving once again that your parents are always wrong and you should never listen to them.
4. In spite of Bush's win, the majority of Americans still think the country is headed in the wrong direction (56%), think the war wasn't worth fighting (51%), and don't approve of the job George W. Bush is doing (52%). (Note to foreigners: Don't try to figure this one out. It's an American thing, like Pop Tarts.)
5. The Republicans will not have a filibuster-proof 60-seat majority in the Senate. If the Democrats do their job, Bush won't be able to pack the Supreme Court with right-wing ideologues. Did I say "if the Democrats do their job?" Um, maybe better to scratch this one.
6. Michigan voted for Kerry! So did the entire Northeast, the birthplace of our democracy. So did 6 of the 8 Great Lakes States. And the whole West Coast! Plus Hawaii. Ok, that's a start. We've got most of the fresh water, all of Broadway, and Mt. St. Helens. We can dehydrate them or bury them in lava. And no more show tunes!
7. Once again we are reminded that the buckeye is a nut, and not just any old nut -- a poisonous nut. A great nation was felled by a poisonous nut. May Ohio State pay dearly this Saturday when it faces Michigan.
8. 88% of Bush's support came from white voters. In 50 years, America will no longer have a white majority. Hey, 50 years isn't such a long time! If you're ten years old and reading this, your golden years will be truly golden and you will be well cared for in your old age.
9. Gays, thanks to the ballot measures passed on Tuesday, cannot get married in 11 new states. Thank God. Just think of all those wedding gifts we won't have to buy now.
10. Five more African Americans were elected as members of Congress, including the return of Cynthia McKinney of Georgia. It's always good to have more blacks in there fighting for us and doing the job our candidates can't.
11. The CEO of Coors was defeated for Senate in Colorado. Drink up!
12. Admit it: We like the Bush twins and we don't want them to go away.
13. At the state legislative level, Democrats picked up a net of at least 3 chambers in Tuesday's elections. Of the 98 partisan-controlled state legislative chambers (house/assembly and senate), Democrats went into the 2004 elections in control of 44 chambers, Republicans controlled 53 chambers, and 1 chamber was tied. After Tuesday, Democrats now control 47 chambers, Republicans control 49 chambers, 1 chamber is tied and 1 chamber (Montana House) is still undecided.
14. Bush is now a lame duck president. He will have no greater moment than the one he's having this week. It's all downhill for him from here on out -- and, more significantly, he's just not going to want to do all the hard work that will be expected of him. It'll be like everyone's last month in 12th grade -- you've already made it, so it's party time! Perhaps he'll treat the next four years like a permanent Friday, spending even more time at the ranch or in Kennebunkport. And why shouldn't he? He's already proved his point, avenged his father and kicked our ass.
15. Should Bush decide to show up to work and take this country down a very dark road, it is also just as likely that either of the following two scenarios will happen: a) Now that he doesn't ever need to pander to the Christian conservatives again to get elected, someone may whisper in his ear that he should spend these last four years building "a legacy" so that history will render a kinder verdict on him and thus he will not push for too aggressive a right-wing agenda; or b) He will become so cocky and arrogant -- and thus, reckless -- that he will commit a blunder of such major proportions that even his own party will have to remove him from office.
16. There are nearly 300 million Americans -- 200 million of them of voting age. We only lost by three and a half million! That's not a landslide -- it means we're almost there. Imagine losing by 20 million. If you had 58 yards to go before you reached the goal line and then you barreled down 55 of those yards, would you stop on the three yard line, pick up the ball and go home crying -- especially when you get to start the next down on the three yard line? Of course not! Buck up! Have hope! More sports analogies are coming!!!
17. Finally and most importantly, over 55 million Americans voted for the candidate dubbed "The #1 Liberal in the Senate." That's more than the total number of voters who voted for either Reagan, Bush I, Clinton or Gore. Again, more people voted for Kerry than Reagan. If the media are looking for a trend it should be this -- that so many Americans were, for the first time since Kennedy, willing to vote for an out-and-out liberal. The country has always been filled with evangelicals -- that is not news. What IS news is that so many people have shifted toward a Massachusetts liberal. In fact, that's BIG news. Which means, don't expect the mainstream media, the ones who brought you the Iraq War, to ever report the real truth about November 2, 2004. In fact, it's better that they don't. We'll need the element of surprise in 2008. Feeling better? I hope so. As my friend Mort wrote me yesterday, "My Romanian grandfather used to say to me, 'Remember, Morton, this is such a wonderful country -- it doesn't even need a president!'" But it needs us. Rest up, I'll write you again tomorrow.
Yours, Michael Moore
Nov. 10th, 2004 @ 12:22 pm
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today sucked. the end.
don't wanna go into details, but shit needs to change, or else...shit's gonna hit the fan. HARD.
>=(
god i'm so frustrated beyond belief.
I CAN'T BE AROUND ANYMORE.
tonight is the night...it's just culminated to this moment.
i'm so lonely...it's unbearable.
i'm so glad mary's coming over, so i don't do anything i'll regret later.
god i'm such a psycho.
and i'm just sick of it.
two songs for you tonight:
Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within
But then he rose brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep
And all my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unweighed down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap
And all my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
All my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
fiona apple\\\pale september
I will dig a hole
Save my pennies for a rainy day
I will dig a hole
Savin pennies for a rainy day
I'm not scared
I will build a wall
Sensing trouble from a mile away
I will build a wall
Saw it comin from a mile away
I'm not scared
I'm not scared
Try wearin your insides out
I don't even try, I know I have seen the best I'll have
I don't even try
I will just play dumb
I won't hear a single word that's said
I will bite my tongue
Never sing another song again
I'm not scared
I'm not scared
Try wearing my insides out
I don't even try, I know I have seen the best I'll have
I don't even try
Now they want to take my chances
I don't even try
Clouds are comin
Air get's heavy
Looks like trouble on a rainy day
Sun starts sinking
Can't see my shadow
Looks like trouble on a rainy day
Holes uncovered
Walls will crumble
All spells trouble on a rainy day
guster\\\rainy day
Nov. 10th, 2004 @ 12:18 am
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I used to visit all the very gay places
Those come what may places
Where one relaxes on the axis of the wheel of life
To get the feel of life...
From jazz and cocktails.
The girls I knew had sad and sullen gray faces
With distangue traces
That used to be there you could see where they’d been washed away
By too many through the day...
Twelve o’clock tales.
Then you came along with your siren of song
To tempt me to madness!
I thought for a while that your poignant smile was tinged with the sadness
Of a great love for me.
Ah yes! I was wrong...
Again,
I was wrong.
Life is lonely again,
And only last year everything seemed so sure.
Now life is awful again,
A troughful of hearts could only be a bore.
A week in paris will ease the bite of it,
All I care is to smile in spite of it.
I’ll forget you, I will
While yet you are still burning inside my brain.
Romance is mush,
Stifling those who strive.
I’ll live a lush life in some small dive...
Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 10:51 pm
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I HATE MY FUCKING NEIGHBORS!!!!!!!
AND I HATE THE GOD DAMN VENTS!!!!!!!
AND I'M FUCKING TIRED!!!!!!!!!
GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!
Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 10:03 am
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i'm blah.
but mary's sleeping over.
You've got all these excuses but
you don't have an answer
because you don't know yourself,
you don't know your own weaknesses.
You're always innocent
because you're never honest.
So wrapped up in your perspective.
Morality has become an opinion.
It comes to this,
such tragic endings.
You shake your fist,
just stop pretending.
It comes to this,
such tragic endings.
It's hit or miss,
just stop pretending now.
You wanted to be left alone
but you wanted someone to say
"boy, I'm always here for you"
but you can't have it both ways.
Now no one knows what you've done.
No one knows what you've done.
No one knows what you've done
and it's just as well.
The only thing that comforts me is
knowing that you'll never be happy.
Nov. 8th, 2004 @ 11:47 pm
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Type your name with your:
Nose: je3nna
Elbow: ju4ejnjwa
Tongue: jenna
Chin: jedn n ba
Feet: jennbqa
Eyes closed and one finger: jenna
Back of hand: jennnza
Palm: jenna
Wrist: jhern nm sa
take your mind back...
Nov. 8th, 2004 @ 07:27 pm
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Nov. 8th, 2004 @ 07:08 pm
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Snow can wait
I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose
Get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart
When I think of winter
I put my hand in my father's glove
I run off where the DRIFTS GET DEEPER
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice
"You must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I can't always be around"
He says
When you gonna make up your mind?
When you gonna love you as much as I do?
When you gonna make up your mind,
Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, my dear
Boys get discovered as winter MELTS
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and I'm here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was
Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
SKATING around the truth who I am
But I know dad the ice is getting thin
When you gonna make up your mind?
When you gonna love you as much as I do?
When you gonna make up your mind,
Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, my dear...
Hair is grey and the fires are burning
So many dreams on the shelf
You say I wanted you to be PROUD of me
I always wanted that myself
When you gonna make up your mind?
When you gonna love you as much as I do?
When you gonna make up your mind,
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the WHITE HORSES have gone ahead
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, my dear...
Never change
All the white horses
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tori amos. winter.
song of the moment.
Nov. 5th, 2004 @ 09:43 pm
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i'll settle for that for NOW.
but later...:-*
Nov. 5th, 2004 @ 09:41 pm
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The University of Blogging
Presents to
xxjennaxx
An Honorary
Bachelor of
Anonymous Commenting
Majoring in
Survey Science
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Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com
time for food, simpsons, bowling, and a night of fun and memories.
here's to better days...
and getting better.
Nov. 5th, 2004 @ 05:52 pm
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Don't you think my sweet
Canada may be looking better for us both
Crunch the snow under your feet
Yes, Canada is finally lookin good
Who could have known it'd end like this
I thought we we perfect
at least you are in my eyes
I'd rather just stay here.
But the northern lights are calling my name
you can only guess on who I lay the blame
after it all, I'll feel no shame.
So young southern bucks,
grab your guns,
you'll all be shipped off soon.
Put that ballot to use
lace up your boots
wear your best warm coat.
You'll need it cuz there will be a chill
there's a draft coming under the door...
It's warmer across the border
and we all would love daily naps (siestas....)
constant tans and real margaritas
we could get a little dog and name it peppito
cuz who wouldn' t think that was adorable?
or maybe would could just get the dog....
who wants to be fluent in another language anyway.
Cuz the northern lights are calling my name
you can only guess on who I lay the blame
after it all, I'll feel no shame.
But they made a deal with the devil
and the others are too close to hell
We know we can't stay here
everyone is too blind, too ignorant to see the truth
the great big blue is welcoming
so I guess that's where I'll go
I only wish you'd follow
Though I guess I'll never know...
But the northern lights are calling my name
and in Chicago you can see the flames
after it all, I'll feel no shame.
Nov. 3rd, 2004 @ 07:01 pm
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we are so fucked.
WE ARE SO FUCKED.
WHY OH WHY DID PEOPLE VOTE FOR THAT IMCOMPETANT ASSHOLE???
WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?!?!
do you have a death wish???
cos hell, we are so fucked.
i just can't believe...that people have...the mental....capacity to vote for that idiot.
well, thanks for screwing us over.
FUCK.
why did kerry concede???
Nov. 3rd, 2004 @ 12:27 pm
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i don't know why anyone in their right mind would vote for bush.
as my friend nick says, "you'd probably have to be retarded, or dead."
i agree.
well, we'll see how it turns out tonight.
i'm going to see the grudge tonight with a bunch of people. i guess i probably will just hide in my jacket most of the time. hooray!
umm...
time to study for history.
later.
Nov. 2nd, 2004 @ 05:52 pm
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better than i expected.
have i mentioned lately how much i love my best friend?
without her, i'm nothing at all.
I LOVE YOU MARY!!! =D
Nov. 1st, 2004 @ 06:38 pm
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kinda bummin. don't know why...well maybe i do, but i just don't feel like sharing.
today was okay.
i slept in til 11, which i thought was 12...i was feeling okay when i woke up, so that was good.
then i watched some family guy with roomie and roomie's boy [=) for her], and fell asleep again watching that. got up at 3pm and sat on the computer for awhile...then got some food, then ate it and watched halloween and hocus pocus on tv. then i fell asleep AGAIN, cos i'm a lazy fuck. got up at around 7ish, and waited for mary to come over so we could get dressed up for the kelchner halloween party. being hot as go go and the bride we set off.
we got there around 9 and walked around, with people staring at us, and NOT KNOWING WHO WE ARE. wtf, people. WATCH KILL BILL. you WON'T REGRET IT. gahhh...anyway...
we found dickie dressed as "smoke-atello"...which was dickie dressed up in a teenage mutant ninja turtle costume made for a 10-year-old and it was soooo tight on him, cos he's like 6'3"...lol...it was funny. so me and mary just hung out with dickie the whole time...on a mission...=)
dickie ended up winning 3rd place for the best male costume, and me and mary didn't even PLACE for best couple costume. some stupid people won that we wanted to kill...WE EVEN ACTED OUT THE FIGHT SCENE...WTF.
then we left after that, and were still on the mission...the mission almost failed, but then we succeeded, and i just got back from hanging with mary and dickie. it was fun times. woowoo!!
it's time for bed. but i haven't been awake 12 hours. oh well, i'll try to sleep the blues away.
=(
Oh where are you now
pussy willow that smiled on this leaf?
When I was alone
you promised the stone from your heart.
My head kissed the ground
I was half the way down
treading the sand
please.
Please lift a hand
I'm only a person
whose armbands beat
on his hands, hang tall
Won't you miss me?
wouldn't you miss me at all?
all...
all...
all...
The poppy bird's way
swing twigs coffee brands around
brandish her wand with a feathery tongue
My head kissed the ground.
I was half the way down
treading the sand
please
please
Please lift a hand
I'm only a person
with [eskimo] chain
I tattooed my brain all the way
Won't you miss me?
wouldn't you miss me at all?
all...
all...
all...
freakin' placebo. they rule.
these lyrics are weird though, i'm not sure if they're right, but oh well. they were the closest i could come up with. if any one of my placebo-loving friends can correct me, that would rule.
goodnight. =(
Nov. 1st, 2004 @ 01:41 am
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