ok. here is the deal. i dont mind people asking me for my live journal account. its ok..no biggie. this isnt directed towards you. this is to the assholes that keeping IMing me some bullshit. lately ive been getting a lot of nasty messages on my IM b/c i havent used my LJ account in a while. telling me to get a life and shit....but signing it anon. well get some fuckin balls and a life yourself, and get off my back.
infuriatedim moving soon. ive been packing, and taping, and organizing, and cleaning. i have so much stuff. luckily, i have a roomy place to live. but knowing me, i will find a way to fill it up im sure. and im trying to get over this illness ive had..i havent felt too good the past few days. when i went to indiana last week, i got really sick. but what can you do. it was just that my body was actually letting itself fall apart. since i dont let it during the schoolyear. ugh.
sickim having the worst day ever! well, not ever, but im feeling pretty bad. i got some bad news from a friend concerning a lost love sorta situation. i planned on going to boston and new york for my spring break...dont think thats happening anymore. ugh.
crushedo'yea.....i still havent seen the sun.....its been over 2 weeks now..nearing three.
im getting so frustrated with school. ive really just been scraping by this semester, though last semester i did awesome. so what the hell? i guess i got a lot of stuff going on, im trying to find out about an old love interest, trying to find a place to live thats decent, go to work, plan a spring break, workout, school...etc. i just feel too busy, and i know im not applying myself as I should, which is just unheard of for me. i just feel in another realm, where things arent going as they should. im gonna try to sleep on it...tomorrow is a new day.
indescribablei am about to start building an arc...as in noah's arc. its been raining for 3 days straight....and the roads are flooding. i cant even take my normal route anymore b/c the big bridge is washed out because of a raging creek. its kinda freaky. i know we flood a lot down here in the south, but ive NEVER seen it this bad that i can remember. i cant even let my little dog rico out in the backyard because he will literally and honestly be swept away by this makeshift river that has made a home in our backyard..its about knee high and is just raging. i need to see the SUN!!!
gloomyoh yea, i was able to watch a c-section at the hospital today for my clinical rotation. it was kinda neat...i got a little bit teary eyed b/c the dad looked so in love with his new son! how cute!
calmHappy 21st to my friend chris! yay! now we just have to plan to meet up over my spring break sometime...must figure out a way to see my friends in boston too! argh...so much to do. so little time and money. but i hope you were able to make it off campus chris and enjoy a little bit of your birthday!
mellowi hate tests. i have this huge pharmacology test tomorrow morning...actually this morn at 10am. ive been studying on and off all day. and i just can't stay focused. i keep getting distracted by the tv and my own damn thoughts. plus the teacher said "no one ever passes the first test" How about that for some reassurance? that f-ing sucks. im just not into it now. im kinda burnt out. i want a nice long vacation. i wanna see friends. not worry about at least 1 or 2 tests per week. plus taking the dog 3x a week to the vet for allergy shots and then dealing with my allergies and trying to work out at the union hall. go figure. my life is just too hellish right now. on top of the other things....no luck finding an apt yet....ugh! but i better get back to studying. its halfway to 1am. wish me luck...and sleep!
frustratedim trying to find some airline tickets online that are cheap....or at least cheaper than buying them off the major airlines. i usually fly southwest but it seems all the airlines have upped their prices...i dont blame them with our economy...but i want to get out of town for a trip! i dont know of any more sites besides cheaptickets.com or expedia....are there any more out there that are reliable?
determinedim trying to find an apt/house i can rent that i can afford! its so hard being in nursing school and only being able to work on the weekends....and then find something i can manage to keep up with rentwise and billwise...sometimes i just hate being 21 b/c you hate asking for help from your parents, yet its so tough to do it all on your own. the time is getting closer for my mom to pack up and move back up north..its got me really sad. she's really been my rock since her and my dad divorced a handful of years back. i want her to be happy, but im also selfish and want her to still stay....cuz i'll miss her too much. i just cant imagine being too far from her. ugh..!~
anyways, hi chrissy...im rambling on in my journal while we are IMing back and forth...heehee. my cat is watching all the letters pop up on the screen and she's kinda chasing them.
contemplativeim headed to vegas this weekend. im so excited, but kinda curious to how the city will be. i was told that the county that las vegas is located in is the only county in the country that allows prostituition (spelling?) yuck! im excited, though im not all into the gambling thing ya know? i just wanna see the shows, see all the lights, take pictures. the weather will definitely be better than it is here at home..and it will be a little breather, just to get away for a little while...
today i went out with B and a couple of friends to this sushi bar..it was the first i had ever been in. and i was too chicken to try any of it, especially when i found out they were rolled in fish eggs... sorry, its just not my thing. so i was kinda bummed cuz i was the only one not eating sushi and the only one eating with a fork since i dunno how to use chopsticks. needless to say, i was kinda bummed today.
anyways, im gonna go make some popcorn to munch on...
hungryi just deleted my old entries that were from ages ago...but i kept one from colorgenics.....that website i checked out that once...it was kinda neat to read it again. i forgot i kept it.
accomplishedim sorry to the chic who emailed me...i was gonna respond (ive been on hiatus from my computer for a while) and i accidently deleted your original email. i apologize...but i really would like to keep my screenname....it has a lot of sentimental value to me...and i know, i know, i hardly use the journal that much in the past year..but ive moved and am without "my" computer..im using someone else's. im sorry, i feel bad that i didnt get back to you sooner. and yes, it is a cool name..=)thank you...
coldoooo. i found a cool website called color genics....it fit my personality 100% my god!
this is it:
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that "True love is just around the corner"...and maybe... if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operendi doesn't seem to work then try something different ....
You are a dreamer .. and you seek perfection in any relationship that you may establish. Some of your ideas and standards are over the top... so it may be a good idea to review your perception of life and accept people for what they are - not for what you would like them to be.
You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position that offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve... which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem. But you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it...You feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one. All difficulties and no encouragement.Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest ... you are consistently misunderstood.You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front...
the website is www.colorgenics.com....check it out....! if anything, its fun
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