i am not actually here.

( poem )

Current Music: interpol - 04 - pda

* WoW European Beta signups start on Monday. My iBook is below the minimum reqs. Woe. Will probably apply anyway.

* Am playing Diablo II. Will become leet yet.

* School's out for summer. Not sure how to feel about the first year being over. Have either one or two years left. Will have to decide on whether I want it to be the one or the other soonish.

I don't even know if I learned a lot this year or nothing at all. I'm kind of thinking the former, but I really couldn't tell for sure, and I'm not sure if that's a good sign or a bad one. Many people in my class feel the same way, though.

I do know I've learned a lot on a personal level, which is probably more important anyway.

* I just wrote a Kizu snippet and I am full of glee. It hasn't all dried up! So happy. Still, things can't continue like this next year. I finished maybe two full-colour drawings this year, a few pencils and a ridiculously tiny amount of sketches. I wrote a couple of utterly pointless snippets and a dozen or so diary!poems that I can't show to anyone for both badness and transparency. I also started two poems that might have turned out well had I not let them sit around long enough to render myself incapable of continuing them. (One of them is a villanelle, and. Villanelles are so beautiful if done right, but so damned difficult.)

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, I'm really dissatisfied with my creative output this past year and I'm going to try and tackle this next year. As in, actively set aside time for writing and drawing. We'll see if it works -- school just seemed to suck the creative energy out of me this year.

* My website's going to go back up eventually, if severely revamped. I might just cut all the writing; not sure yet. The fanart is going to stay, but I'll look into putting everything R and NC-17 behind a password. I hope to get around to doing it this summer.

* Six Feet Under is wildly brilliant, at least as far as I can tell from having seen season one. Queer as Folk may not be as brilliant, but it's still entertaining and sometimes touching and good and I adore Brian and Justin and Emmet. Can't believe the season's almost over already.

* Saw Prisoner of Azkaban. Saw it right when it opened, actually. I'd been looking forward to it and I was very disappointed. I wasn't going to write about it until I'd seen it for a second time, and I think I'm going to hold off on commenting further until I have, but. I don't see why everybody seems to have liked it so much. Few of the things that made it my favourite book made it to the movie.

* I'm going to Sweden (Småland, but I'm not sure where exactly) with my family for two weeks at the end of July. It's the first time I'm going on vacation with my family in a few years. I'm really looking forward to it. I haven't seen my sister since September because she did au pair, and I haven't spent that much time with my parents either. Also, Sweden! I've only ever been to Norway, which was beautiful, so. Yay!

* I'm moving in August. Waiting for the realtor to call me back on a flat I really liked ... I just hope this is going to work out. I'm going to miss my current flat, even though the new one is similarly big and bright. Just, I like the neighbourhood I live in right now, things like being able to walk home at five am like I did last night. And I have so many memories associated with this place already, after barely a year. It's going to be odd leaving it.

There's more to this and you'll hear about it eventually, but it's not my news to tell.

* Met a boy last night who was both pretty and bright. Probably never going to see him again, as is Aushtralian and leaves town today, but that was somewhat unexpected and a lot of fun and quite enjoyable and. Heh. Okay.

* I leave for Linz tomorrow evening and I hope to be heading home around the 10th. Don't yet know if I'll have to come back to Vienna once more before I can go home. Sigh. Much as I enjoy living on my own and living in Vienna, I'm very ready to be coddled and cooked for, to see some mountains when I get up in the mornings and to be able to walk anywhere I need to be.

* To do today: wash dishes, buy yoghurt, buy bag to carry abundance of stuff that I will need to take home with me, call people and arrange for evening activities.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Mirah - Promise To Me

Maya's post about Troy made me laugh just now. Personal opinion, short version: Entertaining. Eye-candy. Terrible soundtrack. Everyone who went in expecting a 1:1 adaptation has only themselves to blame.

And I'm getting excited over PoA. Less than two weeks ...

Okay, um, to provide some actual content: went to the zoo for life drawing for the second time today. I took a couple of good pictures and did a couple of mediocre scribbles, which you are free to ( look at. )

I have an art history test on Thursday that I'm supposed to study for ... need dinner first, though.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Lali Puna - Its Not The Worst

Mmmmhstrawberrygasm. How much do I love summer? Even if it's raining right now and I'm sort of cold, I have to tell you, I love summer a lot. Summer and the sugared strawberries it brings.

I think I actually have more work than last semester, but I feel like I'm able to deal a little better. (This is me deluding myself, because this wave of optimism and happiness? Is most definitely due to the general lack of winter right now.)

I bought shoes today. They're black and white and go up to mid-calf. I can now wear skirts. Huzzah!

Want to play WoW. I've been obsessing over reading up on it and it looks most brilliant. There'll even be a Mac version, but I doubt my G3 iBook'll be able to run it ... the minimum requirements say G4. I'm waiting for open beta to give it a try, though. Else I guess I'm starting to save up for a gaming PC? I miss MMORPGaming and I knew I would and that it was stupid getting involved with it in the first place. But what can you do? XD

I still find myself distinctly lacking in fangirl enthusiasm, even for Naruto, which started out so well. Not that I don't enjoy it, I do, and I'm looking forward to HP3 and reading LotRips (which has singlehandedly become the most depressing fandom I have ever been involved in and I'm ashamed to say I never saw it coming and wtf? it used to be such a happy place. then again, figures). (While I'm being fannish, rec: lalejandra's Faculty posts. Most of what she posts, really, (first found her looking for MSCL fic) but the Faculty fic is grrreat.) But anyway, as I was saying: the squee is gone! I lack focus for my perversions. Bah, I say.

(Although, okay, I do have a little squee for QaF US. Justin, Justin, you'resostupidbutIlurveyou. And that scene with Cody towards the end of 4x04 was way, way hot. As are any and all scenes with Brian, but I suspect that may be Brian.)

Whoa, deja vu. I swear I've seen Fleur post this before, but I don't think I have. Uh.

Heap of laundry is calling my name. Hn.

Current Mood: ooohshiny.
Current Music: Lali Puna - Faking The Books

Having read some of the genderbender week posts over at pottersues, I realised I'd actually like to see a clever, well-written genderbending HP fic. Humorous or angsty, shippy or entirely gen: I don't care as long as it's good. No idea where to start looking, though, or if any such thing even exists. So I thought I'd try asking for recs. Anyone?


Also, in the "wtf, there's a word for that?" category: Oculolinctus. Best fetish ever.

Current Mood: curious
Current Music: Foo Fighters - Learn to Fly

my god. i just managed to acquire the ugliest haircut ever, and it was out of sheer stupidity. i went to the hair dresser's intending to keep my existing cut, just get it shortened a couple of centimeters. my stylist happened to be terribly cute.

she set about cutting eventually, and after a while showed me the results, which looked pretty much the way i wanted them to.

"cool," says i.

she gets that odd gleam in her eye that hair stylists get sometimes. "hmm ... i was thinking ... but you want to keep the same cut, right?"

having already thwarted her previous suggestions of brightening my hair, dulling my hair, dyeing my lashes and plucking my eyebrows, i now decide to be adventurous: "not necessarily."

"i was thinking we might take away some of it here on the side, make it asymmetrical."

now, i can't stand asymmetrical. it took me years to get away from wearing my hair parted in the middle.

"um. how much would you take away?" i ask.

"about this much," she says, making a concealing gesture.

i am at this point thinking how she is so cute, she could shave a swastika into the back of my head and i wouldn't care. so i say, foolishly, "go ahead."

i now have half an inch of hair on the left side of my head to balance out the four to five inches on the right. it looks ridiculous, and i am reminded once more that hair stylists are evil and not to be trusted even if they are cute as fuck.

might post pictures for general amusement if i can get up the courage to look at myself in the mirror again. will hopefully find a styling that will allow me to show my face in public eventually. and if i have to resort to wearing hats. (but at least i think i've figured out what i'll do with my hair in the summer.)

Current Mood: vaguely amused at self. >_>;
Current Music: Afghan Whigs - 66

Friday Saturday Five:

1. What was the last song you heard?
This makes about as much sense as putting my current playlist here, because there's almost always some music playing when I'm on the computer. So we'll make this the last song I remember hearing while away from the computer, which was ... uh, something by a band (Sly Caps!) on MTV Made. Yay.

2. What were the last two movies you saw?
In an actual theatre, Underworld and Lost in Translation, I think. I never posted about either, did I? I enjoyed Underworld; it was much better than expected and oh so pretty. Lost in Translation was ... heh, well, just as good as expected. Made me laugh. Was clever. Yes.

3. What were the last three things you purchased?
Um, groceries today, food for lunch (bread roll, vanilla milk and dark chocolate cookies) yesterday, swimming goggles the day before.

4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?
Clean, do laundry, work on Benetton bag design, dye hair. So far have ... uh, washed the dishes. That counts as cleaning, right? >_>;

5. Who are the last five people you talked to?
In order: Key, Igor, Margret, Matt, Igor's cousin.

Now I wait for people to call me and tell me what to do with the rest of the evening. Or maybe I'll just sit here and keep rearranging stuff on my website.

Current Mood: comfortably bored.
Current Music: C. Bruni - 01 - quelqu'un m' a dit

So after putting it off for months I finally went and ordered Mirage of Blaze DVDs 3 and 4 today. Mostly because of an AMV I happened to stumble across, which made me realise once more how this series manages to hit every single button for me. The angst! The tension! The drama! The undying, yet twisted devotion! The suppression, the resistance! It's just so ... guh.

Happy now, yes. I saw the first episodes of it at Minami Con long ago and it piqued my interest there ... and it seems like such a long time that I've fangirled it without having seen all of it it that now it's actually kind of hard to believe I'll be able to watch it.

Naoenaoenaoenaoenaoenaoe. Cough.

FFX-2 came out a while ago, too, and I'm 15 hours or so into it. My god, it's so sparkly. It is fun to play, but it also hurts my brain. I'm still undecided whether I like it as a sequel to FFX; it seems too bouncy, too lighthearted, but underneath all that it does get across the unrest in Spira these two years later and ... well, I'll have to play more to be able to decide.

Off to attend a presentation by Irma Boom ... mm, book design ...

Also, should have bought groceries, but no time now. Not like I didn't actually have most of the afternoon off school, but I kind of fell asleep for three and a half hours. Ah, sleep deprivation, dear old friend. ^^;;

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: The Smiths - What Difference Does It Make?