| things im thankful for today |
[02 Mar 2002|02:43am] |
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savage garden ~promises~ |
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~guys with sexy voices.. like joe
~sleeping til noon
~picking up my bible and finding just the right verse
~my sister knowing when im upset and making me laugh
~soft kitties
~high fidelity
~dill pickles
~knowing it will all seem better tomorrow
~chris caraba
~making the right choice in a stressful situation
~finishing a rough draft
~a random guy telling me I looked beautiful
wow.. I came up with a lot to be thankful for today. I find that on days like today I seem to find a lot of negative things to talk about, and im beginning to believe im putting out some bad karma. So... My new thing.. be thankful.. lets see how long it lasts.
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[01 Mar 2002|06:09pm] |
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I love sleeping in...
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[28 Feb 2002|01:25am] |
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dashboard on tv... nooo...... |
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home work sucks..
my head hurts
i haven't finished my essay yet
and dashboard confessional is on conan o'brian.
whats the world coming too??
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[28 Feb 2002|12:26am] |
it took me two hours to get to school today.. grr...
we really need to fix my parents car.. the bus sucks
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| God loves me.. and he proved it today.. |
[26 Feb 2002|02:56pm] |
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the sound of my own humming |
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Ok, see the funniest thing happend to me on the way to school today.. well, actualy it wasnt funny at all, but I digress. Strangly my parents car died sometime last night between 7pm and 7am. so my poor daddy had to take the bus to work, and my mom had to drive my sister and I too school.. I really hope everything works out, we really need that piece o'shit to keep working for just a little bit longer. the problem is this, my sister WILL NOT get ready in time.. I tell her a hundred times what time we have to leave, and give her several warnings as to the approaching deadlines.. but it never works... anyway... we left the house much later than we should have, giving me about 20 minutes to get to school and then to my class... when it takes a half hour alone to drive there. I was very worried because of all days this is the worst day to be late. I have a very kind, but anal retentive teacher that will put up with anything and everything BUT being late. To say the least I was mad, upset, irritated, and tired.. the good part is this.. my mommy cheered me up by cracking the lamest jokes, my teacher was ten minutes late so i made it before her, and the paper I totally blanked on (that was due today) can be covered by my "freebie" as my teacher likes to call it.
*whew*
Suddenly the sun looks brighter, and the smile has returned to my face... Life is ok, and I can handle the butt-load of home work tonight.
now all I need it come coffee... maybe Ill ask jason to make me coffee tonight...
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| oh my goodness.. I almost forgot |
[26 Feb 2002|02:04am] |
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Nirvana... come as you are |
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tenacious D is coming back to seattle in april... I want to go!!!
even if most of you will make fun of me for it..
YEAH!!!
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[26 Feb 2002|01:15am] |
Im eating a banana and dill pickles for dinner.
you'd think that would be gross.
and yet Im still eating it. hmmm...
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| graham, jon, alina, claire, bryce, and lailey's big indie rock adventure |
[25 Feb 2002|02:21am] |
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the D. Tribute.. in honor of the fallen tribute to rock tape |
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There was some general kick ass rockage done this weekend.. as of yet I don't think I have fully digested it all... but this warm sense of satisfaction does immediatly come to mind.
It was sweet that I didnt have to drive down myself, and got to spend time with some old friends I havent seen much of recently. I would have to agree with Graham that it was a comfortable, fun time.
having never heard the dismemberment plan before I was more than pleasantly suprized. I see what you were talking about.. must burn their cd's.. would be better if I knew what they were sayin.. plus they have an advantage, i'll never forget jon and graham getting on stage and showing their indie rocker dance moves.
death cab lived up to my expectations.. it was great to see them live.. Ive listend to their music so much. rock on
Bryce it was great to get to meet you this weekend. It will be nice to put a face to the name now. you seem like a really nice guy, and you the softest hair Ive ever seen. its freakishly soft.. DUDE!
Thanks for all the hugs Laily, A girl can never have enough of them, and you always seem to make me feel so loved..
So Jon, I was wondering.. did I live up to my now being cool? now that you got to see me for an extended period of time?
Graham, dude, you are my favorite person again.. I was able to get all the soda of my pants..
~~~~~~~~~~ENDS INDIE ROCK ADVENTURE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I have all this pent up energy that I didnt use this weekend for some reason. I really must break out of this shy faze.. I dont know whats gotten into me lately. It cant be healthy to keep all this to myself.. note to self.. work on the shy thing.. your not shy alina.. stop pretending.. Claire told me I've been like that a lot recently.. she thought I was depressed.. LOL! I'm happier now than I have been in a long time.. Weird... ok another note to self.. stop saying weird all the time..
I was a bad girl and I didnt bring my home work with me.. now im sitting here watching the repeat of the olypic closing.. and reading about transgenderism (its really not as bad as it sounds, its really interesting, I just can't consintrate yet).. shit, kiss is playing.. thats just nasty.. the guys stomach is hangin out his pants.. I have to give them mad props though, fifty and still rockin it in platform shoes.. I'm not quite sure if its a good thing though..
Ok, so I am taking a break to write all you folks, and get my random unspoken thoughts out here. This is becoming a bad habit for me. Instead of writing all my young angst and passions in a creative fashion, I post here. It feels like an excuse these days as to why I don't write anymore. My mom keeps asking me what I have written, and my sister tells me that I should.. but I just can't bring myself to do it. Sigh I have the biggest case of writers block. I know I have talked about this alot recently, and am making no steps to change. but it is really bugging my now. WHY?
anyway.. I feel like I was completely emersed in music these last few days.. so much so that I keep hearing the toadies run through my head.. or elliot smith or one of the other random bands we listend to. tis a good feeling.
enough rambling for the night.. thanks for listening you guys.
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[23 Feb 2002|04:06am] |
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I should be sleeping like a good girl... but im not..
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[22 Feb 2002|07:17pm] |
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im bad.. did you say two or three to meet up tomorrow? ack..
I havent done nearly as much as i was suposed to today.. home work..
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[22 Feb 2002|02:35pm] |
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I feel like dancin' its craziness I know..
I slept for twenty hours.. and I feel good..
I better take advantage of this..
Home work..
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| oh, one more thing that makes me happy right now |
[21 Feb 2002|12:26pm] |
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When my name ends up in someones journal.. even if it is a heads up that i should pay attention to the entry.. hmmm thats kinda weird... it just makes me so happy for some reason
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| THings that i am super happy about right at this time... |
[21 Feb 2002|12:03pm] |
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humming to myself.. if your happy and you know it.. |
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~i aced a test that i was freaking about for weeks
~ i got no sleep at all last night, yet i feel rested and energetic
~ its raining.. for some reason that makes me happy
~ i wrote my first poem in a year.. and i like it
~ old school alanis morrisette... aint that ironic?
~ my little sister, how cute is she?
~ my dad is making a real effort... god it truely good..
~ i have a test in about 2 hours.. yes i did just say im excited about a tes.. i am...
~ death cab... 2 days.. and i dont think i have to drive there myself *crosses fingers and prays real hard*
~ the great jog i had this morning.. i love jogging in the rain.. it makes me feel refreshed...
~ my good friends.. one in paticular.
~ and last but not least... huckle berry tea...with honey of course
thank you God for my great mood today..
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[21 Feb 2002|01:44am] |
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poe~ haunted |
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aaaaahhh.....
I have some scarey ass friends... last night I couldnt sleep and my mind was on overload so i asked claire to meet me at our spot in the edmonds dennys.. when she got there she brought her new boyfriend mike.. which is cool i guess.. but when we were driving around and they took all their clothes off in my parents car.. thats when i got slightly pissed.. i did not need to see the guys package.. i am permanetly scarred for life.. ugh...
today however has been a better day. i have gotten a chance to think things through, i got a great big hug from my mommy, and this guy in my religion class and i bonded over our mutual colds.. its always fun to bond over illness...
in class today we had this discussion about death, reincarnation, and why there is evil.. all from our differing religious viewpoints. i have refound my love of a good debate.
ok i have avoided home work for too long.. night y'all.. cross your fingers, i am kinda freaked about my test tomorrow.
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[19 Feb 2002|02:31am] |
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weezer.. lets sew our pants together (kitchen tape) |
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i feel so much better tonight all.. and it sounds like it is just in time for you guys to not be.. well, at least we can be there for each other..
as for the reason i feel better. i was going just plain looney.. i have been stuck in the house most of the weekend. too many things to think about, too many problems, too much home work, too much.... and i wasnt any closer at solving them. so baked cookies, and i told my oldest friend all about the above issues. im no closer at solving them, but i feel loved, and like i have a chance.. so im ready to start my week.. i think.
my sanity is back, thank god almighty my sanity is back...
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[18 Feb 2002|01:40am] |
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Beastie Boys.. so whatcha want |
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you'd be so proud of me...
I worked real hard today.. even though i slept through my alarm and missed church today... I got all the cooking that we needed for the week done and ready for later. including salads... yeah for me...
you know my life is pretty boring when i stay home. eh..
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[17 Feb 2002|10:50pm] |
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hey jon i was just thinkin.. did you still need a ride to deathcab this weekend??... do we know whos goin? and whos drivin? do we want to carpool together.. to save the getting lost factor.
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[17 Feb 2002|04:22pm] |
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how scarey.. i am talking to an old friend of mine about getting help for her depression and eating problems... its hard because shes almost fourty and im afraid she wont take me seriously.. if your the prayin type you might pray for her.. im really worried. i have never seen her like this before
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[16 Feb 2002|10:45pm] |
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poe... spanish doll |
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I took a big step tonight...
I finished most of my application for college tonight.
now only to do my essays..
please be proud of me.. this is scarey stuff.
oh, my sister and john look awfully cute, they went to a 50's swing dance.. they got all dressed up, kari as an innocent little school girl... john with the tight pants, greased hair, and funky "rivers" style glasses. so cute.
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bitchy
