Current mood:	blank
Current music:	elmo's world (joey's watching tv)

!@#$%^&*
everyone and everything is fucked up. cassie feels the same way as i do about a lot of things. i emailed her and was telling her everything. she is like.. the only one who understands, and will listen. yesterday when brandy, candy and i were outside of town perk i started bawling. brandy tried making me laugh, and i did. but it didn't make me feel better. i think i needed to cry.. well now brandy hates everyone and thinks no one understands her anymore. candy.. i don't know. i never know, she's my best friend and i don't know what's wrong. i wish i could make everyone feel better about themselves, and everything.. but i can't even help myself. for me, everything bad started happening when i sprained my ankle. i was fine until that. then everything i thought i could control, spiraled out of and beyond control. it's been bad since friday the 13th. ha. listen to me, superstious much?

'these last few weeks
i've been confused
sometimes i wonder
if i'm better off alone'


i took that from erin's profile :x i don't know what it is, but it sounds familiar. maybe i'm losing it, and it's just the way i feel. could be.