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Sunday, June 17th, 2001
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4:51 pm - first ever lesbian experience
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lmfao. bre, felicia and i had our first lesbian experience last nite. rotfl, it was good and messy!@~ [nah.. happy mike?] mike likes to hear about our lesbian experiences w/ girls from ohio. he also likes to know what colour socks and what kind of panties we have on. he's a very interesting, perverted!!!! person buh we love him<33*
for you losers who actually believe me, all that isn't true.. except for the loving mike part! haha. -grOin-
well i'm going in town to torture felicia and bre. byeeee<333*
we love perverted mike & his friend, kurt
current mood:  flirty
current music: what would you do/city high
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12:58 pm - whatever..
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well, i was in a good mood this a.m... i shouldn't have gotten my hopes up! lol. i can never be happy for a whole day unless i don't talk to my friends. that's weird. cause i love my friends buh then.. they upset me to the point of no return. i won't mention any names. i need to vent. they are being complete bitches. i accidently sent an IM to them, when it was meant for someone else ..and they didn't believe me when they i told them i was sorry! nice. don't you love how much trust there is between my friends and i? yeah. i know.. :sigh: whatever. i don't care anymore. I DON'T FUCKING CARE. about anything.
i feel pathetic. writing in here, complaining about my lameass life.. when there are people out there who have it worse than me. i feel shallow and conceited. i can't help it.. complaining comes w/ my nature. haha :x no seriously, i feel bad. :hides in dark corner..alone:
for some reason my tolerence level is past it's full mark today. i'm so irritable and ugh. i don't know whats wrong. i keep thinking back to the spring concert when we were looking at the depression poster. heh..
xo, bridgette
i love lifehouse & good charlotte<333333333* -grin-
..HAHA.. i went to type grin and i typed in groin on accident :x rotfl. GROIN!!!!!
current mood:  annoyed
current music: how do i deal/jennifer love hewitt
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9:13 am - girl, interrupted
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i watched the movie girl, interrupted last nite. i personally liked it a lot! the one girl.. janet, she's halarious.. "janet.. what kind of tree can you be down there?" ..i'm a fucking shrub!. :sigh: i'm such a dork :)
OMG! OMG! i just go tickets to the Y100 feztival! :dances around in happiness: lifehouse is going to be there.. and good charlotte! the total came to freakin 86.60 (that's for two tickets.. being mailed..bleh!!) ..holy shit! buh hell, it's worth it. imma look for train tickets too.. bc i wanna see them :c) well i'm going to go get a shower and then lay out again. i'm still pale.. (well, not as pale buh not tan enough!!) blah i am such a dork ..rotfl :]
current mood:  dorky
current music: motivation proclamation/good charlotte
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| Saturday, June 16th, 2001
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12:11 pm - qualifying!@~!
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surprisingly, i had a lot of fun yesterday. i went to the poconos and watched qualifying for the race on sunday. and omg.. jeff gordon actually didn't qualify and get the pole! haha :x even tho i like him, i'm kind of glad he didn't get the pole. who did..uhm, #28..i forget who that be :\ oh well. it was mad fun and i actually got some color!! that's basically why i went.. and the coolest thing happened too! we're going to be online..in a online magazine. they took pictures of us :) it was madd fun. on the way to hanna's ugly mug (a resturant..lol) we got a flat tire. that was halarious, bc it was pouring down rain and everyone was drunk. except me, bobbi jo, beth, missy & sharon. all the guys were. it was so funny. well.. i'm going to go lay out. the sun is shining and it's warm! my favorite time of year.. yay! have a wonderful day!<3*
-- bridgette [;*
current mood:  happy
current music: back in black/acdc
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| Thursday, June 14th, 2001
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8:48 pm - parting is such sweet sorrow..
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sigh ..today was my last day of school. i don't understand how anyone could be happy about it. i didn't realize until now, how fast my life is going. it's going so fast i can't keep track. a carousel that won't stop spinning until it reaches the end.. and in the end.. i fall off. that whole falling off deal, would be death in my view of this all. rather interesting, ay? yeah..
well i need to update you lovelys on what has been happening.. enjoy :\ btw this is only the interesting shit.
sunday: i went to knobels wit bre sunday morning. it was fun :) we spent practically the whole time in the arcade. why? b/c of GLUE! and this other madd cuteish guy. who, by the way was a major flirt. buh what guy isn't? anywho.. glue was a major hottie. we didn't kno his name buh all we knew about him was dat he put his loverlie black hair in spikes w/ glue. so that's how he earned his name :) and o0h was he fine! he had a tounge ring.. o baby o baby OH! rotfl. the other kid was a cutiee. he was like one of those..goody goody boys. buh he was speakin to us in chinese it was funny shit. yup.
wednesday: we had our field day today. it was fun. no classes.. goodie :] we watched remember the titans and then went to the park. i spent the whole time there w/ cassie. it was boring, buh at least cassie kept me company we saw jt there :) he looked so cute..agh! hehe. and holy shit a fuckin spider went down my shirt screams. lemme tell you that was scary shit! hah. then we found tiny lil froggiez and felicia, brittany and sarah were putting them in a water bottle thinger. they were so cute (the frogs..) they looked like.. ants! that's how little they were :) aww.
well..that's all the shit that happened that was exciting. plus today, the last day of school. not exciting, depressing. heh. then something that happened after school made me even more upset.. some of you know what that is. buh im not gonna bring it back in to my memory. sigh.. tomorrow im going to the poconos for the whole day. oh joy! cough..
sweet dreams. xo bridgette
current mood:  sad
current music: pop/nsync [gag buh itz stuck in mah head]
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| Wednesday, June 13th, 2001
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5:15 pm - dreading tomorrow..
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the reason? it's the last day of school. it's going to be horrible.. lots of crying ahead for me! everyone is leaving me :( my marie belle might be moving to scranton<3* imma miss her like hell if she does. she's such a sweetie! adam c. is moving to idaho :\ he's nice too. i don't want anyone to leave. dear felicia was sayin how she might haffa move to s. carolina :( noooo!!! i can't let her. if she does, imma go wit her. this really sucks.. and then a bunch of people say they might haffa move to central (not far away, thank god!) including me. if my mother buys a freakin house in the ccms school district then grr. cause my dad already lives in that s.d :\ this sucks. royaly.. well i'mma update on everything since saturday nite in a diff. entry soon.. mmkz? have a nice day
current mood:  disappointed
current music: killing me softly/fugees
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| Saturday, June 9th, 2001
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11:40 am - pathetic :\
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mmk i just got done making pasta salad and my aunt says the broccoli is too soft. i think that's pathetic..i'm sorry buh it's just broccoli! so now she's going to remake it. whatever.
so anyway.. i'm talking to my loverlie daughter<3* cassie! she rules bc she knows how to make a banana cream and that is a very special talent. cassie, i care<333 i loverlie you hon!! always and foreva chixee babez yo! rotfl. she duno how to pop a cherry buh she knows how to make his banana creeeam! banana is one cool person :x isn't he darlin'?? he's sessy.. ::cough::
well i know this is short and pathetic, buh i wanna go finish watching edgemont. i'll update soon.. love yaz. xoxo bridgette
current mood: happy
current music: mmmbop/hanson :x!
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| Friday, June 8th, 2001
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9:35 pm - humpitdy hump hump.. rotfl :x
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well i went to see evolution w/ paige, newby & garrett. katura and casey were there too..buh i let those two lovebirds alone to enjoy themselves. rotfl, jus jokun! so anyway it was a madd coolish movie. cept for the fact that paige would stfu w/ all her laughing! that was soo funny. she was the loudest person in the theater! i was like jeeeeze and newby goes okey we can stop now! lol. anyway.. before me and paige sat with them (them=newby and garrett) we were sitting in the second row and this 7th grader from ccms came and sat by us. his name's ben.. major loser! he jus kept laughin and we were like..whatever. haha. eww and eric m from ccms was w/ them too! i swear, i cannot stand him whatsoever! it's insane how much i can't stand him..haha. anyway, the movie was really good and really funny. i thought it would be stupid buh so much for thinkin!
when the movie was over we went outside and were talkin w/ marci and lauren.. they saw animal. i don't know if they liked it very much..lol. well newby was acting really odd..jumping around and being all hyper. so was paige! omg she was being really loud and was like >to marci< no, i will not make out with you! ..rotfl, iiick :x! it was rather.. halarious. anywho then i saw vikki's friend tiffany there! she's so nice..i didn't really recognize her at first and then she's like hey bridgette!..yep. so tonite was fun (for once!) i couldn't find bre so i just went in w/ them.. plus i didn't really want to see pearl harbor. i wasn't in the mood to cry..especially since josh hartnett dies siiiighh
love yahz! xo bridgette
current mood:  giddy
current music: bo0tylicious/destinys child
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3:54 pm - 3v0luti0n :)
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people lie. i don't like people who lie. candy (my best friend) lied to me. yesterday. she could have told me the truth, and i wouldn't have been upset. buh noooo. okay so here's the story (it's over a stupid shirt..ugh). so i'm in school and i see cassie.. she has the shirt i wanted to get on. it was the only shirt they had of that one, and there were only 4 shirts. me and bre were supposed to get the two shirts that were alike buh different colours buh that's not gonna work now so whatever.. okey anyway.. i asked my mom if i was overreacting and she said no. you see.. trust is a huge deal to me. i went through something that had to do with being lied to..and my losing someone's trust that i hope no one would ever have to go through. only a few people know about it too.. only the people i trust most. i'm afraid of losing trust in my friends, buh i know it is bound to happen.
while we were disecting an earthworm in science to day i thought of something.. i'm a perfectionist. i need everything i do to be perfect. that's become a habit. i'm always a pessimist. for some reason..i always think of the worst things that could happen. and they usually end up happening. i have a positive attitude about most people.. and hardly ever think about the worst things in a person until they lie to me. bleh.
well i need to get ready for the movies for 6:30. have a nice night. i might write when i get home unless i spend the night at vikki's.
<33 bridgette
current mood:  pessimistic
current music: crazy/kci & jojo
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| Thursday, June 7th, 2001
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6:40 pm - lost and confused
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i swear if i get another fucking porn email i'mma fucking rip someones head off (not really buh yanno sigh). anyway grr.. sarah<3* lost the elections.. even though she deserved it way more than mike. no offense to him, buh i think sarah would do a way better job. heh.
i don't know what's wrong with me. today after group i told the guidance couseler i need to talk to her. it seems as if she never has time for me.. anyway. scratch that..i do know what's wrong with me. every since sandy talked to me last and updated me on what's been going on in her life my heart has been slowly falling apart. i don't know what i'm going to do. although we were best friends while she was here, i feel as if i don't know her anymore.. at least i don't know the sandy i used to. i don't know what i'm going to do. i just don't fucking know ...siigh i think i'm going insane..
current mood: melancholy
current music: playa's gonna play/3lw
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7:16 am - g'morning
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bleh i am so tired. i could fall a sleep right here on my laptop.. sleep = goood :) sleep is when i forget about the world and troubles around me.. (that's a good thing!
i know i really haven't updated in awhile..and i can't exactly fill you in on everything that's been happening in five mins.. which is all the time i have. so, after i get home around 5:30ish tonite, i shall update and write about everything that's been happening. i haven't written in 3 days jeeze.. heh :\
well after school (5.5 days left..sigh) today sam, (candy, cassie, brandy = maybe) and i are walking to the elementary school until 3:40ish and then walking up to town perk until 5. then i gotta go to my dads and that's about 20 mins. away so yeah.. blah blah blah.
i'mma go.. schooooool! fun :x hugs! bridgette
current mood:  blah
current music: don't cry/guns & roses
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| Monday, June 4th, 2001
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9:21 pm - question of the day ..
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if i were to die.. would you cry?
current mood:  curious
current music: everybody hurts/r.e.m
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| Sunday, June 3rd, 2001
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9:53 am - ohhh the pain and the agony of it all..
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i wake up every morning feeling worse than i did when i went to sleep. i am so sore and unbelievably tired..i wish i could go in to an eternal sleep. no more being fatigued, no more pain. but no, that's not going to happen anytime soon sigh
current mood:  tired
current music: when i think about angels/jamie o'neal
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| Saturday, June 2nd, 2001
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9:01 pm - woe is me
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i honestly hate my life. yeah..hate is a pretty effin strong word but jeeze..it describes how i feel right about now. wanna hear about my wondeful ::cough:: day?.. good cause you're gonna.
so today i walked up town at 3..waited for felicia, cassie, bre and brandy up town. i lost $50..found it after i almost cried my eyes out. waited some more for them..then i realized they weren't coming. so i walked to my cousins house. saw mike there.. which only led to me feeling worse. i think he likes ashley but oh well..no use worrying about that. then i had my aunt drop me off at the mall..saw felicia, cassie, bre and brandy there. i told them how pissed i was..and still am. i bought a couple things..while they talked about their thongs and other stuff i didn't pay any attention to. i was too busy being upset. i realized something when i was there..now i know how cassie feels when me and brandy do things together. it's not jealousy..it's the feeling of being left out. but..for her it was just one of her friends.. for me? it's all of them. i have no one else that can relate to how i feel, who understands me but them. and candy too..she's still here for me<33 i feel as if bre is taking over my place in our friendship. i want bre to be friends with them..but i don't know. it feels weird. really weird. especially when i walked to chris' (my cousin) house and ashley said that bre was talking smack about brandy. i don't know what to believe and i honestly don't care. i don't know what i'm going to do. i wish i could die. i am so sore. my arms hurt, my back hurts..my legs feel as if they are going to fall off. bleh. enough complaining..i'mma go to sleepy. 'nite
current mood:  sore
current music: valentine/martina mcbride
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12:24 pm - falling..
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::falls of bridge:: *sigh* oh well..
the world would be a happier place if i wasn't in it.
i'd look on the bright side of it, if i could find it.
current mood: irritated
current music: happy face/destiny's child
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| Friday, June 1st, 2001
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9:47 pm - .. we will still be friends forever
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bleh. today in chorus..was rather..pathetic. i'm am so freakin stupid! ugh. i was crying..and getting pissed. mr. k played graduation (friends forever) and last year ..me and sandy (sigh) were crying. and now this year, since she is not here anymore..i started crying again. and then he played freakin never had a dream come true and it made me cry even worse. i feel like so pathetic and useless when i cry. gaaahhh. today was one of the worst days of my life! everything was frustrating me. mr. k saw me in the hallway and was like cheer up dear..i just smiled and walked away.
anyway..enough of the shitty depressing stuff. i met bre, felicia, brandy, cassie, wally, ray, and a bunch of people at the movies tonite. it was fun. sort of..we saw shrek. i didn't hear any freakin lifehouse song!@~! grrrrowL. oh well. i'll just buy the soundtrack, hehe! i saw this kid that used to go to my school (then he moved) wes..yuckie! he's not a virgin. so i heard (oooo rumors!) haha. and brandy saw devon (i think that was his name..iduno! haha) and he asked wally for his autograph and i was like dude i'm his manager and i don't allow him to give out autographs unless authorized by me! and he was talkin really weird and i was like why you talkin like that? and he goes cuz i'm sexy. rotfl..freeeeeeak. wally thought he said that he thought he was sexy!! i laughed so freakin hard. paige kept pushing me and tripping me. so i go to her..you wanna meet my friend, the door? lol. she was like nooooooooo!! lol. well i'mma go. i feel sick to my tummy ::sigh:: i'll update tomorrow! <33bridgette (a.k.a birdgooh LOL!)
current mood: depressed
current music: graduation (friends forever)/vitamin c
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| Thursday, May 31st, 2001
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3:07 pm - field final..bleh.
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today was our field final for science. it was at turners in orangeville. in a way it was fun, well the science part. then came kickball (eh..that was fun too) the relay thing (sucked cuz i kept falling rawrrr) and then volley ball which i liked. the only time i really liked it was on the bus ride there and on the bus ride home.
i sat w/ brandy and felicia on the way there, which was depressing..bc i started crying (once again..b/c we went by sandy's house. sighh.) and hanging by a moment<3 was playing.
then on the way home i sat with my cuz (he's not really my cuz lol..) newby. he's madd cool. i feel comfortable talking to him so i told him why i was upset and he told me things he was upset about. wally, david, matt and newby were talking about pissing out the window (throwin' it out the window. rotfl). it was funny. and what was really funny was that mrs. v was sitting right by matt! hah! on the way home they played that song..could not ask for more (?) by edwin mccain. i love that song so much..it's so prettily (as laura would say! heheh) :)
i'm so frustrated. i have no clue why either..i just am. w/ everything and everyone. it's not even my time of the month! grrrr. oh friggin (lol) well though. anywho..i watched some of the movie now and then last nite. it was good. i really should try taping my boobs down like she did (GRRR boobs suck. rotfl)
well i'mma go. i need to go to sleeeeep. i got up at like quater after 5. yawn. HUGS!@~! bridgette
current mood: frustrated
current music: the song that never ends/lambchop
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| Wednesday, May 30th, 2001
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3:11 pm - hehe :)
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candy, you are such a sweetheart! i love you to peices, so don't ever change. 100 muscles spasms aafe! lol :) you've helped me more than you know can-can babeZ! i'm always ..always.. here for you no matter what. lylas aafe<3!@~! bridgette
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that was for candy only..lol..she wrote to me in her journal so i only think it is right to write about her in my..my bestest friend! don't you wish you hade friends like mine? total sweethearts, major! hehe.
ew omg..today..was..the..worst..day. not really, buh jared told me scott likes me. yuckie! yesterday down by the creek scott put his arm around me and i pushed him away..bLeh. i feel sick. lol. omg my side hurts. mike kept poking me and pinching me in my side cause i said about him and brittany and ..his hormones rotfl! i love him though! lol..err??.. uhm.. anyway. felicia, brandy, cassie, mike and adam are my kids. lol..i know i'll probably have about two more tomorrow. they call me mom or mudder as mike would say.. :) i'm too young to have..5 freakin kids! lol well i'mma go..have a wonderful day :)
current mood: happy
current music: all or nothing/otown
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| Monday, May 28th, 2001
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9:37 pm - suicidal
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yesterday when we walked up the path behind craig mansion and back down west first st. i was bawling. to make things worse it was raining. my theory? the angels were crying. i've always thought that's what rain was. i still think that. anyway..yesterday i got overwhelmed by everything. sandy and her gram used to live on west first st. ::sigh:: somehow i kept getting stuck there in front of her house, since my mom and vikki and carol were so far behind me. i wanted to be alone and they kept telling me to wait. it made things worse when i looked in the window..no one lives there yet. there's still an oxygen thing in the window so that no one smokes near there. i miss sandy so much it makes me sick. i called brandy and i just started bawling ..i couldn't help it. i don't know what happened. i haven't cried that hard in a long time. it really..sucked..
today vikki was over again and so was candy. we were up at the bridge and vikki was sitting under the holey part (lol..) and i kind of..spit..on her. so anyway..joe, chris, and eric came over w/ me and candy to talk to her and joe told me she was crying. i felt really bad b/c i love my vikki. she's my best friend and i don't mean to hurt her. so joe walks up and whipsers in my ear to go talk to her..and he squeezed my shoulders. i felt like bawling. so i went down and talked to her..and found out i wasn't the reason for her tears. a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. heh. joe used to be one of my worst enemies. now ..he's one of my best guy friends. no, he is my best guy friend. well..my most liked guy friend (not that way). something like that. then me and vikki were talking about ..like.. suicide and stuff. iduno.. joe kept yelling at me for saying that. when we were over on the rock thinger he like twisted my arm cause i said something..i don't even remember what. heh.. oh well. i'm tired. so i'mma go sleep. (vik's sleeping over tonite! ..speaking of.. joe was like "can i sleep in between you two?" rotfl) see ya.
current mood: overwhelmed
current music: breathing/lifehouse
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| Sunday, May 27th, 2001
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8:51 am - where the heart is . . .
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OMG that movie (where the heart is) was sooo good! it's now my favorite movie :) last nite me & my mom went to carol & vikki's (bffae) & we rented it. coolish [:!
yesterday candy & i went to town perk. it was madd funny (lol..). the waiter/ess were all lounging around and were like all help yourself. it was really funny. ew then candy kept putting sugar and pepper into her italian soda. iiick. anyway..then we walked back home and sat on the porch. got bored there and walked up to luigi's to get a soda. we didn't want to go in to get one so we just got it from the machine outside. so anyway..there i was..having trouble getting my fricken soda out and this really hot guy comes out. he just looks at us and stands there. so finally we get our sodas and start walking back and he's like w'sup ..hehe :) candy was like omg what if he just came outside to see us.. yeah rright. then we walked back to my house and joe came by riding on his bike. he just got home from seeing pearl harbor. he said it was really good but really long, too (duude..candy get your mind outta the gutter!!) so..he comes back and his not riding his bike. he told us someone took it..so we go and help him look. really, someone just put it behind a bush.. haha! duhh i bet he felt stupid :x! then we talked and we walked down to (well near) the fire hall and this guy was outside playing his guitar and singing. it was ..depressing in a way. it was a really pretty song. i wanted to go see them play last nite at 8..buh noooo. oh well. maybe someother time.. ::sigh:: hehe :)
i was just thinking about how all my friends and i say like i love you to eachother. it's weird..b/c i know at one time i probably thought that was disgusting. i don't remember ever thinking that though..lol(goldfish!! haha candy, marie and bre..) well i don't know what brought that on..lol.
i'll update later. i have to get ready for a memorial day picnic thing at the park. happy memorial day (monday..tho..lol). - bridgette
current mood:  bouncy
current music: outside/the guys from staind :x!
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