[ |
mood |
| |
busy |
] |
Perhaps this is uncommon where you come from, gentle readers, but at my high school, it was rather expected to, when signing the yearbook of a friend or acquaintance, scratch off a little ditty in which you commended said person on one of his or her personal qualities, usually how sweet he or she was or how funny you found his or her wisecracks to be. In one of my junior high yearbooks, however, I recall my neighbor Michael Israel writing "you are wise beyond your years."
It struck me as odd then, as it's a hefty yet Hallmark-cardy phrase, and I didn't know the fella very well despite living down the street from him for the better part of my life.
I didn't ever think much of it until I spent hours last night shooting the shit with Marlene, my late-30s freshman friend, and having her find my advice and braingasms about Love and Humanity and Womanhood to be not only interesting but New and True. When you're telling a woman who has eight year old twins how best to get over a breakup, and it's not bullshit, you begin to realize that maybe you really have learned from your mistakes. Which, when you're questioning yourself and your place on Earth, is a very lovely feeling to acquire—that I know things and understand things rather well for such a young thing and that I am also perfectly comfortable with the fact that there are things that I do not know and may never know.
And I realized that I'm not leaving Reed because of the slings and arrows of the envious and the politically correct but because I'm a fucking Sagittarius (I'll let myself engage in superstition here, but only once), and, by Eris, I need a fucking change!
And that I'm still a happy person, and no jealous bitch or uptight hippie is going to break the rollicking, joyous, cosmic centaur that I am. I LOVE MY FUCKING LIFE!
|