i got into a car accident last night. it was really really bad. what happened was.. i thought i saw my best friend's dog, it was running along the street and about to cross the road. i was afraid it would get run over. i was in the second lane and ther weren't any cars on the road except one in the lane next to me which was hidden in my blind spot. i did a quick u-turn and it crashed into my side. i was broad-sided.. i think is what they called it. i can't even explain how scary it was. the collision must have lasted a few seconds but i felt like we were spinning around for a half hour. the car hit my door in a lucky spot.. it hit my seat which saved my life by not allowing the car to go any further. if it had been only two inces more to the left i would not have survived. i was in shock. nick was screaming in the passenger seat, asking if i was okay. i didn't answer, i couldn't breathe. the other car asked if i could get out of the car, i realized that i couldn't. my leg was trapped under the dashboard and my other leg wasn't working, i couldn't move it. nick, in shock, went out his door to open mine to help me out. when he got there, he stared at it with wide eyes. i dont know how i got out of the car, but i walked out, barefoot on the gravel walking along the glass. i went to see the damage, and i couldn't handle what i saw. i screamed and cried and my legs were weak. i felt dizzy and everythign was blurry and all i could do was repeat, "im so sorry.. it's all my fault.. it's my fault.. im so so sorry.." nick called the police and they came right away. the paramedics wanted to take me away. they asked me if i was in any pain and it was only when they asked that i realized that i was. my lower back hurt where the car door and seat hit me and my right knee which had hit the dashboard. i couldn't walk. all i could do was cry. my insurance only covered the other person's car. we went to the doctor's, they took x-rays and everything. nothing is broke, i just have a lot of deep muscle bruises. the door had hit my kidney, so they had to make sure there wasn't any internal bleeding. they said it was alright, but to make sure the pain didn't get worse after the third day or else there might be something wrong.
im in so much pain today. my ankle hurts and there's a big bruise where it was twisted. my knee has three big purple bruises and so does my lower back. i can't move my neck, walk straight or without limping, sit down without excruciating pain, or hold anything with my right arm. my ribs hurt when i breathe and my sides hurt whenever i turn or make a sudden move. i slept all yesterday. i've been taking pain pills and muscle relaxors so ive been pretty out of it. i keep thinking about the crash and i keep crying. i dont have a car or a job and i dont know what's going to happen. it's all still a big shock to me. the medics and everybody else kept telling me how lucky i was to walk away from it. a few more inches, they said, and i wouldn't. we were about to take my dog home with us, too.. but i left her at my mom's. it's so lucky we did. she would be dead if we didn't. im still really out of it and i can hardle move around to take care of myself. to top it all off, i started my period today so i have cramps and even more aches. i am lucky though. i am so so lucky.
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