Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in Christina's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 23rd, 2002
9:28 am	La La La Today is going pretty well. Jared dumped me yesterday. I feel wonderful about that. I am never going out with another guy again. Ok ... for u people that know me ... thats a down right lie. lol Guys suck fucking cock. I'm in Mrs. Wood's computer class not doing my work as usual. I was looking through Cassie's journal and it is so fucking funny. That gurl needs a life really bad. She tried to take my ex from me when we were still going out but i made it clear that i wud break her neck if she went near him. so she went after his friend. jared and his friend dan are getting annoyed by cassie cuz she calls them non stop and follows them everywhere. That dumb bitch is on my last string and im just gonna end up kicking her ass. *sigh* oh wellz. anywho mrs wood is mad at me for not doing my work so i gotta go. PeacE Current Mood: amused Current Music: AFI "ever and a day" (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 6th, 2001
3:04 am	im worthless I found out today that my so called boyfriend asked out another gurl last week. He fucking used me. After telling me how wonderful i was and how he'd do everything for me. BULLSHIT. I fucking cant take it. All my life, people have treated me like shit. I am worthless. As you can imagine, my self esteem is gone. I want to dissapear. ADVICE TO THOSE WHO WANT BOYFRIENDS: they are not worht your time. All guys are assholes. Maybe a few are exceptional but the big majority of them are. They lie and cheat on you and they will hurt you sooner or later. It's not worth it. It's just another problem to add on. Tim ... if you ever get to read this ... and i hope you do .. You are a worthless sack of shit. I'm sorry I met you. You lie to get your way out of things but it just gets you into more trouble than its worth. I HOPE YOU FUCKING BUST YOUR HEAD OPEN AND DROWN IN YOUR OWN BLOOD YOU FUCKING COCK SUCKER. :-/ Current Mood: rejected Current Music: Bad Religion "Generator" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 26th, 2001
10:50 pm	bummed out Today was ok I guess. The morning went well. SChool.. .. not to bad. Im annoyed right now cuz my throat hurts like shit when i swallow ... might have strep, and all my friends including my boyfriend, Tim<3 are downtown having fun and i am sitting at home WRITING IN THIS FUCKING JOURNAL. :-/ *sigh* I wonder what else will go wrong tonite. I hope i dont have strep cuz this weekend i am going out. Strep wont stop me. *grin* I'm so hungry tonnite and i dont know why. I usually stir up an appetite late at night when everyone is sleeping. Eh, i can live with that. I think I'll go cheer myself up and make a turkey and mayo sandwich, mmmm ... so ta ta 4 now Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Rancid "sidekick" (Comment on this)
Monday, September 24th, 2001
1:45 am	Monday Toda wasn' to bad. Woke up sleepy and irritated this morning as usual. School went ok except detention was really boring plus these 2 girls behind me kept talking about who they are fucking and what not. Not the type of conversation I would like to hear. I dont understand how people can brag about how many guys they had sex with. I am waiting to see how many of them are still bragging when they are pregnant or get an std. Heh... Some girl pushed me and told me to get the fuck out of her way when I stood at 711 for lunch. Let's just say if my dad wasn't standing right there ... that girl would have been laying in a pool of blood on the curb. She is one of those people who are stereotypical. Ignorant Fucks ... Anywho, I can't wait 'till Thursday cuz I got the day off. Today is my Uncle Joe's birthday so a few of my family members and I went out to celebrate at Cafe Italia. Very good restaurant. Great food. Yeah, as you probably guessed by now I am italian. 100%. La Di FRiggIn Da. What am I gonna wear tomorrow? Damn this internal conflict. Well, Ima going to bed so ta ta 4 now ... (-.-) ZzZZzZz Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Rancid "Time Bomb" (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 23rd, 2001
9:52 pm	SUNDAY Today was interesting. Went to the CHerry Hill Mall with my mom and sister. Picked out a cute lil puppy we liked but couldnt afford it. If my dad says yes we gonna go back and get him. hehe Then we went to some italian place for dinner and stuff. Pretty boring I guess but interesting since we fought the whole time. About what you say? EVERY LITTLE THING. Who says families should spend quality time? They should be shot. I am not at all thrilled about having school tomorrow. I'm only thrilled about the cigerette I'm having before. *grin* So, anywho I found out last nite that one of my friends had a little crush on me and I liked him back so ... I asked him out and he said .............................. "YES" :-D His name is Tim and he has the coolest fucking hair! haha I love wearing his trenchcoat even though its kinda long. i'm debating whether or not to wear my skirt tomorrow but I think I look fat in it. I'm such a girl ... Well, Ima go play my guitar so tata 4 now ... Current Mood: drained Current Music: SLoppyMeateaters "Lonely DAy" (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 20th, 2001
6:05 pm	good day I'm suprisingly not in a bad mood today. I'm pretty laid-backed. I'm going to the movies tonite with Jared and Francesca and Nick. We didn't go bowling last nite cuz there were no lanes available. I was pretty upset with that. Nut I chilled downtown with some people and my dad rode me home on his harley cuz it was the show that nite. I'm trying to learn November Rain by Guns 'n' Roses ... the solos. Slash=Genius. *sigh* I want to be good like that. I play guitar but from my opinion not to well or well enough. I've been playing for 2 years. I have a red transparent B.C. Rich Warlock. Or as Jared puts it ... "Oh LOOK! I am so kewl cuz I have an evil looking guitar!" lol He's all about Ibanez. WHATEVER YOU SKANK. heheh anyways... my sis took my sweatshirt without asking me and I blew up on her for it. She tries to hard to be like me but then again ... who wouldn't? ha j/k. I tried cooking bacon today and let's just say the fire alarms are still going off. haha My stove caught on fire and eh it's a long story. i'm gonna go have a cigerette so ta-ta 4 now. Current Mood: high Current Music: "Guns 'n' Roses "November Rain" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 19th, 2001
5:21 pm	death is an option today as most of my usual days go ... was fucking horrible. I got into a fight with my mom, my dad, and my psychatrist. I have found out I am useless and I don't deserve to live. I realized today that there is no point at all in living. I don't care if I die. Hell, I'd be better off dead. No one would have to deal with me and i wouldn't have to deal with anyone. Life is one big fucking joke. The knife in the corner looks pretty tempting but I am fighting with my mind so I won't do anything stupid like I've done in the past. I'm going out tonite with a few friends to go bowling. I gotta ride my bike since my mom doesn't fucking care to drive me since she goes out with her beloved boyfriend every night. Not to mention running away on the weekends, leaving me and my sister alone ... no money ... no food ... no nothing. My grandmother picks us up to bring over her house and eat dinner cuz she feels sorry for us. I fucking hate it. Well, my mom is going back out tonite with her boyfriend as usual and me and my sister are stuck here without food. Guess I'll have to call my grandmother again. UGH I don't understand alot of the shit I have to go through but hey SHIT HAPPENS ... and I just have to deal with it. I don't deal with it in the best ways but I deal. WEll, I'm gonna go look for some food so my fucking stomache will stop growling. later ... Current Mood: enraged Current Music: REM "losing my religion" (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 5th, 2001
9:14 am	Today was pretty kewl. I went to seaside with rae. We went on those rides where you get tossed around like dolls ... good times. I ate to much cotton candy I think im gonna hurl. :-/ I had lots of fun though which was great. I gotta do this shit more often... mmm cookie dough Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "KiLL The Trendy" Sloppy Seconds (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
10:38 am	Happy 4th Today was pretty kewl. I had a bbq. ME and a few friends went to see the fireworks. We were gonna fight these kids who were messing with my friends but i couldnt fight them!!! why?? becuz i have a big crush on one and the other one is his brother!!! UGH yea, it sucks. Ah, well after this long day of events i end up with a migraine. All my friends were depressed tonite and of course that wasn't helping me at all so i got depressed. People need to learn how to be happy. I was there for them of course but sometimes i wish everything was okay and nobody had problems. The world would be a happy place where pink bunnies run hopping through fields of dandelions ... ok back to reality the world sucks and ya know what??? The people in it suck even more. eh, its life. ok im gonna go get some shut eye ... ZzZzZzZzZzz Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "Eternal Autumn" Forest of Shadows (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 3rd, 2001
8:29 am	yes we have no bananas ok...today was interesting. I hung out this morning with Nate and Britain. We went over to some kids house to bug him and he wasn't home!!!!! HAHA What nerve!!! Then I hung out with my friend Rae. Exciting eh? Yea, i would say so. That's my normal days. Tomorrow I'm having a barbeque party thingy for the 4th of July and all. FUNFUNFUN I'm actually hosting a party!!! ok nothing else really happened today that's worth typing down except when i almost got hit by a mini van....(stupid whore)....so i bid you farewell.....ta ta!!! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "A Single Second" A.F.I. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 2nd, 2001
8:54 pm	Today everything was goign great until tonite. These girls are messing with my sis and of course im gonna back her up and those gurls pissed me off so much... so help me god if i see one of them they are gonna get a fucking fist in their mouth. AGH....razor blade....sleep Current Mood: enraged Current Music: Creed "Torn" (Comment on this)
8:53 pm	KILL Everythinghing (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 31st, 2001
6:16 pm	GooD DaY Today was pretty kewl. This is one in a lifetime chance you'll see me with a smile on my face. I'm doing much better in my classes and my parents are over-joyed. I got the new STAIND cd and let me say one thing "BEAUTIFUL" music is my life it keeps me alive.....makes me take my mind off the thoughts of harming myself and calms me down. My band is progressing quite nicely i believe. We have this gig on July 4th (props to Chris Goley) and we are working our asses off to perfect the material we have planned for the concert. It's at the Shore Sports Arena in South Toms River (NJ). I stayed after school today and hung out in the cafeteria with some friends. Yes, you guessed it, we have no lives. I was walking through the halls today in school and this guy had the same shirt as me!!!! Can you believe him? Well, A.F.I. is a good band so eh, he's excused. :-D I saw the kid i like today. I haven't had a crush in so long. I found out my secret admirer and i was a bit dissapointed becuz i hoped it was the kid i like but hey ya can't win ya know? I'm so tired i think i'll go to bed now to prevent catching some zzzz's in class. I think i might have to learn something tomorrow. wish me luck. :-/ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: STAIND "It's Been a While" (Comment on this)
Monday, May 28th, 2001
5:19 pm	ok i screwed up damn it ant I do anything right....the entry below this is from monday "today" and the one below it is saturday just to let you know (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 27th, 2001
5:03 pm	my not so boring day Woke up to a normal day. Went over grandma's for a barbecue even though im never hungry anymore to eat food. Went to mall to meet my friend Jon but he had to leave early!!! DAMN IT JON!!! hehe hung out with my friend Jim and his sisters. Had some fun, bought some bracelets. Over all, it was a pretty good day. Saw this cute...no hot guy at the mall, almost wet myself. MY dad decided to race these dudes in this little 4 cylinder mercedes on the way home from the mall. LEt's just say my dad beat them by a mile with his manual cherokee. *sigh* my dog looks so comfortable on the floor sleeping perhaps i should try that. My mom found my progress report. Yes you guessed it, I'm grounded for a week which isnt to bad. Borrowed Meet The Parents from my mom's friend FUNNY MOVIE Current Mood: amused Current Music: The Offspring "Gone Away" (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 26th, 2001
8:27 pm	BorEd ok let's see how i can sum up my day in one word....BORING. Woke up 11:30 at my best friend's house (Francesca), got home around 12:30. Stayed home all god damn day and practiced for the gig my band is playing on July 4th. I'm the guitarist. The band is Twisted Dagger. I'm trying to write music for these songs we wrote but my mind is somewhere else today. Well burn down my house and steal my car!!! I haven't done one thing exciting today. I'm gonna blow up!!! Need my marylin manson cd.....good angry music for today. I wonder if squirrels are flammable.... Current Mood: bored Current Music: The Union Underground "South Texas Death Ride" (Comment on this)