Date:	2004-01-14 13:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	listless
Music:	"These Boots Are Made For Walkin'"

The only interesting news I have to report is that I'm moving to Missoula. I've put in my notice at work. I'm selling my car. And I'm going somewhere else.

This seems to be the yearly beginning-of-summer event.

(Edited)

It was a good year.

Date:	2003-12-02 14:12
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative

Woah. Busy-ness.

Been actually getting stuff done with the Health Dept., finally turned in some HIV tests for some people and I actually feel like I'm starting to make a difference with that. It's really hard to step back and see everything you're doing when it's only being done a tiny bit at a time. It's not really something I'm used to. For example, at MRPCo, my other job, I've been promoted to Office Manager, which entails a complete renovation of the systems we have in place in our office. Quite a task, if you must know. However, the things I'm getting done there are endless, and oh-so-much smoother.

I just got the last of my hep shots today, which is great, I finally got that out of the way. They were due in August, so a little procrastination turned into awaiting a solitary day off in my schedule over the coming months. I also got the iron/blood test results back today which turned out fine. No hemochromatosis in this twisted gene pool.

On the eighth there is an all-employee meeting at work, the next day I drive to Glasgow to see Keny, and then from there to Great Falls for yet another HIV/STD/HEP training seminar. It's so nice to be paid to sit and listen to classes about things I already know.

W(umlaut)nderbar.
Rock and Roll.

Life is
fine nothing
to write.

Date:	2003-11-04 11:38
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy

The massive amounts of Hallowe'en-intake are still ringing in my head. Three separate parties. One the week before, dressed up as a glam-rocker with a kickin' skunk mullet and curtain pants. $5 cover charge and all the booze you could drink. Dancing to all hours of the night. Party number two, on Samhein, at the Myrna Loy, dancing, bad music, mostly sitting around thinking that I should have saved the five dollars I had in my pocket for the trip to Missoula the next afternoon. Party number three, obviously the best, third time always being the charm. Kim, Bri, and I drove to Missoula to see Kenny and to go the the Lambda dance. Ended up hanging out with Mark, Brad, Travis, and Paul as well. First time I've hung out with them all at the same time in over a year. But the best part was Kenny.

Today, first time I've had two days off in a week in over a month. I don't even plan on looking at my phone or driving anywhere in the vicinity of the slave shop.

Date:	2003-10-23 12:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	giggly

Hallowe'en is almost upon us, my costume of choice? Edward Scissorhands. Booyah! This year is going to kick ass. I do have to work at 8am the next morning, but what can you do? Money makes the world go 'round.

Now I'm going to go use the excess on my VISA to splurge on.... 'JTHM' (and possibly some Squee).

Date:	2003-10-09 13:23
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	nauseated

migrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigrainemigraine....

It just won't go away. Three days now, I'm going INSANE!!!!!!! I keep thinking, oh, well, maybe my neck is out, but it's not, the pain would be IN my neck. Maybe it's because I haven't been smoking, it's not, I would have had a headache like this awhile ago. Maybe I drank too much, but I had two sips of white wine yesterday, that couldn't have been it.

I just need some fucking painkillers.

Date:	2003-10-01 13:36
Subject:	I have nothing of interest to report.
Security:	Public
Mood:	grumpy
Music:	Horny ~ Liz Phair

I'm turning down the assistant manager position,
My apartment is clean,
I'm going to work now,
And to the bar with Justin, Abby, Mel, and Lori tommorow,
I've only smoked 18 cigarettes in the last 5 days.

Date:	2003-09-22 14:20
Subject:	Back from the French Quarter.....
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy

The trip went well, the Conference was fucking boring, but New Orleans was awesome. Bourbon street was probably the high point of the trip. Got to go to my first gay bar and that was fun, danced and danced, watched the go-go boys, made out with some boys and left. That was my gay experience. The rest of the trip was alcohol, alligators (which taste really good), and voodoo.

I'm off to work.

Date:	2003-09-16 13:27
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy

I got a raise, both of my bosses at work are leaving (I might be ass. manager), heading for Lousiana tommorow morning, then back and to Missoula. I'll write when I have more of a life.

Date:	2003-09-03 12:20
Subject:	Endless rant on how I spent my Labour Day Vacation:
Security:	Public
Mood:	dorky

We went on a Labour Day Weekend vacation (Kim, Brianna, and I) out to Sandpoint, Idaho. It was a looooong drive (which actually only took about 5 hours, but it seemed a lot longer). Got to Sandpoint at about 10:10pm, and the campsite we had been heading to had closed ten minutes prior. FUCKERS! So we found a nice little RV park and set up the tent. Of course, we'd never set up this particular 3-room tent before, it was dark, and we were tired. So we got 1/4 of it up and called it good. Woke up the next morning to a dog peeing on Kim's tent, so we packed it up and drove into town. It was a pretty town, had a beautiful beach and even more beautiful lifeguards (wow). I was so incredibly tempted to start drowning myself just so I could get mouth-to-mouth. I didn't.

After realizing that the time change had been in effect since we crossed the Idaho border, and it really WASN'T noon, but only 11am, we decided that was the true reason the beach was so incredibly empty. Regardless, we stayed until about 2pm, wandering around this tiny town aimlessly, making fun of people, drinking bad Starbucks coffee, and checking out tourists (there weren't any natives our age, they were all old or had babies). We decided we'd had enough and drove to Couer DeLaine (bear with me, I have no fucking clue how to spell this particular city's name). CDL was much more up to par with somewhere that I'd like to live, but since we didn't know anyone, didn't know anything about the town, and were too tired to care, we went out to lunch (after ransacking the local dollar store, and leaving an 'I think you're cute' note in our cashier's car), went to the beach, sat around some more, and then decided to come home early.

I guess, to sum everything up, it was nice to get out of Helena away from everything, but it'd be nicer to get away from everything and actually do something with our free time.

Date:	2003-08-21 11:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy

Today is the first day off that I've had in over 9 days. And I'll be damned if I'm not going to make the most of it.

Todays plans include, getting my oil changed, buying yet ANOTHER pipe since the two I got on my birthday were stolen (that makes three pipes altogether in two months), possibly call and bitch out the car place for not calling me back when my O2 sensor for my car came in a MONTH ago. Going to Lo's to practice for the wedding, and cleaning my camper so I don't have to sleep on the floor when Sarah is here TOMMOROW MORNING!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!

Okay. I'm still alive, you all know that now. I'm leaving again.

Date:	2003-08-09 12:11
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

It's hard to believe that the summer is almost over, it's gone by so fast. It really didn't turn out the way I expected it to, or even wanted it to.

I'm still working the two jobs, it's what I'm doing almost exclusively now. I don't usually have time for much else. I try and schedule my other job around MacKenzie River, and fit in time to hang out with people/unwind in the wee hours of the night. Sleeping schedules be damned. Sleeping in is never an option because I have PEOPLE CALLING ME EVERY FUCKING MORNING! Seriously, if you're one of them, you'll probably die before the month is over.





"darling stop confusing me
with your wishful thinking
hopeful embraces
don't you understand?
i have to go through this
i belong to here where
no-one cares and no-one loves
no light no air to live in
a place called hate
the city of fear"

Date:	2003-07-27 00:27
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	exanimate

Finally have my feet semi-grounded. My last plan didn't work out in its entirety, so I have something new. I'm supervising at MacKenzie River Pizza, and also working as an HIV Prevention Outreach Worker for the local health department. I've got a pretty new car, and minus a few piercings. It's making me sick, almost as if I'm melding into a more adult world.

Quarter Life Crisis is inevitable.

Maybe I should smoke less pot.

Date:	2003-07-16 10:15
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy

Haha! They haven't shut me down yet!

I was just invited to an all-costs paid week trip to New Orleans!

Date:	2003-07-16 01:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

Well, as our internet service will most likely not be here tommorow, I bid farewell, until the next chance I have to scour my camper for the fucking phone cord that I'm going to have to start using for lame-ass dial up.

Date:	2003-07-15 10:02
Subject:	Up until now things had been fairly easy.
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent

It's this waiting that bothers me.
Any ideas on good spots to live if this whole school thing ends up not working out?

Date:	2003-07-12 10:18
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank
Music:	Bjork ~ Human Behavior

She's cancelling our internet, cable, her cell phone, and any other odds and ends.

Because we no longer live in a group home. Welcome to our residential area.

Date:	2003-07-05 12:35
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent

Coming home tommorow, having fun here, I'm still alive.

Date:	2003-07-02 13:09
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	Cell Block Tango ~ Chicago

The only thing that I've been carded for since my birthday, was to buy a 12 pack of Corona. I didn't get carded at the bar, and I didn't get carded at Lucky Lil's the other day. Normally I wouldn't care, but I can actually drink legally now! I WANT to be carded. I even shaved so I look younger! Meh, what can you do?

Right now I'm lounging around in Jon's apartment waiting for him to get out of work. As soon as he's back we're going to pick up some beer for Bekah and some more cigarettes for the road. THEN IT'S OFF TO SLC TO SEE MY GIRLS!!!!