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....jessica, chelsea, kaitlyn, savannah, and everyone else
you guys r doing everything for me that u possibly can...ur being there. and thats pretty much all i need right now.
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[27 Oct 2002|10:43am] |
while my friends spent the whole weekend partying n having a good time.....
.....i stayed home watching my grandma slowly die :(
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[27 Oct 2002|10:11am] |
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somebody help me
somebody care
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[22 Oct 2002|02:58pm] |
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I GOT MY CAR BACK
well that definately is the highlight of my day. ive been driving around a toyota station wagon for the past like 20 days ahhh im so excited! it feels like i got a brand new car lol
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| HOMECOMING WEEKEND!!!! |
[20 Oct 2002|11:40am] |
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omg this was now officially the best weekend of my life....i thought homecoming last year was awesome, well this year beat allllll the rest! :-D
so on Friday...Jess came over after school and we hung out n went shopping n to yorgo's n then we went to the football game against Dakota who was undefeated UNTIL WE KICKED THEIR ASS 33 - 21 :-D it was seriously one of the best games ever...the place was so crowded and me n jess got CV painted on our faces and the crowd was so much fun! omg that game was just so awesome! and then we went to big boys after n then chelsea spent the nite....
SATURDAY (the big day) - me n chelsea woke up at like 8:30.....n we didnt get our butts moving til around 10:30 when she went n got her nails done...then i went n got my hair done which i LOVED and then i got justins bouttenier....and then came home n got all redi....then we went to chelseas for pictures! everyone looked soooooo cute!!!! i love u guys! and justin did his hair :-D !! lol and then we went to dinner at Benedettos....i drove with justin in his dad's explorer which is sweet ....so then we got dinner and i got a huge fucking salad lol n didnt even eat half of it....then we went to the dance and we all busted a move lol we looked like idiots b/c we cant dance but i had so much fun n i love u guys all so much ur so great!!! *MUAH*
thanx guys for spending the best moments of my life with me :-D u guys r the best
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| if you aint dirrty, you aint here to partyyyyyyyyy..... |
[16 Oct 2002|08:49pm] |
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ladies....gentlemen......
Countown for Homecoming: 3 days!!! whoop whoop.... IM EXCITED!!!! It's gonna be awesome...being with the people i love most, relaxing, n just moving to the music...great nite!!!!
things have been a lil crazy around here recently...lots of stuff is going on in my family, and my grandma n stuff....but o well, dont wanna get to personal about that....me n my mom have been talkin more recently tho..shes great....i dunno what id do without her, i feel so bad about my grandma b/c thats my moms mom...n losing ur mom would be the worst thing ever
i just want *you* to know that i could fucking break *you* :-D so u better watch what you say n do
im happy b/c im getting along with everyone right now...its sweet lol...me n gary r kind of getting along, i dunno, i think we're getting better, which is good b/c i miss that kid...i just wish he'd be himself again.....
*we* miss you gary
well i gotta go study some more AP psych...i swear if i fail another AP test...im gonna cry !!! :(
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[12 Oct 2002|12:13am] |
suddenly too weak to dream,
shattered in my bedroom,
drowning out by walls and sheets,
silently i scream
but im screaming at you
when it echoes out loud
im the so called friend
you can do without
so pull this knife out of my back,
and get on with your life,
this drawn out act of kindness is growing so old.
and dont act so smart,
cuz i see through your lies,
a poor excuse for a best friend. but i dont need you anymore.
~Written by Jeff
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[29 Sep 2002|09:47pm] |
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ahhh chelsea, big toe! lol
wow im in a great mood...im not quite sure why, but it feels great!!!!!
i miss u chelsea, u'r a working woman now so i never get to see u :( u r missed!!!!!! come baaaaaaaaack!!!
ok so here r my goals for the week:
1. See old friends
2. actually study for psych
3. get to see chelsea
4. make justin n rob go with me n chelsea to homecoming
ok i guess 4 things isnt very much....but the number one thing is to STAY THIS HAPPY b/c DAMN it feels good! (to be a gangsta) lol im retarded
haha whoooooooooooo
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[28 Sep 2002|10:00pm] |
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to my dad:
Hey dad
I?m writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart
are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we?re all right?
but we?re all right
we?re all right
chorus:
it?s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren?t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother?s heart
you broke your children for life
it?s not ok,
but we?re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I?m writing just to let you know that I?m still alive
the days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there?s things I?ll take, to my grave
but I?m okay
I?m okay
chorus:
it?s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren?t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother?s heart
you broke your children for life
it?s not ok,
but we?re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I?m writing just to let you know that I?m still alive
yeah, I?m still alive
sometimes?
I forgive
yeah and this time
I?ll admit
that I miss you, said I miss you
Chorus:
it?s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren?t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother?s heart
you broke your children for life
it?s not ok,
but we?re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I?m writing just to let you know that were still alive
and sometimes
I forgive
and this time
I?ll admit, that I miss you, miss you
hey dad
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[28 Sep 2002|05:48pm] |
How Will You Die?
i bet no one wants to drive with me ne more :(
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[28 Sep 2002|05:33pm] |
What's YOUR Inner Hair Color?
i wouldn't really say im sweet n perky....lol but i guess the rest fits!
1.FULL name: Diana Christine
2.nicknames: Laroccamania, fufu didi, di, d
3.where do you live: clinton twp
4.birthdate: 1/11/86
5.astrological sign: capricorn
6.school: cvhs
7.hobbies: hangin out
8.sports that you play/enjoy: hockey and football
9.height:5'5
10.weight: ha right
11.shoe size:9 - 9 1/2
12.right or lefty: righty...or both depending on what im doing
*What....*
1. What do you think of the way you look?: good enuff for me, but not excepted by ne one else
2. What do you think about your attitude?: happy right now...who knows how long it'll last
3. What do you think about life after death?: i think u go to heaven, but there is no proof of that...i guess thats why u just gotta believe
4. What do you think about karma?: eh not true
5. What do you think about love?: great thing, but very painful
6. What do you think about fate?: like they said in cant hardly wait....it will only take u so far, the rest is up to u
7. What do you think about your self?: i like myself
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: i tell myself that i know the next day its all gonna be ok again
9. What would you give your life for?: my friends and family
10. What do you think about your first love?: best feeling ever....but very painful
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: great guy...hard to get along with
12. What are you scared of?: not having true friends
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: knowing you're happier without me
14. What would life be without friends?itd be nonexistant
15. Without family?: id have no where to live
*The Dream Side of You*
1.Do you dream a lot at night?:yea but i dont remember it
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: color
3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: id rather not
4.Where is your dream make out spot?: my bed..its comfy
5.What is your dream kiss like?: a kiss where u just get that feeling that shoots thru ur whole body
6.What is your dream job?: something where i get alot of money.....actually i wanna help people
7.Where is your dream house?: a hugeeeee house with a 382348 car garage and a swimming pool on the balcony part and lots of expensive toys ( that was chelseas answer, i was just wondering what kind of toys she was talkin about....YOUR SICK lol)
8.Where is your dream vacation?: cancun with jess n chelsea....
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: at first i answered no to this...then i thought about it....and yes i think dreams have to do with ur soul, b/c they come from ur innermost thoughts...
*Family*
1.Parents names: Debbie & Joe
2.Do you live with both of them?: nope
3.Any siblings?: tony
4.Do you get along with your siblings?: normally not
5.Do you get along with your parents?: pretty good with my mom....dotn even talkt o my dad
*Do you...*
1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: this one
2.Do you keep an organizer?: school agenda
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?:nope...u gotta really know someone to love them
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: yea...maybe they dont end up finding them...but they are out there
5.The Traditional god? yes
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: yea...you can do whatever u put ur mind to
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: yes
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: sometimes
9.Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes i dont....but deep down i know i really do
10.Do you shower daily?: lol yes
11.Do you like this survey so far?: eh im still bored
12.Do you like the person that sent you this/posted this?: uhh i stole it from chelsea lol so yes i do
13.Do you cry easily?: sometimes
14.Do you believe in Heaven?:yep
15.Do you believe in hell?: yea
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: ?!?!?!?
*Favorites*
1.favorite day of the week: saturday
2.favorite ice-cream: cookie dough
3.favorite movies: wow wayyyyy to many to name
4.favorite actors: freddie lol...
5.favorite actresses: Julia Roberts and Julia Stiles
6.favorite quote: "laugh and the world laughs with you...cry and you cry alone"
7.favorite song(s): our lady peace - life
8.favorite music groups: blink 182, green day, good charlotte, no doubt
9.favorite music singers: avril lavigne
10.favorite holiday: christmas
11.favorite season: fall
12.favorite colors: blue
13.favorite flowers: daisies
14.favorite book: a child called it
15.favorite school subject: motivational psycholoy
*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball:tigers suck
2.Jeff: hot
3.Dog: PUPPY!!
4.Warm apple pie: dick...haha ewww
5.Socks: FEEEEEET!!
6.Fish: mr fluegge's invisible fish
7.Nail: wood
8.Amanda: bitch
9.Swimming: boys swimming lmao
10.Bologna: ewwww spinal cords and brains
11.Giant Eagle: american eage
13.The number 69: fun stuff
14.School: bus
*Relationships*
1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: no one
2.crush: dunno
3.where does that special someone live?: ??
4.things you like in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, personality, scent, heightl
5.when was your first kiss: 8th grade
6.are you a virgin: yes
7.the most romantic words anyone has said to you was: "i love you"
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: personlaity
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: ryan
*Creative Q's*
1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?:walk on the moon, b/c its pretty
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?:blue b/c it can be sad or cheerful
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?: something with chelsea
4.Would you ever share your heart completely with someone else? too many people :(
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: seeing, b/c u'd miss out on so much in life
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? w/ lipstick!
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: ummm....go to work?
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed :cozy bed.
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: being happy
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: im not sure....id sya the 3 people to thank for helping me r chelsea jess n laura
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully -kiss my neck....agree with chelsea
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood you're in? COCK?!?! lol chelsea
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: my soul mate
15.what makes you you?: my personality
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[28 Sep 2002|03:35pm] |
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ok well its been quite awhile since i wrote about what ive been up to. i got my cartilage in my ear pierced which is no biggie but it was cool for me...hmmm and since then i havent really dont much thats all that exciting!! but today, me n chelsea went to great lakes crossing to look for homecoming dresses...i got this pink one thats really really cute..i like it....and then we went to Eye Candy and they had a sale where everything in the store was 75 % off so i got like 10 shirts for $38 which was very very cheap, considering one of them was regularly $30 by itself!!! Then i got some cute jewelry from the icing and that was sweet
im in a really good mood today
chelsea works...and since shes the only friend of mine that cares enuff to wanna see me, i prolly will be sitting home tonite, but maybe thats good b/c i will be forced to do my homework
if any 2 guys would like to go with me n chelsea to homecoming...not necissarily as a date, just so theres more than me n chelsea...then let us know! we will pay for all of our own stuff, we just want some guys to go with us!!!!
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[22 Sep 2002|07:42pm] |
Ponder this...
If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep... You are richer than 75% of this world.
If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace... You are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
If you woke up this morning with more health than illness... You are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.
If you have never experienced the anger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation... You are ahead of 500 million people in the world.
If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or even death... You are more blessed than three billion people in the world.
If your parents are still alive... You are very rare, even in the United States.
If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that someone was thinking of you, and furthermore, you are more blessed than over two BILLION people in the world who cannot read at all.
wow i'm really lucky if i think about it
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[22 Sep 2002|07:13pm] |
The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others
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[12 Sep 2002|09:45pm] |
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How many times have you been
Pushed around
Is anybody there
Does anybody care
How many times have your friends
Let you down
Is anybody there
Did anybody stare
How many times have your friends
Let you down
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mind
How many times has your faith slipped away
Is anybody safe
Does anybody pray
Chorus:
Life is waiting for you
It's all messed up but we're alive
Life is waiting for you
It's all messed up but we'll survive
How many days have you just slept away
Is everybody high
Is everyone afraid
How many times have you wished you were strong
Have they ever seen your heart
Have they ever seen your pain
Chorus
She gets high, she gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week
And all alive
She gets high, she gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week
And all alive
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[11 Sep 2002|11:09pm] |
wow YOU'RE FUCKING GAY
i hate you
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[10 Sep 2002|11:27pm] |
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lmao
dude i change my mind CONSTANTLY literally. its nutz...with a z! i guess changing my mind isnt all that bad....i just learn new things about other people and myself every day. its so hard to find the good in people, yet i do it regardless of the circumstances, which im proud of myself for. other people may say that im too forgiving or just flat out stupid. but honestly i can see good in every single one of my friends....regardless if ne one else can or not. i mean sure, im sure i could find bad too but everyone has faults. i love every one of u....yet sometimes i hate you, but yea u hate me too sometimes. its part of ne relationship. i hate my family yet if ne thing happened to them id be so upset...same goes with my friends. all of u r part of me, whether its good or bad, or both..ur part of me. u make me me....and sure maybe some of u hate when im friends with certain people b/c im a "Bitch" then and sure some of u hate me sometimes b/c i flat out say how i feel....but hey thats the beauty in friendship. u guys know that no matter what i say or do, i love you...and id give up ne thing for u...
well i just wanna say for the current moment that i am happy
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[08 Sep 2002|07:20pm] |
dont u hate how when ur friends need someone, ur one of the first people there and u help them as much as u possibly can but when it comes to u having a hard time or u needing help they just tell u they dont wanna hear u whine and they dont help, just say ur bitchy.
thanx guys i appreciate it
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uhhhh
*you* make me sick...*you* make me wanna gag... *you* make my life hell... *you* are so fucking pathetic
hahaha u dunno who *you* is b/c honestly, lots of people do all of those things! so i guess they should be *you(s)* ooooo welll
last nite i worked n then went to robs with the gang - justin & gary + drew then me n jesserz spent the nite at chelseas and even tho we fell asleep early, it was fun. i love them 2.... my girls r always there n without em, id go crazy b/c of *you(s)*!!! GODDDDDD!
well then tonite im going to my grandmas to have some of her famous soup lol with chelsea...and then who knows what!??!
there r only a few things that make me happy in life:
1. my girls
2. slurpees
3. popsicles
4. being loved
5. being with my friends...the real ones
and everything else just makes me sick
You make me sick
I want you and I'm hatin it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip, I'm feelin it, I gotta getta grip
And it's drivin me crazy baby don't you quit
Can't get enough of it
You got me goin again
Baby, you got me goin again
You make me sick
yea.....
we'll i talked to Neil at work n he really gave me some advice... i love work sometimes. the people there r so nice and we talk bout lots of shit. his advice for everything was "you dont really need friends like that do you?"
hes right
i dont
which is why im deciding very very soon what kind of friends i do and dont need and im making a big change in my life....the only hard part is deciding who i need n who i dont...i do know one person that i for sure need more than anyone. and it might surprise some of you just b/c of previous insidents but yea...
wellllll this journal entry is pretty fucking pointless...so umm, yea...
one last thing...to the kid that commented on my last entry n said i was hot....yea he must've been talking about my icon b/c he couldnt know who i am and be telling me im hot b/c he knows me b/c what kind of fucking idiot with think i was hot? thanx jon
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