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birthday ...smuurrffday... [14 Jan 2002|12:21pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I can tell right now that my original plan for having my birthday alone would of been a better option. I wish I had a sign that said 'it's my birthday don't piss me off...'


one good thing so far, my mommy made me eggs and cheese for breakfast and brought them up to me in bed.

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a wolf in hamsters clothing.... [13 Jan 2002|09:35pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I'm stuck with what to name my new baby. Don't worry it's a hamster. I'm thinking Jaws, Snapper or Chomper. Cause the little shit decided to take a bit of my finger when I was trying to let her sniff me. It wasn't that bad of a bit but it did bleed. I think it was the shock of her biting me that got me scared. So now I warn her before putting my hand in the cage of who is the one that feeds her and cleans up her poop. I think threating her works or at least it has so far. I just haven't gotten brave enough to pick her up yet.


I woke up this morning to take Jen to Church. I will never ever wake up on a Sunday at 8:15 ever ever again. It was very funny going to this Church. It reminded me of a SNL skit. They had a band that had drums, saxophone, guitars and 5 girl singers and Jen's uncle played piano. It was just something that I couldn't imagine. I think that I have had enough church to last me awhile now. I went last night with my parents. Only because my mom didn't believe that I would get up in the morning. She was almost right. I almost slept in. The thought crossed my mind, but then I heard Jen's voice in my had saying, 'get your ass out of bed and come and get me ya freakin' whore.' See why she is my best friend. Well it's time for coffee.

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my day [13 Jan 2002|04:10pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

How is it that my birthday plans change because of my brother. I wanted to have my birthday party at chucky cheese, so I could spend time with my niece and nephew and that they would have fun. But as soon as my brother finds out that we aren't having my birthday at home or at a real restaurant he says well we will see and give you a call. Being the way he is, he won't call till an 1 or two before. It's just really aggravating me that I haven't seen my nephew or niece in a couple weeks. I was suppose to babysit for them, but of course as soon as I call to ask if it was alright for Jen to rid out with me and watch them for all of two hours, I get phone call back saying I wouldn't be needed for the night. Why can't any one in my family be nice besides my mom. I didn't want to do anything for my birthday. I was perfectly happy with just staying in and going out to the bar maybe later in the night. I'm still going to do that. I just wanted to avoid this.

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Just maybe... [11 Jan 2002|05:25pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | radio head- paranoid android ]

I think if I seem sad enough I will get that pony I have always wanted for my birthday.


Besides the aqua babies, my mom bought me a little hamster. Another name to think of...

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[11 Jan 2002|12:53pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I need help naming my aqua babies! Give me some ideas.

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Just another night [11 Jan 2002|01:55am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Same old same old for tonight. We ended up at Jay's. Jen was being her ravishing self trying to impress her ex. It made me chuckle I knew what she was doing. I am excited about elvis night on saturday at this one bar near us. A lot of people that I haven't seen in awhile will be there, should be fun.

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one of thoughs nights.. [10 Jan 2002|07:35pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Ever have one of those nights that you just don't know what to do with yourself. Yeah well I am there right now. I just came back from Jen's. I wasn't feeling to good and was getting tired. But of course we will end up at our new usual place later tonight for coffee.


I got a little depressed to day. I knew it would set in sooner or later. It all goes back to the job thing and needing something to do. But it will all turn around in time. My mom tried to cheer me up she bought me aqua babies today. They did put a smile on my face though.

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odd night... [09 Jan 2002|10:58pm]
It scares me that my best friend is making friends with my ex boyfriend.
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hooohumm [09 Jan 2002|01:16pm]
[ mood | okay ]

It seems like everyone is getting sick or hurt. I am fighting a cold. My mom got really sick this past weekend and Jen broke her foot. Other than that I'm getting closer to a job but no luck yet. Ohh well...

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My Stupid Mouth [02 Jan 2002|12:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | John Mayer ]

My Stupid Mouth

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change


Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon


We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong


Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one


I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me


Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now


One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire


Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one


I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me


Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now

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not another new years story... [02 Jan 2002|12:28am]
[ mood | thirsty ]

I won't go into my news story. Only because, its really not worth it. I was sitting there close to midnight anyway. All I really wanted to do was go out side for a walk and look at the moon. I took a walk around the neighborhood earlier. It was a really peaceful and neat to walk around and look at the lights on the cute little houses.
(this next part is not going to make any sense) Everything has gone by so fast lately. It didn't feel like Christmas, it didn't feel like new years eve. I wasn't myself the other day and I don't know what was wrong. I just did not talk. I think it was my quiet day. I could try to explain but it could come out all wrong. Just like everything else I try to explain about me. I know I am still trying to settle in and get use to things here again. I am just use to certain of things falling in place and they didn't just yet. They are falling into place, just really slowly and oddly. I get scared of uncertain things. Of not knowing for sure what I am getting myself into. Anyways I am a idiot, already knew that. But I think I messed up something before it really had a chance. I wouldn't be me if I didn't worry.

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grrrr [28 Dec 2001|02:31pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Red House Painters- Have you forgotten ]

I hate snow. ok I don't hate it, but it could of snowed on Christmas eve and Christmas Day. But noooo it has to snow today. When I actually really wanted to drive. If only it could of held off for a couple of hours it would of been ok.

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For the people who wanted to know... [17 Dec 2001|03:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Hope is not dead! But it was really funny seeing John kick the crap out of Bo for kissing Hope. The big thing next week is the truth about the babies real father! Da Da Da daaaa!!!! (that was my lame excuse for a sound effect.

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[16 Dec 2001|11:36pm]
[ mood | content ]

Why is it I keep getting the same response from people. 'Ohh I am so sorry...' 'Are you seeing anyone else?' WHY?!?!?! Do I need to be. I want to be single. Is there some kind of rule or law I am suppose to know about I am content with being alone. I just wish people could understand that. For the past couple years I have been bouncing in and out of relationships. It is what I need to do and want right now at the this very moment. I don't even feel like going out to bars or anything. I just want to do nothing. Worry about nothing, think about nothing. Just be content and stress free for a little while. I want to sit here watch movies and make christmas cookies drunk. And they are coming out very well by the way. We have 6 kinds made and tons more to go. I still haven't unpacked my car. I have been home for 5 days, haven't wanted to unpack it. I will be productive this week and do things.

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[16 Dec 2001|01:04am]
[ mood | thirsty ]
[ music | peter gabriel-- solsbury hill ]

Sometimes, I can not stand immature idiots. I just can not tolerate some people and their ways. I mean I know I can be immature. But to do things on purpose and to act like your 13. It's just not necessary. Sometimes people cross the line that shouldn't be crossed. Just frustrates me, and can't really put what I wanted to say into words. oh well...

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missing home [15 Dec 2001|10:33am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]
[ music | John Mayer- why georgia ]

Yesterday was funny. I woke up started doing my normal things. I messaged momo to tell about the breakfast food I left there. But then I realized I had no breakfast food here. Mad me sad. I looked on tv for that weird stupid dead people finder guy and he isn't on tv up here. So anyway, I go on with my day. I go to the bank and their are strange women for bank tellers blasting Brittney Spears Christmas music, it was really traumatizing, by the way the tellers were old ladies too and they were enjoying it. So next I went to CVS to beg Jen for a job, which I don't know if I want cause I found something else that would pay me more and wouldn't deal with people face to face. Ok so then it's almost one and I have to get home for Days of Our Lives or momo would be mad. Jen thought I was sick for running home to watch it. Well sure enough I get home start watching John start taking the computer chip out of Hopes head so she won't transform into Gina. And momo calls me to make sure I have it one. It made me happy that she called, I thought it was funny. I went grocery shopping with my mom and I was seeing all the little things that we use to get the for the apartment. Like havarti that Clint use to bring over, clementines in the same kind of box that theresa use to buy. After that Jen got out of work and just picked me up from the grocery store. Next was going to the mall from hell. I was seeing people that looked like people from Asheville, kind of freaky. Later that night we decided to see Vanilla Sky. That is a really spooky good movie. I greatly enjoyed it. The ending wasn't as good to me at first but then I thought about it and see how people said it was a surprise. The best part about last night was that it snowed! I haven't seen real snow for a long time and it made me happy and actually believe finally that it is winter and christmas is coming. Another weird thing, Jen was excited about me hearing a cd of hers. Turns out it was the same cd that Theresa showed me, that we all were drooling over the boy on the cover. Listening to it makes me think of my old home.

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yummy in my tummy [13 Dec 2001|02:23pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Mom's make the best hot choclate. My mommy made me raspberry hot chocolate. Makes me feel a little bit better.

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Can I collapse yet?!?!?! [12 Dec 2001|10:01pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Ok so I leave Asheville yesterday, thinking I just had a little itty bitty of a cold. Now I am feeling like a Big ol' hunkin' mac truck has run me down and left me on the side of the road for the other animals to chew on. Sorry for the graphic details. It was all the driving I did to NY that has left me a bit off. Not that I wasn't before. ANYWAYS! Driving was interesting. Tuesday night Claire and I ran into a lot of fog that was worse than driving in a bad blizzard. We saw a lot of pretty christmas lights. Our hotel was great. I couldn't believe how nice it was for a Days Inn, it was really fancy shmancy and cheap.


I miss my roommates already. It took me awhile to realize that I'm not going back. I have been rearranging my room. Its going alright. I still haven't unpacked my car. Going one step at a time. I lost my train of thought I will finish this later....


Ohhhh Claire I have your camera! Email me and let me know when I should drop it off :)

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its over... [11 Dec 2001|12:14am]
[ mood | relieved ]

Well tonight is my last night here in Asheville. I was sad when I left class and said good bye to a few people. I went out with the girls and neighbors. I'm sad about leaving. I don't want to. But I want to get home and start living, doing things. It feels weird right now. Starting to sink in that I am done with school. Makes me very happy that I stuck it all out and got through it all.

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party is over [08 Dec 2001|01:28am]
[ mood | sad ]

My girls surprised me and threw me a party. Chris and Roger even came and surprised me. I couldn't believe it. But everyone is gone now. Katie got a little sick and they rushed her to the hospital. I hope she is ok. I am going to miss them all. They did their job though. They got me semi-drunk and made me cry and really happy. I love my girls.

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