how do you politely tell someone they're an asshole for closing a job posting before the stated deadline?

just found out that they closed out the position only 10 days after posting the ad, when they ahd originally had a deadline a month away...

how sad am i?

Current Mood: enraged

talk to me...

leave me the fuck alone...

let me the hell in...

i want to reconnect...

i want to get closer...

i want to run away...

i don't know what to say...

i don't know what to do...

i don't know what to feel...

i want so badly to hate you...

all i want to do is hold on to you and never let go...

all i want is to be by your side again...

i'm lost without a compass, and even the wind doesn't know what to do with me...

i'm so tired i can barely get through the day...

i'm so sick i can't eat...

can't think without my head hurting...

can't hear with blistering my eardrums...

i cut myself shaving for the first time in years...

twice...

i want so badly to hate you...

but i just can't...

i'm sorry...

Current Mood: crushed

day started off with the check engine light going on in my car...great...score 1 for the demons

called the dealership and they said i could bring the car in today, ok...score 1 got christopoopee

called dad and left a message about possibly borrowing a car for the next day or so, promising to get a rental if it takes more than 2, and he agreed...score 2 for christopoopee

work went well...no major issues, and the kids were in pretty good spirits...got a lot accomplished today...score 3 for christopoopee...

my "rommate" (although i would like to use much more colorful words) calls to inform me that he is not pleased about me cancelling his AMEX, even though it is MY account...an then proceeds to tell me that he has cancelled the cable internet, which i paid the whole bill on anyway...score 2 for the demons

get to my parents house to clean out the room that is hopefully to be mine...dad picked me up at work and seemed pretty pleased about my follow through...score 4 for christopoopee

the third car at my parent's house won't start...score 3 for the demons

my dad says he will drive me home when he gets back from teaching his night class and then will picke me up in the morning to take me to work...score 5 for christopoopee

then he tells me he will have to pick me up an hour before i am used to leaving...score 4 for the demons

4 hours with the psycho mommy...starting off with how i am doing everything wrong in cleaning out the room...score 5 for the demons

i manage to keep my cool...score 6 for christopoopee

then going to the personal insults...score 6 for the demons

i get harsh with her, but don't blow up, and manage to put her in her place without losing my temper...score 7 for christopoopee

my mother is sent away but comes back to make an attempt to tell me that "this isn't going to work out...why don't you find somewhere else to go"...score 7 for the demons

i blow up...score 8 for the demons

i start yelling at her and again, but this time REALLY put her in her place...score 8 for christopoopee

now my mother goes away again and i go out for a cigarette to cool off (halftime)

my mother comes back down to apologize...score 9 for christopoopee

i give her the cold shoulder...and she begins to get passive aggressive...score 9 for the demons

she comes back so we can "just be friends"...aaaaaarrrrggggghhhhhh!!!! score 10 for the demons...

after the 17th attempt to "be my friend", i finally go upstairs and share a coke with her...where whe is pathetically apologetic and amazingly docile...score 10 for christopoopee

she apologizes again...score 11 for christopoopee

i managed to get the room about halfway cleared out: not as much as i wanted, but it's progress...score 12 for christopoopee

dad comes home and immediately whisks me away and buys me wendy's on the way home...score 13 for christopoopee

we bond talking about how crazy my mother is...score 14 for christopoopee

i am realixing what a great play this would make if i can keep on top of the dialogue and start thinking about putting pen to paper for the first time in a long time...score 15 for christopoopee

the car dealership already knows what's wrong with my car...score 16 for christopoopee

i missed their call...score 11 for the demons

i get home...and yup...no cable (but the tv still works, gee i wonder what he cancelled and why? can you say passive aggressive...i didn't realize i had married my mother)...score 12 for the demons

i am sitting on the floor in my bedroom typing this on dial up with no cord long enough for me to sit in my bed, so my butt hurts now...score 13 for the demons

fianl score: christopoopee 16, demons 13

guess i win...tough game...maybe that's why i'm exhausted...

night...

Current Mood: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

moving this saturday, december 4th...

need help...

will provide pizza during the midway, refreshments throughout, and beer to celebrate the end of the ordeal...

some big things...

some small things...

really not a lot since it's just my stuff...

god this is the first time i've moved just one person in 5 years...feels weird...

some heavy things...

some light things...

easy move...

almost everything is going down stairs or on even levels...

most of it is going into a storage facility, so no mess moving it in to the new space...

already have 1 recruit (i think), but could use a few more bodies, even those that are not-so-able...

sooner we can get done, the more beer we can drink...

let me know if you can make it, and if you have a pizza / beer order for me...

thanks in advance...

oh just fuck it all...

i could care less at this point...

i promised myself i would write and finish this letter tonight...

it's a lot harder than i thought...

there is a part of me that wants - no needs - this so badly...

i am putting so much stake in this...

am i obsessing?

am i giving this too much attention??

am i setting myself up for yet another fall???

fuck it...i don't know...i just need to get it done...

Current Mood: contemplative

just found out a friend of mine has leukemia...

ironic given what we're doing as a focus for project turkey this year...

things just seem to be getting better and better around here...

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

so i finally got off my ass to do some laundry...

i started about noon...

there was someone else doing laundry in my building, so that got things kind of screwed up too...

i refuse to go to the laundromat...

i had a little more than 20 bucks in quarters for a dollar a load to wash and then another dollar to dry...

there are still two loads of laundry sitting on my bed unwashed...

there is a load in each of the 2 washers and each of the 2 dryers...

and i am out of quarters...

that's how long it's been since i did laundry...

ugh...

guess i will have to finish tomorrow...

Current Mood: annoyed

just took some time today to go through all the pictures that people took for carnival...

there are a lot of great pictures...and some good oones of me too...only thing that makes me a little self conscious is there are an awgul lot of pictures of my ass..