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| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005 |
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"I could tell you my adventures - beginning from this morning," said Alice a little timidly; "but it's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then."- Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland I was at my mother's house for a week, and got home today. While I was at Mum's I was looking through my old stuff, and some of my books... I was reading parts of Alice in Wonderland, and this quote stood out for me. I thought some of you might read it and nod, the way I did. |
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 |
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posted to bus_unites and ljbus hi all. i was a member of the bus mailing list starting in about 1998, and have been on and off again since then. i've gone by sunshine, shara, sharasun, sharachan... this recently has been my longest while off, i lost my internet in 02, and never got back on the mailing list after i got internet back. i've been on lj since about 2000, and off and on wondered if bus had made it to lj, today i finally looked and found it. i do lj much more than email these days so this was a very happy discovery to me... i dont cut at all like i used to, but i still struggle with it sometimes. mostly its all just scars now, and what i really struggle with is looking at myself and the six years of scars. tank tops alwase drew questions, and now sometimes regular t-shirts do too, because of scars on my lower arms. just wanted to say hi....dont know if there's anyone here that i used to know, or remembers me.... everytime i come back, its a whole new slew of names and people, and the people i used to know are almost alwase gone.... but bus has alwase been a haven for me and thats why i alwase come back..... so hi everyone... -shara |
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x-posted to ljbus Hey, my name's Ariel/blackthorned/bt/thorned/whateverel |
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| Sunday, January 9th, 2005 |
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These are from my new icon community. For more, please check it out at www.livejournal.com/community/bk_icons 1.  2.  3. 4. 5. ::Rules:: 1. Please credit. 2. Let me know what you think of them, eh? 3. Please upload to your own server, so I can add more! |
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| Thursday, January 6th, 2005 |
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Uh...okay I'm all confused now >_> I checked on the boards way early today and it said that it was down. Now I check and it says that they're avialable and stuff yet I can log in and stuff >_>. Anyway when are the boards going to be back up? *goes through withdrawals, even if she DOES only lurk* (crossposted to ![[info]](http://library.vu.edu.pk/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/000100A/http/web.archive.org/web/20050122023038im_/http:/=2fstat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} ljbus
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| grandma died this morning. i don't think it's quite hit me yet... | ||||
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005 |
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I hope you all had a decent new year. I fell asleep at 10:00pm so... *blushes* I just have to laugh at the fact the i only sleep when i don't want to. <3 aimee |
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| Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 |
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| just thought i'd let everyone know that my grandma's going to die in the next few days. i'm ok though. she lived a long life and was well taken care of by her parents, my papa, and my dad. i also know she's been waiting and wanting to die for quite awhile, so it's for the best. | ||||
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| Saturday, January 1st, 2005 |
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my stepmother thought that whatever you did on new year's day you would be doing all year. if this were absolutely true, what would be be sure to do today? what would you avoid doing? i'm really really curious about this, so please answer. and it'd be cool if you asked this in your own journal; i want lots of data points. |
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| Thursday, December 30th, 2004 |
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Grandad's doing slightly better now :) The heart operation (which he was originally in for) has worked wonders, his heart's as strong as an ox. His lung, which malfunctioned is doing a bit better. His kidneys are a little better, although me may permanently need dialysis. His sedation was lifted a little bit today and the doctors said he could hear everything that was going on. He still had the oxygen mask on, but kept squeezing Dad's hand to let him know he could hear what was being said :) Apparently he was still looking pretty ill (which was why Gran was still not wanting me to go up to the hospital) but there's an improvement from last night. Doctors are a lot happier and Gran can sleep a bit easier tonight. |
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my grandma fell this morning. she had bruising on her brain and it started hemorrhaging. she underwent surgery a little while ago to relieve the pressure and bleeding on her brain but now they've noticed something wrong with one of her lungs. so i'm asking all of you reliogious ones reading this to please say a prayer for my grandma. as much as i complain about her, i love her so much, and i would really appreciate it. -molly |
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i just found this community... i've been on the list for over a year. So now even my journal can be bus-fied. have fun, kitties <3 aimee |
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| there was a major problem with the server, but the board and list are now back to normal. (crossposted to ljbus and bus_unites) | ||||||||
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| Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 |
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Bad experience: My grandad's in hospital with kidney failure. Doctors say he might not make it through the next 48 hours. Mum reckons if he makes it through tonight, he'll be fine. I hope she's right... |
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| Thursday, December 23rd, 2004 |
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Hey, I just wanted to let you all know about a type of therapy that is used to treat people who have characteristics of BPD or BPD itself. It's called DBT and you can learn about it here: www.geocities.com/captiveinmind I'm in it myself, and it's working in my life, so I love it. I also started up a msn group for those with borderline personality disorder. If you're interested, here is the link. We have a retired counselor in the group, who is from Scotland that everyone adores! She always gives great advice :) Anyways, here's the link: http://groups.msn.com/Captive Thanks, and Merry Christmas everyone! Love, Briana |
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| Monday, December 20th, 2004 |
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Hi, name's Natalie, and just thought I'd like to stop on the bus LJ community as I'm a member of the site. Just thought I'd say I've been SI free for about 6 months now, now that I've moved on to university and my mum and I have been getting on a lot better - she's actually treating me like an adult human being for a change, which is nice. University, despite the stress, is a very nice change of pace from the hellhole that was school, and I seem to be moving on with my life, not thinking about any of the old stressor factors, especially not the neds back at school. I feel a lot freer, calmer, more mellowed. Oh and drinking occasionally seems to relax me!!! Heh. I hope I haven't jinxed myself, and I hope I have the strength to last the distance!
Angel Clown xxxxxxxxx |
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| Friday, December 17th, 2004 |
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hi, i'm new to the community and thought i'd share my story ( SI ) |
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| Sunday, December 12th, 2004 |
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I'd gone about four months SI-free, and broke that by doing it twice last week. I'd forgotten how annoying it is to have to wear long sleeved tops to hide it, even when you're feeling fine, as they're still there, long after you've stopped feeling bad about it. It's just weird that they're there even when you're feeling fine. And my worse ones from four months ago and longer are so much more faint now that I'd forgotten to worry about it at all. Until last week, I didn't *feel* like a self-harmer, as I didn't have to hide. I don't think I'll need to do it again for a while. After the first time of those two, it still didn't feel like it was over, but the second time, a couple days later, sufficed. Green xxx |
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| Sunday, December 5th, 2004 |
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I'm not new to B.U.S., I used to be on the mailing list about 2 years ago. I accidentally "bumped" into someone on LJ earlier that I talked to occasionally while I was still on the list. I haven't cut since October, when I broke my five months no si-streak. I hope everyone is doing okay. Many Hugs Be Safe ♥ Kords |
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| Monday, November 29th, 2004 |
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| Quite unsure of what to say so please forgive me if this comes out a bit choppy. I have been a cutter for over four and half years. Every so very often I busied or burn as well. When I stared cutting surrounded me, I was the only one of my few friends that didn't cut. I cant tell you why I continued, I just remember never being happy, always very depressed. After six months had past and I was still cutting I told my mother. Since then I have been on eight different ant-depressants, I have seen at least 10 different consolers or doctors, and I have been hospitalized twice. But life has changed, though its probably more difficult then it has ever been I have been doing mentally better. I'm still cutting though. At least once a month weather I'm depressed or absolutely fine I still need to cut. I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach and it grows until I slice my skin. And it needs to be either deep enough to just barely not need stitches or there needs to be so many of them that I cant wear anything less then long sleeves shirts and pants. I am addicted, I cant not cut, and that frightens me so. | ||||
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