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Mar. 12th, 2005 @ 06:11 pm friends-only.
........this journal will now be friends-only........

not that i write much anymore.

anyone who's reading this and not on my friends list, comment and i'll add you!
i think most people are already there though.
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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 02:24 am :)
i'm feeling kinda: yay
music of the moment: elton john - tiny dancer

:)

just :D

yesterday and today were two all-around wonderful days.
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Mar. 6th, 2005 @ 01:44 am sleep would be good about now
i'm feeling kinda: sleepy
music of the moment: sheryl crow - strong enough

so i keep getting the urge to actually update, but i open up livejournal and then am like "ehhh......"

umd posted the course schedule for fall 05, so i checked out the classes i want to take. bad/good.
( rant rant rant )

it's so cute because 4 delta gammas are dating/hooking up with guys in zeta psi and we keep running into each other at their house...last time i was there, flower called me and was like "are you at zeta psi?" and i said yes and she goes "so am i!!" so i ran downstairs to the 2nd floor and found her in her chris (chris g.)'s room and we snuggled up and watched full house while my chris (chris m.) came down and did stupid boy stuff with chris g. and some other guy. :) yay.
they (the chrises) and a few other brothers and all their pledges went to visit the zeta psi chapter at UNC this weekend. since chris & i have been hanging out every day since we met (yes, lame, i know) it's been kind of weird. but they'll be back tomorrow. probably still hungover from drinking the entire weekend, too. :P

speaking of chrises, i saw chris hurst in the dining hall this morning (well it was like 1 pm, but i was getting breakfast) with geffen and they were going to the lacrosse game. i would like to go to one of those but it's a pretty far walk sooooooo yea.

i feel like my schedule is so busy, but i still have a lot of free time which is good.

( things i'm looking forward to: )

( things i'm NOT looking forward to: )


tonight i was productive and did an abs tape with hadass (my awesome roomie). i did not, however, study for my history exam tuesday, finish my application to be a tour guide (which i want to turn in monday), or do laundy (guess that'll be for tomorrow).

okay i think that's enough for now....
leave comments because this girl is stressed and needs some love!!

-xo-

p.s. don't talk to me about the terps losing...i really don't care about it all that much, and the fact that i have to listen to you analyze it bothers me more than the fact they lost. :P
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Mar. 4th, 2005 @ 10:28 pm and the winner is.....
i'm feeling kinda: silly
music of the moment: the beatles - eight days a week

beth wins!!
she got 4 of the false ones right.
everyone else got 3 right, so good job to all! :)

( the correct answers )

yeaaaaa i don't feel like really updating. if you wanna know what's been going on recently, IM me and ask. :P

-xo-
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Mar. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:21 pm stolen from bonsteel
i'm feeling kinda: happy
music of the moment: big & rich - save a horse, ride a cowboy

( because i'm bored and don't go to history for another 35 minutes )

go to it!! :)

-xo-
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Feb. 28th, 2005 @ 09:42 pm somewhat in reference to the last post which i have now deleted
i'm feeling kinda: content
music of the moment: keane - your eyes open

so what are the chances that out of all the frat boys at UMD (and all the non-band boys, really), i turn out to be hooking up with the one who's in DCI?!
his name is chris (m). he plays the baritone. this will be his 4th summer marching with the boston crusaders. he has some AMAZING pictures & video that he showed me yesterday.

hahaha. go figure. i didn't even know this when i met him, i found out completely randomly later. i know it's stupid to even have this much to say about it but the complete fact that there are like 4 guys at UMD that do drum corps and 3 are in the band and i found the other one without even realizing it....it's just so weird!! lol.

okay enough about that. if you want more amazement on my part, feel free to IM me and we can amaze together.


so we had classes cancelled on thursday and today because of "snow"...thursday it didn't really snow. and today it is now but it wasn't earlier. so i don't know what's up with that but it gave me 2 extra days to not get any work done. :P

warning to my high school friends: you THINK you will get work done in college. "oh my gosh you only go to class for like 3 or 4 hours a day?! it must be so easy to get all your work done!!!" yeaaaaaaaa it doesn't happen that way. really. even if you're a good worker. haha.

i keep being gladder that chris hurst is here at UMD.....i wish i had gotten to know him better in high school. him & geffen (hi geffen!!! mwah) are so cute together and seeing him happy with her is just awesome.

i love my DG sisters. i'm so excited to move into the house next year and get to be around everyone all the time. and live with wendy. :D she'll be an awesome roommate.

i'm going to try out to be a tour guide. right now i host prospective students overnight and i speak at the honors info sessions on open house days......and i love doing that so i think being a tour guide would be a lot of fun. i get to talk and get exercise and show off my school. so hopefully i can do that!! :)

ok enough happy lameness from me. i love the fact that i'm in a good mood and hate the fact that i'm completely ignoring the paper i have to write. oh well.

i'm out. pray for no school again tomorrow!! :)

-xo-

p.s. so my dorm is shaped like an L. and my room is in the inner corner part where the wings meet. and i'm on the third floor, which is basically built into the roof (we have the slopey window-side ceilings, if that makes sense). and every hour or so there's like a minor avalanche where the snow gathered up in the corner all crashes to the ground and as it falls it makes loud rumbly noises.
quite frightening.
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Feb. 26th, 2005 @ 02:28 am
OPS!! I CALL D HIM!
i wasn tsupoed to do taht.


im not veyr good at nkot atalkin to him,

he dioesnt lik e it whrn u drinj.
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Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 02:25 pm feeling generous?
feeling generous? want to make a donation to help fight cancer?

my sorority, delta gamma, is participating in relay for life here at school and i'm part of our team!

every dollar counts. we've all lost friends and family members to cancer, so here's your chance to make a difference. support me, the delta gamma team, the university of maryland, and the world in finding a cure for cancer.

my donations page

thank youuuuuuuuuu :)
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Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 12:01 pm
i'm feeling kinda: content
music of the moment: josh groban - to where you are

so classes were cancelled today.....because it's like flurrying. nothing is even sticking to the roads. apparently there was supposed to be a big winter storm coming through. i think it missed us and went further east; mom called and told me that it was like a blizzard, and schools were closing at 12:30.

oh well, whatever. i'm not gonna complain about getting 3 extra hours of sleep and having the day off!

i've been sick this whole week.....i guess it's just a bad cold. i had a fever before, but the doctor at the health center said i didn't have a sinus infection. so i had to miss the 'walk of shame' party last night that i had been looking forward to FOREVER. :(

aaaaand spring break in ft. lauderdale isn't happening anymore. looks like i'll be sitting around salisbury for a week and then MAYBE???? going to new york to go shopping. with alex if she's available since we never actually made definite plans, or else with my cousin which would be fun too.

getting foot surgery (yes, again) on may 25. this time i'll be on crutches for 6 weeks and then in a walking cast for at least another 4 after that. so much for waitressing this summer. i'm really pissed and i have NO IDEA how i'm going to be able to be on crutches for 6 weeks. i can't cheat either cause then my foot won't heal right and i'll have to have surgery AGAIN. not like last time where it didn't really matter if i put weight on my foot. ugh. so i'm going to try and get a job as a bank teller or maybe if i have to go back to barnes & noble. i guess if i was allowed to sit down, working there wouldn't be as hellish. we'll see.

i guess that's enough bitching for now. i'm actually in a really good mood so i'm not sure why i have nothing good to say.
adios.

-xo-
lindz
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Feb. 21st, 2005 @ 01:37 am ...
i'm feeling kinda: better
music of the moment: billy joel - piano man

although everyone loooves my bitchy emo updates, i suppose i should elaborate on OTHER stuff going on in my life.

( well. )
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Feb. 20th, 2005 @ 11:15 pm
i'm feeling kinda: bitter

.....and every time i scratch my nails
down someone else's back
i hope you feel it.
well can you feel it?
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Feb. 17th, 2005 @ 01:18 am but i don't care, i'd be happy, if you'd share your web with me
i'm feeling kinda: sleepy
music of the moment: lovedrug - spiders

my valentine's day was bad; my valentine's night was fun. day was the usual: everyone else squealing about how so-and-so surprised them by leaving something in their room, tons of flowers delivered to the dorm for other people, etc. etc. etc. which kind of sucked. but i had fun in the evening; after the DG meeting, 7 of us (me, flower, sydney, dani, michele d, jen d, and sarah w) went to bennigan's for dinner. that was fun and very yummy. :) i got back to my room around 10 and hung out for a while (getting lonely again) and talked to nabeel and andy about the crappiness of valentine's day. nabeel then decided that i needed to be cheered up and, at 12:30 am, took me to wawa to buy me a pint of ben & jerry's. so i got mint chocolate cookie and he got phish food, and i was happy and it was nice.


and besides that, not much has been going on. danny came over for a couple hours tonight, and we got food at late nite and watched maryland lose terribly to nc state. i don't understand how we can sweep duke and then lose to nc state by like 20 points. wtf. anyway it was nice to spend time with him again. i'm pretty sure he's coming to DG's grilled cheese sale tomorrow night which will be cool.

going to DG for COB tomorrow, we're watching the OC :) and then HOPEFULLY i'm going to bentleys with dani and sophia (if we can get in and if plans don't change), and then is the grilled cheese sale. argh. and i have class at 9 on friday.........fun stuff. hopefully this weekend will be decent.

alright i need to go to sleep. parents are coming tomorrow AM to take me to the foot doctor in baltimore. yep, more foot surgery. probably this summer--woohooooo.

-xo-
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Feb. 13th, 2005 @ 11:35 pm duke sucks.
i'm feeling kinda: better than earlier this week
music of the moment: gary jules - mad world

so...as has been said, duke sucks.
my theory: the reason they refuse to call maryland their rival is because it hurts worse when you lose to a rival. they'd rather just lose to maryland than lose to maryland, their rival.

so, valentine's day is coming, and i don't really like that holiday much. oh well. i guess all these lonely, crappy valentine's days will make them that much better when i actually have someone to spend them with.

yesterday i went shopping at pentagon city with joanna. it was fun except that it's a mostly upscale mall so we were pretty much shopping the sales. didn't look in the department stores though; i'm sure i could've found some nice stuff for relatively cheaper in macy's. but we got some makeup at sephora, and some nice earrings, and i got a purple sweater with gold accents at guess.

there was a $300 dress at BCBG that i fell in love with. it would look amazing on me, i just know it, but i didn't want to try it on for fear that i would want to buy it. i need a dress for adam's bar mitzvah but mom doesn't want to spend more than like $200 on it. i'm using the "i'll be able to wear it for DG formal" excuse because soon i'm going to stop being able to re-wear dresses.


i am talking to danny again. i mean talking in the literal sense--we speak. same with stan. he seems very excited to be talking to me. this sort of weirds me out. i heard a rumor he was arrested for possession of cocaine....that would suck. but maybe he doesn't do coke anymore. argh. he was a really cool guy and i felt bad being all mad at him, but i'm not really into the whole drugs thing. yea.


oh yea, life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone.
that's what my problem has been recently.
the thrill has gone out of life. nothing really excites me.
or maybe i just haven't been doing anything exciting.
i hope i'm not depressed.
i think it's just that time of the year again. and that time of the month, too. :P haha.


steve goodyear just wished me a happy valentine's day.
or, to quote directly, "hey I know you hate my guts but I'm just wishin you a happy valentine's day".

asshole. leave me the fuck alone. i had enough of you on april 23, 2003 to last me forever. get the hell out of my life.


that's it. i'm out.
riot on, my friends.
-xo-
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Feb. 8th, 2005 @ 01:02 am guess who's back
i'm feeling kinda: okay
music of the moment: the beatles - let it be

i don't know....not updating kinda sucked.

without LJ, i have limited procrastination options (facebook, snood, reading other LJs). and i'm procrastinating right now.


i'm just really frustrated right now. i kinda feel like i'm not going anywhere right now. my life is kind of at a standstill and i hate it. i'm not used to just sitting around and letting things happen to me, and for once i'm doing it that way. but nothing is happening.

things with mike are completely and totally over. i'm pretty sure he understands that. like, he came home this weekend (home=pikesville) and told me that part of the reason he came home was to see me and apologize for what an ass he's been the past few months. HOWEVER, instead of spending time with him, i spent time with him, his mom, and his brother. walking around campus. mostly in silence. lovely, huh? i'm really glad he came home to see me. not once did he apologize. i talked more to his mom than i did to him. i have no idea why he couldn't have said "mom, thanks for wanting to come with me to take lindsey out, but i'd like to spend some time with her". and then he had the nerve to ask me if i was still mad at him. AS IF TAGGING ALONG WHILE YOUR MOM TREATS ME TO LUNCH IS ANY SORT OF APOLOGY???? wtf.

he is just so completely clueless about everything, and i'm tired of it.


*insert cute stuff about our new delta gamma spring '05 pledge class*

today was gorgeous. 60 degrees or so. ahhhhhhh.

i'm out. jewish history reading to do. enough ranting.

you know you missed me.
-xo-
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Jan. 29th, 2005 @ 01:28 am
so that was quite possibly the most awkward moment of my life.

moving on.
thanks to carrie, i have come to realize that the online journal thing is kind of stupid. not because i don't want people knowing what's going on in my life, but because there's no need to make it public for everyone to see. especially when it's personal stuff, and i do admit i was wrong there. i shouldn't have put the last few entries up.

i'm sure i'll be back eventually....any of my LJ friends i don't talk to on a regular basis who want to keep in contact with me, my contact info's in my userinfo. get in touch with me and it will be lovely.

but this whole deal has made me wonder what the point is, anyway, of letting people know things. they shouldn't really care unless it involves them (and they'll know about it) or it really bothers me (and then i'll tell them about it personally).

soooo it's been a lovely few years here on livejournal but it's time to end it.

-xo-
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Jan. 27th, 2005 @ 12:58 pm
i'm feeling kinda: completely & totally miserable

i really honestly truly completely didn't know that i posted any new information. i was under the impression that everything was already out in the open. you can ask him how shocked i was when i found out i was wrong, and how apologetic i was. i really am sorry. i wouldn't do something like that intentionally. :/




for those of you that part wasn't directed at, you will be interested to know that, as of about 30 minutes ago, i will never be seeing or talking to my best friend again. i have a feeling that the "talking" part of this will happen a little bit over the next couple days but i just don't want to deal with it anymore. he was given an ultimatum and i can understand that. and i will go along with his decision for three reasons.

1) really, that's the least i can do. i'm part of this mess and should retreat gracefully. or in tears, as it so happened the second he shut my door behind him.

2) actions have consequences, and if he realizes that he misses my friendship (however unlikely that may be), he'll learn that.

3) it's probably the best thing for me. i've been telling myself that since the beginning of first semester. allowing him to cut things off means that i don't have to do it, which makes things easier for me (although not really any less upsetting) and maybe i can stick to it. NO MORE DRAMA.


that said, i'm completely devastated. why am i the one crying? i feel like i'm always the one that ends up getting screwed over. he's the one who cheated, but i'm the one who gets punished.

so to summarize why i'm so upset:
1) my 3-year friendship isn't as important to him as it is (was?) to me.
2) i'm insulted by him prefering to cut me off completely than risk his relationship (that he's messed up) with his girlfriend.
3) i can never see one of my favorite people again. i mean, he even has his own category of music in my ipod. now i'll have to change the name, because even that is gonna upset me.
4) can we say "complete and total awkwardness in many situations"?
5) LIFE IN GENERAL IS JUST SUCKING RIGHT NOW AND THIS IS THE FUCKING ICING ON THE GODDAMN CAKE.
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Jan. 26th, 2005 @ 01:22 am what the fuck
i'm feeling kinda: whatever

**commenting disabled. thanks for sticking up for me, or just making your opinions heard. but enough is enough.**

so he cheated on her two (and a half) times over a few months, and he finally told her. and she doesn't even get mad at him?

and she has friends in my dorm, which i informed him of when he told me this wonderful piece of information. i'm sure i'll see her eventually. wow, that will be a fun few seconds.

and the best part of all? he gets off easy. he can just forget about everything that ever happened, because there are no repercussions for him. but I'M left sorting all this crap out in my head, as always. he's gone and messed with me, as always, and i've put up with it, as always. and now he's back to his usual self and i'm just completely confused and left behind.

as always.

scott, this shit has happened with us since 10th grade. i'm fucking tired of it, and i'd HOPE that even though you didn't have to suffer because of the choices you made, you're going to think twice next time.
i sure as hell can't make that decision for you.
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Jan. 26th, 2005 @ 12:40 am the story of my life.
i'm feeling kinda: restless

i will be patient.
i will let things happen naturally.
i will not rush things.
i will enjoy just spending time with him, and i will see where it goes from there.
i will appreciate him as a friend.
i will not interpret everything he says or does as him showing interest in me.
i will not expect to hang out with him every night from now on.

and maybe, if i keep telling myself all this, for ONCE, it will work out.
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Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 05:52 pm queen anne's hall!
i'm feeling kinda: excited
music of the moment: the darkness - i believe in a thing called love

so it's a new semester, new dorm, new roommate, new location, new dining hall, new OUTLOOK ON LIFE. (that sounded good, didn't it?) seriously though, i had an awesome time last semester but i'm not quite happy, in retrospect, with some of the things i did. so i'm going to try and work on that.

queen anne's hall is AMAZING. gorgeous. (i do believe i'll be quoted in the diamondback about this, so keep an eye out for it!!) my room is huge. it's about 1.5 times bigger than the biggest room i've ever seen in a north campus dorm, which is a quad in bel air. and there's only two of us living in it!! the triples in this dorm are HUGE--they're about 3 times the size of a north campus double, so everything fits on the floor. three beds, three desks, three dressers. and plenty of extra room. the people in triples are pleasantly surprised, i think. because we're on the 3rd floor, we have a sloped ceiling on one side and an indentation where the window is. we set up comfy suede butterfly chairs and we have a ton of room in the middle of everything. we even have two HUGE lounges on our floor. and the lobby is like a hotel. really, now that our internet and hot water are working, the only negative i can think of is that we have a little less closet space than in denton, but i can deal with that. oh, and no microwaves yet in the hot water tap/sink area, but there's room and outlets for it so i guess we'll be getting them soon.

I WENT SLEDDING WITH SOPHIA YESTERDAY!!! yay for huge hills behind st. mary's hall near mckeldin. quite fun.

i met a couple of cool guys last night, regi (lives in a single in the QA basement) and nabeel (lives in carroll hall, across the street). they're both really chill, hopefully i'll get to hang out with them some more. we were talking for a while and then we watched 'anger management'. i love adam sandler.

at DG today we worked on recruitment stuff and then we had to hold another election for president. becky won, which left her position, VP programming, open. so i decided to run for that, and it was me, margaret, and michelle running. but michelle ended up not being able to, so margaret and i gave little speeches (like, right off the top of my head) and everyone voted. aaaaaaaaaand......

I WON!! :) yay! so i'm our new VP programming! i'm excited, although i'm not really 100% sure what i have to do...but i'll figure it out. :) i'm sure everyone will be really helpful.

right now hadass has some friends over; they're all really nice. sooo that's fun. it's awesome to have the space to have like 6 people in our room COMFORTABLY! :D

i'm out. love it.
COME VISIT ME, UMD PEOPLE!!
-xo-
lindz
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Jan. 19th, 2005 @ 03:02 pm oh what fun.
FILL IT OUT!! NOW!!!!!
anonymously, if need be....

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you think I'm sexy?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me/talked to me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. What is your favorite memory of me?
16. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
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