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Friday, February 4th, 2005
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9:23 pm - Knuckle Deep inside the borderline......
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So, this was pretty funny....to me at least.
Yesterday, I left work a little early. When I got to work today, Justin came up to me and told me this little story:
When Brenda showed up to work, she asked where I was, and Justin goes "Oh, didn't you hear? She quit" and she was like "really?" and he goes "Yeah. She just started throwing shit around and yelling and cussing. Then she got a lighter and started flicking it next to the oven yelling 'I hate my job! I'm gonna burn this motha down!"
She was dumbfounded and said "OMG really?! What did Movie Nazi Guy do?" and Justin was like "No, not really." and walked away.
Way to go for the Orange County reference! *thumbs up* Anyway, I laughed my ass off. I'm fairly sleep-deprived, so it was exceptionally funny to me today.
Then I told him that I'd more likely get fired than quit- and when that happens, I'll pull a Jerry Maguire/Half Baked scene saying "Don't worry...don't worry. I'm not gonna do what everyone thinks I'm gonna do so don't *thrashes around* Flip out, man!" hehe
On a weird note, I had a psychic come in today. It was a strange encounter and I had to make sure I wasn't slipped any hallucinagens (yeah, I know...I can't spell...stfu). It went a little something like this:
She came in, and I told her it was going to be about 5 more minutes on her food. She just stood there and stared at me in silence for a good while, then said "You're very wounded." I laughed and said "Excuse me?" she said "Your soul- it's wounded. But you don't suffer like you used to. You've come to know God" I looked around, shook my head, said "Excuse me?" again, and she said "Sorry, I'm a seer." I was like...ok. Then she said "You see things other people can't see. And God has a particular love for you. That's why you pull through. And you know it." I stood there with my mouth agape, stammering for something to say. She laughed and said "Don't worry, I get that reaction all the time. It's a pity we don't make much money for knowing what we know without being called phonies." I laughed and nodded and got her her food. Then she said "Don't worry, though you've wandered from your path, you're close to finding it again." I thanked her and took her money (even though at that point I wanted to pay her, or at least give her a free pizza). Anyway...way weird. It was really cool, but at the same time very surreal. I wanted to ask her if she actually has a psychic service, but I was pretty stymied at that point and it didn't occur to me to ask until long after she left. Justin just sat there and laughed. I'll bet you anything she lives in Eureka Springs.
Exciting friday, huh? Anyway..... it's Superbowl weekend! Yeah! And and and..... American Dad premiers!
me=stoked
current mood: tired
current music: Tool- Grudge
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9:31 am - Right
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| Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
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8:06 am - Don't make me take off my belt......
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I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind last night. So very fitting for Valentine's Day. I loved it. I want to watch it again, but I don't have a dvd player.
Anyway.... it got me thinking... If I could, would I wipe a past relationship from my memory? I think there are a few I would like to just simply forget. Not because thinking of them hurts, but mostly because it's just a nuisance to think of them. I don't know, I don't have the patience to get into it right now.
I had to keep Pandy home from school yesterday. At least, I was going to. But it was closed anyway because of the snow. But I had to leave work early tuesday because her teacher called and said she thought that Pandy had pink eye. Turns out it has been going around her school. Great. So I took her to the doctor. Sat there for 2 hours. Had to hold her down while he checked her eye....man, she really friggin' hates the doctor. She freaks out everytime she goes. So anyway, he perscribed her some antibiotic eye drops and some antibiotic pink medicine stuff. The first night I had to literally chase her down and have dad hold her while I gave her both of the medications. Thankfully yesterday she stopped fighting and took it all like a big girl. She's back in school today. Her eye looks much much better.
Yesterday at work I got a call from someone I haven't talked to in 2 months. Cherie. She wanted to see me and Pandy. So after work we went over to her house. She had some presents for us left over from Christmas. I didn't stay too terribly long. I'm not as upset with her as I had been. I told her I'd call her sometime next week and we'd go hang out or something.
anyway.... I've been having really disturbing dreams lately. I'll have to get into them some other time.
But for right now, I have to go clean up the mess my father and daughter left while I was at work yesterday. *sigh* I spent 3 friggin' days cleaning this place and it's a disaster again within a matter of a day. It's so very frustrating. I just want my own place. I'm sick of being a personal maid.
current mood: pissy
current music: A Perfect Circle- Blue
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| Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
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7:43 am - Don't go outside......
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So, it's 7:30 in the morning. I just dropped Pandy off at school. I'm sitting here, getting ready to smoke a cigarette and log on and check my email, when I hear a knock on the door. I'm expecting the social worker from Pandys' school, so I don't think anything of it- except that she's early. So I open the door.
There's a hispanic man standing there, and I go "Yes?" and he goes "Does Kimberlee live here?" and I'm like, "Umm, yeah...I'm kimberlee" and he goes "I know...ok thank you" and walks away.
So now here I am freaking out. I'm really paranoid now, coming up with all kinds of scenarios in my head....
I'm like Ok...
*My ex husband has finally hired someone to kill me
*Someone is pissed at me for one reason or the other and is wanting to kill me
*Someone is going to attempt to kidnap my daughter (I've been having horrid dreams about this one)
I have many more, but I know if I list them all- everyone will know how crazy I am, and frankly, I don't enjoy being so vunerable.
So now I'm triple checking my locks, staring out the window every 10 seconds, I have a knife in my lap and my dads gun within grabbing distance.....
Man, maybe I just need to get back on my meds. Sheesh!
But come on...tell me that's not even the slightest bit freaky
current mood: worried
current music: PJ Harvey- M*Bike
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| Monday, January 31st, 2005
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8:27 pm - Look deep......
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Well, my house is officially clean. I've spent the better part of 3 days scrubbing, washing, rinsing.... I feel a bit like Cinderella, minus the fancy slippers and prince charming....but hey, beggars can't be choosers.
The social worker from Pandys' school is coming in the morning. It's not a big deal, really. It's just an annual home-check they do. Thankfully, dad has given up the drinking for the week, so there's no empty beer bottles lying all over the place.
I had a good weekend. It went by too quickly. Watched Shaun of the Dead and had a few shots of tequilia. Not enough to even give me a buzz, but it tasted pretty damn good. I spoiled Pandy rotten. I got her this bear that moves and hugs and can drink a bottle and whatnot. She also got a new My Little Pony house and a tea set. I'm really bad about spoiling my child when I have extra cash. I also got Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. Not for her... but anyway. I haven't played it yet.
Anyway....I know I have nothing interesting to say. Just lately I feel that I need to keep updating to reassure certain people that I'm still alive....and that I'm doing ok.
so.... that's that.
current mood: exhausted
current music: PJ Harvey- No Child Of Mine
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| Friday, January 28th, 2005
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9:03 am
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Harold and Kumar is teh sexah
fuck!
Thank you, come again!
current mood: amused
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| Thursday, January 27th, 2005
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8:18 am - One pill makes you larger One pill makes you small
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It's Rabbit Hole Day!!!
I'll go through the day, trying to produce acid flashbacks (I'll crack my spine a time or two). Then I'll give you my little rendition of Rabbit Hole Day.
current mood: blurp
current music: Jefferson Airplane- White Rabbit
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| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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9:02 am - mom, please wash it all away.....
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I had a talk with Pandy's teacher today. Nothing serious, just asking about how she's adjusting and whatnot.
She said she's very bright. She and another teacher were talking the other day about how Pandy observes and joins. She sits and watches how the other boys and girls do things, then she joins in immediately. She's made a new friend named Angel. She's eating ok. No accidents. She loves to play outside. And yesterday, she was nominated the "leader" for the week. She really enjoys painting (I have several works of art now. One is hanging on the living room wall), and is adjusting pretty well. She really likes school. I told her that she has to go to Ruth's house on Monday because the school will be closed, and she started to cry.
I'm so glad I get paid today. I spent the last of my money on movies yesterday. I got Pandy a Hello Kitty movie and I got Harold and Kumar Go To Whitecastle for me. I'm planning on watching it tonight. I couldn't watch it yesterday because I still had a terrible headache that I've had since Sunday. That's one hell of a hangover. Sheesh.
Anyway...
I'm planning on buying a muzzle for the dog next door. 5 nights in a row it's kept me up with its annoying howling/barking. I swear the thing barks at shadows. And she does it right under my window and it keeps both me and Pandy awake. I hate that dog. I seriously do.
current mood: tired
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| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
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8:14 pm - Piper
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| Friday, January 21st, 2005
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8:51 pm - Oh Noes!!!!!!!!
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Did you hear? Spongebob is TEH GAY!
STFU!
Yeah, I watched a little bit about it this morning on the Today show. Apparently, a conservative Christian group is proclaiming that Spongebob Squarepants is promoting homosexuality. They also tore into the We Are Family organization that runs tolerancy (is that a word?) commercials on nick or something. It's a bunch of cartoony characters singing "We Are Family" and appreciating differences. So yet again, the conservative Christian group is promoting INtolerance. But apparently, it's not just against homosexuality- it's tolerance of ANYTHING different from what they think is "right". Of course, this is old news. But Spongebob? Come on!
I'm going to wear a pink shirt and walk around Eureka Springs and take a picture, just so I can be "damned" for promoting homosexual tolerance. And you know what? I DO tolerate it, because A) It's none of my business, and B) It's someone ELSE'S life, and C) I've been known to have a tryst with a woman or two. No biggie. The thing is...who am I to tell people how to live their lives? And who are THEY to say that they're going to hell.
You know, I've had my own conversations with God. I have a very close relationship with God. And as far as I can gather, he hates no one. Not only that, but there are a lot better things to worry about than people being gay. Like, oh I dunno...murder...rape...child abductions....etc.
I'm sorry, was I rambling?
Anyway, I can picture it now... Jerry Fallwell dies. He, of course, goes straight to the Pearly Gates. He is accepted in for a short tour. And to his astonishment, there are gays and lesbians all over the place. Smiles on their faces, arm and arm, singing a wonderful tune. Not only that, but there are Pagans, gangbangers, and an elephant named Sue. We're all there.... and then he finds out hey- he's not sticking around. No, he's got more work to do- much like the rest of us. So he goes straight back into the womb. But, what they didn't tell him is this: it usually takes a hundred or so earth years to make that trip back to the womb... but all in all, God didn't want to hear why he should be going to hell because he's wearing a skirt and some lipstick and hanging out with the rest of the drag queens singing "We Are Family".
Was that blasphemous? I'm sorry. But I happen to know that God has a sense of humor and knows how to laugh at himself.
Anyway... I don't care what the conservative Christans say. I'm going to allow my daughter to watch Spongebob. And if she becomes a lesbian...well, I guess I'm just going to have to say "this is my daughter and her wife. Aren't they a magnificent couple?" I'd love her no matter what. Besides. Boys are icky.
current mood: nuts
current music: Chevelle- Skeptic
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8:17 am - grrr
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| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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8:57 pm - Ok.......
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![[info]](http://library.vu.edu.pk/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/000100A/http/web.archive.org/web/20050206092138im_/http:/=2fstat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) blushingangel76 had her baby! She's a healthy little girl, 7 lbs 1oz (I think). Sis is doing ok. She had her naturally- she didn't WANT to, but she sorta HAD to. But she's recovering and is doing fine.
I can't wait to see my little neice!!!! Pandy's excited to.
Anyway... welcome to the world, Piper Elizabeth!
current mood: happy
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6:53 pm - It's happening....
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My sister, blushingangel76 is- as we speak- in labor.
I'm praying that she has a quick and easy labor, a healthy baby girl, and no complications.
She just found out a day or so ago she's in the beginning stages of pre-eclampsia (I don't know how to spell that). So I'm a bit worried. But I pretty much know she's going to be ok.
I'm so excited. I'm going to be an aunt again!
I'm going to try to make it out there within the next two or 3 weeks for about 6 or 7 days.
Anyway...I'll update when I know more.
(hehe this song is dedicated to her. Just the chorus, mainly)
current mood: anxious
current music: Static X- Push It
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
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9:23 am - You make the stars dance......
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I've been on the phone all morning trying to sort out things with DHS, Medicaid and Pandy's doctor to work out a way to get her in there for a physical. I got a letter a few months back saying that I couldn't use the doctor I have been using because Medicaid won't accept him. Well, the doctors office said that was a mistake and that I had to call Medicaid and ask them about it. So I did. I sat on the phone holding for a good 45 minutes. Finally got a hold of them, discussed the situation. Apparently it was a mistake on their behalf and they put him back on the list. *sigh* So now I have to rush up there Friday to get her physical done for school. Then Thursday I have to leave work early to get her into a dentist. It's going to be a busy week.
Justin has started classes at NACC (the local community college), and doesn't get into work until 1 pm. On tuesdays, it really sucks because that means I have to do stock by my friggin self. It's a lot of hard friggin' work and a lot of heavy lifting. After last tuesday I wanted to lay down and cry because my back hurt so bad. Ever since Jeb pushed me into the corner of the china cabinet, and tackled me countless times on the pavement (and made me literally land on my lower back) I've had back problems. And as the years go by it gets worse and worse. Plus, I don't lift things correctly (I know I should, but I forget) so that just furthers my back problems. I wonder if my insurance will cover a couple chiropractic visits. I'll have to look into that. Anyway, so today is going to suck.
I dropped Pandy off for her second day of school. Her first day went beautifully. She learned how to write and recognize the letter O. And she learned a new song. I sat down with her last night and tried to teach her how to write her name. She got the P down pretty good, but she got frustrated after that and threw her magnadoodle (which we were practicing on) across the room. I told her that from now on, every night we're going to work on two letters a night. The letter that she learned at school and the letters in her name to begin with. Then the rest of the letters of the alphabet after that. But I'm so proud of her. She's a fast learner. She really enjoys school. I hope it stays that way.
My car should be done today or tomorrow. I'm hoping it's done today and that it won't be any more than what we thought it was. I miss my car. I've been without it for 3 weeks now. I really miss the heater. And my cd player. So I'm crossing my fingers. I want my car back, dammit.
Besides, blushingangel76 might be having her baby this week, and I'd like to get out there to visit for at least 6 or 7 days. And I can't very well get out there without a car. Dads truck is too unreliable to make it. So yeah.
Anyway...I'm going to go read before I go to work.
current mood: dreadful
current music: Static X- Push It
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| Monday, January 17th, 2005
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9:09 am - As the days grow colder, you get older.....
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Well, I took Pandy to school. I almost cried, but I held it together. I sat and talked with her teacher for a little bit. Found out what her schedule would be. She went right in and started playing with a little boy named Jose. Before I left, I asked if that was her new friend, and she said "no, he's my boyfriend!" I laughed and shook my head, and pointedly told her she wasn't allowed to have a boyfriend until she was 30.
Anyway, she actually talked a little bit to her teacher- which surprised me on account of how shy she is.
She had fun at the Chinese Acrobat thing yesterday. That is, until they brought the dragon out. She started crying and told my dad that it was going to come to her. He assured her it wouldn't, and sure enough, the dragon got offstage and came right up to her. She started freaking out and cried and clawed at my dad trying to run away, and everyone around her commented saying "That poor girl is really scared!" The people in the dragon costume said "Oh, so sorry" and walked away. Other than that, she had a good time. She's now convinced she wants to be an acrobat. She came home and started laying on her back and balanced things on her feet.
I have to have Pandy at school by 8, so I have to wake up at 6:50 (I usually wake up at 8:50). Now I have 2 hours of time to do absolutely nothing, so I'm finally able to catch up with my flist and check my email and whatnot. But to be honest, all I really want to do is go lay down and read- which I think I'll do here in a minute.
*sigh* Pandy's getting so big.
current mood: ok
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| Sunday, January 16th, 2005
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10:27 am - Wondering in a state of shock......
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robyn_ma tells us what they were really thinking during the power loss.
Not much happened this weekend. Got to watch Troy. Drooled over Bradd Pitt and Orlando Bloom. I think I had a tiny orgasm when I saw a hint of Brad Pitt's ass. Yeah, I need to get laid.
Pandy's going to see the Chinese Golden Dragon Acrobats with dad today. She's excited, although I have a feeling when she gets there she'll be scared and not want to go in.
She got the spot at Headstart. She starts tomorrow. We went in Thursday and I enrolled her. She got a small tour. Got to meet her teacher and some of the kids. She went right in and introduced herself to the other children. It was cute. She's really excited. I told Ruth that she was starting Monday, and she got pretty sad about it. Pandy gave Ruth a big hug and said "Thanks for watching me." Anyway, I'm excited for her. The teachers do home visits 4 times a year, so I'm going to have to make sure this house stays clean. I didn't sleep much last night so I don't know if I'll be able to get it done today. I'll probably take a nap while Pandy's with dad and get started afterwards. I like the school because it's really secure. I won't have to worry about anyone kidnapping her or anything. I put on the list 3 people (including myself) that were allowed to pick her up. And we have to show ID. I guess they had trouble in the past with parents in custody battles trying to pick up one of the kids and kidnap them. It was a while back. Anyway...she's really excited. I'm excited too. Once I'm off probation I can volunteer for chaparoning field trips and fund raisers. :)
Anyway... so that's that. I'm going to have to start leaving work 10 minutes early in order to go pick her up, and I'm going to have to start waking up earlier to drop her off. But it'll be worth it. The best thing is, it's free! So I get more of my paycheck to get the things I need instead of having to space it out over weeks on end. Rightous.
Ok... that's it. Better post this before there's another power failure.
current mood: tired
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| Saturday, January 8th, 2005
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10:51 pm - Under my wing.......
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I worked a double shift last night. Extra cha-ching! Of course that means nothing because it'll all be gone by the time I cash the check. I have to buy yet more parts for my car. I blew up the water pump, and a few freeze plugs. I haven't had my car in over a week. It sucks. I hate driving my dads truck. The heater doesn't work and it's damn cold lately.
I haven't been online much lately. It all started with this severe depression episode I went through a few weeks back. I just didn't have the patience to get online. I would briefly, but it would just not interest me and I just felt like laying on the couch and crying anyway. That lasted until a few days ago. The last few days I've been feeling ok. Not 100%, but better than I have been. I'm doing ok without my meds. Haven't lost any weight yet, but I'd have to actually get off my ass and exercise in order for that to happen. This week I'm buying car parts, next week I'm donating money to the Tsuanmi relief (I've donated $25 already. I'm planning on donating $75 more next week). Then the week after I'm going to get a membership at the Fitness Factory. I have to ask some friends if they'd mind watching Pandy while I went. Either that or I'll just take her a few hours early to Ruths house and go before work. I haven't worked it all out in my head yet. Anyway, so all I've been doing lately is reading. I can't get enough of books. I haven't really been able to read since I've been in jail- since that's all I did while I was in there. But lately I've been obsessed with it. I've been re-reading books that I forgot about. I just got done reading Pandora and The Tale of The Body Theif. I'm going to read Merrick and try to get my hands on some new books after that. Since I can't seem to find my other books. And since I'm banned from the library, I can't really go there to get a new selection, although I wish I could.
I might have to get a second job. I'm planning on moving in 3 months (I'm already packing) and I need to save some money to go. I have no idea where I'm going yet. I'd like to move back to Norman, but right now I'm leaning towards Texas. Right now I don't really give a shit where it is, as long as it's nowhere in Arkansas.
Lets see...what else....
I'm never going to live with a slob again. I swear the next person or people I live with will know how to pick up after themselves. I'm sick of being my dads personal maid. I'm sitting here looking at 10 beer bottles on the computer desk when the trash can is an arms length away.
I have a huge lump right under my jaw bone and now I'm convinced I have cancer.
I haven't talked to Cherie in weeks. I'm still rather upset with her. I haven't confronted her about what she did, but when I finally do speak to her I will. I think she senses that I'm upset with her, and that's why she hasn't called or anything.
I'm trying to get Pandy into preschool. I have to take her to a doctor and a dentist first. Which means I'll have to take time off of work that I probably won't be able to get because Movie Nazi Guy is too cheap to hire more day help. But she's excited. All week I've been working with her to get her to learn her more about her ABC's. (Like what word starts with what letter, what the letters sound like, etc.) We've also been working on her shapes. But she tricks me. She memorizes her books so that when I ask her questions about them, she says "I know it! It's this one!" but when I show her an object that's not in the book, she gets this blank expression on her face and says she doesn't know it. She needs to be with teachers because I'm really no good at this. I think by her age I was reading already. She's been drawing a lot lately. She's really good at it. She's artistic, that's for sure. She also loves video games. I got her this spongebob game for christmas and she's been playing the hell out of it.
Anyway, I'm sick of typing so I'm going to stop now.
current mood: bored
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| Friday, January 7th, 2005
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10:38 pm - And so it begins....
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A friend of mine was asked by LJ to enter his credit card number to "verify age".
Anyone else have this asked of them?
current mood: curious
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| Thursday, January 6th, 2005
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9:41 pm - What's done is done....
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Well, it's official. Six Apart bought LJ.
If you go to the motherpage, you'll see Frank, the goat, full of bullet holes.
This scares me. Is this an omen of things to come? I guess we'll see.
Anyway, nothing we can do or say about it. Brad needs a break, that's obvious. I worry, as I'm sure a lot of people do. And it sucks that my computer blows so much that I can't archive or save my past entries. Plus, I'm computer illiterate, so there you go. Anyway, it's been a good 5 years. Yeah, it's been 5 years since I started my LJ. Long friggin' time. I hope my past doesn't get deleted. I like to look at my old entries and remince.
Anyway, poor frank. At least they didn't x out his eyes. That would destroy me.
current mood: pessimistic
current music: Rasputina- Wish You Were Here
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| Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
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9:26 am
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I can't believe how bad the Sooners sucked last night. I ended up getting so pissed off I threw the remote across the room and broke it. I just turned the game off.
I'm highly disappointed.
current mood: disappointed
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| Thursday, December 30th, 2004
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10:16 am - Seemingly open......
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Pandy's birthday went pretty good. After work I went and picked up her cake, and then her. Then we went to the store to get some last minute birthday presents.
The cake tasted aweful. It wasn't so much the cake itself as it was the icing. It tasted too chemically. Left this horrid bitter taste in the back of my throat for a good half an hour. So I wiped the frosting off and we ate it. She opened her presents. She got a lot of stuff. My Little Ponies, a baby doll in a backpack, dress up shoes. John got her a horse that she can sit on (it doesn't do much else), and I got her a magnadoodle. The problem with her having her birthday 3 days after Christmas is that always thinks she'll get presents every couple of days. She did this last year, too. So for the next month I'll be hearing "I wanna open presents." *shakes head*
I'm really broke now. Which sucks because my car just broke down. I think it's the freeze plugs, but it's still a bitch to get to. So I've been having to drive dads truck, which I hate because the heater doesn't work too well and the stereo doesn't pick up my station. blah.
I took two days off of work so I can clean the house and work on my car. I have no idea what I'm doing for New Years Eve. Probably just sitting by my lonesome not really giving a shit about the new year. I don't know. I might go out. We'll see.
Anyway...guess I'd better get started cleaning this pit. It's still a mess from Christmas. God, I'm glad this only comes once a year.
current mood: ok
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| Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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9:13 am - More than just another day.....
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Today is Pandy's 4th birthday. I can't believe she's 4 already.
Today after work I'm picking up her cake, and then we're going to go out and celebrate. I couldn't afford to get her many presents (I blew all my money on christmas), but she gets a few extra toys.
She had a pretty good Christmas. She got spoiled again this year. She really likes her Wonder Woman barbie. :)
Anyway, I have to go finnish getting ready for work.
God, I can't believe she's growing up so fast *pouts*
current mood: ok
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| Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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4:29 pm - You called to me....
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Just because I have nothing else to write....
( I have a soul? )
current mood: bored
current music: Chevelle- Skeptic
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| Thursday, December 9th, 2004
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4:15 pm
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I can't believe it. I can't believe Dimebag is dead.
And what I really can't believe is that I just now heard about it.
Pantera is one of my favorite bands.
I'm really friggin sad about this.
current mood: sad
current music: Pantera- Cemetery Gates
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| Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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5:25 pm - I've always known.....(just thought I'd share)
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I always known that celebrities and politicians and the like got off easy when it came to criminal charges...but this is just ridiculous.
I nabbed this from the Sept. 2003 issue of High Times, Page 36 (I just read it for the articles. Really! Actually, this is a friend of mines issue that I was reading yesterday and found this particular article disturbing.)
Double Standards by Paul Armentano, NORML publications director.
tough-on-drugs politicians sing a different tune when their kids get caught.
Allegations that Jenna and Barbara Bush enjoy an ocassional toke should come as no surprise to anyone familiar with the proclivities of 21-year-olds, especially those as notoriously predisposed to partying as the "First Twins." But while their pot-smoking is hardly shocking, it's noteworthy because in their father's first year as President, more than 640,000 Americans were arrested for engaging in the same "youthful indiscretions" as his beloved daughters.
Of course, drug-warring politicians have a long history of adhering to the "do as I say, not as I do" philosophy, particularly when it comes to their children.
Take California Rep. Randy "Duke" Cunningham. He cosponsored legislation mandating the death penalty for "drug kingpins," but pleaded for mercy when his son Todd was convicted for smuggling 400 pounds of pot. The seven-term Republican, known for his career-long vitriol against "soft on crime" judges, found himself begging a federal judge to waive his son's five-year mandatory sentence. Fortunately for Cunningham, the judge was "soft" enough to give Todd 30 months in prison- half the federal "mandatory" minimum.
Similar preferential treatment was given to Dan Burton II, son of the 11-time Indiana Congressman. He was arrested several times for marijuana and firearms felonies in the mid-1990's, but never received more than community service and probation. Prosecutors jumped through hoops to keep Burtons kid out of jail, including underestimating the total weight of the 30 plants he was caught with as only 25 grams (thus reducing his charge to a misdemeanor). His son's brushes with the law apparently meant little to the elder Burton, who voted against legislation to increase federal funding for alternative sentencing options such as drug courts.
And of course there are escapades of Noelle Bush, niece of President George Bush and daughter of Florida Gov. Jeb Bush- whose run-ins with the law made national headlines last year. First, the 25-year-old got popped attempting to purchase tranquilizers with a forged prescription. That charge alone could have netted her 5 years in prison, but authorities sentenced her to drug rehab instead- a move her father lauded, despite previously opposing a ballot initiative mandating treatment instead of jail for other people's daughters facing similar nonviolent drug charges.
But Noelle's special treatment didn't end there. While in rehab, she was caught again with unauthorized prescription drugs-another felony, or in her case, a minor transgression punishable by three days in jail. After returning to rehab, she was busted a third time, with crack cocaine. However, her father's lawyers got a court order forbidding the police from gathering evidence or statements from the rehabs facility's staff about the incident. Noelle ultimately served a total of 13 days in jail for her levy of drug charges, while her father denounced allegations that she received preferential treatment.
It's possible that Jeb Bush believed he was telling the truth. After all, if the sons and daughters of the political elite never face the brunt of their parent's Drug War, maybe Bush and his politico brethren assume nobody else's children do either.
Which brings us back to Jenna and Barbara Bush and their alleged pot use. Chances are the Prez will refer to the incident as a private matter. But with some 250,000 Americans behind bars for drug offenses, it's painfully obvious that the matter has become quite public-that is, for other people's children.
Then again, it's not surprising that George Bush would be a hypocrite on the issue. He has never denied his own "youthful indiscretions" with cocaine, but as governor of Texas in 1997, he signed a law mandating a six-month minimum for possession of less than a gram. So expect the White House to keep dropping the hammer- on someone else's kids, of course.
current mood: *shakes head*
current music: Chevelle- Still Running
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| Saturday, December 4th, 2004
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7:45 pm
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Pandy just told me she's going to College. When I asked her which one, she said "Umm, Oklahoma sooners."
I'm proud of her already. She said she wants to be a cheerleader for the Sooners, too.
too cute.
current mood: ok
current music: Sooners game on tv
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| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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8:16 pm - I don't know if you ever cared when I cried......
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( Just because )
current mood: numb
current music: Crossfade- So Far Away
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| Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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11:26 am - Sad, lonely me...
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So today is my birthday. So far my mom and sister called to wish me a good one.
We're getting ready to go to Cherie's house. She's planning all kinds of fun stuff. I'll post about it later.
Happy thanksgiving all.
current mood: bouncy
current music: thanksgiving day parade on tv
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| Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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1:05 pm - prodigy.....
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Oh god, my daughter is a computer geek. She knows already how to sign onto the internet, she knows all about the mouse and how it works, and she complains when I'm on it because it means she can't get on it. Her favorite thing to do is paint on the crayola art program I have on here. When I try to help her, she yells at me and says she can do it, and she does. Sheesh!
On another note, we're watching the sooners game and she's cheering. Totally cute.
current mood: amazed
current music: A Perfect Circle- Blue
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| Friday, November 19th, 2004
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7:48 pm - spring cleaning in the fall.....
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I'm cleaning out my friends list. If you're no longer on it, no hard feelings. Just had to be done. Thanks for understanding.
current mood: hyper
current music: Chevelle- Vitamin R
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9:12 am - I'm not ready yet....
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Nothing has really happened the last couple of days. It's friday, I'm happy about that.
Nathan came in and hung out at work for about an hour yesterday. We talked a lot about high school. Made me miss it.
I'm going to quit smoking. My insurance program is providing the medications, patches and therapy for it. I've decided that smoking for 14 years is too much. So I'm hoping I can do it. I'd like to encourage my father to quit, but he's never going to. *sigh* Which will make it that much harder for me to do it. But I have to. I've been so paranoid about getting cancer lately. I have nightmares about it.
Pandy is doing pretty good. She's been asking for a lot for christmas and her birthday. It's stressing me out already. I'm starting my christmas shopping as soon as I get my transmission taken care of. So far she wants some Cabbage Patch Kids sleepover thing and an elephant game that shoots butterflies out of it's trunk. She also wants weebles and a weebles town, and a glow in the dark care bear. What she needs, though, is winter clothes. *sigh* Hopefully, she'll get a little of what she wants and a little of what she needs.
Anyway, I suppose I should go get ready for work.
current mood: relaxed
current music: Rasputina- State Fair (tweaker remix)
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8:59 am - Not for you.....
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| Saturday, November 13th, 2004
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2:33 pm
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I'm 93% Sagittarius. I knew that already.
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| Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
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9:57 pm - It's a no-go
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Well, I didn't get to see The Incredibles. Pandy all freaked out and wouldn't go in the theatre. *sigh* I really wanted to see that movie, too.
They wouldn't refund my money, but I got a free admission ticket. So I think I'm going to go Saturday. Dad already said he'd watch her.
I was so upset, though. I already had bought the popcorn and sodas. I really really wanted to go with her. I'm going to be sad watching it all by myself.
Anyway...so yeah, that sucks.
current mood: disappointed
current music: tv
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5:15 pm - Heads up....
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So, Amy quit today. The 30th is her last day. I really hope Movie Nazi Guy finds a replacement, because I can't run the whole place by myself. I can for maybe an hour or two, but not a full day.
Work was slow. We had maybe 4 orders all day. We watched Shrek 2 about 3 times. Which makes it about 60 times I've seen it now. Pandy watches it over and over and over again. Sheesh!
Speaking of Pandy, I'm taking her to go see The Incredibles tonight. I'm taking whats left of my check after paying probation fees and Ruth, and taking my little girl to the movies. Fun fun fun! I really hope she doesn't freak out like she did last time. She didn't freak out for long, but she cried because it was so loud. Anyway, that's my plans for the night.
Well, my trash stinks so I'm going to go take it out and wait for 6:15 to roll around.
Oh yeah... ( I'd say this was about where I live. It's not, but still. )
current mood: impatient
current music: Chevelle- Vitamin R
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| Friday, November 5th, 2004
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9:28 pm - Got me $20 dollars at the brokedown palace.....
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Well, I'm officially broke again. I spent my last $20 bucks getting Pandy Shrek 2.
Work was busy today. I'm exhausted.
I really don't have anything new or exciting to say. I'm going to cheries tomorrow. Other than that, nothing's happening.
And I know you're all very, very disappointed. *sarcasm*
P.S. The Guy I knew that died in Iraq- Michael Goins... yeah, his name is on Michael Moores page. Heavy. I mean, I know it happens every day, And you see it on tv daily...but it doesn't really hit home until it's someone you know. It's like "Hey, I know that guy! We had Competitive Drama and Math together". I wasn't best friends with him, but I had a few classes with him and talked to him quite a bit. He was actually a really nice guy. Anyway... that's sad.
current mood: bored
current music: Weezer- Say It Ain't So
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| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
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8:25 pm - Just one day...
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I know everyones sick of hearing about the election, so I'll only say this... I'm disappointed.
With that said, onto other things...
I didn't get yelled at at work. Rock. Work was slow, which I didn't mind. I'm a bit sore so I didn't feel like moving much.
After work I went to see my psychologist. She perscribed me Lamictal. She said it's weight neutral, so that's a major plus. I started taking it today. She said I should feel a difference in about 2 to 3 weeks. I told dad, and he said "Good, because you've been being a bitch lately." Thanks dad. But it's true, I have been.
Pandy was up all night last night throwing all kinds of fits. She's been doing it for the last 2 or 3 days. Today is the first time she's stopped. I'm hoping she keeps it in check, because I need some sleep. But I understand because the poor girl hasn't felt good. She's feeling better now. She's only been sick 2 other times in her life. Once before her first birthday (and on it), and once when we went to Oklahoma the last time. The kid rarely gets sick. She's feeling much better today. Tomorrow if she feels good enough, she can go to the babysitters.
My dad put in for his transfer today. He said we should be moving pretty soon. I'm excited. I can't wait to get the hell out of this town. Plus, I'll be closer to blushingangel76, and I love my sister. She's my best friend. Cheesy I know, but it's the truth.
Anyway, I'm going to catch up on my flist and then give Pandy a bath.
current mood: good
current music: A Perfect Circle- Imagine (John Lennon cover)
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| Monday, November 1st, 2004
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11:29 pm - Just a Reminder...
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If you can...please vote tomorrow. I don't care if you're too lazy- get it done. I know so many people who just waste their right. And take it from someone who can't vote- You miss it when it's gone.
So VOTE DAMMIT!
current mood: patriotic
current music: A Perfect Circle- Blue
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| Sunday, October 31st, 2004
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4:03 pm - Boo!
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So, I know today is Halloween, but most of the places around here decided trick-or-treat night should be on Saturday night, as to not effect Church. (sheesh!) So I took lil miss Pandorah trick-or-treating last night. We didn't go out for long because she was really tired (she didn't have a nap), and I was really sore (my back is killing me lately). But she made out pretty good candy-wise. UNICEF wise? Nada. Not a damn dime. People here are really friggin' stingy. I was really disappointed, and got offended at one point because this man said "You'll probably just pocket the money" and laughed. I didn't find that very funny. I would never do anything like that, no matter how desperate for cash I am. But anyway- so that sucked. My social anxiety disorder kicked in with a bang at one point, but I got through it. I ended up just blending in with a group of people and followed them around. When I told dad that we didn't make any UNICEF money, he said he'll donate some, so he's going to write a check probably and send it in within the next few days. Plus, I have what I got from the pizza place and Movie Time- which isn't much, really. But any little bit helps. But Pandy got enough candy. Not a whole bunch, but she didn't need too much anyway. I ended up buying about 6 lbs. of candy. Don't ask me why. I'm manic, and it looked good. But then we had no trick or treaters come, so now I'm stuck with all that candy. I'll put it out at work and let people steal it. I don't care.
So today, we got 2 new additions to the family. We went to the shelter to get a cat to get rid of these mice. Pandys been talking about getting a kitty and naming it "Lucy" for weeks. We looked at every single one of them, but Pandy had her heart set on a tabby kitten that she found. She said "Look! There's Lucy!" Well, she was playing with one of the other kittens that was in the cage, and dad said "Lets get two of them." I was all for it. I love cats! So we got two kitties. A male and a female. Guess their names. C'mon, guess. That's right, "Lucy" and "Desi" heheh. They've been chasing eachother around the apartment since they got here. We introduced Cinnamon to them, and she wanted to play with them, but they were scared. Well, at least Desi was. Lucy just fluffed up and started playing with her. It was pretty cute.
So now I'm relaxing. It's my last day off for 5 days and I'm not doing shit. Pandys playing with the kitties, and watching cartoons. I have to feed her in a bit so that she can have a piece of candy afterwards. She had fun yesterday. But never once said "trick or treat" because she's so shy. It was the first year I had to do it completely by myself. It was scary, but I got through it.
So yeah... Happy Samhain to those crazy pagans (just kidding guys) and happy halloween to the rest of you.
current mood: relaxed
current music: The Monster Mash
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| Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
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10:18 pm
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Oh fuck you.
current mood: angry
current music: A Perfect Circle- 3 Libras
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10:01 pm - Get outta here with that.......
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Dad changed his mind about moving to Oklahoma. I'm pissed. I'm still trying to find a way to move out there, but I would have to have a place to live first. A stable place, so that my probation officer will allow me to.
In other news: I really hope John Kerry wins this election. I'm sorry to those on my friends list that are Bush fans, but I believe we're not just voting for the man, we're voting for the administration. And Bush's administration is just... well, I won't get into it because I don't want to spark a debate.
I've been chatting in the Bipolar Chat, and everyone is just talking about the lunar eclipse. I can't see it because it's too cloudy. I really wanted to see it, too.
Pandys bathed and eating ice cream now. She's been extra good today. She's dealing with a bully at the babysitters. I don't know how to handle it other than to ask Ruth to put a stop to it. Nothing is seeming to help, though. I don't want my daughter to be bullied. But I don't want her to fight, either. She knows well enough not to hit back right now. So that's good. But still, I'm about to have a talk with his mother about this. If I could only catch her when I pick up Pandy. Sheesh, I didn't think I'd be dealing with this at such an early age.
I won a free 1920's type portrait for her on November 3rd. It's the same day as my psychologist appointment, but I scheduled it for 6 so that I'd have enough time to do both. It's going to be $24 bucks, but since I don't have a probation fee this upcoming week, I can afford it. I can't wait! She'll be so cute. Hopefully she won't freeze up like she always does when it comes to getting her picture taken. Usually all you see is her pouting. I think I have one picture of her smiling. She's not too interested in it until she's pretending to take a picture. Strange child.
I'm trying to teach her how to tie her shoes. Really early, I know. But she's showing a lot of interest in it lately. I just can't remember that stupid bunny rhyme for the life of me.
She's been playing dress up an aweful lot lately. Mostly in her ballerina outfit and her cinderella dress. But earlier she had her lion costume on and was beating up Papa. It was cute. But no one here cares, so I'll shut up about it.
Anyway, I need to try to get myself tired enough for bed. I'm almost out of Geodon and don't have enough gas to make it to town to get more. John better have my money soon.
ok..... I'm really going now.
current mood: hyper
current music: A Perfect Circle- Imagine (John Lennon cover)
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| Saturday, October 23rd, 2004
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4:35 am
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I'm up again. I'm really getting sick of these nightmares. This is the 4th time this week that I was up in the middle of the night, unable to fall back asleep. I took my Trazadone as well as some tylenol pm. I should be dead to the world. *sigh*
I'm going to try to go back to sleep one more time before the sun comes up. Wish me luck.
current mood: awake
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| Sunday, October 17th, 2004
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9:02 pm
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this movie always cheers me up.
current mood: sober
current music: Kill Bill Vol. 1 on tv
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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2:05 pm
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| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
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5:35 pm
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sdbrewer76: Fucking Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey redid "A Whole New World"!
sdbrewer76: Blah
Serendipity350: o-m-g... isn't that the first sign of the apocolypse?
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| Monday, October 11th, 2004
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8:59 pm
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8:41 pm - mine....
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| Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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7:04 pm - Just another day...
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I'm home.
unfortunately
current mood: lonely
current music: Chevelle- Vitamin R
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| Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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11:17 am
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| Friday, September 24th, 2004
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10:02 pm - AIM
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I have a new AIM name: Hungupontool.
I'll be on for a while. I'm bored, so talk to me if you wanna. Just let me know how you are when you message me.
current mood: a bit better
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