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[ 04pm + 00/60 ]
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| [ thursday-03.feb.2005 ] | |
[ 04pm + 10/60 ]
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sewing my lips together
would only cause my flesh to tear
and one keeps secrets deep within the mind
where they scream
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ wednesday-02.feb.2005 ] | |
[ 03pm + 18/60 ]
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IRC is becoming dangerous
the hyper-real begins to materialize
or the real begins to fade
the colors here are brighter
maybe its the new monitor i have
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[ 2 ] [ cydonia ]
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| [ tuesday-01.feb.2005 ] | |
[ 11pm + 20/60 ]
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my hair looks exactly like this now.
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[ 1 ] [ cydonia ]
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[ 11am + 21/60 ]
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i used to think that PWNED was O++.
But it turns out that gamers are too stupid to have come up with something that creative.
Apparently pwned is just a mistype since p and o are next to eachother.
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[ 2 ] [ cydonia ]
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| [ monday-31.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 04pm + 29/60 ]
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When we step in the club
and hit the bar
we're double fistin'
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ sunday-30.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 12am + 08/60 ]
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not to complain, but...
some fucking bastard hit my parked car today!
how hard is it to pull out of a fucking parking lot parking spot!?
now i have to get my driver's door repainted.
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ friday-28.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 03pm + 15/60 ]
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the first time i fould out how women get pregnant and what sex was all about
i was in 1st grade
louis gave me the zero-day info.
i could barely believe it.
i thought i had the most amazing underground knowledge ever
they were serving burgers in the cafeteria
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ thursday-27.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 10pm + 59/60 ]
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'valvoline of vodka' does not exist
yet it gave me terrible anxiety one night
i woke up and i could feel portions of my brain shutting off after taking it in my dream
just as the ethereal tony had told me it would do
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[ 1 ] [ cydonia ]
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| [ tuesday-25.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 04pm + 38/60 ]
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| [ monday-24.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 01am + 07/60 ]
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i have an aversion to transitions, the momentum, and the change in acceleration.
when i strike, i strike with confidence and faith
for not even i see the speed of my attack.
tiger beetles move so quickly that their eyes cannot gather enough photons to form an image of their prey.
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[ cydonia ]
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[ 01am + 06/60 ]
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ten-point "homey" style handshakes don't belong in the interview room.
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[ 2 ] [ cydonia ]
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| [ tuesday-04.jan.2005 ] | |
[ 03pm + 12/60 ]
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| [ tuesday-28.dec.2004 ] | |
[ 10am + 18/60 ]
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Last night the vision was interesting.
I fell through a purple sky
with human(?) bones stacked into thousands of these vertical columns no more than 2 hipbones wide
that seemed to vanish into the clouds both above and below
I was definately falling toward hell
and then i started falling upward through the clouds after I felt a glimpse of the pain of hell
and then i was in a pink sky slightly above the clouds
I was in a giant forrest of angel soldier statues holding spears or pitchforks
It was heaven, but it was heavens military.
And then i came across this other place
A place with humainoids made from this strange electronic membrane
and these humanoids spoke with a thousand voices
at first i thought i was by myself but then i realized i was with the wife of someone.
im not sure whos wife it was but it seemed as though it was the wife of an extremely important supernatural figure.
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ monday-13.dec.2004 ] | |
[ 12pm + 15/60 ]
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| [ wednesday-08.dec.2004 ] | |
[ 01pm + 33/60 ]
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this afternooon i had a vision accompanied by an aligator that listened to classical music.
then i remember falling 800,000 feet through the atmosphere of another planet.
you find it interesting that it becomes hard to pay attention to the ground approaching.
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ monday-06.dec.2004 ] | |
[ 02am + 49/60 ]
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last night in my projection i was charged by some type of man entity that ran on both his hands and feet, simply trying to scare me away from the astral plane.
he seemed rather primative.
i went back twice and he subsided.
but i now forget what i had learned.
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ wednesday-01.dec.2004 ] | |
[ 03am + 07/60 ]
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the uncertainty principle allows us to exist on borrowed time
providing our nemesis is allowed to also borrow
to act as a counter bet
our only duty
is that when we fall back into the darkness
we never reveal our secret
our secret is never known
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ monday-29.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 11am + 46/60 ]
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| [ sunday-21.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 03pm + 34/60 ]
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BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS: NATTO AND PANERAI
also, i picked up some drinks called 'red carabao'
if any of you are fresh off the boat, you might recognize carabao to be the south east asian ghetto cousin of the cow.
and you guessed it, red carabao is the new red bull, so drop it like its hot.
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[ cydonia ]
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| [ wednesday-17.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 12am + 53/60 ]
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oh man this rap music video with dancing hot-chicks dropping it like it is hot to canon in d.
oh man the outfits dancer girls in rap music videos wear are smoking hot.
oh man rap music videos have the hottest dancing girls with awesome outfits.
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[ cydonia ]
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[ 12am + 49/60 ]
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man i been getting acid indigestion like a maniac.
whats up with this?
too much alcohol? overeating? satan?
whatever it is, its pretty fucking bi-curious and needs to stop.
what perfect timing.
cannon in d is on the radio again.
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| [ tuesday-16.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 02am + 36/60 ]
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some reviews of some boozes.
black maple hill - single barrel rye whiskey. this shit is off the hook. I was quite a bourbon purist up until basically now. I really believe in dedication, loyalty and confidence. I was confident on old pappy van winkle 15 year bourbon and old pappy 23 year reserve, especially, for anyone who knows me well, since I'm easy to convince to upgrade solely based on price, especially about the 100$ mark, as is detailed by my current cognac interest. what im basically saying is despite its deceptionally marginal $75 pricetag, I have to recommend black maple hill rye whiskey.
now, on to the cognac, and more precisely, its pathetic runners up: the brandies.
this restaurant in san Francisco, bacar, with an amazing wine list: 200 by the glass and at least double that by the bottle, in a 3 floor restaurant, mimicking quite well, French cuisine in the guise of a dot-com-era 1st generation shithouse. let me mention, they have an amazing new Zealand rack of lamb, and at $32, its the most expensive item on the menu, lobster aside. order it or be a faggot. where was I. yes, cognac. they don’t fucking carry cognac at this restaurant, at first, I thought: blasphemy, I blame it on the homoerotically large focus on wine. so I decided, fuck, well ill order one of these armagnacs, this shit from California, hell its 16$ by the glass, it will barely pass slightly above failing miserably in my book, considering it is a sub-20$ glass of desert wine. To further my woes, I find that this is not even armagnac, the sad sad cousin of cognac, but an alembic brandy, produced in California! WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT. anyhow, this stuff: germain-robin XO, well, it was pretty damn good. fuck it. and to further this moot and senseless irony (how bored you must be reading my senselessly vapid discourse), I decide to purchase, not a bottle of the XO, but the shareholder's reserve. a tricky way of avoiding a VSOP labeling.
well to make a long story further meaningless, it tastes great, and accents my alcohol collection well. I recommend a purchase of germain-robin shareholder's reserve.
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[ 02am + 08/60 ]
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An update for those whom are interested.
Wine to be seen with.
2001 is the year of the german wines. stock up, an amazing year. the best in at least a decade.
this means reislings, godlike. expect to order a bottle of reisling nearing the end of the main course, 2001 of course.
2001 is also the year of the california cabernet. i just rediscovered cali. cabs tonight with the off purchase of a bottle of sterling 2001 cab. the purpose was to deflate my ego and exercise humility after a long stretch of pinot noir snobbery. it turns out that 2001 is one of the best cali. cab. years since 1994. and 1997 was quite a hoot, if you remember correctly. so much for the ego deflation, my predictive precognition of the future is pristine.
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[ cydonia ]
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[ 02am + 02/60 ]
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canon in d brings it back to me each time.
i know where i come from and where im going.
nowhere.
but with ever increasing complexity.
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| [ sunday-14.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 04pm + 28/60 ] [ CFA Purebred Scottish Folds ]
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grey longhair w/ folds and shorthair w/o.
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| [ friday-05.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 02pm + 03/60 ] [ real election by IQ chart ]
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| [ thursday-04.nov.2004 ] | |
[ 11pm + 43/60 ]
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my writing style sucks but id rather not speak with words.
considering and reflecting on the ideas and paradigms i hold as a basis which i form my life from
i find myself not looking to the authors of literature and art as role models
and their morals and ideology as guidelines to my life
but their work as symbolic objects, the mediators of sign exchange and value are what i hold in esteem and high regard.
all i see are symbols reflecting positions within society
all that is on the inside does not matter
the inside does not matter, to the very extent that i'd rather not continue to mention it.
externalizing murder and violence means no more than simply thinking it.
interpreting the moral meaning of such actions of violence and murder is even more far fathomed that i cannot even provide detailed enough discourse to express to you in a manner that you could be confident that i can remotely relate to how it might affect others.
this is what i imagine
i imagine murder and violence with no regard
i imagine emotion instantiated with such intensity that it manifests itself as objects in reality.
sometimes i am hate, or love, or any of the other needless emotions.
not to say emotions have no value.
because some drugs exist to specifically imitate these emotions.
but then again, they also portray a symbol and a physical authority.
love in a pill is more meaningful
because well
you can swallow it
you dont just make it up in your head.
on the inside, that is what i think and visualize
on the outside i exchange symbols of society and acknowledge others
mathematics, symbology in its purest form, makes me part of the intellectual elite
prada shoes and hermes ties make me part of the fashion elite
foie gras, ika shiokara and a good 1977 vintage porto makes me part of the dining elite
i can continue on expressing every symbol in my life
or you can come and visit me and id be glad to give you a tour of my collection of these symbols and i would be thrilled to see and acknowledge yours.
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[ 1 ] [ cydonia ]
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[ 12am + 57/60 ]
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whats up fuckers!
who's ready to bow once again for another four years of two-party corporate dictatorship!
drink up them coca-colas bitches.
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| [ wednesday-20.oct.2004 ] | |
[ 03am + 23/60 ]
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sobriety is an extreme lack of sentient saturation.
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