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blahhh... [19 Aug 2003|06:58pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Thursday - How long is the night ] I keep on telling myself change is good...but after last night i'm having an incredibly hard time convincing myself. Scott left. Scott is not going to be there next tuesday to greet me at 7 in the morning with his huge smile and witty comments. Dom and Nate will be gone in 3 weeks. saying "see you later"...which it will be, because i will never say goodbye to them....will be probably the hardest thing in the world for me. Dom and i have connected so much these past fews weeks with our painting. he told me the other day that painting with me is the most rewarding experience he has had in a long time. I almost cried when he said that, because Dominic Owen is one of the most amazing people i will ever have the pleasure of knowing, and knowing that i have affected his life in a positive way makes me feel wonderful. And Nate...what can i say? Nate is just right. He and Kristin make me sooooo happy, so i can't even imagine how they must feel about eachother. He has effected me more than he will ever understand, and i am so thankful that he is in my life. i love all of them. I have the best friends in the world. Honestly. This year will be good, i can feel it. Even though some really rough shit is going on with me right now, i know it will all be ok. I just know it. 7 comments|post comment

the third planet is sure that they're being watched, by an eye in the sky that can't be stopped... [29 Jul 2003|07:11pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Nine Ince Nails - Closer ] This is something i wrote a few weeks ago, and i just felt like posting it tonight... When I close my eyes, all I can see is black. So what does that make me? Am I a hole, or is this natural? And if it’s natural, what does that make humanity? But rather than think of that every time, I take the easy way out and make myself the scapegoat. I take the easy way out. But if it’s the easy way out, why is it so hard for me to accept feeling like this? So many questions with what seems no answers. But they are there, hiding behind numbers and names. They are there. Deep inside that black, they are there. I just want to be able to see color, the colors on the canvas. The blood that I bleed. I need to feel that, not just see it. I need to know that’s it’s real and it makes me who I am and that I need to let it boil and freeze before I die. I need to not be afraid to let things be the way they are suppose to be. I need to know that the amazing thing inside me is not something to be pushed down, but let out. I need to remember that I am worth something; otherwise I would not be here affecting so many lives. It does not matter whether positively or negatively because those feelings are being felt by the other person, giving them the responsibility of deciding their future. It is out of my hands. I don’t need to live happily ever after; I need to live. I need to be young, not hard. I need to know that loving someone without receiving that love back is enough to live for, because my love is an amazing gift that, if given to the right person, will make time stop and will light all the candles in the world if they are ever blown out. I am loved. I am loved for a reason; a reason that I don’t understand. But I don’t need to because I have no control over others’ emotions. I need to stop pretending that I do. I need to stop believing that I do. I need to stop watching the keys to make sure I’m not making any mistakes. I need to make mistakes. I need to float. I need to fly. I need to feel. I need to breathe without thinking about the next breath. I need to wake up without sleep in my eyes, trying to grasp onto a fading memory of a dream. I am the dream. And right now I am coming true. 2 comments|post comment

just keep making copies, of copies, of copies, when will it end? [26 Jul 2003|01:33pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Thursday - signals over the air ] So i got back from the cape yesterday at about 5ish. Nate drove me home and then he went to buy the new thrice. I need to get it now. I ate dinner, then nate picked me up again and we went to see Pirates of the Carribean. It was pretty sweet, but i think there could have been some parts cut down to make it shorter. I felt like i was in there for 4 hours or something. But yeah, it was a good time. I love nate. So yeah, the cape was really fun. I missed the rajala's alot, but they come home in like 5 or 6 days so then everything will be back to normal and good. We swam everyday and had surprisingly good weather compared to what the weather reports were saying. We ended up staying an extra night because we didn't go swimming until like 6 or something and mrs. Rajala didn't want us to drive home in the dark. It was really nice of her to let us stay. So on Thursday at 2 kristin had an appointment at Annie's book store for an energy reading. I really wanted one, and it just so happened that she had a cancelation at 2:30 so i fit in perfectly. Coincedence? i think not! So i got an energy reading and it was amazing. When she touched my head (my crown shakra) she saw a labarynth in a garden in france behind a church. Well, to her surprise, i told her i had been there and it was my favorite part of my trip to France. She was all happy about that. Then she said that i had a void in my stomach, which is the shakra about your perception of yourself. a void sounds about right to me when i think about how i feel about myself. she she helped me get rid of some of that negative energy. All in all it was a really amazing experience and i felt so light and good about myself after that...and i still do. Yay! Well, Now i have to decide if i wanna go with my parents to providence to see Fire Water and look around RISD. if you read this and you wanna do something more interesting than that lemme know. post comment

vacation...all i ever wanted [22 Jul 2003|12:05am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | brendon hovering over my head talking ] Ok, so for the next 3 days...as in tuesday, wednesday, and thursday...i will be in the cape chillaxing with brendon, jenna, nate, and the rajala family. It is gonna be an awesome time. Brendon is going to teach us how to wind surf, although i don't think i'll be any good at it. we're leaving tomorrow bright and early at 7 am. Should be interesting. Hopefully nate won't keep us waiting while he does his "nate time" as he calls it. Gotta love that boy. Anyway, i'm tired and i gotta get up bright and early as i already said, so i'm gonna go night night now. Have a good three days, and lemme know if you wanna hang out when i get back. Just gimme a call on thursday night. post comment

up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growning up [20 Jul 2003|10:03pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | glassjaw - radio cambodia ] Everything is falling apart around me. People are just having emotion breakdowns, thus causing breakups, thus causing more breakdowns and so on. Why can't people realize that when they care about someone that means they have to treat them with respect and care? People are just plain mean and vicious to one another and i don't get it. Hilary, i love ya. you are such a great girl and i'm so sorry that you're hurting right now. I'm always here for you. What should i do tonight....? 2 comments|post comment

survey - Everyone take it! [18 Jul 2003|12:01am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | New Thursday - for the workforce, drowning ] *****Who Am I?***** 1. What's my full name? 2. What is my birthday? 3. Who are my best friends? 4. who is my crush? 5. what is my hobby? *****Your Opinion Of Me?***** 6. Do you consider me a friend? 7. If so, why? 8. Am i cute? 9. Am i hot? 10. Am i a good person? 11. Am i funny? 12. Am i annoying? *****Would You Ever...***** 13. Date me? 14. If you already have, would you again? 15. hug me? 16. Kiss me? 17. get mad at me? *****Random Stuff***** 18. Who is my favorite band? 19. What is my favorite song? 20. What school do i attend? 21. What do i want to do when i grow up? 22. What do i want to study in college? 23. Would you hang out with me if given the chance? 24. Would you date me if given the chance? *****Serious Stuff***** 23. Do you consider me a good person? 24. What would you change about me? 25. What do you think is my best characteristic? 26. My worst characteristic? 27. Do you love me? 28. How would you describe me in one sentence? 1 comment|post comment

good stuff...yay! [17 Jul 2003|02:02pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | postal service - brand new colony ] So yesterday my parents bought me a car! woo hoo!! well, it's not actually mine, its more of a "family car". But i'll have it for work and school and stuff which is awesome. no more bumming rides off people. It's a silver 95 nissan altima with 80,000 miles on it. Only $6000. Not bad at all. So that's wicked sweet and i'm so excited because i can pretty much use it for whatever i want during the school year. Today i got my hair cut and got highlights. it looks really good. I think it makes me look older, which is never a bad thing. Tomorrow i'm going with the rents to boston i think to just walk around and chill. Should be a pretty good time. then on tuesday i'm going to the cape to see the Rajala's for a few days. That'll be wicked sweet. i miss cait and kris and jenn alot. Kathryn, we really need to hang out really soon, i miss ya! I need to call betsy hollands too, i miss her a ton and i don't know how long she's been home from maine. we need to go see our men in pirates of the carribean. that movie is going to be soooooo good! life is good... 1 comment|post comment

apparently opinions are only important to those that are opinionated [14 Jul 2003|07:04pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Brand new - Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades ] So i was just finishing eating dinner and my brother, my mom and I were all sitting in the living room. so a comercial comes on that involves bar hopping, and adam makes a comment about bar hopping being ridiculous. so my mom says "it has it's place" and Adam says "it doesn't in amhearst" and i say "it doesn't anywhere." Adam proceeds to tell me to take my opinions and shove it because i'm immature and don't have any frame of reference. Excuse me? First of all, Adam only told me to shove it because my opinions differed from his, and because he drinks he took it as a personal insult, which it wasn't. But just the fact that he told me to shove it because my opinions differed from his shows that he is the one that's immature. people need to understand that YOU DON'T NEED TO EXPERIENCE SOMETHING TO KNOW THAT IT IS WRONG!!! look around. People around me have died from drinking...DIED. what more do you need to know to realize that absolutely nothing positive comes from drinking. i don't need to drink to know that. I'm pissed about this. this is one of the few things that i am 100% confident in myself about. Drinking is wrong. period. People do it because it makes them feel good and helps them escape from their hectic life? try dealing with your problems, resolving them, and learning to love life while being 100% coherent and in your right mind. Then maybe you'll realize the drinking is a ridiculous means of escape. Wow, sorry, i kinda went off. if you drink, please read this and try to understand where i'm coming from. and next time you go to drink, think about why you're REALLY doing it. Ok, i'm gonna get off my soap box now. 1 comment|post comment

The quiet things that no one ever knows... [12 Jul 2003|11:37pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | gang of four- i found that essence rare ] name: Audrey nicknames: aud, audj, audball, audrey jeanne-bean birthday = May 22, 1986 piercings = ears and eyebrow...both closing up at the moment tattoos = coming soon...will be my gemini sign inside a wild star burst thing, probably on my shoulder height = 5'3" about shoe size = 8 or 9 hair color = brownish blonde eye color = hazel-green on a good day, blue on a bad last... x. movie you rented = i work at a video store and i don't remember the last movie i rented..how sad is that? x. movie you bought = return to Oz x. song you listened to = Brand New- me vs. maradona vs. elvis x. song that was stuck in your head = the mars volta - televators x. song you've downloaded = the postal service - sleeping in x. cd you bought = guster- keep it together x. cd you listened to = brand new/ taking back sunday mix x. person you've called = Jenna x. person that's called you = Kristin do... x. you have a bf or gf = nope x. you wish you could live somewhere else = maybe at some point soon, like ireland...but for right now, i'm cool x. others find you attractive = i dunno...i don't think so? x. you want more piercings = yep-lip x. you want more tattoos = well, since i have none, yes x. you drink = NOOOOO x. you do drugs = NO x. you like cleaning = sometimes when i get into cleaning mode x. you like roller coasters = yes x. you write in cursive or print = i kind of mix them up into one another in my own wierd way x. you carry a donor card = nope for or against x. long distance relationships = If it is meant to be, yes x. using someone = NO x. suicide = Nope, not personally, but everyone has that choice to make for themselves x. killing people = no way x. teenage smoking = No x. doing drugs = hello? i'm straight edge x. premarital sex = if you are with who you are meant to be with, yes x. driving drunk = who would be for this? x. soap operas = eh, i don't really care either way favorite... x. food = wendy's x. song = too many to list x. thing to do = anything art x. thing to talk about = emotions x. sports = badminton baby! x. drinks = arizona ice tea and water x. clothes = comfy jeans, hoodies...basically anything comfy and non-slut x. movies = Fight club, the matrix, return to Oz, american history X, Amelie x. band = Guster, TBS, brand new, the postal service, the mars volta, cat power, the used, thursday, thrice, finch, etc. x. holiday = my birthday/halloween x. Holiday? (US Version) = same as above x. Holiday? (British version) = eh? x. cars = jetta x. book= celestince prophecy have you... x. ever cried over a girl or guy = but of course x. ever lied to someone = yes x. ever been in a fist fight= nope x. ever been arrested = nope what... x. shampoo do you use = whatever's in the shower at the time...usually paul mitchell x. perfume do you use = candies and rush...mmm... x. shoes do you wear = chucks, flip flops, adidas sandals, red docs x. are you scared of = never finding him, creatures of the ocean, deep water...basically the ocean and all that it encompasses...except i don't mind going to the beach and going in the water...wierd eh? number... x. of times I have had my heart broken?: 2 or 3 x. of hearts I have broken?: 2? x. of times I have been in love: once x. of boys I have kissed?: 4 or 5 x. of girls I have kissed?: mom...and like my friends on the cheek x. of continents I have lived in?: 1...i lived in france for 9 days..does that count? x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: 6 x. of people I consider my enemies?: no one..enemies are silly and a waste of energy x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: well i'm still in high school..but i have kept in touch with about 7 people over the summer so far x. of cd's that I own?: about 100 or so x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 2 times x. of scars on my body?: 2 big ones...then lots of little ones x. of things in my past that I regret? i don't regret anything post comment

So write these words back down inside, that's where you need it the most [11 Jul 2003|08:38pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | cat power - free ] So i just got home from working a 6 hour shift, which i'm not used to working. I'm feeling really icky as a result. maybe because i haven't eaten anything all day and people are really mean alot of the time. No good. I wish things were more clear to people...like realizing what's important and what really isn't at all important. Why can't people just GET it. I don't really know what i'm talking about, just rambling. I want to be able to see what i'm suppose to be doing right now, because most of the time i just end up feeling useless, which sucks. I wish i felt like i did something that affects people. And i know most would say my paintings effect them, but i just don't feel like they REALLY do. and i don't blame them, because painting is a very personal thing, so i don't expect anyone else to understand what a painting truely means. and without an explination, most people can't fully absorb and comprehend something. but eh, who knows what the hell i'm talking about... 2 comments|post comment

the stale taste of recycled air [10 Jul 2003|01:27pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | The Mars Volta- Interactic ESP ] No work today...yay! Really not much to talk about...i was just bored so i figured i'd write something. I wanna start a new painting of this really cool face that i drew in art class at the end of the school year, but i have no new canvas! I gotta hit up michael's soon. When my mom gets home she's gonna get me started on making a piece of stained glass. she's been making glass for as long as i can remember, but just recently i've been wanting to make my own. i designed a really cool abstract shape. It should be a good time. Justin and I had a good conversation last night that didn't include Breanne interupting us...yay. It's really nice to be talking to him again. i have to get tickets to warped tour...it's going to be SO GOOD! the used, Thrice, all-american rejects, etc, etc, etc... 2 comments|post comment

"share with me, cuz i need it right now, let me see your insides" [09 Jul 2003|09:52pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the postal service-nothing better ] Wow....about a year and a half...quite a long time. So i've been very compelled recently to start my journal again. I stopped coming online entirely for quite a while, and now i'm becoming reaquainted with it. So yeah. alot of growing and changing has gone on since you last heard from me. Alot of new music listened to, alot of people talked to, and alot of learning finished. I will soon be going into senior year, thank god it's almost over. Art college here i come! I wish communication were easier. I wish you could talk to someone without picking up the phone or driving over to see them. and i wish they knew what you were thinking right when you were thinking it and knew exactly what to say or do to make everything better for you...or me in this case. Justin, i want you to read this. And if you do, i just want to say a few things to you: I am so overjoyed that we have started talking and becoming friends again, but it doesn't mean anything unless you are just as happy. And it doesn't seem you are. I need to know that you are putting as much into this as I am, which is alot, because this is really important to me. But every time i attempt to talk to you or see you, it never happens. And it's not because of me. I just want to be able to see you and hang out with you and be real friends instead of this stupid back and forth game we play. we aren't accomplishing anything. We are still in the same place we were when we weren't talking a month ago. i really do love you, but i just wish you would stop hurting yourself. I don't understand why you smoke. I don't understand why you drink. I don't understand why you do drugs. please, if you care about me or our new friendship at all, just take some time to actually talk to me so we can get past all this stupid shit. But if not, then i guess it will be what it will be. Ok, i'm done with that. And i'm done with this. post comment

If i could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by? [20 Feb 2002|12:24pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Thursday - understanding in a car crash ] haha, i suck. Sorry to all ther people who read this. Yeah so alot of time has passssssed since january 11th. Not a qwhole lot has happened in the wonderful world of audrey though. It's vacation...rock. Friday's another one of my boy's shows at WPI. Yeah, AML rocks. Kris and k-dogg are taping it for a project for school, how cool is that? it should be pretty fun. We're gonna chill with them while they aren't playing. TASL is playing too, and AML and them hate eachother for some unknown reason, so that'll be funny too. Well friend stuff is a little better with one person, but not another. But i have a feeling it will get better soon...i hope. Blah. So yeah. OHHHH...haha, this is rich. Julia connelly called me. That was soooo fuckin bizarre. It was werid to hear from her, but it wasn't really her because she's changed so much since she moved that i barely even know her anymore. I feel bad for her. Oh well. I miss the real Julia. :(. But what can i do, ya know? Well i think that's about it. I promist i'll try to update more. See ya later heartbreaker. 1 comment|post comment

"i've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answers" [11 Jan 2002|11:03pm] Whoa, sorry about not updating..i've just been too busy with my insanely huge social life. haha, yeah right. so i had a rad new year's eve. I went with k-dogg and Kristin to the AML show in leominster to see my boys play. MY dad got us lost and flipped out and it was hillarious. We could'nt help laughing, but i felt bad because my dad was wicked pissed. Andrew and i didn't talk much because we're both shy, but next time, i swear! we met Ally and Lauren from clinton who apparently know alot of the junior guys from Tahanto, so that was cool. Then after the show i went til the rajala's and hung thier til 4. That was a good time. Now it's back to school and getting ready for mid terms, which sucks major ass. The sooner it gets here the sooner it's over though. I'm just praying it's easy. Tommorow Jen, Lauren, K-dogg and i are working on our spa project and then i'm going to the SJ dance probably. Sunday kris and i are studying for a history test, sounds like fun! ok i love you all, check ya later! post comment

"you're neurotic as a child" [15 Dec 2001|10:40pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | "i won't be home for christmas"- blink ] So saturday's party was pretty rad. I was in a weird state of mind though. I'm kinda bumming about who knows what....not like that's news or anything. Peter was there with his girlfriend which made me cry because when i love someone as much as that kid i think anyone they're close to besides me doesn't appreciate him as much as i do so therefore doesn't deserve him. I just wanted to go over there and shove his girlfriend aside, even though she was wicked nice and i really liked her, and like hug him for 4 hours and just cry on his shoulder. He is the best hugger, and i miss him so much. It was so refreshing to hear him say he missed boylston and wished he could come back. when he left kris and i went into the bathroom and cried. we need to finish our letter to him. I need to get his number too so i can call him and cry and just tell him that i love him because not enough people in his life truely understand how amazing he really is...his parents in particular, but that's a different story. Luke and Noah were there too which was rad because i have'nt seen either in a while and it was nice to hang out with them again. Luke is gonna try to come over more and chill when he's at his dad's, which is rad. Too bad andrew and mike couldn't make it. oh well, i'll see them soon enough. Tomorrow is "the talk" and the nutcracker. I'm so ready to just get everything off my chest when kris, jen, rach, k-dogg and i all talk about everything. The nutcracker will be awesome too. well i think that's all...christmas soon! woo hoo, i love christmas!! 1 comment|post comment

"cheer up my friends all say, you're better alone anyway" [10 Dec 2001|06:06pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | NFG - broken sound ] fuck that quote. Man i'm in a bad mood and i don't really know why. Well yes i do. Mike and andrew can't go to the party! i'm wicked pissed. Like no one even understands how pisssed i am. But once again i hold in my emotions because i'm weird and don't feel like i can talk to anyone because i feel like i'm being judged or just not listened to at all. and then some of my best friends who will remain nameless for right now are really pissing me off. It's like the rest of us are always 2nd best compared to "the guys" or whatever. fuck that man, friends are forever, guys aren't, so get over yourselves. At this point i don't really give a fuck if they read this and know it's them either, because i have held this is for ever and i'm finally fucking realizing that i should'nt have to censor myself for something that's their fault. Like kathryn said, it's like we get the left overs. I'm sorry, but i'm greedy about my friends sometimes, esp. when it's suppose to be our night and yet they go off and hang out with other people the whole night and barely even talk to us. what the fuck is that? i need a hug. i need someone to talk to right now too...but no one is online and kristin's phone is busy. Dammit, i need to just scream....fuck i'm mad. sorry to anyone that read this, most likely i love you and you're my friend so sorry you had to go through this. 3 comments|post comment

surveyness!! [22 Nov 2001|10:59am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | system of a down - chop suey ] I see : a puter screen and a messy table I need: more self esteem I find: lots of cool stuff when i clean my room I wish: my wishes came true I love: music, friends, family and art I hate: when people aren't themselves I miss: having a boyfriend I fear: heights, flying, and never finding love again I feel: ok I hear: garbage - can't cry these tears I smell: my mom making stuffing..mmmm... I crave: boys I search: on the beach for fun stuff I wonder: how everything is created I regret: not acting like myself when i hould have When was the last time I ... Smiled?: yesterday Laughed?: last night..histerically at Ed Cried?: probably about a week ago Danced?: right now in my chair Were sarcastic?: 24/7 Kissed someone?: this survey is mean....a while ago...:( Talked to an ex?: well i talked and said hi, but he didn't say anything back...asshole... Watched your favorite movie?: i don't really have a favorite movie... What was the... Last book you read?: A Separate Peace Last movie you saw?: tomb raider Last song you heard?: Garbage - Cherry Lips Last thing you had to drink?: diet coke....mmmm... Last time you showered?: about 20 minutes ago Last thing you ate?: peanutbutter toast Do you... Smoke?: never Do drugs?: never Have sex?: no...not right now atleast Sleep with stuffed animals?: no Live in the moment?: i try to Have a dream that keeps coming back?: sometimes Play an instrument?: i have a guitar...but i wouldn't say that i know how to play it too well Remember your first love?: yes, i miss it Still love him/her?: no Read the newspaper?: sometimes Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yup..ricky's a sweetheart...and nikki's bi, so i guess that counts Believe in miracles?: nope Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: i hope so...but i think so, yeah Consider yourself tolerant of others?: for the most part Consider love a mistake?: never Like the taste of alcohol?: i don't drink..but i used to take sips of my dad's beer and i liked it Have a favorite candy?: pink necco wafers, twix, and anything super sour Believe in astrology?: kinda Believe in magic?: i'm not sure Believe in God?: nope Pray?: no Go to church?: haha...no Have any secrets?: of course, i don't think you coyld find someone who doesn't Have any pets?: syd the dog, binky the cat, & schnook the cat Go to or plan to go to college?: Rhode Island School of Design..i hope Talk to random IM people?: i love to! Wear hats?: nope, not usually Have any piercings?: eyebrow and 2 holes in each ear, but i don't wear earrings Have any tattoos?: nope...not yet, hehe Collect anything?: Concert tickets!! oh yeah kathryn!!! Have a best friend?: kristin, caitlin, kathryn, rachel, jenna Wish on stars?: i haven't seen a shooting star in a really really long time, so i can't make wishes on stars 2 comments|post comment

"the happy period song??" [21 Nov 2001|09:37pm] [ mood | creative ] [ music | the happy vagina song?? haha!! ] lol, that quote has quite an amusing story behind it. So today we had a half day due to the fact that tomorrow is thanksgiving and all. So Ed, Kris, Jenn, Lena, Chris, Heather, and I all hit up friendly's after jenn and heath and such picked us up. we had an $80 check!! At friendly's!! how is that possible!!??!! well somehow we managed it and then we all booked it back to lena's. after arriving there, we proceeded to play a rousing game of sherades, which rocked. Oh man, that was the funniest game of sherades i've ever played, and beleive me, i've played alot. Kris, Ed and i were on a team and kristin was up, and her thing was "the happy birthday song"..which i don't think is even the title. So we got "the happy ___ song". at this point ed and i had no idea what she was trying to show us. So she lied on the floor, opened her legs and pretended she was pulling something out!! ed was like "the happy vagina song??" which made us all fall on the floor laughing histerically. I almost pissed my pants. Then he says "the happy period song?" which made things even funnier. Oh man, we could'nt stop laughing for like 10 minutes, but thankfully i finally guessed right...but we still lost. That was the funniest thing that has happened in a looong time. It was great. I love my friends. They are so rad. Lena was making fun of me at friendly's about things that i wish not to talk about for fear that certain people might have access to this journal. So yeah, that was my fun-filled day. Oh wait, i forgot to add that after sherades jenn, kris and i went back to there house and i helped clean dishes! woo hoo!! haha, ok, peace out homeslices... post comment

"damn you Audrey, DAMN YOU!!!!!" [10 Nov 2001|05:40pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Guster- Bury me ] That quote is me talking to myself about this journal. I guess i just forget about it until i read other people. and then i'm just too lazy or have nothing interesting to say so i blow it off. And then i start talking to myself which is how i get such lovely quotes as the one you just read. Which then brings us all to this lovely entry i'm typing away at right now. Well, alot has happened since i last wrote in october. I went to NFG, which rocked my fucking stripey socks. Oh man, did they rock. They were wicked rad, and hanging out in the freezing cold for an hour and a half and seeing mike but not actually talking to him, now that was stellar. haha... good times, good times. So lately i've been having this whole "down on Audrey" thing going on. i know, i know, this happens alot, but lately i've just been like...blah. I dunno, i think i'm getting over it. that's always a happy thing. Hmm, boys, well boys are a weird subject. I have my evil eye on 2, but i'm not sure anything will happen with either. They are both wicked rad and i think they rock. So yeah...that's pretty much it with that, because i don't wanna get into that subject anymore becase then i'll just get even more confused. future plans: 1] out with Lena, Stu, Ed, Kris, Cait, Jenn when lena, stu, and jenn get back from college on the half day before thanksgiving. We're planning on hitting up Friendly's and then playing some rousing game of sherades( spelling?)...sounds like fun eh? don't be jealous. My friends are the best. 2] lunch with the fab 5 on the 30th (we actually had to plan that far ahead so we could all go out together, that's how busy we all are. I feel like i'm 40, it sucks) 3] thanksgiving break with be fun filled i'm sure... 4]fab 5 christmas party, good times, good time... so that's whats up so far, catch ya later my peeps...word..peace out... 2 comments|post comment

survey's are fun! [21 Oct 2001|06:29pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | Garbage ] What time is it: 6:29 pm What is the date: October 21, 2001 Name: Audrey Sex: female Birthday: May 22, 1986 Where do you live: Boylston, Ma. Where else have you lived: malboro What state: MA Zodiac Sign: Gemini Nicknames: Audball, Aud, Audj, bitch Do you have a b/f or g/f: damn you....no Who is it: See above Where were you born: malden What hospital: malden hospital What are your hobbies: any form of art, boys Hair color: Brown, chillin like a villan Ever died your hair: holy shit man, like every month, the craziest was when i did the whole thing electric blue Hair length: long and icky, i'm chopping it all off wednesday though, yay! Eye color: grayish / hazelish...i like em Height: 5 3 or so Have any pets: my dog Syd,and my 2 cats Binky and Schnook (don't ask) Siblings: Adam Do you have glasses: yup, they are rad to the max Shoe size: 9 in womens Day of the week: thursday and Wednesday Holiday: halloween Season: Fall Month: May Actress: Fairuza Balk i think..but there are others Actor: Johnny depp, but many many others T.V. show: simpsons, that 70's show, ripply's believe it or not Food: anything yummy (but i'm picky, so that's not alot) Drink: diet coke Band: oh man...MM, blink, lifehouse, alanis Morrisette, Garbage, FID, AML, NFG, binocular, Guster, etc, etc... Male singer: Jason Wade Female singer: Alanis Morrisette Word: anything with NESS on the end of it, rad, stellar, rockin Brand of shoes: anything cheap and comfy Room in your house: living room or my room Concert: MM, Blink and the palladium, NFG at the palladium, blink at centrum, AML at palladium CD: TOYPAJ, Holywood, Supposed former infatuation junky, Smashing pumpkins double cd Friends: the fab five man, i love you guys! Best friend: kris, jenna, k-doog, rach, caitlin Do you make friends easily: uhmm, not many people wanna be my friend... Who do you think would help you the most if you were in trouble: any of the above Jeans or Khakis: jeans Comedy or Drama: Comedy Computer or TV: computer Gold or Silver: silver if i have to choose, they both kinda suck Outgoing or Shy: in between Tall or Short: pretty short...:( Day or Night: night Radio or Cd's: cds Internet or Phone: depends on the situation Happy or sad: i'm usually not all that happy, but there are the occasional instances, and those rock Guy or girl: Guys are cool when they are themselves and i like who they are, girls suck Cute: me? well i would'nt say i am, but i like it when boys are Tough or wimpy: i am one tough mofo Funny or hilarious: HilariousNESS Summer or winter: autumn Love or lust: love, but it's great when you get both together Friends or family: both Car or truck: Car Dog or cat: dog Walk or run: Walk Hurricane or Tornado: hurricanes are awesome to watch Coffee or tea: coffee usually but i like tea more Coke or pepsi: DIET coke Black or white: both together Chocolate or vanilla: swirl Diary or journal: livejournal Writing or typing: typing Cold or hot: hot in the shower, cold outside Pen or pencil: Pen, esp when it's like red or purple or something Candle or insence: Candle Plain paper or lined paper: lined for writing, blank when drawing Blonde or brunette: blue Curly or straight: i have straight hair, and i don't really care either way Blanket or sleeping bag: am i camping? Shower or bath: Shower Body wash or soap: soap Purfume or Body spray: i usually am scrubtastic and don't care, but i like perfume i think Wal-mart or target: walmart Pop tart or toaster strudels: uhmm, i don't eat either usually MTV or VH1: i watch mtv but i like VH1 way more because they play guster and stuff.... Shorts or pants: pants Tank tops or t-shirts: both Markers or colored pencils: acrilic paint Boxers or briefs: i wear "panties"..haha..dude it's all underwear, and yes i wear underwear Army or Navy: ah!..neither! Striped or plaid: both together...like plaid pants and a striped shirt, that is so stellar Innie or outie: innie SNL or mad tv: SNL is rad! i love you dana carvey! Drummers or guitar players: i like a certain singer...;)....but i guess i like guitar players...even though i still love travis Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee: both suck and i haven't had to deal with either in a while which is good what do you think love is: something everyone should have but not everyone finds, which is sad How long have you been together: uhmm...what? First grade teacher's name: mrs. Carter..i didn't like her i don't think Last song you sang: Garbage, i think i'm paranoid Last time you bled: like 3 days ago i think cd inyour CD player: Garbage, volume 2.0 Kids names girls: Wednesday, Geniveive, Gwendaline, Meegan Kids names boys: Graham, Colby, Gaven, Travis, Carter Stayed up all night on the internet: not since summer... Do you like your handwriting: most of the time Do you have any piercings: 2 in both ears and my eyebrow Ever worn black nail polish: ya Do you have your own tv and vcr: no..:( What is your last name backwards: kcaM AIM or MSN Messenger? AIM Sun or Moon? Moon Christmas or Your Birthday? Christmas Bath & Body Works or The Body Shop? Skinmarket Flirting or a good conversation? both at the same time is awesome What time is it: 6:55 pm post comment

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