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In my boredom this afternoon, I've been perusing the bridal gowns at David's Bridal. Silly me.
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[25 Feb 2003|11:04pm] |
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I'm counting stars
Lying under, watching you through my walls
All the lights have gone out
I know you're listening now
You've been spinning around, turning slowly
Orbiting round my house
And it's a feeling I get
I know you're listening now
Now my fingers are cold
But I have touched you
You're all I need to know
Don't fade from me now
I know you're listening somehow...
15 days
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[25 Feb 2003|01:56pm] |
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Kitten In Action!
Pay close attention, when he comes up to the camera he is not meowing, he's spitting! It was a priceless moment. I thought, "Ohh, he's coming to stick his face in the camera, this will be good!" and..."pttttht!" was what I got instead. Gotta love kittens.
See it again:
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[24 Feb 2003|03:32pm] |
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Today sucked because it was Monday. Although not over yet, the work day almost is.
Bryan called again yesterday morning. He was tired, I was tired...it was an interesting conversation.
[me] I miss you.
[him] mmph ...er... I miss you, too. ::yawn:: That's what I meant to say.
[me] eh? ^^
Hehe, it was cute. Graduation getting closer for us, so much closer. 16 days.
Yeah. I need to take my Monday annoyed-ness to the gym and work it out. After that I'm going to have dinner, watch Fear Factor and...probably not much else. I need to call my grandma and see when she wants me to bring the kitten over. I still haven't settled on a name for the little guy...
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| What would you name me? |
[22 Feb 2003|10:43pm] |
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( So... )
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[22 Feb 2003|11:43am] |
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Yay, I'm up and I've been up for quite a while. It feels good to go to bed at a decent time and wake up likewise. Now I have things to do...just waiting on my mom so we can go shop. I need to find something nice to wear to Bryan's graduation. Must not forget Kohl's gift card.
::sigh:: That's all, I guess.
18 days. :}
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I'm driven by desire, I could never turn back
I'd want more, so much more
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[21 Feb 2003|10:16pm] |
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For the first time in almost 2 months I spent a Friday night out. Mike stopped by my house and I decided we should go to dinner. I got cleaned up and we went to Applebee's and talked for about 2 hours. It felt good to get away and laugh and talk about silly things. We'll have to do it again.
Along with that, I got a pile of mail from Bryan. Two letters, 2 cards, 2 postcards. He's so sweet. ::gives him squishy hugs from afar::
I think it's bedtime for me. I'm going to try to get some things done tomorrow...my mom and I might go to KC for a little shopping.
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[20 Feb 2003|03:46pm] |
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Bryan called at 8:40 last night...thing is, we got disconnected after about a minute and a half. Don't know what happened there. So. I wonder if he'll get a chance to call back tonight or I'll have to wait until another day (probably Sunday again). ::sigh::
My hands are cold and I'm sleepy. Only 10 minutes left here at work, and then I can go home to...more work. Gotta clean the kitchen, make dinner, do laundry...who's taking bets that I won't get half of that done? I need to though.
20 days. Please let them fly.
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forget yourself and be
close your eyes and see
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[17 Feb 2003|08:26am] |
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Not only is today a holiday and I'm working, but it's also started out as one of those days where I should've stayed home in the first place. Things don't seem to be going right. My hair is just short of a disaster (I dyed it last night....), I had a huge choking fit just as I was about to walk out the door, I couldn't get my car unlocked, said car is also nearly out of gas and I don't wanna pay $1.50-something for it, and the whole way to work I saw hardly anyone...except us dedicated employees.
BLEH! My head hurts.
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| Wake-Up Call |
[16 Feb 2003|08:58am] |
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I got what I wanted at 8:19 this morning. Granted, it caught me off guard because I was expecting him to call about...12 hours later than this, but I don't care. He was allowed a whole 20 minutes to talk, which compared to the usual 5 led to a more relaxed conversation and I got to hear more about how he was doing.
Bryan's really missing me. He's only said it once since he left, but I can tell by the other things he says. He tells me that I'm the only thing that's getting him through this, and that when graduation comes he'll enjoy seeing his dad and brother but most of all me. Hearing my voice is "more comforting" than anyone else's. He hasn't even taken the time to congratulate his brother because he's been using all his phone time on me! Ahh, that's love. So he thinks that I should talk to his brother and pass on the congratulations. That's not love. Chris doesn't like me. :P
*sigh* Here I am awake because I'm excited and happy that he called. The sun's shining in my room and it's too bright. I'm all sticky but can't take a shower because mom isn't finished painting the bathroom. It's going to be hard to fall back asleep, and I'm not even sure I want to at this point. Oh, what the hell. I'll try to settle back in.
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first light in the morning
shadows start to fall
temptation is calling
calling for us all
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[16 Feb 2003|12:03am] |
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Well, let's hope not. Another day goes by and still nothing from Bryan. Tomorrow, maybe, he'll call. Unless his platoon has been unforgivably defiant, they might get some free time tomorrow, and besides, he's getting close to blue phase which means more phone privileges.
In other news, I worked hard today and am so close to having his quilt done.
( See? )
Anyway. I'll do as much as I can tomorrow. This whole project is waaay ahead of schedule.
Oh...I got Liquid today. ::squeals::
Bleh. I can't seem to type tonight. Must be time to go.
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I think I'll find another way
there's so much more to know
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"Annie, Would I Lie To You? (Y1.999K Remix)" Iris |
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At least I didn't sleep all day. My head hurt too much, so I just stayed awake at 10:30. Time to throw in some laundry and get myself together. I'm going to grandma's to work on the quilt. I think I might even be able to finish it by tomorrow. That'll give me plenty of time to get it sent off to be machine quilted and be finished before Bryan returns in June. It's gonna cost me an arm and a leg though. >_<
Okay, enough blabbing. I'm gone.
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does it seem so wrong if I now embrace
every single thing I've never known
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[14 Feb 2003|10:41pm] |
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It's hard to elicit sympathy when there's no one around to sympathize. There is absolutely no activity online because everyone's out with their mates, or at the very least just off having fun somewhere. Me, I'm stuck at home with a list of things that need to be done and no motivation to do them.
I'm lonely.
Bryan didn't write me and he didn't call today either. I don't know, am I being unreasonable? I realize that he's in basic training and doesn't have much freedom. Maybe none. But still...he had been writing me at least 3 times a week.
I try not to put too much emphasis on Valentine's Day because it's just useless. If you have a partner it's fabulous. If you don't have one, or do but can't be with them, then it just sucks. You can't ignore this holiday. It gets under your skin and makes you miserable. I'm not supposed to be feeling this way. He loves me just as much as any other day and just because I haven't heard from him doesn't mean he doesn't care. Tell my stupid head that.
It's almost over though. Tomorrow will be just another day. I'll wake up and go about my business and forget that nothing spectacular happened on this Valentine's Day.
My mood just slipped as the day went on. When I finally got home from work I found a box on the coffee table. My mom had picked up Snowball's cremated remains from the vet. At that point I just lost it. I sat on the sofa and cried. My day had almost completely turned to crap.
Things hadn't totally deteriorated until now...as I realize that the phone's not going to ring and I should just give up worrying about it. I just want to go to bed and forget about it all.
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[12 Feb 2003|10:14pm] |
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Good things came to me today.
For one,  riven sent me a CUTE Valentine's Day card. :D Marmars, am I mistaken, or on the envelope of the valentine did you write "Miz Jenn2"? If so, then you're a very silly, clever girl. If not, then I am a very silly, clever girl for thinking so. At any rate, it was very cute and thoughtful. (p.s., I love Tigger!!)
Second, Silverbeam released their new album, Liquid, and I snatched that up today. I'll probably get it by the beginning of next week. I'm so happy! Their music is incredible.
The third thing was my own doing. I've got 3 of 5 rows of Bryan's quilt made up. I'd say another week and I'll have all the blocks finished.
Today is also our 25-month anniversary, but hell, who's counting? XD
So anyway. Other than that it was a typical day. I finally got my teeth cleaned. Hooray for me, 20 years and still no cavities.
I guess that's it. 'Night!
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and I wish you all the love in the world
but most of all I wish it from myself</i
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[11 Feb 2003|02:09pm] |
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My mom and I are conversing over email about the various roadkill we've seen over the past couple days (skunks, mostly). "The first one got run over...the second one came to see what was stinking!"
...Although it's rather contradictory of me, it's the simple things that make you laugh, no matter how bizarre and disgusting they are. XD
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[10 Feb 2003|03:48pm] |
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I'll see you in 30 days.
Thirty days.
Thirty days.
It feels like it could be tomorrow...
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I can be anything that you want me to be
anything is possible 'cause
nothing is too small
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[09 Feb 2003|10:29pm] |
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Long before Bryan left, he said he wanted me to write him a really pink, girly love letter. What better time to do it than Valentine's Day? I bought a nice card with a pink envelope, and wrote his letter on some old pink notebook paper I had...with pink glitter ink. I sealed it with a lipstick kiss and a dab of my favorite perfume. He's gonna croak when he gets it. XD
Now I'm thinking about going to the post office to see if they have any V-Day type stamps like they have in the past.
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[09 Feb 2003|09:28pm] |
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Again, totally unexpected, Bryan called me. My cell phone's ring has never sounded so nice. We got to talk a couple minutes longer...he still sounds different but I wasn't as shocked by it so I could continue a decent conversation. lol It's down to a month and we're both excited about getting to spend time together. Bless my mom, she's going to get us our own room at the hotel. "I didn't just fall off a turnip wagon! I knew you two lovebirds would want some time alone." What would I do without such understanding parents?
Well, I need to get ready for bed. Another boring Monday is ahead. :P
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there's no dark clouds in my world now
there's no dark clouds only sunshine
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[07 Feb 2003|07:00pm] |
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"That's How Much I Love You," Jamie Myerson |
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No mail from Bryan today, but.....
jmyerson: I got the CDs...made my day! Sky City is really beautiful. I'll have to email you...
Now that I have some new music to entertain me, I'm just going to sit here and vegetate for a bit. Not much to talk about.
Awww, a kitty flopped on me. :D
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[07 Feb 2003|08:40am] |
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I hate LiveJournal, that's why I'm probably going to have to get a paid account. When they say 5 posts, does that include comments? That would probably explain why it has eaten one of my comments already.
BAH!
It's Friday and I don't want to be here.
Edit: There, you fools got my $25. And look! My posts showed up! XP~~~~~~~~~~
Heh, I'm so easily persuaded. Maybe someone will teach me how to make pretty layouts now. ::pout::
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