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Monday, April 18th, 2005
10:58 pm - stolen from tyson.
You go find a song that everybody knows and put the lyrics into the Babelfish (http://babelfish.altavista.com/). Translate them from English to German, then German to French, and then French to English. Then post here with 3 clues. See who gets the song right first.

1. Becky.
2. big gold chains and hats
3. knight


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(this is not the whole song... but a good part of it that you should be able to figure out)

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Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
12:08 pm
my stomach hurts.

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Monday, April 11th, 2005
10:12 pm
At around 7:30 two overly perfumed women went through my checkout line at work. I started feeling completely sick to my stomach from their scent. it is now 10:15 and I STILL feel like freaking puking from it.
seriously.
eww.

anyway

THANK YOU!! to everybody for making my birthday oh-so-much fun! i had a really great time with you guys

and eventhough i do not say it much. I really do love every single one of you so much. I have never had such a great group of friends
<3

(special props go out to christie, carson and ryan for letting your place be trashed and making awesome food. also to heather for providing us with the much needed alcohol and cake)

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Thursday, April 7th, 2005
11:48 pm
heather wrote that last entry. please post all responses in Reminiscor_ipse

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10:23 pm
god im so fucking horny.
bloody goth sex NOW

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1:31 am
WHO IS COMING TO MY PARTY?

AND WHAT TIME IS BEST FOR YOU!!



come on. i am trying to make the plans here.

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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
12:22 pm - Just a reminder!
My party is THIS SATURDAY!!!
and I WANT YOU THERE.

what time is good for everyone?

we are going to eat at Ryan, Christie, and Carson's apartment, and then we will either sit there, play games and watch movies... or go to the bar. (any bar, except Mr. B's in rochester)
Which do you prefer? I just want people to have fun.
either one sounds like fun to me

INPUT!!!!!!

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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
10:02 pm
shannyn sossamon is on law and order!!

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2:22 am - candace already posted most of these, but I never did

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Friday, March 25th, 2005
1:29 am - the world has gone mad
this boy in my philosophy class made some comment today that involved his girlfriend.
this girl next to me turns and says to me and the guy behind her "i thought he was gay"
i ask why
her response?
"he wears tight pants"



please shoot me now.

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
6:35 pm
frusteration

these past few days have helped me realize that i need to get a hold on my weight issues. I went out to take pictures with Candace today, and basically any that show my body look like crap. I can not take it. I love and am attracted to the skinniest of skinny people ever, and I can never get to that.
I just dont understand because, I dont eat alot, nor do i eat unhealthily. i have difficulty getting myself to workout, but i have been working on that and trying to do it at least 3 times a week.
i really dont understand it.
i will make a plan to lost at least 10 lbs by my birthday, so that i do not have to cringe at those pictures as well

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Saturday, March 19th, 2005
5:00 pm
I just have to post some more placebo lyrics that I really like. I always loved this song, although i didnt really understand fully what it was talking about in some parts. I read an interview with Brian Molko and he explained that he wrote this song for his girlfriend right after 9-11. They were living in New York City when all of that happened. He said that everyone was going crazy with conspiracy theories, and it was just hectic and stressful there. He wrote this song for her to tell her not to worry, that even if something else were to happen with their physical bodies, their love would surpass it.


"Sleeping With Ghosts"

The sea's evaporated
Though it comes as no surprise.
These clouds we're seeing,
Their explosions in the sky.
It seems it's written
But we can't read between the lines.
Hush, It's okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes

Soulmate, dry your eyes
'Cause soulmates never die

This one world vision
Turns us in to compromise
What good is religion
When it's each other we despise?
Damn the government
Damn their killing
Damn their lies.
Hush, it's okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes

Soulmate, dry your eyes
Soulmates never die



maybe this sounds simple, but you really have to hear it with the music. It is just so incredibly sweet and it used to make me cry whenever i heard it, haha

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4:30 pm - this is amazing


http://www.casperstartribune.net/articles/2004/12/04/news/wyoming/835f726da39128a787256f5f006be02d.txt

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I have been downloading music like a wild-man ever since I got the cable modem.
I downloaded a ton of Placebo B-sides, most of which i have previously owned, but somehow seemed to lose all of.

anyway, I have had one song on repeat. It is a new one that is so sweet, and I love how it sounds.
here are the lyrics:


"I Do"

I want to be much more like you,
Your effortlessly graceful scene
That drips from every pore of you
Where logic cannot intervene.
I want to take a bath with you
And wash the chaos from my skin.
I want to fall in love with you,
So how do we begin ?

I want to be a girl like you
The way you swing your hips in jeans.
I want to wear my face like you
Shiseido MAC and Maybelline.
I want to paint the town with you
And tickle you until you scream.
I want to fall in love with you
I want to say "I do"

I want to say I do.

I want to be much more like you
The way your smile lights up the room.
I'll kick back as men flirt with you.
Till jealous, I will stay amused.
This confidence in me and you
This hope that you and I will bloom...
I want to fall in love with you
I want to say "I do"

I want to say I do.
The question is do you ?

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this song is definatly a nice change from their previous ones that talk of golden showers, spunk, role-reversals, beautiful asses, and silver rockets.

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Monday, March 14th, 2005
1:37 am - picture time again
my hair is all gone

Christie cut it, and I love it.
Remind me to never grow it out again.


Out with the old:
Image hosted by Photobucket.com

And in with the new. (sans make-up)
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Sunday, March 13th, 2005
3:31 pm
looking through my friends page, I just get more and more aggrivated.
there is so much drama, so much B.S.

I do not even care to read much of it. There are only a handful or so of journals that I am actually interested in. Everytime I log on I hope one of those ones has updated.

But i am just getting so sick of the whole thing. I am cutting down my friends list. I am sure a couple of you will retaliate by cutting me off of yours, and thats fine. if those "friend of" numbers are so important to you, I'm sorry.
I am cutting it down to only people i actually know, and a couple journals that i enjoy reading.

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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
12:49 am
Tonight Steve and I went to see "Bad Education." It was a pretty good movie, overall. There were some really really cheesy parts to it though, and my eye-candy, Gael Garcia Bernal, was all beefed up for much of it. He did not look so great all muscular. but there were some scenes that were shot before he gained the weight (he played 2different characters) and those were A+. He cross-dressed and made me happy

This movie was rated NC-17 and it shouldnt have gotten that. The only reason it was rated NC-17 was because of the homosexual sex scenes. These scenes were less graphic than you would find in a normal hollywood heterosexual movie. there was no full on tongue kissing, no nudity, and there was one oral sex scene, but everything was carefully covered by huge ratted hair and leg positioning.
that is ridiculous.

I got a cable modem a couple days ago. yes i know, i am the last person on earth to get it. I am completely obsessed with downloading music videos now.

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Saturday, March 5th, 2005
3:23 am - I took this from another journal
1. What School did u attend?
Adam's High school and Stoney Creek High school (they moved all the Adam's kids over there senior year for renovations)

2. What year was it?
i believe 1997 to 2001

3. What were your favorite band(s) or artist(s)?
PLACEBO, Marilyn Manson, fiona apple, NIN, Orgy, Tool, Tori Amos, Garbage, Esthero, Portishead, Hole, Smashing Pumpkins, T.H.C., The Cure, Ani Difranco, System of a Down, Janis Joplin, Jack off Jill, Bjork

4. What was your favorite outfit?
Knee high lace up black platform boots, Fishnets with thigh-highs over them, school girl short black skirt, short sleeve black collared shirt. tons of bracelettes, tons of eyeliner, and dr. seuss lunchbox that i put pictures of Twiggy and Brian Molko all over

5. What was up with your hair?
many different colors. blonde, dark brown, black, purple streaks, It was always long except for senior year when i went from dark red to white blonde and had to cut it all off because it was breaking.

6. Who was your best friend(s)?
Anna, Matt, John, Katie, Kelly, Emily

7. What did you do after school?
Went home, went shopping, drove around trying to scare and annoy people

8. Where did you work?
Senior citizen's home

9. Did you take the bus?
Hell no

10. Who did you have a crush on?
depended on when. I had huge crushes on anyone who didn't look like everyone else. with a special place in my heart for boys who dressed like girls

11. Did you have a girlfriend/boyfriend and who?
Quite a few of them, although I have never been one to call someone my "boyfriend." the 2 major ones were Jason and John. both lasting about a year

12. Did you fight with your parents?
Yes. I had a lot of problems and I fought with them constantly

13. Do you consider yourself as a Nerd, Jock, Party Animal, Bully?
I was pretty "Goth" for quite a while

14. Favorite Subject?
Psychology, ceramics, and jewelry making. Video production was damn nice too

15. One favorite moment you remember about your senior year?
At the senior breakfast the school was actually dumb enough to give us a big sheet for everyone in the senior class to autograph. Matt and I defiled it and wrote out SLAYER big across all the names.
also, i helped write the script for a morning announcements puppet show that was broadcasted across the school on TVs. that was always fun because we would write out skits and stuff.

16. Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?
Brian Molko, Twiggy

17. Did you smoke cigarettes?
Baby, I smoked cloves.

18. Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day?
I dont think so. I dont really remember

19. Best event ever?
hmmm. I honestly cant think of anything that stands out. maybe threatening to beat up this huge football player because he threw ice at me.

20. Did you have a 'clique'?
Matt, anna, emily and I.

21. Where was your Senior Prom at?
Do not remember. I had a hotel room that night. I got sick during prom and we had to leave to go there for a little bit, then went back. I dont remember much of prom for some reason

22. Did you have a "Max" like Zach, Kelly and Slater?
nope. not really. does The Wired Frog count?

23. Admit it, were you popular?
I wasn't in the popular crowd, no. but everyone pretty much knew me.

24. Who did you want to be just like?
Shirley manson. she was just the shit to me

25. What did you want to be when you grew up?
Actress, singer, or forensic psychologist

26. Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?
I never really had a plan. I had always hoped I would be in a big city

27. What was the color of your yearbook?
um... ?

28. What was the colors of your school?
gold and brown

29. Where was your grad party held?
My house. John's band played

30. What do you predict you will look like at your 10 year reunion?
Hopefully pretty damn good

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Monday, February 28th, 2005
11:59 pm - no rhyming this time
Everyday, it seems, I wake up to a stranger in my bed.
I wake up alone, i stumble to my bathroom and look in the mirror.
I am always suprised at who is looking back at me.
I am starting to find new wrinkles, new folds, new spots on a body that was once so familiar.
I can see the resemblance, but almost like removing make up at the end of the day...
you look the same as you did before, but with a little more wear and tear
a little more real. a little farther from the begining, and closer to the end
every morning I wake up with the old eyeliner somehow smeared across my face
eventhough i tried so hard to take it off that night before
it is a sick reminder of that last day's events
kind of like the wrinkles, the folds, and the spots
remind me of all the years i spent putting them on
and every morning that i try to cover them up
still my face looks distorted, no matter what i use
and my body looks bloated no matter what i eat
I have lost track of that blonde five year old who
used to stare back at me from behind the mirror
I feel the same. i look a wreck
somehow the past 17 years have escaped me
flew by when i looked away.
and each morning i wake up, hoping to return to my toys
return to the make-believe.
but i am smacked in the face with reality
and maybe that is what caused those wrinkles, folds and spots
the continuous pounding has finally left it's mark
on my face. on my body
to some it is a beautiful reminder
but to me it is just a scab

current mood: silent

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Monday, February 21st, 2005
2:11 am
I am beyond tired. I had 1 hour of sleep last night, and now it is 2 AM, and I can not seem to pry myself off of this devil box.

i do not want to go to bed. I hate going to bed


going to bed and getting out of bed have to be my least 2 favorite things to do


yes. this entry is very profound.

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Thursday, February 17th, 2005
3:01 am - don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in
"I am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes
are mirror images and
when we kiss they're perfectly aligned.
I have to speculate
that God himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay.
True, it may seem like a stretch,
but it's thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away,
when I am missing you to death."

current music: postal service

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