Barely Tainted: You are a human being, and all
humans are susceptible to giving in to vices on
occasion. You try to lead a good life with your
friends and family, but you cant help but to
have a bad thought or two on occasion. As long
as you dont act out your dirty little thoughts
everything is fine though, right?

The taint on your soul is easily cleansed with just
a little effort.


How Wyrm Tainted Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Barley Tainted???!??!?!

WTF!

Damn it I knew i was trying to hard, Now the Kid Gloves are off!

Wraith: Death has claimed you, but you can not move
on just yet. Something has kept you from moving
on to your final destination. Even in death,
you still have ways of affecting and
communicating with the living, however your
resources are rather limited. The only way for
you to continue your shadow of an existence is
to feed off the negative emotions of others,
and/or to receive energy from the ties that
keep you tethered to this mortal realm. These
ties are your life blood, your true treasure,
and you would guard them with every fiber of
your being when needed to.


What type of World of Darkness Creature Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Riley's, or as I like to call him Opionated Ass, journal.
This is where I posted it... The Original

Hey Riley,
Remember this? Dated 05:26 pm April 27th, 2004... The Grand Stinkpalm!
Less then a month before Ryan went into the hospital, Well you Opionated Ass, Yes, I believe you were lying to me about Grabbing Alexis's ass, No, I haven't believed 90% of what has dribbled out of the orifice you call a mouth for quite some time, but you know what? I swallowed my pride, I kept the bile and ichors I wanted to spew in your direction for the sake of the LARP, (and you fellow LARP'ers out there who read this before he deletes it, like other sheit he has, The Ass-Grab Incident with Cold-Hearted Beoytch! and You is what started turning me off the LARP, in fact I made the decision that night at Starbucks to drop it as soon as I could find someone to run it)later for Ryan. What You and Cold-Hearted Beoytch! did to Ryan's Mom, Kicking her out was WRONG... There will be no validation for that, the Woman’s Child was in the hospital DYING and you kick her out. Did I mention she was Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! Roommate and friend's MOM? wasn't sure there. Then take the keys so his boyfriend has to come begging for you to have access to Ryan's stuff, Ryan was paid up for the WHOLE Month and you removed his only means of access to his belongings. Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! effectively kicking him out before his paid through date, and when I come to you open hand asking Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! to do the right thing, to do the fair thing, It was you and Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! time to get me to at least speak in your defense, I trusted y'all to make the right choice to not spit in the eye of friendship and decency, to prove to me, that this was all a big emotional mess which had gotten out of control. To validate my keeping my mouth shut, to not make me feel like an ASS for trusting. To Top it all off y'all had the audacity to ask me to help you MOVE!!! Ball's that's all I got to say, BALLS! (I'll give y'all credit for that).
If Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! had that kind BALLS when we called (yeah Donnie made the call, but it was my decision) To let you know that Ryan was going to be taken of support to die, You and Cold-Hearted Beoytch's! could not be bothered to even try to see him, and believe it or not, if you had I, that's right Myself, would have stood in your defense only because I felt it would be the RIGHT thing to do. But you didn't, and what did you do when Donnie called you to tell you he had passed, nothing... a pitiful LJ post, that's all... Well Guy's and Gal's, I won't be helping you Move, I won't be keeping my mouth shut and yes I do have a copy of the LJ posts for this day and I will post, e-mail, generate in poster size if necessary. All I will ever have to say to you or Cold -Hearted Beoytch! is Fuck you, Fuck you very Much.
Enjoy Your So-Called Life,
Mike

Here the raw text of the origanal entry labeled "The Grand Stinkpalm!"
05:26 pm April 27th, 2004


rileydag
Here we go again, RANT REVISITED...
...well, another week is here and things are busy as ever. This is a good thing. Plenty of work to do, plenty to accomplish and plenty of satisfaction of a job well done each day. Some people get a real rush from closing a sale, I get a rush from fixing a problem. Someone can't get something to work and I come in and save the day. Not that I can fix everything or I know everything, I'm not a god, but I can do quite a lot. crystamarie has found a wonderful condo that she wants to buy. It's close to Marta and work for the both of us. The only wrinkle is her current roommate, he will have to find a new place to live. I've talked about him in the past in an entry or two. He's a good fellow, but he's not had the chance to grow up, I mean really grow up. He's got it in his head that having AIDS makes him unable to work, unable to do anything except play on the computer all day long. Now I don't want to sound heartless here, some people who have AIDS are in really bad shape, they can't work. But if you are able to go clubbing on the weekends, play a LARP every other Saturday, go to the weekly downtime meetings, go shopping, then you would be able to work a job. I know a lot of people who are HIV positive, have full blown AIDS and work all kinds of jobs, good paying jobs. Heck, he could even go to college and get his degree. There are quite a few scholarships for people who have AIDS. Now, out of respect, I've not put his name here when I'm ranting. I'll not do it now, but those of you who know me and Marie know who I am talking about. I will be the last one to tell someone how to live their life. I'm not his parent, but when you are disrespectful to my girlfriend, I'm going to say something. If you are disrespectful of my girlfriend's apartment, if you are going to speak lies about my girlfriend, I'm going to say something and if you are disrespectful of me, I'm going to say something.Nuff said... Current Mood: annoyed

13 comments or Leave a comment



Comments





Thread started by Danny W. Harbison



From: moonwing Date: April 28th, 2004 - 02:35 am (Link)
One wonders
One wonders however, if respect cuts both ways. One also wonders about oaths and oathkeeping.Danny(Reply to this) (Thread)



From: crystamarie Date: April 28th, 2004 - 02:42 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
Can you explain please?(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: moonwing Date: April 28th, 2004 - 02:59 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
One has heard of others disrespecting this person in front of his boyfriend. I'll be the first to say that this person can be as annoying as hell, but one wonders how much effort others make to make allowances for different backgrounds and different situations. Speaking as someone who recently lost a best friend due to oathbreaking and outside influences from significant others, one knows the damage this kind of situation can bring to a friendship. One would not wish to see it on either of one's friends.One has also heard from others in the one's former LARP of complaints about this writer and being less than honest. One has also from these same others about the Lady in Question's association with this writer leading to irritating behavior on her part.One simply would like to see respect cut both ways. One would also like to see a friendship that seemed to be doing well until this writer became involved heal itself. One wonders how much this writer is responsible for that dissolution and how much the person in question's own annoying behavior has to do with it.One also wonders if the Lady in Question is willing to work toward that healing to keep her own oath to this person. One asks that this writer keep in mind one's religion and its value of oaths and promises. Even the Goat's Tetherer was willing to become pregnant by a horse to keep from breaking an Oath he'd made, thus giving birth to the All Father's steed. Oaths and joining of Meagn are important to one.(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



(no subject) - rileydag



From: moonwing Date: April 28th, 2004 - 03:20 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
Of the first two one knows nothing except that everytime one has been over, the apartment has been cleaned.Of the third, one still wonders how much one would want to befriend someone who attacks them in front of their boyfriend. This comes from the boyfriend, not the person in question.As for the fourth, one has heard a different version of that from others at the LARP.As for the last question, one would hope that both parties would sit down and discuss it without EITHER of the significant others involved.**grin**This Poledra Mode is kind of fun.(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: rileydag Date: April 28th, 2004 - 03:33 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
On the first two, if the apartment was cleaned, why were there roaches in the kitchen and Ryan's room where there had been none for the past six years.On the thrid, how do you define an attack? Asking them to clarify something and catching them in a lie? Is that an attack, no. Yelling at them to stop lying behind my back, that I will grant you is an attack.The fourth, hmm, I am referring to Mike's LARP. Several individuals came to me and Marie seperately, asking us what was going on and repeating the previous statement.As for your last comment, I agree. Marie has talked with Ryan without Kevin or myself present on numerous occasions. This I get from Marie and since she's never lied to me, I would have to believe her.(Reply to this) (Parent)



From: rileydag Date: April 28th, 2004 - 03:18 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
Oaths: Ryan will not bring visitors to apartment without allowing the Lady to meet them first, BROKEN, as recently as this past Monday night.Ryan will clean up after himself, BROKEN.Riley will be Ryan's friend, BROKEN BY RYAN. I had made up my mind a long time ago to find a place for the THREE of us. When did this change? When Ryan went to everyone in LARP and started to tell them that He would have to move back to Arizona because Riley was not looking for a place for him to stay. He lied about me behind my back, then flat out denied it when confronted in front of everyone at LARP.Danny, I understand being patient, but this is the tip of the iceberg here. Ryan continues to put words into my mouth and frankly, I am sick of it. Most recent case in point, last Saturday night. He asked for a ride to LARP. I said sure, but I am on call and if I get paged, I have to leave right then and there. He went and called Donnie and told her that I refused to give him a ride.I am a patient person, but a line has to be drawn somewhere. Everytime I talk to him, he twists my words and creates a world of drama.I was his friend, but tell me, if a friend started to treat you this way, would you want to be around them?Danny, I consider you a friend, so, from one friend to another, you might want to sit this one out. I don't think that you want to get caught in the middle.(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: moonwing Date: April 28th, 2004 - 03:22 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
Very well, one will butt out, and say nothing more.(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: crystamarie Date: April 28th, 2004 - 04:06 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
We just don't want to see you get hurt. It seems that ryan is running to all of our friends and saying things that are not true. Unfortunatly for him, none of those friends believe him and are tired of his drama. the apt is only clean now because i make a big deal about it a lot. there are still roaches roaming around and i kill 1 or 2 a week. i have never had roaches in my life and it is just diguisting. if i had not insisted about certain cleaniless, it would be really nasty and you would notice. ryan has broken every oath he ever said to me. and i cannot see how he expects me to uphold an promise when he has not done so himself. i am tired of his drama. i am tired of him taking everything that people say and turn it around to make him be a victim. he is not a victim. i also don't like the way they talk about you and other friends when they are not around. that is another way of knowing if someone is talking behind your back. ryan does not realize that he has burned so many people at LARP and they really do not want much to do with him. kevin flat out lied to me to my face. i will not forgive him for that. i am also tired of the fights that they get into. i do not have the patience nor time to deal with them. i don't need to hear their disrespectful taunts to each other then the slamming of doors, etc. I have on MULTIPLE occasions brought this up and it stops for a day or two...then they go right back at it. Why should i have to deal with it?? It is my apt...not kevins nor ryans...i should feel comfortable and relaxed...instead i have a sense of waiting for the explosion to happen...which happens often. riley mentions about the work thing for ryan...i don't think anyone expects him to go to work full time at publix or something. But their are soooo many places that he could do something part time. The book store or the gaming store...something to get out of the house and to get a life. but something would be better than nothing. and he has yet studied for his high school test nor mentioned it. he does not want to do it. gaming is more important to him. not work or getting his diploma. he PROMISED to have his diploma before the end of 2003. As you can see...he broke that too.riley & i would love to hang out with you sometime...maybe we can get together this weekend for lunch on saturday...or something. i don't want this BS with ryan to keep us from staying friends. :-) (Reply to this) (Parent)



From: tempest_azure Date: April 28th, 2004 - 06:19 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
Riley, I am reading this as a third party, and I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO GET INTO THIS. However, my name has been mentioned, I have a right to restate what I have said on numerous occasions-I never said Ryan told me you and Marie refused to give him a ride. That is not what I said to Marie on day of game when I called her, that is not what I told Mike, that is not what I told you, that is not what I told anyone. I told every single person involved that I misunderstood Ryan, I thought Ryan said you were called in on your 90min recall and no one can make it to game, not Riley is on 90 min recall and if he gets called we have to leave game. It was my misunderstanding not Ryan lying or anything. In fact that is what I told Marie, how is got to you like that is beyond me. However, I think it is pretty shitty that you continue to bring it up even after I have said to your face I misunderstood Ryan and apologized. So quite blaming him for that, it is making me look like the liar, and I didn't lie to anyone.Everything else, not my business. Just thought I would say something real quick about that...(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: tempest_azure Date: April 28th, 2004 - 06:24 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
BTW: I am not saying this to make Ryan look good, or you look bad. I really do not want to loose anyone as a friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



(no subject) - rileydag



From: tempest_azure Date: April 28th, 2004 - 02:38 pm (Link)
Re: One wonders
HE DIDN'T!!! THAT IS WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY. I MISUNDERSTOOD HIM. SHIT, ARE YOU READING MY POSTS?(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)



From: rileydag Date: April 28th, 2004 - 02:41 pm (Link)
Re: One wonders
Hmm, my bad. You did clarify the whole thing at game. I'm sorry for misquoting you.I told Ryan I was on 90 minute recall so that he would understand that I would have to leave if paged. If he didn't want to have to worry about having to leave game early, he could have said just that, no one would have been upset. (Reply to this) (Parent)



From: rileydag Date: April 28th, 2004 - 11:28 am (Link)
Re: One wonders
I don't want to loose you as a friend either. I'm not going to ask you you to pick sides, a real friend would not do that to someone they want as a friend. I will do my best to leave you out of it.(Reply to this) (Parent)

Current Mood: pissed off

Dear Breed Apart Members,
I want everyone to understand that the decision I have made was not entered into lightly, I have agonized over this decision for the last couple months.

I will no longer run Breed Apart.

There I have said it. This means that for the foreseeable future LARP events are suspended. No Downtimes, no downtime reports, no Venue Nights.
None of the current ST-team feels as if they would be respected, wanted have the time and/or the experience. The LARP is a source of Pride for me but I have found that it was also suffering under the law of diminishing returns. There are many reasons and events that have led to this moment, some are from the Venue itself, some from the Social incidents involving the people of the Venue, and some are just extremely personal reasons. I will be more then willing to talk about them but I can't promise you will get everything, I wish to protect the innocent and the guilty.
There have been quite a few friendships made during the LARP, and some Friendship were broken, some people I guess I won't have the opportunity to get to know better as I suspect that there will be some hurt feelings, maybe some feelings of betrayal, and Misunderstandings. All I can say is... if you are having negative feelings at all; please give me a chance to speak in my defense.

Maybe some day in the future I shall be willing to run again but right now... it just too much.

If anyone wishes to continue Breed Apart... Let me know I will lend you what support I have.
But...
It will not be at mine and Donnie's Place.
I won't play in it, at least not anytime soon.
I won't share anyone character info without the players decision.
I will be an ear and a source of game history if you so need it.

Once again Thank You for your company, I'm sorry the ride has ended.
-Mike-

Current Mood: melancholy

I figure I'm probably just looking for an excuse to be cranky about the LARP, but I feel as if I put a lot of creative juices into it, as well as time and energy prepping the house, character sheets, being available, not to mention effort being concerned about peoples enjoyment and how to get and keep people involved and interested. On just the Sat. of LARP most the day is taken up cleaning and prepping the house, then doing any downtimes and NPC's we might need, then there's last minute questions that arise, this generally leaves me no time for myself prior to Venue, not time during Venue, and then there's the inevitable time after venue when players want to discuss the Night. By the time have of the Night is gone I have a splitting Headache and an incurable desire to re-enact Vlad Tepes favorite activity using the LARPers as my victims.
I wonder if anyone has any idea how hard it is to take White Wolf amazingly well crafted while ate the same time horribly loop-holed game and turn it into something everyone can enjoy. And then there is the task of making sure the social aspect of the game is kept in tight reign. Players using out-of-game knowledge, some quite innocently enough and others not so innocently, work to keep that from happening without stepping on the oh so sensitive toes, as well as net the criminal in a net they can't wiggle out of. Then there is the out-of-game feelings effecting in game character interaction, and what about players just doing bad things and then lying about it. I won't even get started with the fact the rarely does anyone help clean up, but at least people are starting to wrap their heads around the concept that we will no longer provide beverages and our house isn't a snack bar.
The thing that get's me is that LARP Plots are supposed to be relatively self perpetuating once set in motion. I know allot of people "say" they like where the Meta-plot is going, and they “say" they really enjoy the venue nights, but they don't seem to do anything with what they have.

If you want to show me you appreciate the Plots then don't tell me jack, show me, show me in character interaction, show me in well thought out downtime reports, show me in your ACTIONS!!!

I would be happier then a Pig in Shit if I had to spend the entire venue night answer endless array of question regarding the Meta-Plots because the character are desperately trying to find out what's going on so at least they could save themselves.

The other thing that cheeses my wet noodle is the lack of Rule Book use.
If you own a MET: Laws of the Night book then use it, if you don't and you have been playing more then three months then buy it, Heck everyone in the LARP gets 10% off at Titans.
When you fill out a downtime, have the influence section open and look at it, if I get one more "to see what the news is on "insert influence"
I'm going to Blue Bolt someone, really I am. Don't force the storyteller to make any decision regarding your character's downtime other then whether you get what you ask for, if you don't think you would, then neither will I.
Next...If you are engaging on anything that requires challenges, don't stick it in a downtime "assuming" it's going to happen, it won't a challenge is a challenge and that means a challenge must be physically done. If you are needing challenges then set aside time in YOUR Busy schedule to run the challenge, and keep in mind I have 20 or so other players that also want a piece of me. And on that note...
Donnie and Rich are AST's...that is Assistant Storytellers...focus on Storytellers which means they are not just a couple of humanoid tree stumps to be ignored until you need a challenge and then use them like a challenge pez dispenser... Most of the meta-plots they can answer questions on, heck they even has plots they run that I'm not sure what's going on exactly. Lauren and Greg are Referees' and given respect and a chance...Damn good ones. If you just need someone to run a challenge scene, or someone in an official capacity to witness something get them before you grab Donnie or Rich and definitely before you grab me.
*Sigh*
I and reaching a point where I'd get more of my story told if I ran it as a tabletop with just the people that have shown a desire to move the Meta-Plot's along....
I need a reason to continue Storytelling the Breed Apart, it's my baby, but damn... there is only so much time in my life, and I want to feel as if the effort is worth it.

Current Mood: discontent

Your Magic Abilities by Stathgar
Name/Username
What is the magic word?
Telepathy: 70%
Premonition: 75%
Clairvoyance: 17%
ESP: 30%
Psychic Ability: 53%
Psychotic Ability: 59%
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Well today was also reasonably boring, Last Night I ended up putting the living room back together after tearing it apart to fit in a new Entertainment center that was given to us Sat. night. By the time I was done I wasn'y in the mood anymore to fiddle about with minatures nor on SWG. I watched Fellowship Extend-o-vision instead. Tonight after work is St Meet, gotta talk plot updates and discuss an issue on importance, What can go on and can't at a downtime meeting. At one time I thought it would suffice to just say no character deaths, but it is now neceassary to become more detailed... I HATE BEING A RULES LAWYER!!!
I have no choice, since the buck stops here when it comes to rulings in game, but with each time a overly generous ruling is made with the belief "No one will abuse it" enevitably it come back to bite me on the ass. This causes me to be far more willing to say NO then Yes as No's are less likely to get abused then Yes's are. Also No's require much less stress and worry. So to this I say where is my motivation to say Yes to a special something in game, pro's One person and one scenes interesting, Cons Endless statements like "You let so-so do it" or "It work that one time" or *whine* "I don't think it is fair that you said yes then and now your saying no", also there are the enevitable, Rules Juggling that will happen when it gets abused, and defending my original decision like I'm a State Senator, and the thing I hate the most...possible Scene retraction.
And let me tell you my delightfull Larpers out there, Nothing and I do mean NOTHING chaps My Ass more then having to retract a scene, I will deal with just about everything else, but Scene Retraction especially when I'm cleaning up a rules infraction that someone else could of or should have known better.... Damn just makes me wantch to chew lightbulbs with Tabasco (i'm highly alergic to something in Tabasco) *sigh*
I think with this second post I might wish to warn anyone who play the LARP, be warned you may want to stop reading my LJ as I suspect this will be my vehicle to blow steam, but keep on if you want a clue as to wants going on in the ID of Mike...at least in regards to LARP...

Current Mood: bitchy

Day was kinda boring very quiet at work, since we have a no reading policy on mondays (because they are suppossed to be too busy to read on) I downloaded a game on my phone and played that for a while instead, but that got so boring after a while that I figured I'd log into the production (main call cue) and do calls in there, mainly out of boredom but also so it will bump up my call numbers. Since I got bump up to Escalations (when all you types ask for a supervisor at a service company, that's the position I have now) all I get is cranky "didn't get what I want types" or mega-Liers or Ones in sucha sad state of affairs that they think a Supervisor will help when the Agent could not. It's kinda draining most days, since I now get even less people that I can help then before. 90% are already up shit creek before the call gets transfered to me. I do feel bad for some, most I do not, but oh well a jobs a job, Right? Anyhow kinda thinking about playing SWG tonight, though I'd like to start assembling my early arrival B-Day gift from my lovely Girlfriend (and in this case my game/drug supplier) which is a Tau Battleforce Box Set and a Tau Devilfish Tank. Now I have not played Warhammer 40k since the days of Rouge Trader, I remember fondly (and later not so fondly) the release of the first Harliquin Eldars, I remember being kicked all over the table by those very same Harliquin Eldars, 0-17 games or something like that. I did much better at Cons, but there i always stayed away from anyone playing Harliquins. Idin't matter what army I played either; Orks, Space marines, Imperial army I gave a good fight with or against each of them. So I'm saying this because a friend of my is building a new Harliquin Army, but there are also a Necron, Chaos Space Marines, and 2 Space marine Players so at least he won't be my only choice to face off against (must fire up the lucky dice).
It's funny ever since my Mom died about a month ago my view on things have been a little different. I still like RPG's, and in theory LARPS, but I'm finding that the big draw and desire to devote large amount of time to them has faded a bit, this seems to be in direct relatio to my desire to do crafty bits and/or watch TV (something I've never been a big fan of). I'm not really sure why, I know there have been a few things lately LARP-wise (and yes after all this time having a LJ I'm breaking my self-imposed rule on not talking about games in my journal) that has begin to sour me on being involved with it. Don't get me wrong once the scene is on, i'm caught up in all the hoopla as much if not more then the rest, but this week the Glow of game fade by today (venue was on Sat), usually it will hold until after the follow thusrday, but this time nope gone, fizzled out sometime right after I got to work, and considering that work wasn't stress-full at all...well....
I'm really not sure what to do about, I can't keep from have story ideas and plot twists, and tweaks and concepts, I love being in the thick running scenes and setting up hidden plot suprises on the fly, but it's like my tolerence to deal with everything that goes on around the LARP just kinda itrratates me. Girlfriend and Storyarcher are all for helping but I think the help has come to lat, I think I just waited to long to realize I needed some help with things. Now its like there is this bucket that filled with water and all it takes is one little pebble to spill the hole thing. I don't want to walk away from it, it would be too much of a shame to ruin such a good thing that people seem to enjoy, and lose an outlet for my Ideas, but I'm afraid that if I don't figure something out then I'm gonna end up despising evryone and go and hide in an evil Castle and dump boiling Nacho cheese on everyone that comes a-calling (and yes the gaint bag of tortillas would be dumped next) well gotta go...works'done for tha day....

Current Mood: annoyed