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| 1403P 06.02.2005 | ||||
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The beginnings of the party construction have begun. Step 1: Tiki Bar. Before.  After.  Added Bamboo. After Dark. Sort of.  Added lights. Remember February 19th Tiki party at the House of Yes. |
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| Imbibe 6 - Inject | ||||
| Oh and there we were all in one place, a generation lost in space with no time left to start again, | ||||
| 2011P 03.02.2005 | ||||
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A long, long time ago I can still remember how that music used to make me smile and I knew if I had my chance that I could make those people dance and maybe they'd be happy for a while but February made me shiver with every paper I delivered, bad news on the door step, I couldn't take one more step, I can't remember if I cried when I read about his widowed bride but something touched me deep inside, the day, the music, died. So... CHORUS Did you write the book of love and do you have faith in God above, if the bible tells you so, and do you believe in rock n' roll, can music save your mortal soul and can you teach me how to dance real slow? Well I know that you're in love with him cuz I saw you dancin in the gym you both kicked off your shoes and I dig those rhythm and blues. I was a lonely teenage bronkin buck with a pink carnation and a pick up truck but I knew I was out of luck, the day, the music, died. I started singin... CHORUS Now for ten years we've been on our own and moss grows fat on a rollin stone but that's not how it used to be, when the jester sang for the king and queen in a coat he borrowed from James Dean and a voice that came from you and me, oh and while the king was looking down, the jester stole his thorny crown the courtroom was adjourned, no verdict was returned, and while Lenin read a book on Marx, the quartet practiced in the park and we sang dirges in the dark, the day, the music, died. We were singin... CHORUS Helter Skelter in a summer swelter the birds flew off with a fallout shelter, eight miles high and fallin fast, its the land that falled on the grass the players tried for a forward pass with the jester on the sidelines in a cast, now the half-time air was sweet perfume while the sergeants played a marching tune CHORUS Oh and there we were all in one place, a generation lost in space with no time left to start again, so come on, Jack be nimble, Jack be quick, Jack Flash sat on a candle stick because fire is the devils only friend, oh and as I watched him on the stage, my hands were clinched in fists of rage, no angel born CHORUS I met a girl who sang the blues and I asked her for some happy news but she just smiled and turned away, I went down to the sacred store where I'd heard the music years before but the man there said the music wouldn't play and in the streets the children screamed, the lovers cried, and the poets dreamed but not a CHORUS They were singin... Bye, bye Miss American Pie drove my Chevy to the levy but the levy was dry an them ood ol' boys were drinkin whiskey and rye singin this will be the day that I die. Bop on with the dip-de-dip-de-dip you heroic butterflies. Goodbye ~N Song by Don McLean |
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| Imbibe 5 - Inject | ||||
| 1947P 31.01.2005 | ||||
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My eyes feel like they are going to ooze out of my skull. So very tired of looking at computer screens. I am trying to keep my eye off of the monitor as I type this. I am heading closer and closer to spending 9 hours a day in front of a monitor 5 days a week. Looking at code, all day. Trying to fix every little issue that comes up, trying to change the way everything works at the whim of my leaders. On the up side a dual T1 connection makes for a fantastic torrent. I am building a fine library of movies and anime. Now I just need the time to watch them all. This weekend was nice. I enjoyed the relaxation the easy time spent in the house with my love and my roommates. I would have liked it more if it had come during the week so I got time away from work, but you can't get everything. We had one large limb crash into the house. It didn't come through the roof thankfully, but it did take out the floodlight on the back porch. That gives me a good excuse to replace it with a working one now though, so I don't really mind. ~N |
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| Imbibe 1 - Inject | ||||
| God Hates a Cripple | ||||
| 2210P 26.01.2005 | ||||
 Future T-shirt design. |
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| Inject | ||||
| Yay Skills | ||||
| 1441P 07.01.2005 | ||||
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It's amazing the new things you learn when you work for cheap ass bastards. I now feel more than qualified to add Low-Voltage wiring to my resume. In the past two weeks I have had to spend one day a week in the ceiling running new cables around the office. Last week I had to run a cat5 network cable the length of the office, and today I had to run a data line from a nortel phone system to our nice new high tech pitney bowes postage meter. Next week I get to run another phone line to the front of the building, and install a new network jack in the hallway. My fun just never ends. I would flee this wretched place early today, but I have to stay here and wait for System Baker(TM) to break something in the invoiceing system again this week. If not for her incompetance I could leave, no bosses, one in NYC, the other on the green. I have faith in her to manage it somehow so I cannot run away. Now I just try to look busy and hide till it is all over. ~N |
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| China Buffet Here I come. | ||||
| 1147A 04.01.2005 | ||||
~N |
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| Imbibe 2 - Inject | ||||
hungry| Small minded people | ||||
| 1728P 03.01.2005 | ||||
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They make my brain hurt. I want to kill them. If I kill them the company goes under and I no longer have a job. Thus I cannot kill them. So instead they make my brain hurt. Stupid boss beasts. |
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| Inject | ||||
| HA! Wouldn't you like to know. | ||||
| 1413P 03.01.2005 | ||||
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New Year, new things to try and accomplish. All things considered, last year was pretty good. Very cathartic, lots of healing from the changes of the previous year, lots of reevaluation of what I was doing with myself. Started working on improving my life in important ways. I have cleared a great deal of clutter from my life. Boxes left sitting untouched since the move have been cleared out. Boxes full of old relics from my past have been largely discarded. I am trimming the dead limbs from my past shaking myself free of a lot of old dead weight. It feels good. It is something I should have done long ago. I need to finish putting my life back together so I can return to my work. I have paintings to finish, pictures to play with, scraps to mold into art. So very much to do, so little stopping me besides myself. Resolutions for the new year boil down to one simple one. Finish what I start. No more half finished projects, no more stacks of plans untouched after the initial idea has been put down. I need to see my projects through from beginning to end. Without interuption or distraction. This virtual home to my ramblings, a high tech substitute for paper, ink and glue will be coming back into play. I need to force my hand and start moving forward again. Time to start. |
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| Imbibe 4 - Inject | ||||
| 1706P 21.12.2004 | ||||
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Gargle blargle arggg. Sandwich cheese toaster studel. Mix-it misfit tangle snot, re-bar ryan regain regale. Ham retard foil menstruate, while wonk we holler to the sky. Escobar minasai saddle-burn. Refenestrate emasculate! |
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| Imbibe 2 - Inject | ||||
| Too little Too late | ||||
| 1601P 14.12.2004 | ||||
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That is the theme of my financial situation. I keep trying to do my best to right my finances and keep my bank account in the black, and I keep failing. I am now enrolled with CCCS to help take care of my credit card debt. That started last month, and now I am trying to get all my other finances in order. Unluckily, this month won't even come close to me avoiding the red. In fact it looks like I will only be out of it for about a week at most at a time this month. The worst part of it is that I keep selling stuff off to try and help keep me above water only to get the money too late to do anything other than pay off the overdraft I have incurred since trying to sell stuff to keep myself out of the red. Put simply, everything I have sold thus far has done nothing but go straight to my bank in the form of fees. It's all been pointless. The worst part is now I can't even use a credit card to help myself out if I have an emergency. If I do I forfeit my enrollment in my debt management plan and am back where I started unable to make enough each month to even come close to covering expenses. As it is I think I just need to lock myself up in my house for the next 3 months and only go to work and the grocery store, if at the end of those 3 months I have money to fall back on again I will start to feel better and let myself out on special occasions. If not I will just have to suck it up and stay locked away for another 3 months. Maybe eventually I won't be completely broke, and perhaps I can teach myself to manage my finances better by then. Here's to a better time next year. |
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| Imbibe 8 - Inject | ||||
| Few Days Remain | ||||
| 1643P 07.12.2004 | ||||
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Eventually I will do a real update but for now... DECEMBERWEEN This Friday at the House of Yes, the latest Halloween party of the year. Costumes, fog, alcohol, all the things that make a great party. You know you want to be there, if you aren't on the evite let me know and I will add you. Otherwise, see you this friday night. ~N |
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| Imbibe 3 - Inject | ||||
| Decemberween 2004 | ||||
| 0942A 19.11.2004 | ||||
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PARTY December 10th The first annual Decemberween party. Think of it as an excuse to hold the Halloween party no one had time for in October. Costumes, candy, fog, alcohol. If you are not on the E-vite list let me know and I will add you in. More reminders as we get closer to the date. -N |
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| Imbibe 5 - Inject | ||||
| Been a while | ||||
| 0933A 19.11.2004 | ||||
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It's been a while. I have been super busy. With new skills at work I have been given even more to work on. I am finally starting to get comfortable in ColdFusion though. Still happy as can be. Still broke as ever. I want so many new things. My gamer geek side has been coming back out more and more strongly recently. The new Nintendo handheld is such an evil temptation I don't need, but really want. I am sitting down tonight and writing out a plan for goals I need to accomplish by the end of the year. Both short and long term goals will be going on the list. Then I work out a timeline and start getting shit done. After Halloween and all the mad running around from that I have taken a bit of a break which has been nice, but time to get busy again. Also put out the invite for the next party Dec 10th. Will give it a seperate post of it's own though. If you have not received your E-vite yet let me know and I will get you an the list. More later. -N |
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| Sick World | ||||
| 2343P 11.11.2004 | ||||
You are a sick bunch of bastards. |
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| Imbibe 11 - Inject | ||||
shocked| Brain is Jello | ||||
| 1615P 11.11.2004 | ||||
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Too many hours staring at a computer. Going over and manipulating the same sets of information. Slowly creeping towards a resolution. Not today though. My brain can take no more. I can't move them around anymore. One query and one program left to create then I am finished. But not today. Not now. No more. I just want to curl up in a ball and let my brain rest for a few hours. It hurts and can't really focus anymore. I need more of a break in my day if I am supposed to be keeping on task for this long. The lunch hour just isn't long enough to let my brain relax and get refreshed for the last part of the day. At least it has been a quite day. -N |
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| Strange Days Ahead | ||||
| 1509P 08.11.2004 | ||||
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Seems something odd is happening in my life again. For one thing I am happy. I am having fun, I am enjoying myself, I am smiling almost all the time. It's been great. I have been laughing lots, and just in general been doing things that make me feel good. My creativity has been at a steady level for a while. I have been repeatedly posessed by various projects. I need to work on my discipilne and being able to focus on a single project to bring it to completion, but that will happen. I am working on that more now that my creativity is at a very high level again. And for some reason it seems I am getting a lot of unusual gifts dropped in my lap recently. Last week I got admission to have dinner with a local radio station's morning DJs tonight. I had entered a contest for the dinner while trying to win tickets to the preview for Saw. Didn't expect to win, now I am going. It should be a laugh. Today I check my e-mail, I have passes to an afterparty for the Nintendo Fusion tour tomorrow night. Guest List, no cover, why the hell not. Worst case I show up, it's lame, I leave. In any case it should be an interesting night. Life does seem to be getting interesting again. -N |
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| Imbibe 7 - Inject | ||||
| Friday Free Me | ||||
| 1453P 05.11.2004 | ||||
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ARgh It is way too damned nice outside to be stuck in here today. Damned grey brown walls. I want to be out in the sun and the breeze. Watching the dried leaves flitting across my path. Not sitting in this climate controlled shell beneath the flickering light of the halogen tubes. I need to escape and play in the fleeting light of the day. -N |
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| Imbibe 3 - Inject | ||||
| Cleaning up and out | ||||
| 1652P 04.11.2004 | ||||
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Detox from all the caffienne and hebal stimulants this weekend is really making me tired and my whole body just sort of drag. Lucky for me the time changed or I would be in really bad shape. At least now waking up in the mornings matches a little more closely to my body's natural sleep patterns. Though mornings like this one are never easy to get out of bed on. Rain on the roof, a naked girl snuggling up to me holding my stuffed bunny (not a metaphor, a stuffed bunny named frankenbunny), and warm blankets to huddle under does not make me look forward to getting up. My co-worker brought over fresh fish he caught deep sea fishing in Destin a couple of weekends ago. I grilled it up and we ate it. Damn it was good. Then we all sat on the couch watching the new South Park and Drawn Together episodes. All I can say is octopussoir. Crazy Shit. Tonight I am dragging a heavy ass leather sofa upstairs. My mom got new furniture, and I reaped the rewards. Too bad they are heading back up to the mountain again before I will get to see them. At least I got a fine ass leather sectional sofa out of the deal. Halloween has almost been completely put away again. I still need to get a bit more cleaning done, but that will happen this weekend. Tomorrow it starts getting cold again, which makes me happy. I miss the cold. Now I get to use the fireplace again. Big roaring fires. So much fun to be had this winter. So many things to do. I can't wait. -N |
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| Imbibe 4 - Inject | ||||
| And it is over | ||||
| 1455P 03.11.2004 | ||||
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I certainly didn't see that coming. I was betting at least a week before the final answer. No challenge, no fight, nothing. Would it have been that easy if it had gone the other way? You can almost hear the briefcases and hopes of a thousand lawyers hitting the floor. There are still plenty of challenges to be made, but none as ready made. There are plenty of disenfranchised voters out there. I see civil suits and such, but nothing that will actually affect the next four years. Oh well. Here we are with 4 more years. I am making no predictions. No guesses as to the ways we will be fucked over in the next four years, but to paraphrase Nixon I am sure we will see more "business as usual" over that time. More no bid contracts to politically connected corporations who will waste out time and money. More erosion of the right to privacy. More bigoted "morality" put into law. A continued rise in our national debt. 4 more years. Welcome back Mr. President. 11 states passed bans on peoples right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. 8 including my own included language in the bills to help keep civil unions from being recognized. I will be drinking heavily for the next 4 years, and hoping that it doesn't get as bad as I fear it will. -N |
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| Imbibe 1 - Inject | ||||
| Day of the Dead | ||||
| 1035A 01.11.2004 | ||||
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I am still tired from this weekend. Tired and sore. It was however a fantastic weekend. I have pictures to post, stories to tell, and much cleaning to be done around the house, but all of that will get done. I have a full cauldron of candy again, and had a great Halloween this year. Thank you to everyone who helped to make it so wonderful. -N |
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| Imbibe 3 - Inject | ||||
| Spooky time | ||||
| 1257P 29.10.2004 | ||||
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Last night at the haunt was awesome. First time actually working a haunt and it is as much fun as I always though it would be. Can't wait for tonight. It's going to be even better. Now that we have had a good night to get into character it is going to be insane. Redneck Zombie Trucker went over so well at work today I was one of the costume contest winners. Another day of paid vacation I don't ever have the time to take. But that was not the point. The point is I made some of my coworkers jump when they saw me. Time to get done here so I can get ready for tonight. There is so much fun to be had I just can't wait. |
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| Imbibe 3 - Inject | ||||
| Good Idea Bad Idea | ||||
| 1710P 28.10.2004 | ||||
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Good Idea: Using your local thrift store to get big fucking horrorshow knives to use while working at a haunted house. Bad Idea: Keeping them in your car when you work with a bunch of retarded shit for brains that deserve to be stuck like roast pigs. |
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| Imbibe 3 - Inject | ||||
| Porno Horrorshow | ||||
| 1430P 28.10.2004 | ||||
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How am I supposed to focus on work when I have all these mental pictures running through my brain. Naked bodies, blood, knives, chains, cages. They are all just mishmashing together in my brain. I have images of vampiric orgies in rooms with bloodstained walls and gore pooled across the floor. Naked bodies covered in blood writhing around clawing, biting and penetrating each other over and over. I see girls chained to the walls inside a room able to crawl around tearing apart a body that strayed too close to them. Blood dripping from their hands, matting their hair to their faces and staining their naked bodies red. I see bodies laid open for disection, chest cavities emptied and open to the world naked morticians defiling the corpses, fondling the organs and raping unnatural genitals they have created from the flesh of the dead. All this and they expect me to be here for another 2.5 hours thinking about work. I don't want to be here. I want to be out spreading Halloween madness to everyone I meet. Tomorrow is going to be ten times worse. ~N |
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