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[25 Jul 2004|12:44am] |
I try to avoid actions that make other people feel obligated to give a certain response. An example of this would be sneezing. I try not to sneeze, because for the following few moments I'll be thinking about why everyone in the room is or is not saying "bless you." The words seem meaningless, but I somehow interpret whether or not they are said as meaning something. That and I just don't like obligations. I guess I think about other people too much. Or myself. Or both. Saying "I think too much" is one of those ideas I need to stop saying out loud, because it isn't going to change how much I think, and I'll just be wasting everyone's time repeating it over and over.
I've been thinking lately that when I describe myself or something or someone related to me, I'm not accurately describing it, but creating a story loosely based on reality. I exaggerate, simplify, generalize, as if it were the truth. It isn't, but I accept it as the truth and it changes who I am. So if I unknowingly blow a certain aspect of my personality out of proportion, my personality changes to fit that exaggeration.
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