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so in the next two weeks, my life will consist of work, school and trying to sleep. my store manager is out of the picture till further notice so i have to work more, which isn't a bad thing, just bad that its the last 2 weeks of the semester. i have a presentation left and 3 big papers. this is going to suck. however then i get a month off to work and chill. till then, i prolly won't be on LJ or AOL IM much, if someone wants to chat, email me at kizei@yahoo.com.
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| this is for all of you who have loved (all of you :) |
[19 Nov 2002|11:44pm] |
you touch
that hand of grace of silver of soft
you see
that wave of emotion that ocean of blue and green
you hear
the voice calling to you hushed by barriers and walls
you taste
that sweetness you had before, before then that it was
you know
the way she moves talks sounds sleeps
you feel
emptiness yet full, darkness yet light, warmness yet cold
you smell
that aroma that scent of all knowing yet all surpressing
you breathe
the lightest air that is broken with a sigh
you think
there is no such thing as everafters, everlastings, even evers
however
there is always that which brings us together
the
touching
seeing
hearing
tasting
knowing
feeling
smelling
breathing
thinking
that only we know
and can hold
with our hands that we hold our burdens with
our minds that are a cloudy clear
our souls that are intertwined
and our hearts that are forever ours
and forever free to give away
to those who are willing to accept them
protect them
and never let them go
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[16 Nov 2002|10:41pm] |
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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
its so nice to relax, even if its only for a lil while....and home alone!! when does that ever happen?
well, i just got off work, and i cleaned up because of course no one cleans up after themselves here (cept sami, OMG her room!!!!!!!! :))))))
boyz are gaming, cept brad he's on a date :)
so ima waiting for boyz to return and then i work tomorrow...ugggh. however two bits of good news:
im pretty sure i do have the internship at crossgen. i talked to someone there and we thinkin' its a go :) i will be focusing on manga and it in comparison with american comics...plus going to cons and possibly something ...
out of the bay area?
muhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahaaaaaa
anyways, sami and i also got into Vagina Monologues that USF's Nat'l Org of Women is putting on next Spring. i get to talk about vaginas...heh.
well thats it for now kiddos, cept that tehre's only *3* weeks of school left, if that. only got one presentation and 3 papers left to go. then i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. at least till Jan. ;)
sending a shout out to mah girl Carlye, had a great time Thurs! I miss you!!!
and to alls mah other girls...miyuki, belinda, ilana, sami & deah. :)
as for yous bois, love ya too...lol.
ciao.
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[12 Nov 2002|02:53pm] |
ok so i'm sitting here at school on a comp. i usually never use a comp at school (or in the library...lol) but my second class was cancelled and i have to go to the one after. drat. oh well, i need a breather.
i found out the presentation i have on thurs isn't going to be as hard as i thought. it only has to be 5 minutes, with at least 1 min for questions at the end. that is nothing. I just did a 15 min presentation in my lit class and that wasn't even enough for the 4 authors i was covering. o well.
i saw harry potter on sun!!!!!!!!! it was very good. thank you jp and chris for the sneak preview tix.
i have to take my car in again for repairs, hopefully this week. i also work over a full time week this week so i am more so stressed than usual. however, i started taking vitamins again, 1 women's multivitamin and 2 iron, plus i am thinking of also taking some vitamin C and a calcium/magnesium/zinc pill as well. i'm really trying to be more healthy and eating right because even though i haven't been to the dr. i know i have to be anemic...(5'6 and 105 lbs?? i think so.)...
i'm just bored so excuse me if i ramble, you don't have to read all of this if you don't want to :)
i haven't found out more about the internship at crossgen yet, i need to email my prof. i also still need to go to the damned career library if i am ever going to figure out what i am going to do after graduation. i have to get a job ASAP after that because then i have to take over all of my finances and insurance from my parents. im just afraid i will be like most liberal arts graduates and not find a good job. plus i want to wait at least a year before i go into graduate school because i am so burnt out. i have had one break from school during the summer and it wasn't even a break because i worked.
ok, end ramble....
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[09 Nov 2002|08:19pm] |
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lalala...just thought i'd update.
last week was very stressful...i had so many papers and shit, and its not over....sigh. it will be soon, less than 4 weeks to go...
just came back from port charlotte and i am sooo tired. don't know what i am doing yet tonight, i guess i'll figire it out. everyone else is working or doing something else. hmmmm.
ah well...maybe ill sleep...heh....
zzZzzzZZzzzz
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[05 Nov 2002|05:52pm] |
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arghhhhh i hate homework. why can't i freakin' have one day off with no work, school or homework? anything to do with school should stay at school and not come home. blahhhh...i have till dec 5 and then i'll have a month off, but i will be working. sigh, it never ends...
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[29 Oct 2002|12:09am] |
i wonder, can machines who embody human qualities really love?
if so,
can humans who embody machine-like qualities love too?
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[27 Oct 2002|06:38pm] |
i had a pretty good week, i guess.
monday sami and i had a girl day..it was so much fun. :) we brought my car in, finally...and went shopping a bit and ate at Crispers (yum!)...
tues i got to see carlye-chan (i miss you!) and we played mario party 4....ohhh yeah. :) then we slept in on wed where we both proceeded to work...and do lots of homework...blah.
thurs was a dragging day at school but i finished getting everything for my costume and had a girls night out (yeah you too brad, lol) with brad, sami, allison, valeana and sami's friend jess. it was fun, i love thurs. at the castle.
fri was a hot tiring day because i had to go to usf with ally & val for school stuff. but then i got to sleep where i then did not go to the hocico show...which is ok, seen haujobb twice already, but i wanted to see hocico. oh well, it was 18 bux anyways and xmas is coming (already started shopping). :)
sat. was guavaween which was cool...lots of stupid people and costumes, but some really neat and unique ones. got to chill with gabe, brad, sami, deah, miyuki, doc and others. so even though it was guavaween at ybor, it was still fun. a few pics in costume were taken by doc, and more will be taken on halloween. i'll post some in my photos when i have them.
now im just chillin....gonna clean and relax. finally got a pretty good dvd player, so i think im gonna finish 200 cigarettes...(i love the 80's). plus i have homework to do and im gonna stop by the mall tomorrow to fix my schedule (grr) and i guess so an interview at hot topic. they still want me to work there but i have no idea what my schedule is going to be like with the internship (oh yeah, i got in the program, just don't know where yet) and with 2-3 other classes and a job AND im graduating...blah. we'll see. sam goody's fine, but hot topic would be better.
yawnnnnnnnnnnn i cant believe next week is already halloween...thats 65 days from today until my birthday. which is also new years eve, so 66 days until 2003. damn. and my jan 31 2003 i have to have my graduation application in.
my how time flies.
to you all, i miss you. you know who you are.
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[20 Oct 2002|10:31am] |
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sigh....*yawn* i am sooo tired. i sooo don't wanna go to work. at least i can come home tonight and fall into my bed and rest. i need to go to the dr. and i wanted to go to the movies last night but i was so exhausted...(sorry jp & doc :( )
in better news, my costume is coming along nicely.
work awaits...then zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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[19 Oct 2002|12:00am] |
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hahaha this was the worset and untrue NIN quiz ever, but I had to take it...:)
What Nine Inch Nails song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Anyways, so I had the internship interview Thurs. I was SO nervous. The interview went well and was pretty laid back actually. What was hilarious was one of the first thing's to c ome out of Dr. P's (the interviewer's) mouth was...
Him: "So, would you like an internship at...that...Comic book place over in...I think...Palm Harbor? I'm not sure if I could get it, it's just an idea..."
(I blink...and my mouth forms into a huge smile)
Me: "You mean Crossgen?"
Him: Yeah...that place. I'll see what I can do...just an idea though."
This was so funny since I am friends with several people there and have been there before too. We'll see. I'm not keeping my hopes up because according to Carlye they have been trying to have internships there for the past 2 years, and it was a no go. Oh well...other possible internships could be radio/TV stations, phone companies, art studios and such. We'll see...I'm not entirely sure if I am going to get an internship at all but other than the interview going well and having Dr. P say things like.."You're a rocket scientist...you're in 2 (almost 3) honor societies? You have quite the guts to come up to me in the hallway and inquiring about an internship considering you haven't spoken one word to me before.." Stuff like that. Plus that evening I received an email from him saying:
Great interview today! I don't know why you haven't been on my radar screen all this time, but thanks for popping up. Looking forward to a great collaboration next semester!
I think I have a good chance....I hope so. I'll know in a few days for sure (at least that's what he said).
I'm going to go looking for costumes tomorrow. I have some ideas...*evil grin*
tootles.
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so i haven't updated lately and life has been pretty much stress&stress;&stress; and trying to get a good night's sleep.
stupid fucking people...until the 20th, my complex is having the roof fixed or something and from 8am-5pm all there is is neverending bangingdrummingbangbangpound. so i haven't been able to get much sleep and i feel pretty shitty.
so my stress is, of course...school&work;&finances.;
it's the middle of the semester so of course it's gonna be hell. i don't have midterms (thank god!) but i have tons of readings, journals, and papers. plus i am trying to get into the internship program for the Spring and it's highly competetive. i have an interview thurs...i'm quite doubtful, but at the same time confident. it sucks. plus i haven't been doing as well as i would have liked in my classes (not A's, mind you) so that bothers me and just persistantly makes me try and work harder. work...is well, work. i'm getting enough hours for now, but the holiday season is approaching and if we don't make our numbers, shit could hit the fan. as for financial matters, hopefully that will be worked out soon. x-mas is coming so they betterbe worked out soon.
i had fun last weekend at the castle. i hadn't been there during a weekend in about 2 months. they actually played schiller...i about had a heartattack. i <3 schiller. :) sami wants me to go to guavaween on the float with her...i don't know if i can yet, depends on when i have to go back home (which would prolly be that weekend before halloween) and if i have all my costume stuff by then (which i should...harrrr). we'll see.
on another note...i miss jenn. i have received 2 letters from her so far and she is doing well. i don't know when i am going to get to see her again...maybe x-mas/new years. i hope so...if anyone wants to write to her, this is her address for now:
SR Kirk, Jennifer L.
Div 445 Ship 12
Recruit Training Command
3301 Indiana St.
Great Lakes, IL 60088-3127
i have to go get ready for work....then i have a paper to finish. sigh...tata for now.
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| 80's music, gotta love it... |
[07 Oct 2002|02:54am] |
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im on an 80's music binge (again)... george michael has such a beautiful voice and he speaks so true...
Time can never mend
The careless whispers, of a good friend
To the heart and mind, ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is all you'll find
(Should've known better, yeah)
I feel so unsure
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
As the music dies, something in your eyes
Calls to mind a silver screen
And all its sad good-byes
Chorus:
I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know your not a fool
Should've known better than to cheat a friend
And waste the chance that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you
Time can never mend
The careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is all you'll find
(Repeat chorus)
Never without your love
Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say
We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But now who's gonna dance with me
Please stay
(Repeat chorus)
(Now that you're gone)
Now that you're gone
(Now that you're gone)
Was what I did so wrong, so wrong
That you had to leave me alone
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| yay! *explodes in cuteness* |
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so far this week has been okay...it started off sucky then got a lot better. :)
i worked sunday and it was stressful because one of my assitant managers decided to not come in and lie about it. great. so i had to try and figure out the monthy ad change which sucked. then mon i came in to work even though i wasn't scheduled but i got more hours. yay! however, i had soooo much homework to do that night, but i got it all done. :) then tues class went well except the women's studies prof and sex ed teacher who was supposed to come into my women's health class didn't show up. drat. but then after class i got to go to carlyes! yay! :) i had sooo much fun...we watched Brotherhood of the Wolf (which rocked!) and went to the cute japanese mart called Kotobuki (and I got pocky and koala yummies!) and then today we went to muffin tree which is a korean bakery and i got peach flavored water in a bag...its good, trust me. :) thennnnnn we went to find morning glory which is a store that sells mainly san-x and some sanrio stuff. it was pretty easy to find and it is the cutest store! that have really cheap stickers and all sorts of things you can think of. then i whisked carlye off to work at sanrio, ironically. :)
my IM is being dumb and not working. oh well.
i have some homework to do tonight but tomorrow im finally taking my car in to get repaired, going to class, and picking up carlye from work at 9isg. i think me, her, doc and miyuki and going to chill and take more cute pics. :) i think they want me to do a cat thing now...lol.
then alas....i work all weekend. but the stupid idiot i can be sometimes i forgot it was necro, so i am prolly not going to get to check out the dealers rooms until sunday, but i am going to call darin and see if he is still having his party sat. night. if so, i might go then too. :)
ta ta :)
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hrm, sitting here contemplating when I should finish my homework....
This whole LJ drama is so hilarious. It's one of those things you look back at and laugh your ass off. Sometimes being the devil's advocate really pays off. :)
hmph, still haven't been able to take my car in and get those stupid parts fixed...hopefully tomorrow.
I had a GREAT night hanging out with Carlye, Doc and Brian taking pictures last night. Some of them came out really cool. I am going to post some in yahoo pictures at http://photos.yahoo.com/aki_soyokaze. Tomorrow I get to hang out with Carlye again! Yay! ~smiles~
I worked only two days this week...we are down on hours again. :( We should be getting more the next month and I certainly hope so because I am broke as hell. School is doing good just dragggggging.
Time to get a snack (koala cooking LISA~!!!) and do homework...blahhhh.
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hahaha drama is so fucking funny.
*waits for people to comment in her journal because of this post and her other comments*
lets get ready to rumblllllllllllllllllllle!!!!
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life's a stage and we are all actors...just some aren't very good ones. chose the right character or forever be stuck in a role you can't change. and not all performances have to be dramatic. if they were, wouldn't this life be boring?
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[04 Sep 2002|12:32am] |
Bittersweet ~by Claire Voyant
Lock of time hidden in my breath
Of things real and things I’ve dreamt
Holding hearts in balance it is like
Maybe we were once intertwined
Raising souls up to the moon as we
Rise again,
Maybe then we will meet
Only tides are racing through your mind
Make a wish and then goodbye
Charlatans in the ruse tonight
Where heat and light touch the sky
And the sun is rising slow there’s more to write
Lock of time written in my heart
Why were we once torn apart
Only tides are racing through your mind and each
time we meet it's bittersweet
claire voyant's new album is coming out sept. 24th and they are touring in nov. they are so beautiful and deep.
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| DragonCon update and more... |
[02 Sep 2002|12:51pm] |
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I just came back from Atlanta last night and I am still exhausted...but the weekend was hella fun and definitely worth it. :) Even though *this* upcoming week is going to be hell with work and school, i have a lot of fun things to look back on. Here we go...
We, as in Chris G, Carlye, Gabe and I, left Fri morning at 1am. We stopped by Carlye's mom's first and then drove all night. We got there earlier than expected (around 8am) so we putzed around Atlanta, got slightly lost and were a little cranky from being tired, but we finally found parking and checked out the hotel and the con. Carlye's friend Tom with the hotel room arrived around noon and we couldn't check in until 3, so we wandered around. We decided to register, which was good...because some sweet lady sold me her daughters pass who couldn't go for 35 bux! Then Chris got in for 25$ because he is an artist and got a guest in for free too, which Gabe took. Then when Tom finally registered, he got in the same as Chris and got Carlye in for free. :) After eating, checking the programming schedule and seeing some Port Charlotte people (Dave, Bob and Rich) we headed to the room and changed.
Fri night was fun...we mostly just checked out the people in costumes, took pictures, chatted with people and saw the sights. I saw some of the Changlings concert which was awesome. I also saw Eric there which was cool---full costume and white hair included. :) We went to sleep pretty early because we were all sooo tired and then Sat. was even more fun. We went to the Jhnen Vasquez panel (the O is not in his name because of a joke) and he was sooo cute and funny! Gabe went and got a poster signed by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman (wrote the Dragonlance series) and then we wandered and went to the Dawn look a like contest. Some of the girls were so stripper skanky, but the ones who won were really pretty. Then later on, I was sooo excited in seeing Claire Voyant and they cancelled! :( Apparently their booker booked them without their knowledge, so of course they didn't show.. :( Oh well...I had a great time just absorbing the con and hanging out with friends. Carlye and I agreed that we will be on so many web sites and stuff because every step we took more people were like "can i take your picture?" including some nasty jock guys who licked up carlye's ear and was trying to put the mack on me. The last things we did on Sunday was hang out in the dealers rooms (I got some many nice pieces of art!) and this really talented woman named Holly drew some great anime pics of me and Carlye. The Carlye modeled for Joseph Michael Linsner (creator of Dawn and the biggest sweetheart!) and we drove back. We got soooo many pics and i know they will be posted as soon as Carlye loads them up and Gabe and I develop ours and scan them.
So now it's time to eat and rest today...although I have a million things to do before tomorrow besides homework. Carlye and I also signed up to work an anime booths at other cons...so that will be cool if we get to do that. I missed everyone and I am glad people had fun at the castle anniv. party! I missed it again this year, but DragonCon rocked. Now I can't wait for next year. :)
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i hate being female sometimes. i got tapped by the female blood fairy last night and ever since then i have had hardly any sleep, cramps that hurt so bad i can hardly walk, and to top it off i had a bad heartburn attack last night and i had to call into work. there's 8 hours i won't have now because i'm female. at least it gives me more time to pack and prepare for dragoncon. i also have more errands to run and homework to do, but a carlye to pick up soon will be good. :)
ok kiddies byeee *dies of pain*
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