know my gates are high
my friends even higher
forgotten in my mind
yet the scars still lingering
cloud the blue skies
i'm jealous of you birds
was the only truth
in a world full of words
It makes me sad, to see all these people who know each other and trust each other and love each other, to remember that I have never had anything like this. I have become too introverted and cautious for my own good... I don't know if I could be able to be that close to people. Secretly.. secretly.. secretly do wish that I could. I don't remember how. It would scare me.
... I could use a cuddlegroup right now.
Can someone show me how to be like that?
mood: trapped music: Faith & the Muse - Fade and Remain
1. Grab the nearest book. 2. Open the book to page 123. 3. Find the fifth full sentence. 4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions. 5. Don't search around for the coolest book you can find. Do what's actually nearest to you (we already know you, no use trying to be pretentious).
Well, there are two books in grabbing distance. Consensual Sadomasochism and Wizard's First Rule. So I'll do both.
If you meet someone you want to know better personally, romantically, and/or erotically while you're in your own vanilla world-- at work, at school, at the Single Parents' PTA Picnic-- consider how important SM, DS or your particular fetish is to you.
aaaaaaaand...
Richard hungered for the fight.
anyway. I'm thinking about making a pony and eventually, a Pullip post filter. I know most of you aren't interested... so please comment if you DO want to be on said filters. Then you others will never have to see me talking ponies ever again! mwaha.
No better way to end a meal than with a big honkin' mug of SD-tea.
dude. wtf @ all the drama on the pony boards?! I leave for three days and all hell breaks loose! In the back of my head, I figured something like that would happen... which is why I haven't bothered to start checking boards until about an hour ago.
Upgrading the cuddle donations to cuddles-and-maybe-sex donations. Because my vagina is being a miserable bitch.
mood: eek, hormones! music: Catch 22 - It Takes Some Time
Well, that was an interesting dream! According to my subconscious, Gus is actually a shapeshifter who would like to kill me. When I woke up, he was looking through the bars at me, so I asked him. He had a poker face. I don't know if I should be worried about that. XD
PS: Everyone needs to know... Allison is seriously, one of the greatest people I have met in my life. <333 Now, everyone on their knees, grovel at her feet, and say "Yes, Mistress Allison of teh Sex. Anything you say, Mistress Allison of teh Sex."
Seriously, people need to stop (in)breeding animals for certain traits... Dachshunds are prone to slipped disks in their spine, pugs and Persians get respiratory infections... and then there's just plain monstrosities like that creature... it makes you wonder, how the hell did these things ever start out as wolves?
I'm worried. I commisioned a set of wings for this weekend, because I'm playing an "evil" faery for the charity slave auction. They're not here yet. I have back-up wings-- the ones that look like fly wings-- but they really don't suit the character. I asked the chick to send them priority, and I paid her on Sunday morning. With my luck, they won't get here until next week, and then what the heck am I going to do with a set of wings with nothing to wear them to? graraghragh.
Frankie's water bottles are just all bad luck. His first one got jammed, and I didn't notice it for a few days. Got him a new one. It worked.. too well. The water leaked out completely. I rigged up his old one at an angle so that it actually works... and I'm hoping that it stays like that for the weekend. I'd be sad if I came home to find a dry husk of a hamster. :( I'll test it a final time before I leave.
Sometimes the black-and-white art in manga annoys me. I just read the first part of Cross, which I picked up a while ago, and I had a lot of "wtf?!" moments trying to figure out what exactly happened between frame x and frame x+1. But then eventually it makes sense, but still... rar.
Showertime... and if it's not nasty cold outside, perhaps diner. I get all my reading done there. Kinda sad.
music: still http://www.chocolatedeities.com/deities.php
I blame this on Kat! *points at music* It's too catchy and that is frightening.
Recently received a custom Daddy Milky Way in the mail from GroovyGusty. Now I'm waiting on my custom Brazil from Wildfirechiefsgirl, and I think at some point I'll eventually commission someone to make me a baby in the unicorn pose.
In the process of selling Mimic because I need money. I wish I had the time to put her on ebay so that I could hope for a newbie bidding war, but money is needed now. Current offer is 65$... anyone wanna push it up? :> I might be persuaded to sell a few more. Tic-Tac-Toe.. maybe Stargleamer, if I can find a replacement for her. She's mint, but gimpy. I have a few extra European G2s.. and two customs by Etoilebleue that can find new homes. Might get rid of some of my G3s that are kinda boring... like Tink and Razzaroo. Could sell the Mood Dragons..... they should pull in some nice cash, they were originally 24$ each, and that was about 5 years ago. *goes onto ebay* ugh. Only about 15$ for OOB.
... as you can see, I have absolutely nothing to say.
At work yesterday, a little old Jewish man came in. He's been in before, and he's always so... I dunno. He's just awesome. He cheered me up a lot. :D
Dan, down at Nirvana, whom I've been acquainted with for the past few weeks, has offered me a job while his boss is off in India for three weeks sometime in the spring. 40+ hours, paid under the table, but hey. It's fine with me. Just need to talk to Carl and figure out how I'll schedule both jobs.. mm.
Got Meg's hours for today 'cause she totalled her car in an incident with a deer.
There's a kid's book in the store called My First Book of Cutting. And no, it's not about slitting wrists. It's a how-to-cut-with-scissors tutorial thing.
Currently eating a ham quiche. The problem? There's only less than a handful of little ham bits in it.
Fixed Frankie's water bottle. Well, got him a whole new one. Then had to fix it again. Something with angles and junk keeps it from releasing water. I set it up on the vertical-bar side of the cage, so it's hanging really low, and he has to crouch down to get to the water-hole, but at least he's hydrated again. I feel like such a bad hammie mommy. :(
I was in AW yesterday early-morning, and as usual, people thought I was an old woman since I've been in there since 98 or so. Posted my princess pic (from when Allison and I went crazy in Walmart) that I have hosted on my Arena acct. Strike Rapier found it necessary to see if he could get into the containing folder, and did so.
People at the Ghetto know what I have stored in my Arena acct *eg* ... and then Asshole decides to post a link to one of those images publicly. Fucking rude. I wouldn't have been up in arms about it, except for the posting of the link in the chat. I PMed Chief and asked him to upload an index.html into my folder (apparently the site won't let us regular users upload .html files) so that the problem does not happen again.
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