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Subject:	put your hand in the air..
Posted by:	wishful.
Time:	11:58 pm.
Mood:	whimpery.
Music:	engine starting.

everybody say aye if you're lonely. aye! i can't hear you! aye, aye!

aye, aye, aye. *mumble*

[i shouldn't let it get to me.. but it does somehow. i try very hard to push it all away. things happen. i start thinking. i talk again. i interact. nooo..]

and hey, for all of those who aren't lonely.. i'm glad for you. i really am. you oughta tell us about it. :)

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Posted by:	make_a_name.
Time:	2:10 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	Pink Floyd - Hey You.

Hey everyone, just joined. Well, some stuff about me. I have a girlfriend Natalie, who I love very much. Last night, we spent over an hour, laying in her back yard on a pick-nick(sp?) table, watching the sun go down, and the stars come out one by one. But I guess my reason for joining this community is just for those times, where I just have to vent some steam. You know? Well, that's all for now. Peace all!

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Posted by:	kazul3039.
Time:	1:04 pm.
Mood:	morose.

So.. haven't seen the boy for a month today. And I was supposed to see him today, til everyone decided it'd be cool to break plans with me. See, we were gonna meet at the Renaissance Faire in NY.. it's the last day. I'm a sucker for going to the faire, and I'm a sucker to see Joe. I asked a few of my friends if they wanted to go.. "Yeah, sure!" was the first answer. Then.. "Nevermind, I don't want to drive" or "I just remembered I have work" or "It'll be a waste of time." I even went so far as to ask my [nice]aunt.. but she was all anti because of the weather (please note, that it hasn't rained since yesterday...). I even granted her permission to hug him (she's 54 and flirts like she's 16). No go.

Maybe it's totally selfish of me to want to see the person I care for most. Maybe it's totally selfish of me to want to see my best friend. Maybe I'm tired of being lonely and by myself and the only communication with him be through IMs and short telephone conversations.

Once upon a time, I used to think we were destined to be together (ignore the cheesy romantic stuff, please). But incidents like this make me wonder if maybe we're destined to be apart. -.-

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Posted by:	enigmaholding.
Time:	5:21 pm.
Mood:	enthralled.
Music:	Lifehouse - Everything (yes, over and over...).

I've been meaning to post this...

My hmm was 'upgraded' to a non-girlfriend. Though... she's only a non-girlfriend 'cause I'm a non-bi. 'Cause she is bi, and I am her girlfriend. Go figure on that. I'm going to include some lyrics that I adore... anyone who has me on their friend's list has already seen them.

( Clicky clicky for lyrics )

Yeah... I love her to death. It's like... oi. I love her so. Ich liebe mein schönes Mädchen. Only bad thing about that... I can't remember if that's how Keira says it. I don't remember if that's the word she uses for beautiful... ah well. My dad's trying to figure out what that means... feh on him. I'm in love with the most wonderful person on this planet. Yes... I am.

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Posted by:	fallacies.
Time:	2:03 pm.
Mood:	pessimistic.

Can you ask someone out after they've asked you out and you told them they're just a friend to you and always will be? Is that allowed?

And if you're doing it not because you feel anything special twoards them but just because your lonely and they're available, that's horrible isn't it?

allright, i think i just answered my own questions.

I'm a dumb person.

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Posted by:	fallacies.
Time:	12:27 am.
Mood:	lonely.

I'm good with friendship, to have just that much is amazing despite what i wanted to have. And I think my constantly itching brain has finally settled, the rash is vanishing although it will never fully go away. They never fully go away, jay, brian, joe, they're always there in a background like static noise. but I can live.

But now I feel even more lost.

I'd rather have someone unattainable then have no one, because after awhile (not too long really) the fear that there may not be another one begins to settle in. I see my life becoming very stagnant as long as I'm still commuting to college with no new people entering it, and its very frightening. i'm starved even just for friends. The chances of finding a relationship are so... so slim.

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Subject:	i'm alone, that's okay, i don't mind, most of the time, i don't feel afraid to die
Posted by:	wishful.
Time:	10:14 pm.
Mood:	bad.
Music:	elliott smith: in the lost and found.

this is an excerpt from my journal, so.. if you read my journal, just skip over this.

i wish i knew more people, had more friends, let more people in.
i wish i had my license. i wish i had a real job, with steady money. and my car. and an apartment, to share. and i wish i were 18.
i wish i could let myself do what i want to do.
i wish i were more unusual, but i don't know how to be. i only know how to be myself. i guess i should feel satisfied with that, considering it's lucky.
i wish i could be more like someone he'd want.. but then i'd have to change, and again, i ought to be satisfied with who i am. ought to be. pressure me to know that. it doesn't stick.
i wish i were more intellectual. sometimes i just feel so damn stupid, and wrong, and uneducated. i'm learning, though. finally.

i guess it's really only about boys, in the end. i came so close. now i have to wrong myself for everything imperfect. [i promise, there's plenty i'm not listing. i don't want to depress myself too much.]

i don't need a guy to make me happy. i just wish i believed it. [if anyone wants to be prince charming and rescue me from my melodramatic misery, be my guest. haha.]

i'm reminding myself, sadly, of.. myself. and of a recent conversation. whenever i feel myself getting involved with someone, i begin worrying instantly that it won't work out, so i quickly switch gears and begin privately hunting for a replacement. i've just hopped, unintentionally, from crush to crush. i hate it. i know it's my own fault.. and i need to seriously examine what's giving me the feeling that i have to constantly have something to hold on to, or something to have an interest in. i'm not bored, i know that's not it. i just feel i need to protect myself, 'cos it's invariably going to end up in rejection. and now, i'll say it: i'm gonna run out. soon i won't have a foothold, i'll have to fall where i am.

there's still sangria. seriously, somebody please keep me from drinking it all.

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Subject:	I Hate First Impressions
Posted by:	fallacies.
Time:	4:35 pm.
Mood:	groggy.

Allright, so hi everyone. I'm 18, male, single. I've never been in a relationship... I have a long drawn out weird history of liking guys that don't like guys. Maybe i'll expand upon it later. I tend to dwell for months on one guy without ever getting the backbone to even investigate the issue. i don't really meet any gay people because i can't stand to hang around with effeminate folks or flamers, and without them its hard to get an "in" to the crowd to find some more "normal" people to consider. Sorry, I just don't know how else to say it.

One of my current crushes, a loose friend of mine, actually has a girlfriend and I *still* worry my sorry little mind over it. But he gives me good reason to wonder. It's just since he has a girlfriend i really shouldn't bother wondering but i can't help myself. I'm sure its nothing and yet i won't let it go.

I guess crushes are like that. Anyone know good ways to stop them? I'm guessing there really isn't one.

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Subject:	girl talk. >_<
Posted by:	jadeddamsel.
Time:	11:09 pm.
Music:	Depeche Mode - Shine.

My mom and her friend at work have been talking the past few weeks to each other about me and my mom's friend's son. His name is Brandon, and he's 17. Brandon and I talked for the first time on the phone today.. and we seem to have a lot in common and everything. Tonight, me, him, and his friend went out.. just driving around.

I really like him.. but I'm not so sure he's as interested in me.. though, it could just be because he's really shy.. and because his friend was with us. The first time I met him (I stopped by Chick-Fil-A where we works) he smiled this gorgeous smile and winked and said how nice it was to meet me. He gave me a hug and all tonight. awhr. ;)

So.. maybe something might come out of it. Basically, neither one of us are looking for a relationship.. but.. you never know.

If you read the past few entries in my journal, it'll explain more about him and everything. ^_^

But gosh.. I just have to gab a little about how good he looked tonight. I don't really want to do it in my journal, since my ex-boyfriend reads, and I don't think that would be such a good idea. Anyhow..

He just looked so good tonight. *blush* He had on a tight navy blue shirt that showed off his muscles.. *melts* and jeans that were actually on his waist. They weren't tight.. but they weren't down to his knees.. so that's good. He also had these nifty boots on that were brown an' shiney. I like them. heh. His hair is all clean cut and he just has this very sweet smile and the most gorgeous blue eyes.. and a pretty good tan (though that's not something that I have to have; I'm extremely pale myself).

I just hope I'm the type he likes.. I don't know what other kind of girls he's dated.. I'm guessing preppy girls that typically would go to his school.. but.. maybe, just maybe, he liked me.

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Posted by:	alyssapage.
Time:	3:24 am.
Mood:	creative.

I just joined. I came across this community through Alex's community.
I'm currently 20 but I will be 21 September 22nd. I can't wait. hehehe.. It is a month away. I'm getting to old. No not really.
I'm married to a wonderful guy names Lance. He is 23. He will be 24 October 20th. We went through a rough couples of months because of his ex-girlfriends pretending to still be sleeping with him and such. But now things are GREAT with us. We just made 4 months August 19th. So, that means we were married April 19, 2002.
Okay I guess that is what you wanted to know. If you want to know more just ask. I'm a very open person. I have nothing to hide. Well, actually I hide most of my journal from non-friends. So, if you want to add me go ahead but don't forget to comment somewhere to let me know you added me.

much love.. Tess

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